I BREATHE

I awaken in the darkCold and clammyShook up from a dreamI can’t remember

I can’t shake the feelingThe fearThe sense of foreboding

I lay there in the darknessWonderingWhat shook me so?

I lay there waitingI tossI turnI’m hotI’m cold

At 4:30 am I get upMake coffeePour Over

I turn on the electric kettleI heat my cup and brewer under hot running waterThe sound, like soft falling rain to my broken ears, awakens my senses

I take my brown paper filter from the cupboardPlace it in the ceramic … brewerAdd coffee

Slowly I pour the hot water into the groundsLetting the water spill out slowly from center in an ever expanding outward spiral

I watchAs the water seeps downEver so slowlyI think of the nearby canyonsCreated by water seeping into the cracks between rocks

Ever so slowly

My mind calmsMy breathing slows I watch I breathe

I’m safe

I add creamThe coffee slides downMy throatThe warmth soothing I breatheI sip

I breathe