The Prevailing of the Righteous by Demerol Govan

The Prevailing of the Righteous

Demell Govan

The ConTextos Authors Circle was developed in collaboration with young people at-risk of, victims of, or perpetrators of violence in El Salvador. In 2017 this innovative program expanded into Chicago to create tangible, high quality opportunities that nourish the minds, expand the voices and share the personal truths of individuals who have long been underserved and underestimated. Through the process of drafting, revising and publishing memoirs, participants develop self-reflection, critical thinking, camaraderie and positive self-projection to author new life narratives.

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While each author’s text is solely the work of the Author, the images used to create this book’s illustrations have been sourced by various print publications. Authors curate these images and then, using only their hands, manipulate the images through tearing, folding, layering and careful positioning. By applying these collage techniques, Authors transform their written memoirs into illustrated books.

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The Prevailing of the Righteous Demell Govan

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They showed me two people’s pictures and asked if I knew them and I told them I see them on the wing every day. I see them getting frustrated at this point because they can’t get me, well should I say, trick me.

They say… well they is really one of the main IA dudes. His name was Adams. Well anyways, Adams says he got a number that they hear my name on or both of the dudes phone list who he showed me the pictures of.

Then he tells me that they opened up the C grade wing and if I don’t want to end up over there, stop using other peoples pin numbers and he also said he wasn’t going to write me up. I told him I ain’t know nothing, I just wanna do my time as smoothly as possible and he tells me it’s all up to me.

In my mind I’m telling myself that I just dodged a ticket, so I’ma fall back on using other dudes pins. Man, next day early I get a typed up ticket from Adams. I tell myself since he went against his word and still wrote me up, I’m still finna use the other dudes pins, so I come back from lunch, put a popper in the cell door, and when the top side dayroom came out, I popped out.

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He then tells me he’s going to the C-Grade Deck and that he is going to make my life a living hell. I tell him he can’t make my life a living hell because he don’t and can’t have control over my brain. In that instance, I felt boxed in, angry and disgusted. Not by him, but by myself because here it is, I’m following a continued pattern of rebellion against power-stricken authority figures.

Even though I know this dude is goofy, I’m feeling even more goofier than him.

As it happens, I’m on the C-grade wing two weeks later because of this ticket Adams wrote. Man, this C-grade wing is something different. No phones, no TVs in the cell, just all privilege is gone.

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Yeah these MFS finally decided to delete my old numbers from my previous bid but only when I got moved to the C-Grade wing. Now with me being on B-Grade on a regular wing, I feel like “fuck it,” so I start using other people’s pin numbers again and having people give me 3ways, but mostly 3ways. So three weeks in, here come Adams with his crew of IA buddies.

These mfs wait three weeks, just one week away from getting back to A-grade, and they give me not one, not two, not three but four major tickets. I go hear the tickets, and they found me guilty on all four, even the false trumped up charges for the three ways.

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At this time I’m in school for horticulture and I'm trying to get good time. The IA squad see my rebellion and attitude towards them as war and honestly I see it the same way, and I only see it this way because Adams told me that he was going to make my life a living hell. Now that I’m back on the C-grade wing, IA doesn’t want me back on a regular wing.

Man, when I tell you, it’s like they got an APB on me with all the C/Os. I started getting tickets for stupid shit like standing on the first step while waiting to go back to the wing from school. I lost 30 days good time for a minor ticket.

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At first IRCC was denying all of my grievances, so I learned that I had to mail them to Springfield after they get denied. On top of this, I started having my OG, brothers, and other loved ones calling the warden and calling Springfield because I was being targeted and was starting to get unjust treatment.

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ALL IN ALL ALWAYS STAND UP FOR RIGHTEOUSNESS, BECAUSE IT WILL ALWAYS PREVAIL!

Demell Govan I Am From I'm from Roseland From downhill in Granny's porch I am from backyard functions and BB guns I am from with shorties be our past curfew And don't hang on that corner, it's not for you From OG and Ms. Sturdivant From Mom and son is first date And from watch what you show cuz friends hate I'm from a hard head And from a smart ass I'm from Mind Over Matter I'm from blank yellow stares???

From Soul Food is the best food From Theresa's sacrifices and happiness I'm from stars shine in any scenery

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