The Gift God Gave Me by R Woods

The Gift God Gave Me

Ray “Top” Woods

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The Gift God Gave Me Ray “Top” Woods

I was 15 years old in 1990 and I named myself “High-Top”, then I went to “Hy-Top”, then ultimately “Top.” “Top” means: the highest part, point, surface, or end: The crown of the human head: The highest position or rank: The highest degree, pitch or point… Not knowing at that time, words stick, and I had named myself a place that I was going. At that time between the mid 80’s and early 90’s, the latest hairstyles were high-top fades. I had a tall one with peroxide coloring in it. It was like Kid and Play’s but better.

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I was young, cute and cool, that's what I was always told. I liked to dress fresh, I liked all the pretty girls, and I always wore cologne because your scent was everything. I started off wearing Aspen, then Joop, then Quorum. I smelled good to myself, so I could imagine what I smelled like to the ladies, especially after a shower “Woo.” I know I'm getting me a phone number. It was like I created my own way of doing things like nobody else did them.

I was different in a good way. I got my first job at Kilwin's Chocolate and Ice Cream at North Pier Mall. I was a fudge maker, big job. Plus I did everything else of course but I was the only one who had been trained in making fudge. So I was making money, in school dressing fresh. Everybody was wearing gold and I was like the only one wearing silver.

I was over the top, rings on each finger, bracelets, chains. I thought I was the flyest thing on two feet til one day at lunch while sitting with the popular kids, boys and girls.

A couple of guys started roasting people, you know signifying. One of the dudes said I looked like the tin man off the Wizard of Oz with all that silver on. Laughter erupted, even the nerds were laughing. I was like sick, destroyed. One of my wings had been clipped in mid flight, “Mayday, I'm going down”. There was no rebuttal or retort. I learned right then and there, gold was better than silver.

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So I went to the pawn shop on North Ave, Milwaukee and Damen and picked out 4 gold rings, a six point star, an anchor, an Indian head and then a letter “R,” then picked out a necklace with an anchor medallion, added two bracelets and a set of gold hoops for my ears. Put everything on layaway and started paying on it every other week and in six weeks I was down to two payments, when I saw that I said naw I’m spending my whole check to get my jewelry out because I was ready and couldn't wait no longer, so I spent my check and lunch money.

I was gon have to borrow some from moms and pops, but they knew why I was asking. So the pawn shop extra cleaned and polished my “J,” bagged it up and I took off. I had bought myself a fresh new Guess outfit and some Harachis for my feet. The next morning as I was suiting up for school, I was smiling because I had created for myself an attitude of gold. I felt different.

through it cuz when I made it to school and The gold had some type of energy radiating I heard the whispers. Then some girls was at my locker getting ready for 1st period, good” Talking about some “Don't you work approached like “Whats up Ray, you looking downtown?”

I was like “Thanks and yeah I work downtown.” Then I was asked if I was coming to lunch. I said “fo sho.” Lunch time came and I couldn’t wait but I was keeping it cool.

Once I got in there I stuck to my routine and got in line, got my lunch with my Minute Maid in the can and walked to the table. Everybody was there, same crew. All eyes were on me, smiles and fake smiles. People got to sayin “I see you.” This was my first time buying gold and hadn’t realized that I had gone over the top because the gold I had on was twice the size as what everybody else was wearing. Dudes were like “Damn, how much you pay for this, for that?” The girls were like “Do you still got my phone number?” It was on from there.

Everything I wore the jewelry with made it pop. It was a great school year.

Then in the Summ er of 1993 I receiv ed my first felony and was set free. arrest. I got an I-bo Soon after that, I nd ca ug ht an ot bond and they pu her felony case w t me on electronic hile out on Imonitoring. I bond School was startin ed off house arre g back and I was st. going back a seni or.

I was excited. I had stepped my entire style up. Upgraded “J” and gear and my hair style.

School started and everybody was looking fly. I got one month in before I caught another drug case out on two bonds. It was over. No getting out.

Jagged my senior year. No graduation, no prom. Sitting in the county jail, no bond. I had a new girlfriend with an out of state I.D. and she could visit me everyday. Back then your visitors could bring you white shoes, t-shirts, socks, underwear and my books was loaded. I had fresh everything and was admired and envied because I got visits like crazy. She was coming after work before work and phone calls, so the support was great.

After a few months of going back and forth to court I ev entually copped out and for three drug cases I was senten ced two years, three years and three years, a total of eight years. But the deal wa s if I completed the four mo nths boot camp down state Dixon Springs, I could go ho in me.

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The officers were on business. P.T. (Physical Training), jogging, Sir yes sir, Sir inmate Woods request permission to speak sir. In your face all day calling you names like “dingle berry” and “maggot.” 120 days of hardworking days, cutting down trees with chrome axes, getting stung by wasps. Kill an insect, you got to bury it. Spit on the ground you, you got to wipe it up with your bare hands and put it in your pocket.

I got my G.E.D and my body was in order. I went in 5’9”, 145 lbs and came out 6' 2”, 185 lbs. On my outdate, the bus ride was crazy long. I left at 8am and my bus pulled in at the Greyhound station about 7pm. I had on a white button up, some brown dickie pants with no belt and some white cheerleading shoes known as “white girls.” I had no hair on my face, boot camp cut hairstyle. As I was getting off the bus my girlfriend was standing there with her cousin and they had balloons, teddy bears and two blunts.

I had never smoked anything like that because all I was used to was top papers and that was a new thing. I was happy to see them but not those blunts. I wasn't going to smoke because I knew better. I had to report to the work release center because I had 90 days to do there as a part of my release agreement. After the hugs and kisses we rode to the work release center because I had to go straight there.

So I went to Bolingbrook because that's where the ir offices were located. sat down with a represen Once I arrived, I tative and we spoke and I signed a couple of confi Then there was a fee be dentiality forms. cause it cost them to run my idea through the data sure it has not been creat base to make ed already. That cost alm ost $1000.

I checked in and did my 90 and once released I mo ved in with my girlfriend roommates. That lasted and her 3 for a couple of months un til we all split up and we Me and my girlfriend mo nt our separate ways. ved to Cabrini Green pr oje ct s wh er e my mother, sisters and step were already living. I ha d my own room there. Th dad en on ce the re after a while, I plugged the building we lived in, in with 1340 known as “The fabu lous 40.” It was now 199 little ideas and was very 4 an d I had always had creative, but this time I ha d come up with an inven say “I’m about to do this,'' tion that made me and so I got up with a co mpany called “Invention s Submission.”

After that was completed, I came back because they wanted to talk. You see, you could either sell the idea to them or go all the way. Well I was offered a number that I felt was an insult. Because I was young, they thought I was slow. So I turned down the offer and walked out with my idea and my confidentiality forms because with that they could not steal my idea. For some reason I just gave up and moved on to other things.

There was a dude who liv ed in our building, rather grew up there, and all th him. To them he was a ne e guys knew rd-like guy. But I met him and started talking to him out that he was into mu and found sic, rapping and making be at s.

He as ke d and I said “I mess around me if I knew how to rap a bit.” He said “Let’s write on e,” so we Then he told me he had did and we recorded it. a homie that shoots video s an d he as ked me if he could shoo video in the projects be ta cause he wasn't plugged lik e I wa s, so I said “The guys ain’t trip” and “I’ma let them gon know.”

So I’m telling the guys “We ‘bout to shoot a video, bring out cha whips”. I'm telling them to tell the ladies we need them. I'm even telling them too.

So when the day comes, it's nice outside. Once the camera man shows up, I guess people thought I was bull-shittin, because they were surprised. Then they saw how we were dressed and all the equipment. The guys started to get in motion. My rap partner had called one of his home-girls over. She wasn't even from our projects and she came to shake her stuff. The girls from our projects was not ready, they needed to do this and do that. Time was money because the equipment was only available to us for a certain amount of time. We had to get busy, and we did.

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Once I got my close homeboy on board it was “all systems go.” We had 2 rap groups, 1 male singing group and 1 female singing group. We had promised every group $500 for the first show they performed. We found a promoter. We were giving this guy money for posters, flyers, and our mini tour. I saw the posters and flyers with our pictures and names. I was like “Hell yeah, its about to go down.”

Our first sh o w w a s in Clar big ass t ksdale M o u r b u s. ississippi T h is shit feeli a t th e C from Chic n larksdale g a go. W e real. All Auditoriu b o o f u t to se n o u r a c ts w ere p e m. We d o d Clarksd a re re a d rforming n e re n t e y in a a le t n he evenin d excited auditoriu da to th e a u g m , ditorium plus we time. The up . O ur p c w e w ere o t e ming rip was lo ople wer a m p ed . e pumpe n g, s o w Th e d o o r e d . r e W s t ed u p . e s we re o Once we p e n to th pulled up e audito rium.

As we got off the bus I saw our posters everywhere, but, it wasn't a soul out nowhere, so we looking like W.T.F. Where is everybody? So we started unloading thinking “Well they're coming.” So as we got finished, I was standing outside talking to my partner, because me and my homeboy had put up all the money to make this happen and all our guys from our building had came out to support us. I immediately said. “This Mutha-Fucka played us.” My man’s was like “Yup.” So now we calling his phone, no answer. 30 calls, no answer. It's official. He got us.

So while we standi ng outside the au ditorium smoking down, 6 black pret some weed, having ty country girls ca a drink to calm me walking up the “ladies whats up.” block and came to They was like “Hey us. I was like, who is y’all.” I was perform for y'all. Yo like “We from Chica u see us on the po go, we came to sters that's all over like “We live here the place.” Ole gi and these posters rl and nem was just got put up to yesterday” I was lik day because they e, “These posters was not here were supposed to be up 2 weeks ag o”.

Ole girl them w as like “Our wh ole town would She said “Anyt have been here hing that's hap if that happen pening like this ed.” coming.” So I sa for Clarksdale id “Our bogus , C la rk sd a le is ass promoter p here, yall want layed us.” So o to perform for le g ir l w as like “We us?” I said “Fuc to get on the st k it, because o age.” I looked u r g ro u p s was ready at it like, this is stage. We had our group's 1st rented the aud ti m e a bout to be on itorium, so we gone use it.

So the ladies took to the seats and we put on a show as if the place was packed. I have to admit, we did our thang. The ladies was going crazy, clapping, screaming and having fun. It was fun. At the end the girls was like “Damn yall did real good, our whole town would have loved y’all, can y'all come back next week, cuz we gon tell everybody.” Then we was like “Naw we done lost too much money.” The bus, the equipment, the auditorium, the acts, the outfits.

We were drained mentally because we trusted somebody and got played. So we went to a hotel because we were leaving in the morning.

The dude we did business with lived in Mays, Mississippi, not too far. So the next morning me and my mans got up early and drove to Mays. We pulled up to his mothers house and she answered the door. We came to hurt the guy, plain and simple, but when his mom opened the door she was so sweet, talking about some “Baby, y’all have some breakfast.” You can smell it coming out the door. Damn it smelled good. The answer was like “Yes ma’am we would love some.” Red hot sausage links, scrambled eggs, biscuits with syrup and white rice. A Bomb!

Her son wasn't home but he gave us his mothers address. Dirty Dog. We had to chalk it up as a loss. We went back home. Me and my mans were salty, but everybody else had fun. They actually wanted to do it again. I was really with it myself but my homeboy was out and I wouldn't have been able to pull the funds needed to do it by myself, so it was over. At the same time I was battling an illness so physically I was exhausted and mentally debilitated.

(But that's a whole nother story coming shortly after this one). The projects got closed down shortly after we moved to the South Side of Chicago, the Englewood area.

I started a social club called “The Boopa City Boys (BCB)”. We had the playboy club house and it went down. Then from that, 3 years later I founded a social club called “Chi City Elite Bosses.” At that time social clubs were the thing. Then I got arrested for gun possession, bonded out , then caught another gun case out on bond. I left 2011 of December and was released January of 2020 but during tha t time I came up with 25 inventions.

I had been writing, designin g and dating them. So in 2021 I chose one and said “I’m finna do this.” I got wi to myself th a company that was ba se d ou t in Pittsburg and met a cool named Carmen. A guy na guy med Carmen, crazy right?

We went through the routine of searching the database for it or anything like it and we found something like it, but my version was much better.

So we got to talking money. I paid the initial fees, then I started working on the money for my prototype. When I got down to $12 ,000, I got arrested. I was chasing tha t money. But I was exercising my right to bear arms so here I am in jail. My invention was sch eduled to be in every classroom on earth. My inventio n would have been in that Texas classroo m where that gunman killed our 19 children and 2 teachers and it would have saved som e if not all.

But I got myself arrested. But this is the amazing part.

Getting locked up this time is the best thing that happened to me. Why I say that? Because after doing a rough 18 months, a pastor came to the tier I was on, and was asking if anyone wanted to come to the Christian tier. For some reason I went out and talked to him and I signed up. Everybody that signed up they came and got them a week later. I was like damn what about me and my cellmate because he signed up too. They came and moved us to the old man tier and we sat there for 1 ½ months. Then one day they came and said pack it up, you going to I-J, the Christian tier. I was like okay. Then once I got there I was a little apprehensive because somebody had started working on me with their belief and had almost got me. But I say God saved me because He plucked me up in the nick of time.

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Oh yeah in 2019 I learned to paint using acrylic and oil paint. So creating in many ways is my gift. I included some pictures of my paintings, check me out.

Ray Woods I Am From I'm from Logan Square and Cabrini Green From diverse neighborhoods and tall buildings I am from playing Ms Pac-Man and Nintendo Battling mom and stepdad for the high score I am from when food didn't make it to the end of the month My mom had credit at the corner store And my sisters sat on the couch with their pillows rocking back and forth I am from a black girl from Mississippi and a black boy from the city From where my Mama gave me my first joint And from she said if it don't smell like that, or taste like that, Step away cuz it's a lace joint I'm from if you ain't got nothing good to say about a person, don't say nothing at all From treat people how you want to be treated From Matthew 6:33, seek first His kingdom and His righteousness And all these things will be given to you I'm from Chicago, born at Michael Reese Hospital From turkey dressing, beef neck bones, White potatoes and green beans, sweet potato pies and iced tea From my favorite girl in the world Ms. Vernacie E. Woods aka Ms. Chocolate, rest in peace I'm from a strong black woman who taught me loyalty And cook with love And loved her children unconditionally

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