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Li ke ma nypeopl e , I ’ m nos t r a nge rt oa ba ndoni nga r t i s t i cpu r s u i t s .So,t omys u r pr i s e , If ou nd mys e l fde l i ght edatmye nt h us i a s mt ogobeyondt hefi r s ti s s ue ,whe nIr e a l i z edt hatt he r e wa sac ha nc ewewe r ec r e at i ngs omet hi ngs pec i a l he r e .

Toa l lt hos eoutt he r ewhos t r uggl ewi t hget t i ngwor dsonapa ge , phot osi nac a me r a ,a nd pa i ntonac a nva s— Igetyou .

I ’ ml uc kye nought obedoi ngt hi sa l ongs i deawonde r f u l l y c r e at i vec oedi t or ,a ndwea r el uc kye nought obeatt her ec e i vi nge ndofyou rc ont i n uous s u ppor t .

Fort hi si s s ue ’ st he me“ br e a k” ,Va ni aa ndIponde r edwhatwou l dma kea ne nt i c i ngs ec ond i t e r at i on.Thedec i s i ont ona meou rfi r s tt woi s s uesont hez i ne ’ sna mes a kewa sf r om t he get go, butbeyondt hat ,weha dnoc l uewhatwou l dbet hef oc ust hi st i mea r ou nd.

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Thec onc l us i onwec a met oi st hei de at hatwegot h r ought hemot i onsofl i f ewi t houtl i vi ng i nt hemome nt ,a ndt ooof t e nwel ookba c kf ee l i ngbi t t e r s weeta boutt het i mesi nou ryout h t hatpa s s edt ooqu i c k l y.Aswebega nbu i l di ngaz i nea r ou ndt hi st opi c ,i tbec a mee a s i e rt o dr aw pa r a l l e l sbet wee nt heve r yf ee l i ngt hatwewa nt edt oc a pt u r ewi t ht hepr oc es sof ma ki ngi t .

Ma nyt ha n kst omyf a mi l y,f r i e nds ,a ndc owor ke r swhos ha r eda ndpr a i s edou rfi r s ti s s ue .

Tha n kyout oou rc ove rmode l , Me l i ,a ndmys i s t e r , I ngr i d,f orbu i l di ngt hi st he me ’ svi s ua l s t or y.You rs u ppor tma kesove r c omi ngmyc r e at i ver ut se a s i e r ,a ndI ’ mi ns pi r edt okee p goi ngf ora sl onga swec a n.Andt oou rde a rr e a de r s , Ihopet hatt hi si s s uer e mi ndsyout o t a keas t e pba c ka ndr eflectonyou rownl i ves ,t oo, maybef oral i t t l ewhi l el onge rt ha nyou us ua l l ydo, bef or ec ont i n u i ngt omoveonwa r ds .

-Audr ey, Edi t or i n Chi ef

Ik now I ’ m nott hefi r s tpe r s ont ofi ndas por t sa ni mea soneoft he i rkeymet a phor sof gr owt h, nora m It hefi r s tvol l eyba l l pl aye rt of ee lt hi s , butIt r u l ya m ve r yat t a c hedt o Ha i kyuu! ! .

Ihaveapl ayl i s tt i t l ed“ gr owi ngpa i ns ”wi t has c r ee nc a pofHi nat a ’ sba c k, mi da i r , poi s edt os pi ke ,a st hepl ayl i s ti ma ge .

Ic a n’ tt e l lyouwhet he rt hes pi ket hatf ol l owss uc c eeds orf a i l s , bec a us et hei ma gehol dsequa la mou nt sofhopea ndu nc e r t a i nt y.Andi fgr owi ngu p does n’ tf ee l l i keba r r e l i ngi nt ol i f ewi t hnoi de awhatc omesnext ,t he nwhati s?

Aswegr ow,wec ha nge ,a ndwel os ea smuc hofou r s e l vesa swega i n.Wea r emol ded onc ebyt heha ndst hatr a i s eus , buti ti sou r s e l veswhomus tc hi s e la ndc r af tou rowni ma ge i nt obe i ng.The r ei sabe a ut yt ot hi sc oexi s t e nc eofl os sa ndga i n,a ndIt hi n kt hati s s omet hi ngAudr eya ndIt r i edt oc a pt u r ewi t ht hi si s s ue .

Ij us tt u r ned25a boutamont ha go ( maybemor et ha nt hatwhe nt hi si spu bl i s hed) ,a ndt houghIexpe r i e nc el i f eal ots moot he r a ndge nt l e rt ha nIdi dj us t5ye a r sa go, Is t i l l hol dac e r t a i nbi t t e r s weetnos t a l gi af ort heme t hatexpe r i e nc eda ndf e l tl i f es os t r ongl y.Ass t r e n uousa ndpa i nf u lgr owt hmaybe ,t he r ei s a l waysaneve r dyi nghopet hatwec ha ngef ora ndc ha s e .

I t ’ st hi shopet hatbr i ngsbe a ut y t oc hee kst hatr edde nf r om r u n ni ngt oof a s t , k neest hats c r a pef r om f a l l i ng,a ndf eett hat s or ef r om s t a ndi ngu pa ga i n.

Whe nAudr eya ndIfi r s tdec i dedonus i ng“ br e a k”a st het he mef ort hi si s s ue , Ia ppr oa c hedi t a se nc a ps u l at i ngs u bt l ePer ksofBei ngaW a l l flowermome nt s .Af t e rs ee i ngou rwonde r f u l c ol l ect i onofs u bmi s s i ons , Iwa si ns pi r edt of oc usmyl et t e rf ort hi si s s uea r ou ndt hec ha nge t hatc omeswi t hgr owi ngu p.Weof t e nc ha nges omuc ha nds oqu i c k l yt hatwedon’ thave t hec ha nc et oc omme mor at ewhoweonc ewe r e .

Ihope ,a syour e a dt h r ought hi si s s ue ,t hat youc a ngi veyou r s e l ft hes pa c et oc e l e br at ea l lt heve r s i onsofyout hathavec omebef or e .

He r e ’ st ot hepr oofofhavi ngbee n,a ndc ont i n u i ngt obe .

-Va ni a , Edi t or i n Chi ef

us ual l y ,c h ang i ngme ansde s t r oy i ngwh at ' sal r e adyt h e r e .

HOW TO STEALACAR Wh e ny o u rb e s tf r i e n dc a l l sy o ui nt h emi d d l eo ft h en i g h t , l o n g a f t e rh i sd a d ’ sd r i v e ne n o u g hv e r b a l s t a k e st h r o u g hh i sb o d y , s n e a k i n t oy o u ro l d e rb r o t h e r ’ sr o o ma n df i s ht h ek e y so u to fh i sj a c k e t p o c k e twh i l eh e ’ ss n o r i n g .

Ev e r y o n ei so u t c o l ds oy o ud o n ’ two r r y a b o u tt h er o a r i n go ft h ee n g i n ea sy o ut e a ra c r o s st o wn , t h es me l l o ft h ee x h a u s t l e a k i n gi n t ot h ec a b i n .

He ’ sa th i swi n d o w wh e ny o ua r r i v e ,a n dh et h r o wsh i s b a c k p a c kd o wnt oy o ub e f o r ej u mp i n go u t h i ms e l f .

Her u f f l e sy o u r h a i ra n ds mi l e sg r a t e f u l l ya ty o u ,e v e nt h o u g hh i se y e ss a y s o me t h i n ge l s e , s o me t h i n gy o uk n o wh ewo n ’ tt a l ka b o u t .

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Wi ndow byPa ul i naHuynhNhu T h e r ei sawi n dow, wh e nt h ebu s t l eoft h eda y q u i et st oad r e a mys t i l l n e s s E a r l yev e n i n gr a y spe e kt h r o u g h , da n c i n ga c r os st h eh o me ma ded i s c oba l l , a n ds h owe r i n gt h es pa c ewi t hs pe c k sofgo l d Sof ts n o r e soft h es e n i o rS h i hT z u pe r c h e dde l i c a t e l yo nh e rot t o ma n , pr ov i dear e a s s u r i n gme l ody Age n t l er e mi n de roft h en e a r i n gt r a n s i t i o n f r o my o u rn i n et of i v e t oy o u rf i v et on i n e F o u rt of i v epm t h eda yi sy o u n g a n ds oa r ey o u .