CREATIVE WRITING 33
people are characterized by their smallest actions, this difficulty of transferal describes the character that is me. Apart from showing that I have a mathematical mindset at times (I must admit, I like straight lines more than wonky ones), my attitude towards painting shows how, by looking at all the details, I don’t see all the details. I must always remember to forget to play artist. When I play lover, and I think of a perfect thing to say, I can never explain exactly what is on my mind. The thought circles my head a couple of times before it instantly becomes cliché to me, and I cannot recall any sense of innovation behind the idea itself. I need a constant reminder that it is natural, and not 33
composed – that it was created as a thought, and not a stain of someone else. By thinking of the perfect thing to say, I can say nothing. I must always remember, I must always remember to forget to play lover. As the waves boil over and the secrets of constant resurgence string together, its impossibility is all that much more declared. ш
‘Art isn’t about re-creation, but with re-creation I am a perfectionist’
PHOTOGRAPH BY JOE HONG