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Poems by L. Murphy

Dreams aren’t reality

Some say everything that’s too good to be true isn’t what it really is, now is it? Some people daydream a lot— in too deep into the dream one starts to think that they are actually there. See, dreams aren’t reality. Some of us wish they were, but life wasn’t fi xed that way. See, too deep into a deep sleep can be harmful or maybe deathly. Remember the old saying, when someone is falling in their sleep whether from a building or a cliff and while you’re sleeping and fall off your bed and hit the fl oor you die. It never happened to me personally and I hope it never does. In that case, dreams can be reality. You know, on the other side of this dream thing, if you’re living right, you have nothing to worry about, right? So remember the Ten Commandments: Thou shall respect thy parents…. So the next time your mother asks you to eat all of your vegetables, do so, OK? So sweet dreams And good night.

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Staying put right here right now

I usually wake up with an urge of any kind— “the urge” meaning a drug of any kind. Feeling, tasting, in a zone out of mind and body, for a brief minute or fi ve, at the least. What’s come over me? I’m not even doing a drug of any kind. Am I still a user? Not physically, but mentally, or is my brain telling me that I have a choice?—Wow! It’s hard staying put right here, right now. Staying put, right here, right now.

I’m overfl owing with many thoughts in my mind. Am I on the verge of a breakdown? Forgive me, mind, for I sometimes don’t know what I want to do, but for now I’m staying put right here, right now.

L. Murphy

L. Murphy

Painless feeling

Painless feelings— is there suicide in the making? Thoughtless ideals pointless memoirs memories not yet spoken of— endless causes. Only you, the person in question, knows the answer— what actually goes on in the mind of a person whose thoughts are nothing but brutal and fatal intentions. If there were an answer to this situation so many people would to this day be alive. Painless feelings— thinking of ending it all and for what reason? Unknown for now. Can medication prescribed by a doctor help? Who knows? Who really cares anymore? L. Murphy

Growing up to grow up

In order to be legal a person has to have legal documents to be a U.S. citizen. The same goes for underage drinking. You see, one has to be 21 years of age to do so in some states, you know or if you are a girl, 18 is the age to become a woman so to speak— for a man, 21 or 23. Once again, in some states how old one has to be to grow up is not the same— and once you’re there how long does it take to act grown? Remember the old saying, “I can’t wait to get old enough so I can move out”? Well, we are still saying that old saying, but we are already grown up— but why aren’t we grown yet? L. Murphy

OK, it came and went and I’m still here—why?

I know the Lord blessed me with many talents,

such as singing, drawing, oh and of course

my coming out to the world.

Saying, “Yes, I am a gay Black man and proud of it.”

Yes, I go through this ritual every day.

Talking to myself.

Wondering to myself.

Questioning the Lord about my existence. Maybe the answer is in front of my face.

Whatever it is, I don’t care. Use me, Lord, like a wet sponge, ’cause I want it all— meaning knowledge.

Let me absorb it. See, knowledge of bad news came from the media and for that we’re all to blame. Because only each person who went on going through this disease with the four-letter word knows about it better than anyone.

Forgive me for being so blunt about it.

I’m just tired of what he, she, they are saying about something that they don’t even know about.

Learning about AIDS and how to prevent it is the best weapon we all can share together as a race of different colors, OK?

L. Murphy

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