い思考 |EntryII| N T R O L

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We crave control to make sense of the inconveniences that plague our daily lives. It is a strategy of those who think happiness is solely accessible to those who play the game the right way. But what starts out as a coordinated attempt to manage all things in front of us, turns into a nagging paranoia of the unexpected that shatters our confidence when things don’t go our way.

In my short time on Earth, I’ve attempted to control so much. I wanted to control the feelings people have for me, the positions available to me and even in writing this I’m attempting to control my expectations towards the nonsensical aspects of this life. I’ve given in to so much frustration and mental breakdowns over what I perceived to have command over. It legitimately frightens me to know that no matter my well thought intentions and smooth talking, some things simply slip through the cracks of what I can handle.