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“All these magic moments I’ve forgotten.”

- Jeff Rosenstock, We Begged 2 Explode

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THE SELLADORE "I was astonished when someone first showed that by writing cellar door as Selladore one produces an enchanting proper name.” - C.S. Lewis “Your language too has soft and beautiful words, but they are not always appreciated. What could be more musical than your word cellar-door?” - W.D. Howells “The modern small home or apartment has ... deprived today's child of ... the pleasant summer afternoon activity of sliding down cellar doors. Just what happened to the slanted cellar door in this efficient age isn't clear; although cellars have remained, nothing has disappeared more quietly from modern life than these cellar doors.” - William Chapman White “This famous linguist once said that of all the phrases in the English language, of all the endless combinations of words in all of history, that ‘cellar door’ is the most beautiful.” - Karen Pomeroy “Sell a cellar, door a cellar, sell a cellar cellar-door, door adore, adore a door, selling cellar, door a cellar, cellar cellar-door. There is damned little meaning and less sense in such a sentence, but there is, unless my tonal balance is askew, twice more rhythm and twice more lovely sound in it than in anything, equally idiotic, that Miss Gertrude ever confected.” - George Jean Nathan “I’m like you ...I remember everything.” - André Aciman “No. It’s not a name. It’s something else. Selladore, it’s not a princess’ name, it can’t be. Selladore… is a place… It is a place which is revered by all who know of it. A sacred place marked at its centre by… by trees.”

- David Gleeson and Stephen Beresford “I am my own muse. I am the subject I know best, the subject I want to know better.” - Frida Kahlo “The art of art, the glory of expression, and the sunshine of the light of letters, is simplicity.” - Walt Whitman

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INTRODUCTION Within these pages are entire worlds, constellations of meaning and purpose brought to bear upon us by the students of Elmwood. There is a startling array of techniques and styles fraught with humour, passion and intent. Though each piece says something different, they are similar in that they all say something meaningful and forceful. We started this journal for this expressed purpose: to give the students of this school an opportunity to regain control over language and to exert agency where there might exist passivity. These authors have tamed language to meet their emotional ends and, in so doing, give you, the reader, an understanding that such things are possible, no matter your age or experience. We ask simply that you read these words with an open mind, an open heart, and with the understanding that, should you choose to express yourself as well, the next issue will be waiting for you.

Sincerely, Your Editors

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CONTENTS Introduction ............................................... 06

Get Out Of My Head! ................................ 25 Ceili Halloran

Tracklist ...................................................... 08 Ace of Spades ............................................. 10 Elizabeth Chen-Baker

sleeping in class ........................................ 26 Queenie Yau

Shattered ...................................................... 11 May Wang

Dried Roses ................................................ 27 Rowan Parkinson, Eliza Riegel & Lily Sun

Looking Back at Her.................................. 12 Rowyn Pratte

Key .............................................................. 28 Maya Yemm

reflections .................................................... 13 Aurae Rogers

within .......................................................... 29 Lorrie Whiten

Whisper ........................................................ 14 Mehak Sandhu

Kaleidoscope ............................................. 30 Eliza Riegel

Clair de Lune ............................................... 15 Claire Hang

Figures of Light ......................................... 31 Victoria Barliszen

Thick Water ................................................. 16 Khaliya Thawer

passing ........................................................ 32 Lorrie Whiten

The Ending of Us ........................................ 17 Sloane Bradley

to be in spite .............................................. 33 Izzie Morgan

Multimedia Video ...................................... 18 Queenie Yau

my trip to the zoo ..................................... 34 Queenie Yau

Raven ............................................................ 19 Tamsen Taylor

Highlands .................................................. 35 Chloe Bazilev

Binary .......................................................... 20 Sarah Di Silvestro

EDITORIALS

Fact vs Fiction ............................................ 21 Ceili Halloran

Muse ............................................................ 38 Maddie Petit

Serenity ....................................................... 22 Chloe Danks

antenna ....................................................... 39 Maddie Petit

thinking through air ................................. 23 Madelaine Delaney

Self-Portrait .............................................. 40 Rowan Parkinson

Social Cues .................................................. 24 Elizabeth Chen-Baker

Kin ................................................................ 41 Rowan Parkinson

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TRACKLIST Phone Call . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Jon Brion .

Rain Song . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Han Ye-ri .

Baby Birch . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Joanna Newsom .

Good Morning, Al . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Ally Evenson .

The Lonesome Border, Pt. 1 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Dear Nora .

Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You . . . . . . . . Big Thief .

Feathers . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Florist .

First Day of My Life . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Bright Eyes .

Sharp Cutting Wings (Song to a Poet) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Lucinda Williams .

Things Behind The Sun . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Nick Drake .

Dagger . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Slowdive .

Hold On Magnolia . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Songs: Ohia .

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Radio Cure . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Wilco .

Perfect . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . MJ Lenderman .

You Know More Than I Know . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . John Cale .

Cactus Tree . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Joni Mitchell . not a lot, just forever. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Adrianne Lenker .

It’s Infinite . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Lomelda .

Two Ways . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Florist .

Landslide . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Fleetwood Mac .

Heaven - Live . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Talking Heads .

The Moon . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . The Microphones .

All Things Must Pass. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . George Harrison .

Watching Him Fade Away . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Mac Demarco .

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Ace of Spades, Elizabeth Chen-Baker 10

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Shattered, May Wang

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Looking Back At Her, Rowyn Pratte

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reflection Aurae Rogers

the room i am in is made of mirrors so it doesn’t matter where i look i have to face the consequences of my actions my reflection haunts me through the floor and the only place where i don’t see my own face is the inside of my eyelids there aren’t any doors in this place it’s all just reflective glass and it doesn’t matter how far or fast i run i can’t outrun myself and the wide eyes that look back at me when i try and stare into the past it’s an eerie kind of calmness that gazes back at me because for all of my screaming and crying the reflection is always a calm smiling monster

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Whisper, Mehak Sandhu

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Clair de Lune, Claire Hang | Click to play

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Thick Water, Khaliya Thawer

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The Ending of Us Sloane Bradley

What mind said, “we have two deaths”?

One for our bodies, to dissolve into flowers.

For the slow crumble of our fingertips that seek out memories, of clay seals and scraping chalk, of hot pain and teeth on crystal glass.

What mind spoke of the second death?

The one for our souls, to fade into air.

For the imprint of us to chip out of people’s wandering minds, for the memories of familiar winds to echo into tumultuous feelings.

For the Ending of us.

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Raven, Tamsen Taylor

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Binary, Sarah Di Silvestro

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Fact vs Fiction, Ceili Halloran

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Serenity Chloe Danks

In the middle of the wilderness A lake comes into view The shimmering and sloshing of the water draws you in Like a moth to a flame You rush towards it Diving into the dark blue water You only hear the peaceful hum of the lake The noise draws you in Its heaviness comforting As you sink toward the bottom

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thinking through air, Madelaine Delaney

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Social Cues, Elizabeth Chen-Baker 24

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Get Out Of My Head!, Ceili Halloran | Click to play 25

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sleeping in class, Queenie Yau

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Dried Roses, Rowan Parkinson, Eliza Riegel & Lily Sun | Click to play

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Key, Maya Yemm

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Kaleidoscope Eliza Riegel

The mirror on your face Is blind-sighted of what’s not Calibrated by the days Shattered pieces in a box Spinning out of my head I will take all of the heat Even if I will never sleep Spinning out of control Wash my mouth out with your soap Killing the kaleidoscope.

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Figures of Light, Victoria Barliszen

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to be in spite Izzie Morgan Happiness is wrong Because the world is breaking so why should you be happy?

Why should you be happy to see a girl laugh with her mother When girls and mothers all over the world are dying alone.

Why should I laugh at my fathers antics When other fathers berate their sons?

Why should I sing to my favourite song when there are those without voices?

Or dance my favourite dance when others are unable to stand?

Well here’s my answer: we do these things in Spite.

We smile because the bad is so real that it pulls at our lips.

We laugh because we wish to scream.

We sing because our voices fade.

We dance because our legs will give out.

We live and breathe in spite of death So there is no point in giving in.

The world is breaking so we let ourselves be happy.

Happiness is right.

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Highlands, Chloe Bazilev

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Once you start to look, you cannot help but see.

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Muse, Maddie Petit

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antenna, Maddie Petit

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Self-Portrait, Rowan Parkinson

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Kin Rowan Parkinson

Sitting around a table: Two skeletons wearing our faces I look you in the eyes, The same as mine Imagining I could see the outline of your heart Remembering every time you’ve cried (for me) Days unhook, time unravels The speakers play soft lullabies out of order The possibility of change too distant to touch You reach for my hand and I don’t pull away Everything fades and we will too Thank you anyway

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ARTISTS Elizabeth Chen-Baker May Wang Rowyn Pratte Aurae Rogers Mehak Sandhu Claire Hang Khaliya Thawer Sloane Bradley Queenie Yau Tamsen Taylor Sarah Di Silvestro Ceili Halloran Chloe Danks Madelaine Delaney Eliza Riegel Lily Sun Maya Yemm Lorrie Whiten Victoria Barliszen Izzie Morgan Chloe Bazilev EDITORS Rowan Parkinson Maddie Petit FOUNDERS Megan Sweeney Safa Siddiqui PAST EDITORS Sophia Swettenham Madeleine Klebanoff O’Brien Linnea Dalvi Zaina Khan Abigail Butler Hannah Gerring Bianca Sugunasiri Stella-Charles Fisher