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S o ut h w in d s F a l l 1980

E d it o r :

Number 9

C y n th ia C allahan

A s s is ta n t E d it o r :

C a ro ly n Hammond

The e d it o r s w ould l i k e t o thank Dean Wayne C. C o g e ll f o r h is generous support and a c t i v e i n t e r e s t i n th e fu tu re o f t h is p u b lic a t io n and C h a n c e llo r M a r c h e llo f o r coining through f o r Southwinds when we r e a l l y needed i t . Bob B la y lo c k , as a lw a y s, gave us much t e c h n ic a l a s s is ta n c e w ith o u t once s n e e r in g a t our ig n o ra n c e and P r o fe s s o r Eugene Warren managed t o be a t e r r i f i c a d v is o r by s a y in g p r a c t i c a l l y n o th in g but a sk in g a l l th e r ig h t q u e s tio n s when he d id .

C over D es ig n :

S c o tt Coleman

SOUTHWINDS i s p u b lis h ed by th e G re a te r Rolla-UMR M e tr o p o lita n L it e r a r y S o c ie t y ( f o r th e l a s t tim e t h is y e a r ) and i s not an o f f i c i a l p u b lic a t io n o f th e U n iv e r s ity o f M is s o u r i- R o lla . SOUTHWINDS w i l l co n tin u e t o be p u b lis h ed by a new o r g a n iz a t io n which i n t e r e s t e d stu d en ts are i n v i t e d t o j o i n in th e F a l l o f 1980.

c o p y r ig h t Sou thw inds, 1980


S e a s o n a l B lessing May God b l e s s you w it h p o p s i c i c l e summers, m u ltic o lo r e d l o l l i p o p s u n s e ts , m arshm allow s k ie s c r y in g s w e e t , s u b t l e r a in d r o p s t o t i n g l e y o u r ta s te b u d s ; O r a n g e - p e e l autum ns, w in e and c h e e s e f i r e s i d e s , In d ia n b la n k e t s m ile s c o z i l y k e e p in g you fro m th e c o i l i n g w in d ; M a g ic a l i c e cream w i n t e r s , to p p e d w it h h o t c o c o a d e l i g h t s , h on eyed h o t to d d y e v e n in g s b e s p e c k le d w it h bon bon s u r p r is e s t o warm you fro m t h e i c y c o l d ; C o o l s p e a r m in t s p r in g t im e s , e lo q u e n t m orn in g g l o r y w a k in g s , g o ld e n d a n d e lio n la u g h t e r s o u n d in g , r e s o u n d in g , a bou n d in g i n a g r e e n , g r a s s y w o r ld . JaequeJUne. Somme*.


H e a o e o ’s A g o n y E a R tb ’s BiR tb A thousand t e a r s . On my window p a n e, F e l l from th e s k ie s , In t h e form o f r a in . T h e ir homeland, b la c k , and huge d r i f t s b y, m oaning and ru m b lin g , i t sh a res t h e i r c r y . My r o o f a d e s t i n a t i o n , a s h e l t e r f o r th e b i r d s , a pathway f o r th e r a in d r o p s , w hich sk ip and f a l l t o e a r th . T h e ir m usic, l i k e a tabby s t a lk s th e w in d -to r n eaves, p i t t e r i n g and p a t t e r i n g , I t f a l l s on g ra s s and le a v e s . Rimmed in t e a r s th e s e e d lin g s grow , s m a ll e lv e s , e m e ra ld from head t o t o e . The lig h t n in g a d ra gon , claw s th e s k i e s , s p ittin g f i r e , and h e a v in g s ig h s . The hours p a s s , and w ith them goes the t e a r s t h a t made new l i f e t o flo w . The T ig e r sun s t r i k e s th e r o a r in g d ra g o n , and a l l i s s t i l l . The The And th e

and k i l l s

wind w i l l c e a s e , ra in w i l l d i e . God w i l l r e p a i r anguished sk y. Jay Vze. [Shout)

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O u t tin e W io d o c o A DROP. ANOTHER!

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RAIN, RAIN, RAIN-----A STEADY DRUMBEAT AGAINST THE PAVEMENT, SOOTHING AND MASSAGING THE EARTH. CLEANSING AND WASHING: RENEWING THE DRIED GROUND. COOL, REFRESHING RAIN----SOFTLY BEATING......................QUIETLY FALLING. FOREVER CHANGING THE EARTH, BUT WITH NO MORE THAN A WHISPER. THEN, ALMOST UNNOTICEABLY, THE WHISPERS DIE AWAY, LEAVING MOIST, FRAGRANT SO IL, SPARKLING BLADES OF GRASS , SOFT, REFLECTING POOLS..................... AND, FOR SOME, A SHARP,

REFRESHED FRAME OF MINE,

................. AND A NEWFOUND PEACE. Len StAuttman


A tR o p h y D r iftin g , flo a t in g , F e a th e rs from a b u r s t in g p i l l o w . W h ite fla k e s b la n k e t th e h a r d , fr o z e n ground. H ea p in g, p i l i n g , L a ye rs o f la c e on a b r i d a l gown. W hite fla k e s q u i e t l y v e i l t h e w in t e r h i l l s . S l ip p in g , s l i d i n g , F r o s t in g on a warm ca k e, W h ite f la k e s pack i n t o a s l e d d e r 's g la z e d arena. M ir in g , s lo s h in g , An o b s t a c le co u rse throu gh q u ic k sa n d . W h ite fla k e s become a quagm ire o f u g ly re d ru ts on th e co u n try roa d . kuth Ann PankeA.

Roll a W e a t h e R I t ' s Sunday in R o lla . Brown and y e l l o w le a v e s caught in a g u s t o f c h i l l y w ind are s w is h in g around me l i k e b ir d s in a m atin g dance. As I s i t on my p a t i o I t e l l m y s e lf, tod a y I ' l l put away my s a n d le s , c u t o ff s and te n n is s h i r t s , and b r in g ou t my D in g o 's , L e v i 's and s w e a te r s . Today I ' l l c lo s e w indow s, g a th e r fir e w o o d , and g e t ou t the o ld p ig s k in to o . But I know tom orrow I '11 g e t ou t my sa n d le s and c u t o f f s a g a in . Then I ' l l open w indow s, put ou t my f i r e , and grab my t e n n is r a c k e t. 'C ause t h is i s R o lla w e a th e r, i t changes l i k e days in a y e a r each day d i f f e r e n t . Lcwa) MaxwzLL


T im e i t ' s n o t t o o im p o r ta n t t h a t i t rhyme b u t n o th in g g o es l i k e t im e , b u t t im e , tim e f l i e s when y o u 'r e a s l e e p , la te , m aking a lo n g d is t a n c e phone c a l l t a k in g a t e s t , o r t a l k i n g t o h e r i n th e l i b r a r y b e f o r e c la s s . n o t h in g goes as s le w as tim e when y o u 'r e w a i t i n g i n a ch eck ou t l i n e tim e c re e p s when you c a n 't go t o s l e e p when y o u 'r e i n ch u rch , w h ile w a tc h in g a c o m m e rc ia l, o r i n c la s s on a warm F r id a y . r e a l l y tim e i s okay i t i s ju s t sp a c e b e tw ee n n ig h t and day bu t no m a tte r how f a s t i t g o e s , o r how s lo w i t g o e s , tim e i s e l u s i v e , & u n m e r c ifu l i t w i l l ca tc h you w it h y o u r p a n ts down. once i t i s gone i t ' s g on e. Lcwu/ MaxuiuLL


A c tu a liz a tio n Only a p l o t o f g rou n d , an a c r e s q u a re E n c l o s e d on t h r e e s i d e s by b a r b e d w i r e — But i t ' s o u r s . Once a p a s t u r e ; u n l e v e l grou n d, Rocks t o re m o v e — W e ' l l groom n a t u r e On o u r p i e c e o f l a n d . A fa m ily s t a r t e d , sa vin gs s lim , D ream ing, p l a n n i n g , an o c c a s i o n a l p i c n i c In t h e sh a de o f our t r e e s . The s t a k e s a r e p l a c e d , a h o l e i s dug. D a i l y t r i p s t o check t h e p r o g r e s s O f o u r f u t u r e home. S i x weeks o f l a b o r , s e v e n y e a r s o f p l a n n i n g , A h o u s e is b u ilt . Hot and t i r e d , m i d - J u ly Our m ovin g d a y . A n o t h e r c h i l d , t h e house i s home F o r our s m a ll fa m ily . F i n a l paym ent. I t ' s r e a lly ours.

Kuth Ann PaAkuA


Fo r MoiQsieciR B R e to o a s Y o g i a Re D e a d a n d I a m n o t 1. I am as one who s e e s th rou g h g la s s p o sed upon a g r e a t o b e l i s k a naked m ir r o r and vacu ou s p r e s s e d a g a in s t th e u n iv e r s e Oh, f a v o r th o s e who f a v o r dreams and make w ords t o fa s h io n what th e y see sw eet c o r r i d o r s o f h id d en m eaning become s e c r e t h a l l s o f j u s t i c e s c re a m in g t o l i b e r a t e th e e x i l e d th o u gh t and r e c o n c i l e th e p a ra d o x t o c a p t u r e , c r y in g and u n lo c k . 2. T h at f la p p in g fu t u r e m ock in g, I tr a c e th e o u tlin e o f la s t y e a r , on y o u r h e a d . The tu m b lin g s i l e n c e . The fla m in g cup th row s w id e y o u r t e a r s . F o o ts te p s

c la m o r w h ere no man i s w a lk in g .

a r a in s t o r m , an o u t c r y , a l o s t b r e a t h gasp s and sh udders D r o o lin g a s ig n sa ys W AIT! That man i s a m essen ger! H is h a ir i s c a l l i g r a p h y h is ja w b on es a re e v id e n c e H is sh oes have c o n t r o l o f him. HIS VOICE IS BLUE CELLULOID! and I am h is m y stery p a r a ly z e d by h i s t o r y . 3. I am p r e p a r in g m y s e lf f o r th e change in th e w o r ld t o be b r o u g h t about by th e change in th e w o r ld . th a t w i l l be b ro u g h t about by th e v e r y n e x t war th a t w i l l be b ro u g h t abou t by th e change in th e w o r ld . R e v o lu t io n has been m echan ized my d e a r A n d r e - i f you w ere h e r e , you w o u ld n ot a g r e e . Rebecca. Gavin


T h e Badge I remem ber t h e f e e l o f c l o s e t o you The warm and t u c k e d by y o u , away f r o m harm I remember t h e w a lk s the t a l k s l a t e at n ig h t t h e p r o m i s e s o f a to m o r ro w . I remember t h e g r a s s b r e a t h i n g b e n e a t h us t h e s k y c r y i n g above t h e w i n d - t h e hands h o l d i n g ea ch o t h e r t i g h t b u t now I ' m j u s t f e e d i n g ray a l o n e n e s s and t h e j u k e b o x w i t h c o i n s and I ' m w o n d e r i n g w h e r e o u r l o v e has go n e y o u ' r e on t h e c i t y l i m i t b e t w e e n t h e law and me Badge s h i n i n g i n t h e c r y i n g m o rn in g l i g h t , a f t e r an empty n i g h t . I ' m on t h e r u n , Hon fr o m a l o n e J u s t p u s h in g i n t h e q u a r t e r s and t a k i n g up smoking f i l t e r i n g w i t h t h e m u sic t h r o u g h my b r a i n a b l u e mood A h! w here h a v e t h e Good Times gone They w e r e s h o r t e r than t h i s q u a r t e r song.

Jay Vee. [Shout) FaAnham


Photo Michael Cole


I fou nd out you w e re g e t t i n g m a r r i e d j u s t a few days a go . I h a d n ' t s e e n you i n q u i t e a w h i l e . Maybe a y e a r o r s o . I guess you c o u ld say we saw t h i n g s d i f f e r e n t l y . You and y o u r t a l k o f God and ch u rch . I guess my d r i n k i n g and ways d i d n ' t h e l p us t o o much. I f e l t l i k e a k i n g as I w a t c h e d y o u r e y e s When we ex c h a n g e d s t o r i e s o f o u r l i v e s . You w e re so b e a u t i f u l t h e n , But c h a n g in g o l d ways a i n ' t e a s y . So I c a l l e d you Sunday d u r i n g d i n n e r J u s t t o w is h you my b e s t . We d i d n ' t h a v e t o o much t o s a y We l i s t e n e d t o a s i l e n t l i n e , h e a rd t h e e m p t i n e s s . My f r i e s and B i g Mac a re p r o b a b l y c o l d s o I b e t t e r l e t you g o , I t o l d you maybe I ' l l s e e yo u around so m etim es and you s a i d y e a , maybe s o . I know a f t e r I hung up you p r o b a b l y s a i d a p r a y e r f o r me. But we bo th have o u r l i v e s t o l i v e . And may y o u and he l i v e h a p p i l y .

Lavur MoxweXf


Som etim es l e a n t speak my h e a r t So now and F o r e v e r I S in g my S o u l

TH ER E IS N O T A N Y b a t One? Be f o r e : I on ce was m a r r ie d t o m y s e lf Me was im p o rta n t Me was a l l My work was My p le a s u r e My jo b was My l i f e My i n t e r e s t s w ere My o n ly con cern My. . . But t h e n , She came She was im p o rta n t She was A l l My work was H er p le a s u r e My jo b was H er h a p p in ess She was My o n ly con cern S h e. . . But t h e n , Som ething happened i d o n t know w hat i e x i s t a lo n e , b a r e ly Though th e y t r y t o h e lp But I d ie F orever Now: i

awaken w ith fe a r w ith d e l i g h t By m y s e lf Dreams a re su pp osed t o be happy joyou s p le a s u r a b le O nly th e n ig h tm a res a re bad N o th in g in b etw een But i dont dream p r e t t i l y a g ir l who g iv e s me what i want when i w ant h e r i

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Changes T e d d y s i t s h i g h on t h e s h e l f . I ' v e f o r g o t t e n w h e r e he came f r o m H is b u t t o n e y e s a r e gene B u t he has s e e n more i n me t h a n anyone He knows a l l ny s e c r e t s and a l l my f e a r s T o g e t h e r we s h a r e d a l l my s m i l e s a n d a l l

my t e a r s .

C h ild h o o d grew t o a d o le s c e n c e And w r i t t e n t h o u g h t s t o o k t h e p l a c e o f w h i s p e r e d w o r d s . My b o o k ' s c o v e r i s w orn and t h e b i n d i n g ' s b r o k e n B u t i t ' s h e a r d more f r o m me t h a n a n y on e I t h o l d s a l l my s e c r e t s and a l l my f e a r s I t remem bers a l l my s m i l e s a n d a l l my t e a r s . Som ew here i n t i m e I g r e w a g a i n A new f r i e n d t o o k t h e p l a c e o f b o o k s and b e a r s . H i s h e a r t was warm and o p en And I l o v e d h im m ore t h a n a n y o n e He s h a r e d a l l rry s e c r e t s and a l l my f e a r s He l a u g h e d a t my s m i l e s and d r i e d a l l my t e a r s . I ' m grow in g a ga in I n e e d s o m e t h i n g o r som eone c l o s e T o s h a r e a l l my s e c r e t s and a l l my f e a r s . My s m i l e s and my t e a r s . Bastb tUJ.patfU.ck


H e l l o - - i t ' s a b e g in n in g Sim ple y e t f u l l o f warmth Goodbye; a sad l o n e l y — f o r g e t t a b l e F a r e w e ll my lo v e ’’ Goodbye" A w alk in th e r a in So s im p le — p la in E r o t ic - c r a z y W alking - b e in g la z y A lo n e ; t o g e t h e r Thoughts in our minds P a sts l i n g e r b eh in d S h a rin g , lo v in g S tr a n g e ly I n s a n e . . .

Once in a w h ile I am lo n e ly I g e t d e p res se d S ca red - R e a lly s c a r e d I guess most o f a l l I f e a r f a i l i n g - d y in g S p l i t t i n g up - t e a r i n g away from lo v e d ones I f e e l I 'm s l i p p i n g - backwards L o s in g g r ip I guess I n e v e r knew how im p o rta n t h o ld in g on can be . . .J u s t H o ld in g On-

Don ' t C lo s e th e doors D o n 't C lo s e y o u r h e a r t Keep open arm s, E x p r e s s iv e lo v e The warmth o f y ou r arms around mine So f e a r l e s s So unwinding I t ' s a h a zey f e e l i n g D r ift in g - L ift in g H o ld in g ; L o v in g So K ind - So v e r y warm S tay mine - -

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Lynn Warm, g o ld e n ,

la u g h t e r

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S a d Eyes th e d o o r ' s w id e open r a in pou rs in — I l e t th e c o ffe e bum th e s m e ll needs some means o f e s c a p in g .

L e a d in g t o th e l o v e r w it h in .

Tom Ren-ccfe

so m eon e's r e f l e c t i o n in t h e g la s s door s t a r e s a t me, deep sadn ess i n h e r e y e s . the r a i n 's s t o p p in g now. I drank t h e b u rn t c o f f e e th e s m e ll b le w away, a ra in b o w su p p la n ts d r o p l e t s . th e sad e y e s rem ain.

J ac.qae.JU.ne. SommzK

H o ra e F o r g o t t e n Broken g la s s on a s p h a lt r o a d s , B i l l b o a r d s ig n s t o s e l l o r show. R e s t le s s s o u ls in an em pty la n e , T r y in g h a rd t o h id e th e p a in . Been so lo n g s in c e home was n e a r , D o n 't c r y . . . h i d e t h e t e a r s . H ere a t l a s t , n o t much t o s e e . . . E v e r y o n e 's f o r g o t t e n me.

Roaa T. Balnea


Photo Michael Cole


A M o r q I H is tO R y F o r C b ild R e o I th in k " I am awake� but can n o t m ove. I am naked bu t i t has o n ly j u s t o c c u re d t o me. I t i s a dream . I t r a v e l th rou gh houses and y a rd s and remember Grandmothers e x tr a v a g a n t h a ts . ************************************* The sun was s h in in g i n l i k e a t th e popes f i r s t communion. Through s t a in e d g la s s i n dark c o l o r s , i t s ta b b e d a t me and w o u ld n 't l e t me r e s t . At noon i t was l i k e h is f i r s t c o n fe s s io n and s t a r t e d t o g o down in th e s k y . A t dusk t h e r e c o l l i d e d th e p a p a l p r o c e s s io n c o n d u c tin g him t o h is th ro n e . N ig h t f e l l s h o r t ly a f t e r and t h e s t a r s w e r e th e fo u n ta in s o f Rome. * *

So A p p r o p r ia t e , So P iq u a n t "T h is m om ent," he pron ou n ced and th rew a g la n c e a t me. Eyes rou nd, brows a rc h e d , v o i c e p it c h e d w it h d i g n i t y . "T h is ob sce n e moment o f s e l f - r e p u d i a t i o n . � "W ith th e dark a t t it u d e s o f a f u n e r e a l p r o c e s s io n . " "B e g in n in g t o d is p la y th e s e p i a o v e r to n e s o f to m o rro w 's agh ast p h o to g r a p h ic r e t r o - i n s p e c t i o n . R e la t iv e t o p a st d is h o n o r s . " "T h is moment t a s t e s l i k e p in k c a r n i v a l d o l l s , f o r e v e r ra v a g e d by th e term s o f t h e i r p e c u l i a r r e a l i t y . " "A moment s t e e p e d in r e l a t i v e

a tr o c ity ." Kebecca Gavin


C lfra b io g We pack We prepare We ready ourselves For the s o c ia l climb Of Our liv e s We We We To Of

double-check load secure Our burdens the backs Our frien ds

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remember don' t fo rget watch from a fa r the progress those now ahead

We wait We hope We can see them At the peak above Where we had hoped to be We s i t We sigh We watch the a c t iv it ie s Thinking someday t h e y 'l l return and s a y h i...t o us at the foot Kznt G. GAeen


B e g in n in g s You open y o u r e y e s and screa m . "W hat, ha ha, I 'm g o in g t o g e t y o u !" as you sw in g t h e b a t . Count y o u r heads t o see i f y o u h ave one. C rash , now y o u h ave none. Jump th rou gh t h e w indow , g la s s in y o u r e y e s . You h i t t h e pavem ent and bounce t o y o u r f e e t . You r head b e g in s t o s w e l l . B lo o d th r o b s th ro u g h y o u r e a r becau se o f w hat you h e a r . B a llo o n -h e a d man y o u f l o a t , t o w h ere, who can t e l l . N e a r in g t h e sun you b e g in t o s i z z l e . Be c o o l and y o u 'r e an i c e b e r g , and you m e lt. Drops o f m o is tu r e to u c h th e sun and i t g o es o u t . The drops b e g in t o c o n g e a l and you open y o u r e y e s . F lo a t in g th ro u g h t h e s t a r s , you h i t deep s p a c e . Open y o u r mouth and you sw a llo w a g a la x y . As you s w a llo w th e s t a r s you b e g in t o ex p a n d , and you e x p lo d e w it h a B ig Bang. J 04 eph C. F-u cJxeA.


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in an angry sk y. th ey wonder why. have t h e i r tim e .

a new dance t o le a r n , a new song t o s in g . t o make more money, g o t t o buy more t h i n g s . t o g e t a new h a ir s t y l e , lo s e some w e ig h t . a new lo v e b e fo r e i t i s to o l a t e .

Storm clouds th u n d erin g in an a n gry sky. Everyone h ears them and th e y wonder why. But n o t f o r lo n g , th e y have O ther th in g s t o occupy t h e i r m inds. The Mayor g o t caught w ith h is hand in th e t i l l . Tw elve y e a r o ld A nnie Lou i s on th e p i l l . Tom and Joe w ere u n ite d in m a r it a l b l i s s . T h e ir clergym an s a id , " I t ' s G o d 's w i l l , w e 'r e making p r o g r e s s . " Lawyers in d iv o r c e c o u rts w heel and d e a l. C h ild ren w eep, then l i e and s t e a l . Even the p r e s id e n t p la y e d th e game Of b re a k in g th e law t o fu r t h e r h is aims. So, l i k e a m ery-go-rou n d ou t o f c o n t r o l T h is sp acesh ip e a r th i s b e g in n in g t o r o l l In to a s t a g g e r in g sp in t h a t 's g o in g t o end R ig h t back where i t a l l began. J utiana Ba.A4 chd.0 A 6

S tR e e t B o y I stand a t a d is t a n c e and weep f o r t h is boy lo o s e on th e s t r e e t s . H is daddy d o e s n 't know him. H is mama d o e s n 't c a r e . He t e l l s , me, " I do as I p le a s e , I'm f r e e as th e a i r . " I know he does too much d r in k in g . He smokes and pushes p o t. He s t e a ls w h atever he can, and s le e p s on a n y o n e's c o t. The g i r l s th in k h e 's b ig and p r e t t y , They f o l l o w him around. He cu ts a m ighty w id e path a l l up and down th e town. He says he d o e s n 't have t o s tu d y . H e 's no f o o l . The te a c h e rs d i d n 't l i k e him. H e 's been e x p e lle d from s c h o o l. The l o c a l s o c i a l w ork ers sa y , "We need to h e lp him m o re." The cops know b e t t e r , th ey s a y , "H e 's r o t t e n t o th e c o r e . " I know why and I c r y . H is daddy d o e s n 't know him. H is mama d o e s n 't c a r e . I see th e n e t c lo s in g in on th e boy who s a y s , " I'm f r e e as th e a i r . " Ju.ti.ana BaA4chdoA6


S o y Ctai'caDO Soy C hicano and prou d I am. N o t B la c k o r w h it e , bu t a Brown man. Soy C h ican o and i t ' s

tim e t o w a lk t a l l ,

n o t ju s t f o r th e sa k e o f my r a c e , b u t f o r th e sake o f a l l . Soy C hicano w ith a b r a in and w i l l i n g

hands,

c r e a t e d in G od' s im a g e ; t h a t makes me an e q u a l man. Soy C hicano w it h a p u rp ose in l i f e : To f i g h t

f o r th e r i g h t s

o f my p e o p le ,

w ith o u t gun o r k n i f e . Soy C hicano and I'm h e re t o s in g my so n g: T ru e l i b e r t y

and j u s t i c e

fo r

a ll.

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w alk s t e a d y ,

a lw a y s rem em b erin g, i S l Se P u e d e ! Ru&A&lt G.

Eip-inoia


Em bannasm ent I t happens re d lo b s t e r spreads a cro ss my fa c e warm r a in m o istu re form s upon my c o ld s t i l l e d hands w o r r y , w o r r y , w orry l i k e th e r a b b it through th e lo o k in g g la s s tim e p a ss in g q u ic k ly , s lo w ly o n , o n , on do th ey know, do th ey ca re a re th ey h e r e — a re th ey near l e t me g o , b e fo r e th ey know l e t me go t o o l a t e ---- th e y laugh I CRY Li.nd.a Ma.Aic PonzeA


P e n m a tin g ...Is T b a t It? [a poem f o r b e g in n in g s t a t i s t i c i a n s ) by CuA-t V o w d y I s i t th a t? That i t is , i t th a t is . I s th a t i t ? That i s i t ! I t is th a t!


Photo S. Fischbeck


P o e ra S ix In clo u d le ss sky the moon shines down a b r ig h t w hite streetlam p Grey smoke c u rls heavenward As the moon r is e s s lo w ly The n ig h t a i r ic y Stars f l i c k e r diamonds through my eyes Meet the b lu e ocean where sunbursts explode b r i l l i a n t orange hues form tra n s lu c e n t clouds B irds become stones Flowers g la s s L ife a c ir c le and death a s t r a ig h t li n e through Katkfujn Anne Bu&hwi


D e a th S a m m o n s The hour i s near, the moon is waned, and I Hear sounds not meant fo r ears lik e mine and yours. Soft sounds, sick sounds, eeking, seeking sounds l i e Awake and grumble loudly, t h e ir noise pours And gushes foaming, s w irlin g through my mind. To grope a thread o f r e a l i t y , to Be w e ll, but no! — the cry o f crone w i l l rin g And clutch my bein g to her dark slough. My c ries and screams o f torment a l l in vain , The strin g s that p u ll at me w i l l never stop. The days go by and I must liv e with pain , As blood o f mine r ip p le s , gone, drop by drop. I grow weak, but now I know the w o rld 's a cup So vast th is blood o f mine w i l l never f i l l i t up. Ed H(Wt


Photo Nelson Rivera


D abney/

D illa r d

S t a l e bananas i n th e w indow , e v e r y o n e o u t s id e c u t t i n g t r e e s . Dabney s i t s . A lo n e . H u ngry! H ates s t a l e bananas! Perh ap s a dab of la r d w it h d i l l p i c k l e s b e s id e s a th erm os o f K o o l- A id . E v e ry o n e o u t s id e p l a y i n g w it h atoms Dabney D i l l a r d s i t s . . . . a l o n e . . e a tin g s t a le b a n a n a s. Kent C. Boyd


In to M a d n e s s D oes one s l i p i n t o madness as g e n t l y as day i n t o n ig h t ? P e rh a p s one g o e s as v i o l e n t l y as t h e sun on a s to r m d a r k e n e d d a y . I s one ro b b e d o f a shadow o r s w a llo w e d by i t when noon b l a z e s w h it e h o t l i g h t a l l a rou n d u n t i l o n e ca n no l o n g e r s e e ? A r e you i n a g l a s s o rb l o s t on a s p in n in g c a r o u s e l u n a b le t o com prehend t h e l i f e s w i r l i n g b y o r s le w down en ou gh t o p a r t i c i p a t e ? I s one C a t a p u lt e d i n t o a b la c k e n e d p i t w h e re a l l manner o f b e a s t l y h o w lin g s p e r m e a te t h e s p a c e w it h t h e i r d e a f e n in g d in ? I s t h e r e an e x i t o r a r e you t r a p p e d t h e r e b o d y and s o u l u n t i l d e a th b r in g s r e l e a s e fro m th e m ind made h e l l ? A murky swamp w h e re neon deamons s p in g l o w i n g webbs arou n d y o u r s o u l as t h e y ch ok e away a l l s a n i t y i n t h e i r w a k e. D oes madness come o v e r t h e m in d b l o c k i n g a l l v i e w : H o v e r in g l i k e a c lo u d c o v e r on a m o o n le s s n ig h t ? Do you f i g h t th r o u g h a c o v e r o r b r e a k f r e e o f a t r a p , g n a w in g y o u r way as an a n im a l l e a v i n g p a r t s o f y o u r s e l f b e h in d ? D oes one s l i p i n t o madness t h r o u g h th e b o tto m o f a b o t t l e o n l y t o tu r n and d i s c o v e r t h e n e c k t o o s m a ll f o r e s c a p e - h a v in g no memory t o f i l l t h e a l l e n g u l f i n g s p a c e o r t e l l y o u why? Can th e human s o u l cla w t h r o u g h t h e l a b y r i n t h o f th e d i s e a s e d mind t o s a n i t y w it h o u t r a x i n g t h e f r a g i l e w a l l s and t u r n i n g t h e k n o w le d g e s t o r e d t h e r e i n t o a p i l e o f r u b b le t h a t must b e r e b u i l t b e f o r e on e can e v e r b e g i n t o r e l e a r n ? Is

madness an in b o r n s e e d t h a t lu r k s i n th e h id d e n r e c e s s e s o f th e m ind, r e a d y t o s p r o u t w hen f e d an u n b a la n c e d d i e t by a m a l­ f u n c t i o n i n g b ody? Or i s i t l i k e a d a n d e lio n s e e d b lo w n b y random w in d s t o w a n t o n ly f a l l , s i n k i n g d e ep r o o t s t h r o u g h t h e b o w e ls i n t o t h e g u t , r a c k in g p a in fr o m t h e v e r y c o r e o f b e i n g as i t c a p r i c i o u s l y r i p s o u t y o u r s o u l? W i l l t h e p i c k i n g o f t h e bud b e f o r e i t b lo om s p r e v e n t t h e b lo s s o m o r m e r e ly p o s t p o n e t h e e r u p t i o n u n t i l a n o t h e r s p r in g ? M ust one ex p u n ge t h e t o t a l r o o t , d i g g i n g d e e p e r y e t t o be f r e e , a t w h a t e v e r t h e c o s t o f p a in t o an a lr e a d y t o r t u r e d b e in g ? I f one g o e s i n t o madness d o es one e v e r e m e rg e t o t r u l y l i v e a g a in ? Catherine. Votan Hopktm


P o e m Fi o e L i g h t t h e sky w it h a t i g e r ' s e y e M e lt a m ountain w it h f i r e and snow Tom bstone f lo w e r s w eep n o t I n f a n t 's t e a r s c u r s e c r u e l t y 's sn a res C lim b g o ld e n dew S c a t t e r d e a th a sh es t o t h e deep brown c r a d l e Ka.th.Ayn Anne Bu-ihuA


S cott Coleman


Boa Lost a t Z o o M o v in g s w i f t

and s i l e n t ,

across th e co ld f l o o r .

she s l i d e s h e r g r a c e f u l b u lk

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course th e le n g th

o f h e r anatomy as she u n d u l a t e s w i t h unhampered f r e e d o m .

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the c o rn e r d r i f t s

she

the s m e ll o f

b u r i e s h e r head i n i t s sid e

le a v e s

and f a d e d g r e e n e r y ,

c r i s p n e s s and c o i l s

h e r s e l f deep in ­

it.

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Sounds o f t h e j u n g l e

s t u f f a b o u t h e r becom es steam ­

Wound around an i m a g i n a r y b o u g h ,

on ce

the s c re e c h in g p a r r o t. Ed Hcuit

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s k i e s on a w h i t e w i n g e d h o r s e

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th e m ire .

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you see?

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th e u n iv e r s e ,

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th e sea

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fre e ,

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fre e .


Ni'gtatraaRe a n d R esolution (Chnld’s VeRsion) Arms o u t s p r e a d fly in g over gn a rle d t r e e s S t i l l lea ves f r o z e n b ra n c h e s Sandpaperhands r e a c h o u t and grasp flo w in g h a ir " l e t go" " l e t go" " T h e s e t r e e s h a v e minds o f t h e i r o w n !" E sca pe t o another s id e o f t h e mobius s t r i p T a l l y e llo w fla m es le a p fro m s l e n d e r w h i t e c a n d l e s Mary nods w in k s I s t r i k e t h e match T i n y b l a z e t r a n s f o r m s my f a c e The g l a r e w i t h o u t becomes a g l o w w i t h i n KathAyn Anne BuikuA


A Jilting I t was h i g h J u n e. sun.

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A lig h t breeze d r ift e d

w ith th e s m e ll o f

fre s h ly

and g r e e n b e n e a t h t h e warm

t h r o u g h t h e open windows o f t h e o l d c h u r c h , b r i n g i n g

cu t c l o v e r s e v e r a l young wasps t h a t kn ocked t h e m s e lv e s

about t h e cra ck ed c e i l i n g . A young man s t o o d s t r a i g h t and s i l e n t a t t h e c e n t e r o f t h e room. w ere s e t

and he a p p e a r e d t o b e w a t c h i n g t h e w a s p s.

ta c u la r d iv e flo w e rs

a t t h e m an's h e a d ,

centers

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and m i s s i n g him, d r o p p e d o n t o a l a r g e bunch o f

s e t b e lo w a r i c k e t y wooden a l t a r .

mock a s s a u l t ,

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bu t h i s e y e s f o l l o w e d t h e wasp as i t

o f th e w ild

d a is ie s

in the

jo u rn e y e d a cross th e y e l l o w

a rr a n g e m e n t.

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t o d a y t h e r e was t o be a w e d d in g .

r a g g e d song books w ere s t a c k e d n e a t l y

and tw o new c a n d le s w e r e p e r c h e d upon t h e a n c i e n t o r g a n . man w o r e an i l l - f i t t i n g

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c l e n c h e d a t h i s s i d e s , w a t c h i n g t h e wasp and w a i t i n g . It

seem ed he had been s t a n d i n g f o r h o u r s .

f a t h e r w i t h t h e m orn in g c h o r e s ,

g u lp e d b r e a k f a s t ,

thou sands o f t h i n g s t h a t w e r e h a p p en in g t o d a y . a c tiv itie s ,

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h i s mind b e g a n f l o a t i n g w i t h t h e slo w d r o n e o f t h e w a s p s ' w i n g s .

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and h o t .

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s i l v e r moon f i n a l l y

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and c o o l i n g i n t h e e v e n i n g

t i r e d bu t p le a s e d a t c o m p le tin g th e d a y 's w ork.

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a c t i v e t h i s tim e o f n i g h t ! ' at n ig h t,

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and h i s as he

t h e way down t h e r e , ” one o f t h e men

" T h a t a i n ' t t h e o n l y t h i n g a c t i v e down t h e r e as p r i c k l y

a

about t h e c o o l w a t e r and

s i g h e d as he changed h i s mind and resum ed h i s p e r c h on th e f e n c e . a g a i n t o m o r ro w , a n y h ow ." when y ou g e t down t h e r e ! "

a lm o s t

f e n c e and p l o d d e d i n t h e d i r e c t i o n

R a lp h ? " one o f t h e men c a l l e d a f t e r him. I'd

an

i n t h e c o o l w a t e r w i t h t h e n i g h t s m e l l and t h e

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f o r a swim,

so w o r e o u t ,

ly in g

c ric k e ts .

he l o o k e d a c r o s s t h e m o o n l i t s t u b b l e o f t h e

shadowed f r i n g e s o f th e c r e e k .

c o m p e l l i n g n e e d t o be t h e r e , cro a k in g f r o g s . o f th e stream .

rose

t h e l a s t wagon o f hay had been u n lo a d e d and he had s t r a d d l e d

t h e b o a r d f e n c e w i t h t h e r e s t o f t h e men, r e s t i n g a ir.

a t dawn, h e l p e d h i s

d o n ' t y a k n o w ," t h e

"Tansy Hodge can b e j u s t

and how s h e does l o v e t o p r o w l around t h e c r i c k

a b ou t


a lon g t h is

t im e o f t h e e v e n i n ' ! "

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few s t e p s t o

but t h e i r sound o n l y

fa in tly

th e fe n c e s e p a r a t in g the h a y f i e l d

r e a c h e d him

fro m th e stream .

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cross i t .

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mouth w h i l e t h e sound and

s m e l l o f t h e c r e e k a t e v e n i n g e n v e l o p e d him, s o o t h e d him. in te n s ity . w illo w s ,

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and i t s

l i g h t t o bounce on t h e w i l l o w

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a g a in s t h is body.

c l i n g i n g t o h is

a t t h e r i p e moon, n o t f e e l i n g t i r e d , appeared.

now.

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fa m ilia r b u ild in g s

and b r o a d a v e n u e s .

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the n i g h t

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sta n d in g w ith th e w a ter

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b u s i e r and more e x c i t i n g p l a c e s . lig h ts ,

t h e w a t e r and t h e summer

dreamy so n g o f t h e n i g h t b i r d .

m esm erised l i k e t h e s t a t u e o f and s t r a i g h t ,

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knees and d rop s o f i t

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s o u n d in g n e a r and then f a r .

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little

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r o m a n tic p e o p l e s i p p i n g w i n e , n i g h t c l u b s sang w i t h m e r r im e n t ,

b rig h t w ith

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e v e r y o n e was a l i v e

and happy.

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as i f

c o u ld n o t s e e h e r f a c e , fe ll

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f i l m y gcwn t h a t swept f r e e l y

shimmered i n t h e m o o n l i g h t .

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a t im e le s s w o rld .

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t h e gown about h e r s h o u ld e r s

as i f

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fe ll

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another.

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to her fe e t .

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about h e r i n t h e b r e e z e

him t o j o i n h e r .

co n fu s e d him and he c o u ld n o t t h i n k s t r a i g h t . c o u ld s e e t h e c i ÂŁ y , b u t i t

dark h a i r

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as i t w en t b y .

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fanned t h e m s e lv e s w i t h f u n e r a l - p a r l o r fa n s ch ild ren .

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m u s ic s t a r t e d t o p l a y

f r o m t h e row o f y ou ng men s i t t i n g

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th e one o f t h a t n i g h t ,

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it.

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NON-STUDENTS


P le c b o R a o f P o e ts Minds b u z z in g w i t h poems, a l l those p e o p le w r it in g .

.

Some m e r e ly dance in th e a ir . O thers

leave f i n e

dark honey

deep w i t h i n t h e woods. Ann Rzih S<ie.h>i


CorjtRa Dance B e lls , th e r i v e r r i p s i c e fr o m i t s e d g e s o u t i n t o sun o f m id s t r e a m b le s s in g t h e w i n t e r r o o f s o f C a m b rid g e g l i m p s e d fr o m c a l c u l a t i o n s o f t r a f f i c , d r i f t o f M e m o r ia l d r i v e . C a n a b is b o u q u e t , c o x w a in c a l l upon C h a r l e s , p e a c e fu l p a rk in g l o t . T h e r e was a w o n d e r f o r e s t on

a h ill,

c a t on a warm s i l l o ' e r t h e s q u a r e a l l cars a ro n d e la y . F illig re , shadow and l i g h t f a l l , two cups o f c o f f e e John Morgan

ok


Echos Through m is t y f o g Come echos fr o m t h e p a s t the past C h ild h o o d on t h e farm R o o s t e r c r o w in g a t dawn F r e s h l y p lo w e d f i e l d s F r ie d ch ick en â&#x20AC;&#x201D; ic e d t e a W a te r p u d d le s on b a r e f e e t New k i t t e n s i n t h e b a m th e b a m Through c lo u d e d dreams Come r e f l e c t i o n s o f t im e o f t im e L a d d e r a g a i n s t t h e barn On t h e

a b a n d on ed fa r m

Abandoned farm Joan Floyd


I fo u n d bones i n a cave by f o l l o w i n g a c o l d m o is t w ind from the mouth. F a r back the w a lls w ere s c r a tc h e d i n a k in d o f t e x t . The bones w e r e s c a t t e r e d . The wind t h r o u g h t h e s k u l l sounded l i k e Remember me member me.

Re Ro b z n t

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Scoeec Potato To Go s t a i n l e s s s t e e l sw ee t p o t a t o s w e e t p o t a t o m e lt dcwn s w e e t p o t a t o e s f e l l on Alabama u n id e n tifie d

f l y i n g sw eet p o ta to es

o r b i t a l sweet p o ta to l o s e r w e e p e r s , sw ee t p o t a t o e s k e e p e r s a fo o l

and h i s sw eet p o t a t o a re soon p a r t e d

g i v e me l i b e r t y o r g i v e me sw ee t p o t a t o e s I n e v e r met a sw ee t p o t a t o I

d id n 't

sw eet p o ta to fe v e r r e e l t o r e e l sw eet p o ta to e s a l l d r e s s e d up and no s w e e t p o t a t o e s 12 s t r i n g e l e c t r i c s w e e t p o t a t o J on a th on L i v i n g s t o n Sw eet P o t a t o sw ee t p o t a t o co n sp ira cy o f f t h e r o a d sw ee t p o t a t o d i g i t a l sw eet p o ta to ah, s w e e t p o t a t o o f l i f e

Mcutt and Gene Wan.st.en

lik e


LaciRfe’s C o lle c t io n Part X I f y o u h a v e any l e t t e r s f o r H ea ven , j u s t m a l l 'em T o a b i g l i t t l e town i n M i s s o u r i , c a l l e d Salem F or o n t o o u r campus d e s c e n d e d , one d a y , A s o r t o f an a n g e l fr o m o v e r t h a t w a y . You m ig h t s a y s h e ' s s e t up an annex t o Heaven J u s t i n s i d e t h e d o o r o f Room 107. She a r r i v e s t h e r e each w eekday a t 8 :0 0 AM, s h a r p , To p l a y a t y p e w r i t e r i n s t e a d o f a h a r p . Seems l i k e s u n s h in e and b i r d s ' so n g s and s t a r d u s t , and a l l F l o a t around h e r t r i m f i g u r e as she w a lk s down th e h a l l . S h e 's l o v e l y t o lo o k a t - e y e s b l u e - g r e y and sk y c l e a r . She has a h e a r t k in d and s t e a d y , a b l u s h t h a t ' s s i n c e r e . The s m i l e o f an a n g e l , th e g r i n o f an e l f , A g o o d s e n s e o f humor: she can la u g h a t h e r s e l f . I n ea ch s i t u a t i o n she shews g r e a t e s t t a c t . A g e n u in e la d y i n d r e s s , s p e e c h and a c t . E v e r y in c h o f h e r b e i n g g ood b r e e d i n g r e v e a l s ( I n c l u d i n g t h o s e t h r e e i n c h e s due t o w edge h e e l s ) . And many h a ve

fo u n d , perhaps w ith s u r p r i s e . T h a t t h e r e ' s more than j u s t moonglow b e h in d t h o s e b r i g h t e y e s . She has w ords t h a t make s e n s e — a w e l l o r g a n i z e d mind. A j o b sh e c a n ' t h a n d le i s j u s t h a r d t o f i n d . So i t p u z z l e s us how t h e D ep artm en t s u r v i v e d D u r in g a l l o f t h o s e y e a r s b e f o r e L a u r i e a r r i v e d . Part

II

C o n s id er q u i t e c a r e f u l l y a l l y o u 'v e j u s t Add t h a t L a u r i e ' s a p r e t t y g ood c o o k , i t Then i t ' s o b v i o u s : Most any man i n t h i s Would f i n d i n h e r j u s t what he w an ts i n So t h e r e ' s many I n how he m ig h t And who, g a z i n g F in d s a l l o t h e r Now,

a ll

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around h e r d e s k ,

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T h ey w e r e t i r e d o f h a v i n g t h e i r s p r e e now, b e f o r e t h e y had q u i t e d e c i d e d t o h a ve o n e . Highway 66 was i n f r o n t o f them . They w an ted t o go home. Home, f o r them , was a l i t t l e fa r m t h r e e and a q u a r t e r m i l e s s o u th o f S p r i n g f i e l d , I l l i n o i s , cupped i n t h e s p r i n g i n g o f a s in k c r e e k and, t o t h e b r o t h e r s , a p a r a d i s e o f g r e e n f i e l d s , v e r d a n t , f r e s h w i t h t h e s h a r p n e s s o f b r o k e n hay i n autumn. Th ey s a t i n t h e m o t e l room n e a r t h e C hain o f Rocks B r i d g e and i n t h e i r minds w e r e a l i v e a l l o f t h e fa rm w h ich had b e e n t h e i r home f o r n e a r l y t w e n t y y e a r s . N eed s o f t e n e d t h e g r e e n t o n e s t o a d u l l , p u l l i n g ache de ep somewhere i n s i d e th em , w h ere t h e g r e y b l e a k h o p e l e s s n e s s o f S t . 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The cop d i d them a f a v o r and w a v ed them o n . He had o n l y been d i s c h a r g e d two months b e f o r e . N e a r S t . James, t h e y c r a n e d t h e i r n e c k s t o s e e i f a d i s t a n t s t a r m ig h t r e a l l y b e t h e new s p u t n i k . A f t e r a l l , t h e r e was t h e s t r i p w i t h i t s w h o r e s , l e g e n d a r y c r e a t u r e s who l i v e d i n c i n d e r - b l o c k h o u se s and h o u s e t r a i l e r s , o f whom t h e i r s e r g e a n t s p o k e . There w o u ld be o t h e r l e a v e s , and S g t . P a i s l e y w a s n ' t a h a l f ba d s o n - o f - a - b i t c h when y ou f i n a l l y g o t t o know him . And t h e y ' d go home a g a i n a t T h a n k s g i v i n g . They d i d n ' t t a l k much. Th ey had s o m e t h in g b e tw e e n them , t h e y d i d n ' t know q u i t e w h a t i t w a s , a lm o s t t e l e p a t h y . Th ey w o u ld go f o r days c o n v e r s i n g i n g r u n t s and t h e q u i r k o f an e y e l i d and t h e q u i c k rou gh j e r k o f an e lb o w i n t o a b r o t h e r ' s rib s . T h ey d i d n ' t n e e d t o t a l k . The one who d r o v e j u s t n e e d e d n o i s e t o k e e p awake. They w e r e l a t e , l a t e , l a t e , w i t h an MP a t th e g a t e . Just b e fo r e th ey reached th e R o l l a c i t y l i m i t s , th ey w ere t r a v e l l i n g at n i n e t y s e v e n m i l e s p e r h o u r , and t h e y knew n o t h i n g a bou t t h e d e c e p t i v e , s i d e s l i p p i n g bend i n t h e h ig h w a y w h ic h we who l i v e d n e a r b y c a l l e d Dead Man's C u r v e . ( I t i s n 't th ere any m ore. The new f o u r - l a n e i n t e r s t a t e h ig h w a y cu t u nder i t , and now t h e r e i s a g e n t l y c u r v i n g b r i d g e o v e r p a s s i n g t h e new r o a d t h e r e . T h e a pproa ch t o t h e w e s t b o u n d l a n e i s w h e r e my home on ce s t o o d . ) The tw o s o l d i e r s must have been d o i n g a hu nd red when t h e y fo u n d o u t a l l a b ou t t h e c u r v e i n t h e h ig h w a y . The Nash m is s e d t h e gu a rd p o s t s and s t r u c k t h e muddy g r a v e l d i t c h , s i l e n t l y t w i s t e d e n d - f o r - e n d l i k e a d i s h r a g b e i n g w rung out t o d r y , and th en r o l l e d o v e r and o v e r i n t o t h e b r u s h down t o t h e b o t t o m o f R a b b it H o l l o w . I remember i t b e c a u s e i t was t h e l a s t w r e c k b e f o r e t h e b u l l d o z e r s changed t h e c u r v e and t o o k t h a t p r e c i o u s t r a p away. I t was a v e r y q u i e t w r e c k , u n t i l t h e one w i t h t h e t h r o a t f i n a l l y r e c o v e r e d a l i t t l e en ergy. A t f i r s t , we t h o u g h t i t was a p i g s q u e a l i n g . Vh..

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T h e S u f f e r i n g P o s s ib ility F irs t I f y o u r woman s h o u ld e a t Of th e f r u i t o f th e t r e e Threw h e r o u t ! Ger h e r o u t! The m a t t e r was s e t t l e d . The ca u s e o f y o u r stu m b le May be y o u r woman. I t may p o s s i b l y b e H er f i n g e r i n g l o v e . B u t , i t MAY b e t h e Woman-maker Who c a u s e d i t ( t h e y s a y ) . Cast h e r o u t! C a s t him o u t ! May t h e g a r d e n b e p u r g e d ! C a s t h e r o u t we d i d (And w e r e bound t o f o l l o w ) . Out t h e r e we s h r i v e l l e d Out t h e r e we d i e d And y e t we l i v e Though w e ' r e h o l l o w i n s i d e . Then I f y o u r e y e makes you s t u m b le "Tear i t o u t! Throw i t f r o m y o u ! " , The h o l y man c o u n s e l e d . The ca u se o f y o u r stu m ble May be y o u r e y e . I t may p o s s i b l y b e B u t , i t MAY be t h e E y e -m a k e r Who c a u sed i t ( t h e y s a y ) . Tear i t ou t! C a s t him o u t I May i t n e v e r a f f l i c t ! C a s t i f rom us we d i d (He t a k e s t h e b l a m e ) . Out t h e r e i t hung Out t h e r e i t d r i e d For a l l co u ld see And y e t w i t h o u t e y e s How c o u l d t h a t b e ? Last I f y o u r name i s n o t fo u n d i n The Book o f L i f e Throw i t out'. Throw him o u t ! To t h e f i r e f o r e v e r . ' I f y o u r name makes you s tu m b le May i t smoke f o r e v e r . The c a u s e o f y o u r stu m b le May b e y o u r name I t may p o s s i b l y b e Y ou r f a l l i b l e r a c e . B u t, i t MAY be t h e Name-maker Who ca u sed i t ( t h e y s a y ) . Throw him o u t ! Cast i t o u t! May he s u f f e r f o r e v e r ! And we saw i t s u f f e r and f o r e v e r we w i l l T i l l th e l a s t death i s s u ff e r e d And t h e s u f f e r i n g ' s s t i l l e d .


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God k n o w s , s a i d t h e p o e t , uneasy i n h i s a p r o p r o s e , my s i s t e r a lw a y s g o t t h e b e t 1r o f me. H er e n t i r e t h i r t y y e a r s she g o t t h e b e t ' r o f me. W e ll, h e r e 's a poem about s t u f f e d c a t s , he s a i d , but r e a l l y t h a t 's n o t w hat i t ' s a b o u t, r e a l l y i t ' s a b ou t my s i s t e r who a lw a y s g o t t h e b e t ' r o f me. He t u r n e d o u t c h ild h o o d 's p o c k e ts , s p i l l i n g c r i s p M a n c h e s te r days each fram ed l i k e a l a n t e r n s l i d e . U r c h in s w i l l i n g t o d a re V i c t o r i a n capers w it h a b u r g la r gu id e, we u n lo c k e d t h e museum d o o r , tip to e d in s id e down t h e i r r e s i s t i b l e musty h a l l , t r e s p a s s i n g on a n o t h e r a g e . S u d d e n ly t h e r e was no more. T h a t 's a l l , he s a i d , s e a r c h i n g p a p e r s . I c a n ' t f i n i s h t h e rhyme. I'm m is s in g a page. I ' v e n e v e r l o s t a page b e f o r e . Was i t what we m is s e d , t h e w ords n o t t h e r e , o r t h e b r o k e n l o c k on tim e t h a t made me aware o f a s c h o o lg ir l w ris t w h is k in g through th e a i r , a musty c h u c k le on th e s t a i r ? UaAgaAzt Menamtn


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