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©2010 AMOR FATI “Staying Warm by Neighbors Fire”/Cover: “Tribeca” by Bryton Goss (1976–2006) • Los Angeles | brytengoss.com


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Volume Two: The Disaster Issue

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. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . “Skipping Stones” by John Jajeh . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .“Top Dog” by Haikuhie Tataryan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Paintings by Caitlyn Folley . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .“Adam’s Apple” by Yvonne Zima . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . “Heather” by Leonardo Cesareo . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .“Butane” by Zoe Tambling . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .“Airtoons” by airtoons.com . . . . . . . . “The Infallible Exploits of the Triple-F Brigade” by Sipriano Almada . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Paintings by Bryton Goss . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .”A Photo” by Christine Rho . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .“The Leading Victim” by Joseph Rubenstein . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Untitled by Mari Sofia Beltrán . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .“As Far as the Eye Can See” by Daniel Schutz . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Art by Carrie Randolph . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Paintings by Moses X Ball . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .Paintings by Marie Thibeault . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .”The Inland Seas by Edward Dell” by Emily Keirnan

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©2010 AMOR FATI Dear Reader,

A few days before the inaugural issue of Amor Fati went to print, an earthquake devastated Haiti, killing thousands. We at the magazine, like the rest of the world, were profoundly affected and quickly recognized what the theme of our sophomore issue would be. Across the world, tragedies like the one in Haiti—or Chilé shortly after, Hurricane Katrina, the Gulf oil spill or the Tsunami of ‘05—make us take stock of our lives. A large part of that is realizing which events, to each of us, are truly disastrous. So we decided to ask what disaster means to Los Angeles.

Our city is no stranger to disaster. It seems like we’ve had a taste of it all: earthquakes, fires, riots, floods, and even a tornado that surprised the hell out of Long Beach a few months ago. Outsiders may think that botched boob jobs and the 101 traffic between 5 a.m. and 4 p.m. are the worst we have to contend with, but life ain’t always so easy for an Angelino.

We were sent tales of ruined weddings and birthday parties, clogged toilets, car accidents, gaping holes in the earth, and yes, spilled milk. Others shared memoirs of survival, envisioned the apocalypse from the top of a Ferris wheel, or chronicled the sport of losing one’s virginity at Disneyland. Even 826LA, a non-profit organization in Echo Park that supports L.A. younguns with their creative and expository writing skills, asked their 5th and 6th graders to tell us what disaster meant to them. Their answers? Insightful, heartbreaking and hilarious. You’ll find their faux haikus sprinkled throughout the magazine. All in all, we think we chose an eclectic set of stories, poems and visuals that represents a smattering of opinions on the subject. Most importantly, each piece harnesses a fresh voice and unique vision, which in the end is our number one goal.

Marquis de Sade, father of sadism, quotes, “Destruction, hence, like creation, is one of Nature’s mandates.” It’s all a part of the charade, we guess. So be careful out there, Angelinos. And remember to find joy in the ebbs and flows. Breathfully, Ed Itors

Michael Flores editor in chief

Aaron Garcia

Brit Laurén Manor

editor, editor, creative promotions director

Sam Wickham editor, publicity

Wilson Bethel

managing editor

John Jajeh

poetry editor

Monica Howe layout design


©2010 AMOR FATI skipping stones D

uring the summer I never had to wear a watch or look at a clock. But school broke the day into subjects and periods. Recess was a whiffle ball we knocked around for twenty minutes on the asphalt in salt-and-pepper pants sliding into first. Time took on features, the face of the clock,  the bell and hammer on the wall,  Miss Watson’s scissors banging out order on the desk, the shrill, steel ball of Sister Patricia Anne’s whistle. Each day she would call us back from the chaos of the game,  lifting her hands over us like the priest at Mass, who could perform magic with a cup and bread.

Everyone would fall into silent columns at her command. One look and she knew our thoughts, her gaze penetrating our minds and the sterile line we made with our lips.

Brett and I lift stones from the ground and skip them across the surface of the frog pond. It is late August,  the first week of school.  For ten minutes we don’t talk. The only sound comes from the stones dancing across the water,

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©2010 AMOR FATI Jajeh . East Hollywood

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and for a moment, everything seems holy, like candle flames shifting in colored cups on the alter at church. The sounds of the stones are the heels of the priest walking up the marble aisles, clutching a book, disappearing through a side door by the cross, as another stone slips through the veil of water. Sister seemed to be with us at the pond. Standing somewhere in the center, maybe on a lily pad, lifting both hands over her head, over us, like an apparition of one of the saints. We hope she will tell us God’s secrets: About the boy who was allowed to float up to the rafters and meet with Moses during the consecration of the host, or the girl who wiped the face of Christ off onto her towel. We wait, scratching out syllables on the circle of the pond, but she won’t talk. So we send her away on the count of of three with the weight of one huge stone and laugh. Glad to be rid of her. We climb the hill, heading home in our wet shoes. *    *     * We ignore the growl in our stomachs and the image of our mothers calling us home to dinner. Standing on the hillside behind the row of houses, we toss clumps of weeds and sod onto the patio below. They land upright, like a dropped cat.

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©2010 AMOR FATI “Heather” by Leonardo Cesareo • East L.A./Atlanta | leocesareo.com

Once there was a volcano. He burned people. People kept on dying. The volcano vomited lava. He screamed at people’s faces. People made marks on him. —Anthony Vasquez, age 9

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Š2010 AMOR FATI The balloons stayed. Without an endless sky above them, the people of the town had little cause left to wonder. The children no longer threw rocks, but rather sprayed the balloons with water to clean the dust from their surfaces. The adults no longer roiled in their sheets at night, kept awake by the churning and wailing of the sky. They fell asleep with empty heads. And in their dreams they saw the entirety of the heavens stretched out before them, vast and unknowable and not at all the same.

Art by Carrie Randolph • Topanga Canyon carrierandolph.carbonmade.com

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©2010 AMOR FATI Sipriano Almada: San Fernando Valley

Zoe Tambling: North Hollywood

Daniel Schutz: Pasadena

Haikuhie Tataryan: Los Feliz

John Jajeh: East Hollywood

Carrie Randolph: Topanga Canyon

Yvonne Zima: Hollywood

Mari Sofia Beltrán: Miracle Mile

Bryten Goss & Moses X Ball: Los Angeles

Emily Kiernan: Silver Lake

Christine Rho & 826LA: Echo Park

Leonardo Cesareo: East LA/Atlanta

Caitlyn Folley & The Bohemian Society: Downtown LA

Marie Thibeault: San Pedro

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is a quarterly digest featuring the works of Los Angeles writers, artists and creatives. In a city of disparate parts, our aim is to create an active platform for organic and challenging exchange that is not only reflective of this generation but brings a collective voice to an anomalous city.

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