10 G A RN ET 2012
WA LT ER Mc COY Love, My Painful Choice Jessie Of all the time that I did spend with you Those days, I only felt the pain of such Awfully outstanding misery and The pain that comes with your maltreatment; your Attempts to advance your own self-loving. Three times I was told that all would be well; Three times I was treated with hostile blows: The blows to my face, with anger you struck; The blows to my brain, with words you lashed out; And striking my heart, took passion its turn ’Til all I had left: my heart, yours to yearn. But rather than repair that which you broke, Instead you dismissed me for the third time, Leaving me broken during the Yuletides; Unfulfilled promises: your gift to me. As a result, I turned right to my friends And shared with them the plagued tormented thoughts That drowned out hope and dreams for a better life. They traded those scares and gave life new light; Gave me new visions, new sources of joy. I spent a year without your influence, But then out of the blue, I got your post, Opened your letter, read over your words, Then realized I was faced with a choice: Take you back, or forget you forever? Afraid of you, I am, my love, because Of all the pain inflicted, of those pains Still felt, still haunting, still awakening From nightmares of your dominating fist. So I would safer live without your form Of hateful love, malice, and spiteful words. Yet still I love you, all bruises aside, And so, to take you back could mean, for me, That happiness I only feel with you. Yet with that joy there comes a price to pay: Exchanging friendship of my fellow souls That happiness I only feel with you. Yet with that joy there comes a price to pay: Exchanging friendship of my fellow souls