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Beatrice Ferreira
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I' m spectator to a melodrama of thoughts in my head.
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as thoughts crowd my mind
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as thoughts crowd my mind and performatively " play out" - all the beliefs and worst-case scenarios.
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q=60
EXHALE (20 seconds) breath out, no pitch
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INHALE (in time) breath in, no pitch
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3 4
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Intervention 1: Inhale as much as you are able and release your breath as slowly as possible until your are at the end of an exhale (appx 1 2 secs)
°& Soprano
EXHALE (free)
U >Y
Wait f
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3 4
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
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INHALE (in time)
EXHALE (free)
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f
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mp
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strum inside piano (if allowed)
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∑
3 4
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
° Viola B
EXHALE (free) bow purfling
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INHALE (in time) upbow bow purfling
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mp
3 4
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
Bassoon
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EXHALE (free) breath out without reed
I try to make my mind as still as possible
Dramaturg
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INHALE (in time) breath in without reed
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3 4
And keep it still for as long as possible
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∑
3 4
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
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EXHALE (free) scratch strings sideways w pick
q=60 Œ
INHALE (in time) other direction
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q=60
EXHALE (20 seconds) breath out, no pitch
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Y™
INHALE (in time) breath in, no pitch
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3 2
mp
Intervention 1: Inhale as much as you are able and release your breath as slowly as possible until your are at the end of an exhale (appx 20 secs)
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ing. p
3 2
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
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EXHALE (free)
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EXHALE (free)
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f
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∏∏∏∏∏∏
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mp
3 2
strum inside piano (if allowed) Piano
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∑
3 2
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
° Viola B
EXHALE (free) bow purfling
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INHALE (in time) upbow bow purfling
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mp
3 2
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs)
Bassoon
?
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EXHALE (free) breath out without reed
I close my eyes and shut off the outside world
Dramaturg
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/
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Œ
INHALE (in time) breath in without reed
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mp
3 2
I wait as long as I need to, until all thoughts pack up and go home
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∑
3 2
Intervention 1: Singer releases breath as slowly as possible (apx. 20 secs) EXHALE (free)
E
Guitar
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scratch strings sideways w pick
q=60 Œ
INHALE (in time) other direction
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3 2
8
F
conductor cues each instrument, and change of chord repeat until next cue
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repeat until next cue
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repeat until next cue
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repeat until next cue
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5th conductor cues each instrument
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repeat until next cue
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repeat until next cue
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