Day 3 The Story of My Authenticity On this third day of strengthening your Authenticity Circuit, continue to play in your mind your expectation — I expect myself to connect to the deepest part of myself and, if I am not at One, spiral up and experience Authenticity — or whatever expectation you are using to make Authenticity more abundant and automatic. To be fully aware of our Authenticity takes clearing some clutter. Take a few minutes to write the history of your Authenticity: ■ Did you experience Authenticity? ■ Was there a time when you had Authenticity but then lost it? ■ If there was, did you get it back, and how did it return? As you tell the story, grieve your loss, doing at least one spiral up. When I was a little girl, I was authentic. My thinking brain had not started judging myself or limiting myself yet. I knew I could not be authentic in the 4th grade when I moved to a new school and had no friends. When I was in 7th grade, I realized that my breasts were too big, and I started hunching over and didn’t feel safe. My father distanced me from me, and then I started getting the love I needed from my peers. I was really lonely, and my shame led me to attract a group of bad kids, and it wasn’t until my 20s that I regained my Authenticity, with a really loving relationship with a man,
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