Habits
It is true that it is much harder to diet as a couple. We used to enjoy food so much that the two of us put on weight. Yet, over time the feeling of some physical discomfort from eating too much together became a burden. That was when my guilt for all the romantic feasts settled in as we no longer shared the small table in the kitchen let alone our bedroom. As I found myself alone again, I was in yet another crusade to recover some pride from my previous slimmer body and from another unfulfilled relationship. I tried my best to resist the craving for his attention via imagined long love emails and for sweet and greasy food, as a revenge for my lost love and still empty mail inbox. It is often in those cases that I am ready to eat some muffins as I love the consistency of those dark brown delights and the chocolate melting in my mouth. But it is sad to think about excluded foods compulsively after starting the latest fad diet. When on the Atkinson I found myself dreaming of carbohydrates, when braving a jungle of vegetables, I miss meat dearly, or fantasize about wine and beer when only water is to pass through my mouth for days on end. I also have been in a virtual night relationship with Dukan when during sleepless nights I asked questions about my protein intakes and subsequent craving for chocolate. Dukan understands and comforts me with his experience in dealing with other virtual sinners during his diet t stabilisation period. Then after a reasonable period of emotional balance brought by the feel good factor after standing up against tempting threats, sometimes I wonder if all the fuss was about nothing as I have an average weight and height. In a time of serious health issues affecting both the supersize and superskinny and belt tightening for most of us, it is good to put our issues with food, money and relationships into context. Now already in my pyjamas with the 8 o’clock news on am eating a small portion of food as part of my calorie counting diet. I like the variety of choice when counting calories at the click of a button on my Iphone app. Since I can eat anything my craving for different foods can be satisfied albeit in smaller portions. Yes, like any other craving I fantasise about larger portions, a better economic output and love and attention when the dusk and a craving settles in.
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