The Last Memories Of His Love | Evan Wingard ’24

Eunsoo Kim ’22

The Last Memories Of His Love

Evan Wingard ’24

The words he last said lay still in my mind Drowning words that slowly crept around Taking over my thoughts by the second Maybe this time I wouldn’t give in This time I would let those words go

This wasn’t the first time the words he spoke took over This wasn’t the first time I looked over at the water below the bridge This wasn’t the first time I planned on jumping This wasn’t the first time his words were a tether that kept me afloat This wasn’t the first time knowing that I was about to lose it all

As I step onto the railing, I remember him Not just him, but the ways he loved me Ways that not even I could love someone He showed me this world and what it meant to live If I stayed here any longer, I’d be trapped in remembering him

As I stand, the breeze brings a chill down my spine He used to say that the breeze was people’s dreams Dreams that were on their way to become true Our dreams went on that light spring night air But maybe, as this breeze comes, I realize they won’t come true

As I look over the edge, the smell of water rushes through my nose Throughout my life, water was always my enemy wherever I was When I first saw him, the waves were extra rugged They attacked me and left me on the shore barely breathing I wish I never went into the water, if I knew i would meet him

As I take this final breath, his voice returns to me He told me that this world wouldn’t mean anything without me I never knew how to respond when he said those words to me Every night I thought about those words like a haunting dream But I knew his world would be better without me

I don’t think; I just let my body fall It’s almost as if the world decided not to catch me I finally feel free for once as I’m falling It was always supposed to end this way But as I open my eyes one last time, I see him looking over the edge