Fanzine Staff Editor in Chief ERIKA SWAN Editor SAIKAIANGEL Authors ERIKA SWAN SAIKAIANGEL Translators SARA HUI TZE TAY
CONTENTS
Official News
Gathering of all the Major news in these months Author: Erika
GACKT ITALIA FANZINE
Moon Soul cap. 4 Original story based on GACKT’s character, Yoshitsune Author: Angela
DEATH WISH Analysis of the song. All you need to know about it Author: Angela
Happy Birthday GACKT All the wishes for GACKT’s 42nd Birthday from all the LOVERS around the world. Raccolta: Erika Traduzione: Hui Tze Tay
CUBE Analysis of the song. All you need to know about it Author: Angela
GACKT x TOKYO PHILLHARMONIC ORCHESTRA Photo review of the GACKT x TOKYO PHILLHARMONIC ORCHESTRA 2014 Autrice: Angela
91° CAMUI GAKUEN DE MATOMENASAI Photo review of the GACKT x TOKYO PHILLHARMONIC ORCHESTRA 2014 Autrice: Erika
GACKT, Mitomi Tokoto and DJ WADAKEN to talk about the “GACKTracks – Ultra Dj Remix” We invited GACKT, Mitomi Tokoto and DJ WADAKEN to talk about the “GACKTracks – Ultra Dj Remix”
-GACKT, did you have already a passion for dance music? GACKT: If I had to decide between doing it or not, I wouldn’t. This is because it’s not a genre followed by my nature. But if I had to decide between using it or not, I would use it for sure now. Since I also like to go to the Clubs, I have always the desire to listen to it. , I have to say I’m respecting it a lot. I have to say it’s a special musical culture. Since a lot of time, me and the inhabitants of this earth, were wondering what feeling could make it so attractive. I never did dance music, however, I always had the feeling that’s something not so close to me. After all, musicians don’t like going to the clubs very much, and when they do they don’t enjoy it so much, eh? Anyway I go there very often. – so you’re saying that you’re close to the dance music? GACKT: I don’t know how much I can say I’m close to the dance music, but I don’t think it’s garbage. – VJ WADAKEN, Tokoto, what kind of idea do you have about GACKT?
Rock and dance music, it seems that there’s no wall dividing them, but there is. But,the moment to demolish it completely is arrived. The most famous musicians in Japan who are successful overseas too, managed to break down that wall and truth most beautiful GACKT’s songs, putting them into his new cd “GACKTracks – ULTRA DJ REMIX” that will be released on July 14th! 14 of the most important Japanese artists have been invited to join this project, like for example Taku Takahashi or DJ KOO from TRF, which are remixing the most famous GACKT songs in EDM. Despite the songs have lost their original essence, they have a new appealing sound and they could be appropriate to the dance floor with no doubts. Today, we invited Mitomi Tokoto e VJ-WADAKEN, who were involved in the new album recording, to speak about de charm of “GACKTracks – ULTRA DJ REMIX”, the news atmosphere created by their union and feeling that the new music is generating.
This is the first time in my career I’m going to do a video production work but, despite I have no experience with rock musicians, I can easily say that I had a good impression of GACKT. Mitomi Tokoto: In fact, I met GACKT four years ago in a club. And now I’m coming here to DJing. -And what did you think when you heard the remix? Mitomi Tokoto: I’m not very close to the rock genre…before being able to give an answer I studied very much this genre. I also saw all GACKT’s videos. Studying, I understood GACKT is a person with his own world. -Did you understand that during the Project? Mitomi Tokoto: I had that sensation about GACKT’s world while gradually I was approaching his melodies, it’s striking. And the fact that it’s his, got me very satisfied (ahah). Currently, I’m also working on the David Guetta’s remix from Paris, I think to be able to finish it soon too. -You’re too fast!
Mitomi Tokoto: It just happened! Since it came up on my mind just after the new production’s main body, I completed it in about 10 days. After that, I used it when I was DJing at Ageha. When the remix was ready, since I was ready for others DJs too, I play them right away in the clubs. I’ll play them at Ageha and at Club Camelot of Shibuya, I have to be necessarily fast! Maybe, if a NG came up in the Project, sorry everyone, but it would have been suspended. Was long as the project wasn’t completed, I had a cold feeling. But when it was finished n I heard the final result, I was really surprised. -What surprised you the most? GACKT: I was surprised in different parts, by their way to change the chord progression, and their approach to the tracks. Also, I was also surprised by their nature and their way to use the words. I have to say that I still have a lot of respect for DJs for the many ideas they gave to me. Among us they are a lot of people set out with the selling, and I must say the people not caring about this point are very few. This is absolutely wrong. I still think that, more than standing up in front of the people, is necessary to chal-
lenge ourselves. Even the DJs who participated with me, have experienced the same desire to create a new genre of music more than making money. I’d want to make the other musicians notice this kind of maturity, in order to give them an incentive. I think that the words: “Hold on!” doesn’t exist in this world. Even if you are able to stand up after a moment of ups and downs, it doesn’t mean that , trying to hold on, you can go on like this forever. If you think you can, you’ll end up falling down. I’d want make today’s rock musicians know all this. -VJ WADAKEN, you care about the remix music videos, but how was dealing with this project’s production? VJ WADAKEN: Even before, I saw on MTV, Space Shower or similar channels, GACKT’s videos, and while watching them I was learning the songs too. So, I started to think about how to prepare the videos and how to make the songs become. But the they were replaced. Everyone had different opinions, becoming two parts, the ones who were preferring the songs and the others that were trying to give a message. Fortunately, at the end of the project, my initial plan was completely overturned.
GACKT: The video was magnificent too. I’m pretty particular on this point, they are times in which a music video takes me completely, times in which it doesn’t. it’s very important that the project will turn out well, if it doesn’t it would risk to leave everyone with a bad taste in his mouth every time we are watching it. But this time, if I should have a feeling of sadness watching the videos, I would use it anyway. Whatever happens, I’m happy. This time the word “happiness” I think it’s the most suitable. VJ WADAKEN, in your opinion, what was your impression on the album? VJ WADAKEN: I think it’s full of various things. In the DVD what will be recorder, you can see the different expressions of GACKT, and you’ll be able to have a laugh. Rebuilding the music video that showed a new vision of the GACKT’s world was not the original intention. In fact, for a two seconds scene, we made changes that were lasting more than 30 hours, and I don’t know if we changed it correctly either (ahahah). But, since it shouldn’t be removed from this vision of the world, once I showed it to GACKT and he told me he liked it, I felt very relieved.
I would be really happy if our fans, seeing the original video of GACKT and my new job, they will see the differences and appreciate the changes.
that there are different ways to sing, and you can notice that too. Therefore, it’s a very serious and dramatic video. The remix has adapted on this atmosphere.
-Tokoto, when you approach a new remix work, what are your feelings?
-I understood what do you mean with dramatic.
Mitomi Tokoto: Normally, for a remix work, whatever it is, I’m not too 100% taken. Since there are other jobs, I can’t afford to do it cause they have to be ready as soon as possible. This time I thought I really could do it. GACKT is able to do things that nobody else are able to. So I felt the 90’s good feelings full of changes. I held firmly in mind the image of GACKT and the 90’s to approach this work. -Talking about the remix, about Japanese language, you often hear that is tough to make the metric etc… Mitomi Tokoto: I’m not an expert in Japanese language but all I do is listening to the music in Japanese language. For this reason, I don’t understand the meaning of the texts very well. This timem in the song called “OASIS” I just understood the title, studying the music video, I think
Mitomi Tokoto: Also because it was used for the blog, and through the BGN plug in in the movie. It looks like the Opening of Hollywood (hahaha) I don’t know what the listeners will feel, but I tried to recreate this atmosphere. So, I will try to recreate this atmosphere in the arena of Ageha. – GACKT your personality is dramatic. Do you think this description fits you? GACKT: For me, to be dramatic is dangerous. Because I love only for the pleasure (ahahah) This is a private story, since I just had only one brand advertising (Panther), I managed to call call even more DJs. And they have joined this opportunity more than expected. Since I have told all DJ “I won’t give you any order” from their point of view I may not have seemed so friendly. However, Since I was able to work side by side with them, I managed to turni it into a game. After this experience, they told me they had a lot
of fun, and after hearing those words, I felt respect towards them again. -Now that you approached the music video, do you think of making others alone? GACKT: I had a lot of ideas so far but, since I wanna make music alone, I want to focus on my projects only. I would try different approaches with a different band. But as time change, I have to say that I’ll start to think about it. I went on refusing offers so far, because I thought I wasn’t taken. In this project, since we are committed all together, I have to say that if I’ll have another situation like this in my private life, I’ll do it again for sure. So far I went in the clubs, I went to have fun where everyone was to listen to their voices. -On July there will be a release Party for the new cd, what do you expect from this? GACKT: I’ve always thought that release parties are something that allows you to feel free and like a customer. -Do you will have fun? GACKT: I’d want to have fun for real, it would be really nice (ahahah) Between concerts and clubs if I had to choose where to go, I would say the blurbs. The reason is that if I already make pop and rock music and I go to listen to it, it doesn’t amuse me. There’s not enthusiasm in it. Even if I listen to it, it doesn’t give me anything. If in the club there’s a good DJ, I can be free for real. I like that sensation. For this reason I prefer to go in the clubs. If in this Party there will be this atmosphere, I would be very happy!
Writer:Tadayuki Sugiyama Stylist (GACKT): ROCKEY Hair & Make-up (GACKT): たなべこうた Source: iflyer.tv Translation: GACKT ITALIA Team © GACKT ITALIA
2015「90° Kenshin Festival」 Conferma della presenza di GACKT
2015「90th Kenshin Festival」Confirmation of GACKT Kenshin Kick-Off Regarding the 90th Kenshin Festival, the information below has been confirmed. As for the event details, as they have yet to be confirmed, please check out the homepage for subsequent updates. – Event date 2015, August 22nd（Sat）- 23rd（Sun） (Eve of festival August 21st (Fri)) The Kick-Off Procession and the Re-enactment of the Kawanakajima Battle, is scheduled for August 23rd（Sun）. – Venue Kasugayama Castle - Kasugayama Castle Historic Square - Joetsu City Hall Kasugano Carpark and others – Guest As per last year, GACKT-san will be appearing as a guest. On August 23rd （Sun）, he will lead the Uesugi Army as Lord Kenshin for the main events of the Kenshin Festivals, the Kick-Off Procession and the Re-Enactment of the Kawanakajima Battle. With regards to GACKT-san’s appearance times, it will be confirmed in the days leading up to the event. For subsequent updates, please refer to the homepage. – What is the Kenshin Festival The「Kenshin Festival」is a festival that has been held since 1962 in honor of the valor and outstanding virtues of Joetsu City’s hero, Lord Uesugi Kenshin. Warriors dressed in armor, and armed with weapons will carry out the gallant Kick-Off Pro-
cession. Packed with attractions, there will be strategic points in the route for special performances or battle cries, along with a Children’s Warrior Kick-Off Procession. In addition, moving around with the Uesugi Army and the Takeda Army, the Re-enactment of the Kawanakajima Battle progresses like a cinematic story with strategies and battle patterns which creates a compelling realism. There are also other full-scale events which you will not catch anywhere else, and have enraptured visitors over the years.
For inquiries regarding this page Tourism Promotion Department 〒943-8601 Joetsu City, Kida 1-1-3 Tourism Promotion Department Tel: 025-526-5111 Fax: 025-526-6113
Source: city.joetsu.niigata.jp Translation: GACKT ITALIA Team © GACKT ITALIA
GACKT & Shoei, “Wake-up Call Showdown” at the bedside of Madam Dewi The web promotion 「Emodo」for the special function in SHARP’s smartphone,「AQUOS」 has started. Today, 4 June, the project announcement event was held in Tokyo, and the promotional characters, GACKT, Mrs. Dewi, Shoei, and Esupa Ito were present on stage. 「Emopa」 is an onboard function that uses messages that are aligned to the user’s feelings and interacts with the user by sound or images. The current campaign shows the actors having fun using 「Emopa」in short movies. In the first half of the event, GACKT and Shoei took on the role of Mrs. Dewi’s Emopa, and showed off their improvisation skills. Mrs. Dewi’s request was「As I’m bad at waking up every morning, I would like to be gently woken up」. Following her request, GACKT softly said「The morning’s warm rays of sunshine has shone in, they match you very nicely」 and 「Good morning, you’re looking beautiful today as well. Please do wear that wonderful smile for the rest of your day」, and moved Mrs. Dewi. However, Shoei who came next passionately cried out 「It’s about time to wake up! If you don’t wake up soon you’ll be late! Wake up and let’s do sit-ups!」, and ended up upsetting Mrs. Dewi who said「Such a wake-up call is the worst!（laughs）」. In the middle, Emopa Ito arrived wearing a
「Emopa」 suit but, he who is bad at remembering his lines got rebuttal after rebuttal from Mrs. Dewi, who said「What are you mumbling about!」「Please speak up with more energy」, while GACKT and Shoei say by with bitter smiles. While wrapping up the event, GACKT commented 「This series is still being continued, and there are still scenes to film but… … there is a pretty interesting end to it, so I hope that everyone looks forward to it」and promoted the project again. 「Emodo」’s short movies will be released from
today, 4 June, on their site. At present, you may enjoy 3 films featuring GACKT and Shoei, who attended the event, and Hanazawa Kana.
Source: Natalie.mu Translation: GACKT ITALIA Team © GACKT ITALIA
CUBE I closed my eyes and looked up to the sky And kept dancing barefoot Leaning against the wind... I closed my eyes and looked up to the sky And kept dancing barefoot Leaning against the wind... An arrow pierces my breast I touch it with my fingertips and it shows me the way The blood-red moon melts my skin Attempting to reveal my true self To pay for all my sins It says, “I’m burning your body, so become your true self” The silver trees corrode my copper-colored body My heart, which should feel no pain, feels joy Can you see me? Even in this locked-away world My voice should reach you Can you see my heart? I won’t let you go again So return me to this empty box... Detach my memories through the sealed cracks in the clouds I’ve already said farewell, but my body is crying in sorrow Can you see the pieces of me? Even in this locked-away world My prayer should reach you Have the tear tracks disappeared? I can’t return again So please destroy these fragments of memories Can you see me? Even in this locked-away world My voice should reach you Can you see my heart? I won’t let you go again So return me to this empty box...
the beginning, I think is one of the songs where GACKT feel clearly his down vocal extension almost inhuman and he doesn’t spare us many quite sensual sighs, but then why should he do it? In the recorded track instead, GACKT pushes his voice up, Cube is a song that it’s a showcase for his extension, in addition to his always wonderful interpretation. One of my favorite Live interpretation is from the Drug Party of 2006. GACKT concert opens with Cube, standing with open arms, lowering as it approaches the time to start singing, in a mechanical way and in the same way moves his head, looking away.
For this issue we have Cube. I’m very happy but also excited, because it’s one of my favorite songs. Cube is the B side of Kimi no Tame Ni Dekiru Koto 2001 single and it is still revived in the Live Version in the Single Returner of 2007. Still, the despair of a distant love... A love that you absolutely want to reach, with the voice and with prayers. The title Cube it refers to the empty box mentioned in the text, then a cube. If we were to imagine locked in a cubic box, probably the first thing that would come to mind would be the monotony. Each side is equal to another, so the corners, the cube. No emotion, no news, no surprise... As if life had become something from that you can’t expect anything more. I think this is the meaning of the cube. GACKT often faces the topic of lost love, in which he turns prayers and despair, a topic that is certainly very heartbreaking, but he does so often with music that is completely at odds with the text. Again, this heartbreaking poetry where you feel the pain of a love that pierces the chest like an arrow and a body that makes you cry, is accompanied by an addictive and frenetic musical carpet. Very rock, with the intertwining guitars really fascinating. His voice reaches notes very low at
We can definitely find an ancestor of ZERO in this interpretation. GACKT, very often, when he deals with the theme of love, he has the coldness of the cyborg, not because he doesn’t want to show his feelings, but for the fear of letting them go completely. I think he’s one of the few artists that deals with the theme of love in this special way, with his dualism, his contrasts, the coldness of not fully let them go for not to suffer. This makes him unique, absolutely. All the Live Cube’s interpretation in the Drug Pa it’s enhanced by robotic movements interspersed occasionally by intense moments, with a pained look that looks at his hand. GACKT is a cyborg with a soul.
We are used to artists that when they sing the pain of love the do it in a very melodramatic way, weeping, despairing and we also find so theatrical interpretations by GACKT, but sometimes I think he wants to give the idea of the pain that CANCEL and it can be content only with the total shutdown of the sensations and feelings. The cyborg. To be sure, his voice in the chorus isn’t very natural, is quite artificial, all to emphasize the coldness as a weapon of defense against Love, probably too painful. This track involves me completely, because I believe that in its complexity it is complete. It has everything, an engaging music, a touching text, a nice extension at the top and bottom, very tender feeling and protection by himslef, making a shield with the iciness of the cyborg. It is also perfect as a start for a concert, it can give the right boost. As I said at the beginning, Cube is one of my favorite songs of GACKT for completeness and sensations that can give me the interplay of elements that characterize it, My advice? Right away, everyone watching Cube, Drug Party 2006!
Dear GACKT-san with this drawing I’d want to wish you a wonderful Birthday! You gave me a new life, you gave me a new reason to go on, you gave me a new strength to throw myself in a new adventure that’s called GACKT Italia - The end of Silence. It’s a journey I’m sharing with wonderful people, we are working together to always be on the news and spread your music, your words everywhere, cause they deserve to be heard by everyone. You’re special, you’re a light that’s showing me the way to be happy everytime I open my eyes, you did it years ago…you’re doing it every moment. There’s not a moment you’re not giving me life, you’re not giving me a thrust to believe in dreams. I don’t care if someone is saying that I’m a dreamer…you taught me to believe in dreams, you taught me that everything will be ok, somehow…so, I trust you every day. Don’t leave me alone neither for a second, just go on being my muse, my dream, the wonderful Artist, the wonderful Man I’m proud of. Happy Birthday, GACKT-san… Buon compleanno GACKTさんへ この絵で、お誕生日おめでとうございます！ あなたは私に新しい 生命を与えまして、私に継続するの新しい理由を与えまして、私 にこの新しい冒険、GACKT Italia - The end of Silenceを開始するた めの力を与えました。私は素晴らしい人々とこの冒険をしていま す。私たちは一緒ニュースを監視します。あなたの言葉があふれ ています。誰もが聞かれるべきですから。あなたは特別です。目 を開くとあなたは私にどうやって幸せになるを示すの光です。何 年前にそうしてくれました… 今もいつもそうしています。あなた は私の命を与えていない瞬間がありません、夢見たい気持ちを与 えていない瞬間がありません。他の人が私を夢想家と呼んでも、 気にしていません... あなたが私に夢に信じることを教えました、 すべてが大丈夫になると教えましたから、何か…毎日あなたに信 頼します。だから私をひとりに残されないでください。私のミュ ーズ、私の夢、その素晴らしいアーティスト、私は誇りに思うの 素晴らしい男のままで続けていてください。 お誕生日おめでとうございます、GACKTさん… Buon compleanno (Happy birthday)
SaiKaiAngel - Milan
For all the times I was down and you were with me, for all the times you made me smile with your words and actions, for all the times you gifted me with a new breath and a new life, for everything you did and still do for me, I want to wish you Happy Birthday from the bottom of my heart. I’ve never been so proud in my whole life and I am proud to share this life with you, I’m proud of you and of everything you’ve done and you still do for me and all your LOVERS around the world. I’m happy to be able to share my life, joys and also the sad moments with you cause I have one constant throughout all these years and all my life, and that constant is you. I wish you all the best and all the love in this world and I promise you I will always do everything in my power do give you happiness and to make you smile, from far away. Happy Birthday GACKT-san. I love you with everything I have. 寂しい時私のそばにいて、あなたの行動と言葉で私に笑顔を与え る時、私の人生に新たな息をくれる時、今まで私のためにやった こと、すべてあなたに感謝したいです。心からお誕生日おめでと うございます。私の人生の中にこんなに誇りに思ったことはあり ません、そしてあなたとこの人生を共有できることに嬉しいで す。 私はあなたの私と世界中のLOVERSのためにやったこととま だやっていることをとても誇りに思っています。 私に人生に唯一 の変わらないものはあなたです。この人生のすべてのいいこと、 悪いことをあなたに共有できることで嬉しいです。 私はあなたのすべての成功を祈ります、たくさん愛を祈ります。 私はあなたと遠くはなれていますが、あなたに幸せを与えるため に、何でもやると約束します。 お誕生日おめでとうございますGACKTさん。 私の全てで愛しています。
Erika - Milan Happy Birthday GACKTO SAN. Than you for everything, thank you for your voice, for your songs. Thank you so much, Really. Thank you for everything you did. Your voice is amazing. I love you so muchb お誕生日おめでとうございますGACKTさん。やったことを、声 を、音楽を、ありがとうございます。 ありがとうございます、本 当に。全てやったことをありがとうございます。 あなたの声はすごいです。 あなたを本当に愛していますb
Lara* - Chan - Milan
Joe - Milan
And I find myself to celebrate again for another year this special day. I’m glad to be a fan of yours, because you have many qualities that make you unique: you are not just a singer for me and for all of us, but you’re a medicine, a pantry of emotions, and you know, even a bucket of ice water ! Why? Because you’re a realist, not only write love songs, but you observe meticulous detail of what surrounds us and help us to reflect. Thank you for everything, your words teach me new things ... Don’t ever change, I wish you all the good in this world, I wish that all the old and new dreams come true, because you deserve it !! I want to see you smile, because your smile is one of the most beautiful I’ve ever seen. GACKT Happy Birthday! With love また今年もこの特別な日を祝います。あなたのファンでいて嬉しいです。独特のあなたはたくさん 特徴を持っている：私たちにあなたは芸能人だけでなく、感情のパーティボックス、そして、あな たも冷たい水です！なぜと聞いたら、あなたは現実主義者ですから。ラブソングを作るだけでな く、あなたも私たちの周りに起こっている事を細部まで気付いていて、そして私たちに自分自身を 振り返ることも教えてくれました。いろいろとありがとうございます 。あなたの言葉で新しい物を ならいました... 変わらないでね。あなたにこの世界のすべてのいいものをいのっています。あなた の昔の夢も、今の夢も叶うことを祈っています。 あなたはそれに値するので!! あなたの笑顔を見た い、一番綺麗なのですから。 GACKTさん、お誕生日おめでとうございます！ 愛を込め,
Terry - Crotone Dear GACKT, I think that words are unecessary when you are in connection with someone from the bottom of your heart, but also if I believe that you can feel my mind, I want to send you here all my thanks for what you’ve done in my life. You taught me to be a Samurai, to never give up, you made me find a reason to fight for my dreams. In this very special day may your smile shine brightly, with the warmth of your heart, may this day be wonderful as you are. Happy Birthday GACKTO-san. GACKTさんへ あなたの心に誰かと接続するとき言葉が要らないと思いますが、 私の心を感じれば、GACKTさんがいままで私の人生に与えたこと に感謝の気持ちを送りたいです。 私に諦めないことを教えて、私の夢のために戦う理由をくれまし た。 この特別な日に、明るくで、暖かくで笑って。 あなたの誕生日が幸せな日に なりますように。お誕生日おめでとう ございますGACKTさん。
Sara - Verona
Dear GACKT, I want to wish you Happy Birthday rom the bottom of my heart! I hope you will spend a wonderful day with all your LOVERS and friends. GACKTさん、心からお誕生日おめでとうございます！仲間たち とLOVERS一緒に素敵な日を過ごすことを願います！
Anastasia - Moscow
You’ve always been my dream, my light in the darkness, I’m so happy to be a LOVER, cause you always make your LOVERS feel important and special. In this day I’d want to wish you the best Birthday of your life. Stay as you are. I love you, thank you for everything you do for me. あなたはいつも私の夢、私の闇の中にの光。LOVERになることと はとても幸せ、GACKTさんはいつもLOVERSたちが特別な存在だ と思わせてくれますから。 この日で最高のお誕生日をお祈ってい ます。いつものとおりに変わらないでね。 愛してる、私のため にすることを感謝しています。
Ylenia - Milan Dear GACKT-san HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! Today is my birthday too and I’m happy we can share this special day together! I can’t wait to hear your new song! Happy Birthday again! Kisses and hugs from GACKTさん、お誕生日おめでとうございます！今日も私の誕生 日なので、この特別な一日を一緒に過ごせると嬉いです！新しい 曲を楽しみにしています！お誕生日おめでとうございます！ｘｘ ｘ
Julie - New York
42! I can’t believe it! Oh my God! Finally 42 years! Happy Birthday GACKT-san! I can’t wait for your VisuaLive next year, we’ll celebrate your 43rd Birthday together!!! Please don’t ever change, love and kisses 42!信じられない！ああ凄い！やっと42年！GACKTさん、お誕生 日おめでとうございます！来年のVISUALiveを楽しみにしてい て、43歳のお誕生日を一緒にお祝いしましょう!変わらないでね、 ｘｘｘ
Natasha - Varsaw
Happy Birthday GACKT-san! You’re 42 now but you seem like a boy, you’re too cute and too beautiful! I love you so much and I’d want to spend this wonderful day with you. Please come to Italy sooooooooon!!!!!!
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MAN ALIVE IS 42 NOW!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GACKT-SAN!!!!!!!! WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH, WE ARE ALWAYS WAITING FOR YOU IN ITALY! PLEASE COME BACK HERE!!! Italy is always waiting for you! GACKT Italia, thanks for this opportunity. WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!
GACKTさん、お誕生日おめでとうございます！GACKTさんは もう42歳ですが、まだ少年のように、可愛すぎて、美しすぎ る！GACKTさんを本当に愛していて、この素晴らしい日を一緒 に過ごしたいです。また、すぐイタリアに来てね～～～～！！！
最も美しい男は42歳になりました!!!!!!! お誕生日おめでとうござい ますGACKTさん!!!!!!!! 私たちはあなたを本当に愛しています、 い つもイタリアで待っています! また帰ってきてください!!! イタリ アはいつもGACKTさんを待っています! GACKT ITALIA この機会 を、感謝します。 私たちはあなたを愛してます!!!!!!
Stella - Rome
Sonia - Lecce
I want to thank you for your being so precious to me, your eyes are my guide, I can’t stay even a day without listening to your music and watching to your videos. Actually I’m very sad Game Center are about to finish, it was a daily date for me, please can you go on filming them? HAPPY BIRTHDAY GACKT-SAN! THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL AND POSITIVE FEELINGS YOU’RE GIVING TO US! 大切な人であることにありがたい、あなたの目は私の光。私は一 日だけでGACKTさんの音楽を聞かないとか、ヴィデオを見なく てもダメです。 実は、ガメ先手ルがすぐに終わることを思うと寂 しいです。毎日の習慣でしたから。撮影を続けてくれてもいいで すか？ お誕生日おめでとうございますGACKTさん! 素晴らしいと ポジティブな感情を与えて、ありがとうございます！
Jaqueline - Paris YO YO! GAKUTO SAN! HAPPY ROCK BIRTHDAY!!! I can’t wait for your new album, keep on rocking the world we love you!!! よ、よっ! ガクトさん! お誕生日おめ!!! 新しいアルバムを楽しみに しています。キープ·オン·ロッキン!!! 僕たちはGACKTさん愛し てます!!!
John - Toronto
Dear GACKT, Allow me to write you this message. I’ll introduce myself, I’m Sabatino. Since this year I started working with GACKT ITALIA . I started working on this project to improve my abilities as a Japanese tralsator since I’m studying it at University. Thanks to this amazing website, I started to know you and your amazing songs. Also the Game Center’s videos are very interesting and funny!! The more I translate the more I enjoy doing it! Since today it’s your birthday, I together with GACKT Italia and whole Italy we want to wish you happy birthday! We’ll be forever grateful. 拝啓
I really would like to be close to you for give a loving hug for show you my total admiration. I have a wish for you from the bottom of my heart : find out whatever makes you happy and keep that beautiful smile you have. All the goods things in the world for you. Don´t stop singing. Ilove your voice. It´s unique. VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY. PEOPLE LOVE YOU. YOU´RE SPECIAL 私の憧れを表示するためにGACKTさんに近づく抱きしめたい。 心からあなたのためにの願いがある: あなたを幸せにするものを 発見し、その美しい笑顔をいつまでもそのままで 。私はあなたに 良いものだけを望みます 。歌うことを続けていてください。あな たの声が大好きです。 とても独特です。お誕生日おめでとうござ います! 人々はあなたを愛しています！ あなたは特別です！
Lourdes - Uruguay
突然お手紙を差し上げます失礼をお許しください。 はじめまして。サバティーノ・セッリットと申します。イタリア 人でございます。今年から「GACKT Italia」と申しますウェブサ イトでは翻訳のアルバイトをいたしています。 ナピリの東洋大学で日本語の勉強をいたしていますから、聴解力 と読解力を延ばすためにそんなアルバイト始めました。 こちらのウェブサイトのおかげでガクト様の歌は存じているよう になりました。ガクトなゲームと言うビデオもずいぶん面白くて 楽しいと思います。翻訳すればするほどもっと好きになります。 今日はガクト様のお誕生日でいらっしゃいますから、 私より、GACKT Italiaより、イタリアより、 お誕生日おめでとうございます！ 長い間、本当にありがとう ございます。
Sasbatino - Italy
Hello GACKT, Thanks for everything you did for us, I’m really glad to have known you and to be part of your world through your music. Through this message, I wanna show you my gratitude toward everything you do and you did in the past. Happy birthday to you, have a blast and enjoy ! GACKTさんこんにちわ、 私たちのためにすることをありがとうございます。GACKTさん に出逢って、あなたの音楽を通してあなたの世界を入力して本当 に良かった。このメセージで 昔から今までやったことに感謝の気 持ちを表したいです。 お誕生日おめでとうございます！素晴らしい一日を！
Franck - France
Dear Gackt, Although I can’t wish you a happy birthday in person; I will spend the whole day with happy thoughts of you. Happy birthday from the bottom of my heart. Spend this very special day with the people you trust and love the most. Thank you very much for everything. Love P.S I hope you could visit all Italy from North to South because it’s a very beautifull country. GACKTさんへ、 自分でGACKTさんに「お誕生日おめでとう」と言えませんが、 私は幸せな思考で一日を過ごすことになります。心からお誕生日 おめでとうございます。この日を大切仲間と過ごしてね。 いろいろとありがとうございます。 <3 P.S GACKTさんがイタリアの西から北まで行けばいいな。とても 綺麗な国ですよ。
Elisa - Italy
I’d like to wish you Happy Birthday from Spain. I hope you will visit us soon and you will have a concert… スペインからお誕生日おめでとうございます。こちらに来遊し て、コンサートを開催してね…
Marinaluna - Spain
GACKTさんお誕生日おめでとうございます、長い人生を望みま す。そしてまだ素敵な、幸せ気持ちを与えられる歌と素晴らしい 言葉を載せて作り上げることをお祈ります。あなたは神によって 私に送られた天使、困難の時に私を奨励するの天使です。だか ら、ありがたいです！ もう42歳になりますがまでこんなに… ハンサムでセクシー！ 勇気！どんなことがあっても勇気を持って直面します！
Maritza Ramirez of Nicaragua
Dear Gackt b WAKE UP! Drink your Coffee! It is Time to Start your Day! LET’S CELEBRATEb HAPPY BIRTHDAYb From the Bottom of Our Heart! We hope this is the begining of your Greatest,Most Wonderful Year Ever!!!! Wishing that you have the Greatest Birthday Ever from the Moment you open your Eyes in the Morning until they close Late at Night b You are a Unique and Wonderful Person. You have made us very Happy and always bring a sweet Smile to our Face b Remember how much you are Loved and Appreciated by all of us b Arrigato, be like you are b Wish we could be there to give you a Birthday Hug and many Kisses :3 We Love and Missing You so much b We are always with you with a sweet Smile b We send you a really Big Hug and Thousand of Kisses b Aishiteru b GACKTさんへ ♥ 起きろう！ コーヒーを飲め！ 新しい一日を始めましょう！ お祝いしましょう♥ お誕生日おめでとうございます♥ 心から！ これからは一番最高の年を始まると祈ります!!!! 朝で目を開ける時から夜で寝る時まで 最高の誕生日を♥ あなたは独特で素晴らしい人です あなたはいつも私たちを笑顔に♥ 私たちはあなたをどのくらい愛していて、感謝の気持ちが持って いるを覚えてください♥ ありがとう、このままに続けていてな♥ あなたにたくさんの誕生日キスとハグをあげたい :3 愛しています、逢いたいです ♥ いつも笑顔であなたのそばにいます♥ 千キスとハグを送る♥ 愛している♥
Stella Lucia & Rosa Maria Pacella - Germany
For your Birthday we should give you a gift…instead it’s you who is giving us so many emotions since a lot of time! In every corner of our heart there’s something dedicated to you, now and forever! Happy Birthday with lots of love. 普通にあなたの誕生日に私たちはあなたにプレゼントをあげます のに…あなたはいつも私たちにいろいろな気持ちを与えます! 私達の心はあなたに捧げています、今でも永遠にも！ 愛をこめて、お誕生日おめでとうございます。
Samantha and Consuelo - Italy
Federica - Italy
Happy birthday dear GACKT, I wish you all best in your career and life love you always :) GACKTさんお誕生日おめでとうございます。仕事と愛がうまく いくように祈っています。
Lissa - Jakarta
Happy Birthday GACKT!!! Never change from the wonderful GACKT that you are!!! Here’s to another great year ahead! Happy Birthday GACKTさん!!! お誕生日おめでとうございます!!!!! これからもずっと素敵なGACKTさんでいて下さい!!! 今年も素晴ら しい年でありますように！
HuiTze - Singapore
(GACKT ITALIA / GACKT SINGAPORE
Dear GACKT, Hi from Australia. I just wanted to wish you the very best wishes on your birthday. I’ve been following you for a long time now with your career and I’ll always be behind you supporting you. I really hope one day to be lucky enough to see you, share a coffee and talk. You have this energy about you, you create smiles even across the miles and ocean. You’re motivational and empowering and when I’m at my worse you bring out my best. Thank you for your wonderful music and watching you in movies, tv series. You work hard and yet you always have the time for us. So I hope you know that not only just on your birthday you’re thought of but every day too. From one of your LOVERS GACKTさんへ オーストラリアから、こんにちわ。 この日にお誕生日おめでとうございます。 私は長い間あなたを追いかけていた。そして今からもずっとあな たを応援します。 いつかあなたと出会って、コーヒーを飲みながら話したいです。 あなたは特別なエネルギーを持っていても、どんなに遠く離れ て、あなたは人を笑顔にすることはできます。 あなたが私のやる気を起こさたり、私に力を与えさせたり、そし て私の最低の時に最高の私を出させます。 あなたの素晴らしい音楽にありがとう。テレビと映画の出演に も。あなたが一生懸命働きますのに、まだ私達に時間を与えられ る。 だから、あなたの誕生日だけでなく、毎日も私達があなたのこと を考えています。 あなたのLOVERSの一人から
Julie Trueman - Australia
May your birthday bring you as much happiness and smiles as you give to everyone who knows you. Happy birthday GACKTさん ! あなたの誕生日で周りの人と幸せに過ごすと祈っています。お誕 生日おめでとうございますGACKTさん!
Andreja - Croatia
最愛のGACKTさんお誕生日おめでとうございます!! 元気でいて、仕事もうまくいくと願っています。困難の時に 自我と自分を愛するを教えるの素晴らしい音楽を作って、感 謝したいです。機会があったら、自分であなたに「ありがと う」と言いたいです。私はいつかあなたに会うの目標に向か って行きます。 素敵な誕生日を過ごすことを。 Happy birthday. 生まれていただきありがとうございます。 永遠までにもあなたを愛してるの
Shu Ting - Singapore
Iris - Singapore
“Birthdays are a new start, a fresh beginning, and a time to pursue new endeavours with new goals. Move forward with confidence and courage. You’re a very special person. May today and all of your days be amazing! Happy birthday And in enclosure is the fan art - the picture I drew when I was about 13-14 years old (phew, that’s really a long time ago, many years ago :’D) - I’m sorry, I couldn’t take a better quality picture of it. ^_^”
“誕生日は新しい開始の日、フレッシュな始まり、そして新しい目標を持 って新しい始動をやるとです。自信と勇気を持って前に進め。あなたは 特別な人です。今日も、毎日も 幸せな日に なりますように! Hana P. からお誕生日おめでとう (Czech Republic)” 添付ファイルはファンアートです − 13、4歳の時に描いたものです。 (ふ ぅ~ もう何年前のことだな :’D) - すみません、もっといいクオリティーで 撮られなかった。 ^_^” 良い一日を、良い人生を!
Have a nice day and wonderful life!
Hana P. - Czech Republic
Dear Gackto-san: Wishing you a very lovely birthday filled with happiness, good health and lots of love from friends, fans and family. Thank you for the music, and for inspiring me to smile more every day. You’re a bright light in the world, and you inspire hope and confidence in others. You’re beautiful inside and out. Have a wonderful day, and keep shining. <3 Love and respect, GACKTさんへ: お誕生日おめでとうございます。この素晴らしい誕生日にファ ン、友人、家族からたくさん愛を満たされていて、良好な健康状 態を祈っています。音楽をありがとうございます。毎日を笑顔に 私を鼓舞していただきありがとうございます。あなたはこの世界 の明るい光です。あなたが他の人に希望と自信を抱かせます。外 側も、中身も美しいです。良い日を、輝く続けてください。<3 愛敬を込めて
Christine - USA
Hello, this is my birthday message for GACKT. Thank you for creating the event. “In this special day I wish you a lot of happiness , joy and peace by the side of your family and close friends. May all your wishes come true. Happy Birthday GACKT san! P.S I hope someday I will be able to meet you. Sincerely yours, この特別な日に親友と家族と幸せに過ごすと祈っています。たく さんの幸せが訪れますように。お誕生日おめでとうございます GACKTさんへ! P.S いつかあなたに会えると願っています。 心から
Mariana Madalina - Romania
Dear GACKT Your turning 42 this year may many blessing come to you for many years to come. I just want to say thank you for inspiring me . Thank you for giving me the boost I need to move forward in my life. I love you forever Love GACKTさんへ 今年42歳になって、祝福をたくさんもらうと。 私を鼓舞すること、あなたを感謝したいです。私の人生に前に進 む力をくれて、ありがとうございます。 永遠までにも愛しています。
Ashley - USA
GACKTさん、 Happy Birthday to you! May all your days be full of happiness and success. If it weren’t for your songs and works, I wouldn’t enjoy a new sense of my life. I also hope you come to my country and hold a concert one day! We here love you in Egypt. Please, keep up your great work, and I wish you all the best! With love from your Egyptian fan, GACKTさん、 お誕生日おめでとうございます! 毎日成功と幸せなことを！あな たの作業がなかったら、私は、人生の新たな感覚を楽しむことは ありません。いつか私の国きて、コンサートを開催することを願 っています！エジプトのみんながあなたを愛しています。あなた の素晴らしい仕事を続けていてください。 エジプト人のファンの愛をこめて
Salma - Egypt
Dear Gackt I want to wish you the best on your birthday. I wish I could be there in person much love from America. I wish you all the best on your birthday.
GAKUTO SAN! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! We wish you all the best and we hope you can spend a wonderful day with your LOVERS and your family! We are waiting for you here! Please don’t make us wait too long!!
GACKTさんへ あなたの誕生日が素敵な日に なりますように！私はそっちにいた いです。 アメリカから愛を込め あなたの誕生日で最高をお祈りしたいと思います
Mika Entity - USA
GACKTさん! お誕生日おめでとうございます!!! あなたの誕生日が素敵な日になりますように！ LOVERSと家族とこの素晴らしい日を過ごすことをいのっていま す！ こちらで待てっていますよ！私たちに長く待たされないでね！
Anna & Elena - Italy To my dear Gackt My Name is Nourhan and you can call me Nour ^^ and i am from Egypt , actually it’s my first time celebrating your birthday with you ... I am totally happy to celebrate it with you and i just want to wish you A Happy Birthday full of Happiness and love and i wish you would come to Egypt one day ...LoVe you <3 私の愛しいGACKTさんへ 私はNourhan です。Nourって呼んでもいいです。 ^^ 出身はエジ プトです。実は、今回は初めてGACKTさんの誕生日を祝います ... このことでとても嬉しいです、お誕生日おめでとうございます。 あなたのためにたくさん愛と幸せな事を祈っています。いつかエ ジプトに来てと願っています。...愛してる <3 アラビア語で
Nourhan - Egypt
Haaaappy birthday my lovely G! Still looking hot like a devil no matter what! My immortal vampire XD Happy 42th birthday! And wish you all the happiness in the world. I wanna see you someday! Please come to Egypt oneday you got a lot of fans here! I’ll always support you my love :”> I drew this for you pretty long ago! My drawing skills were that bad, sorry. :P Happy birthday<3 お誕生日おめでとうございます、私の素敵なG! まだこんなにハン サムでいてね! 私の不死の吸血鬼 XD 42歳のお誕生日おめでとうございます! 世界のすべてのいい事を 願っています。いつかあなたに会いたい！いつかエジプトに来て ね、たくさんのファンがいますので！私はいつもあなたを応援し ます、私の愛しい :”> 以前をあなたのためにこれを描きました! 私の描画スキルはヘタ だった、すみません :P お誕生日おめでとうございます
Raghda Magdy - Egypt
Hello Gackt! I am from Springfield, Missouri and I am 19 years old. I hope the people around you spoil you on your birthday and it is as fantastical as you wish it to be. Your life must be very busy and hectic sometimes, but I hope you find peace and happiness in it all as well.Check out Missouri sometime maybe, lots of outdoor things to do here. ^^ Wishing you fantastical dreams, GACKTさんこんにちは！私はミズーリのスプリングフィールド から来ました。19歳です。誕生日、みんなからあなたを愛を示す ことと祈っています。素敵な日になりますように。あなたの生活 は絶対にバタバタですが、その中に平和と愛を見つけると祈って います。いつかミズーリに来てね、たくさん野外活動ができます よ。 ^^ 素晴らしい夢
Tia - USA Happy Birthday from your a fan of yours and of Jrock! Kisses J-rockとあなたのファンから、お誕生日おめでとうございます! キ ス
Federica - Italy
DEATH WISH I softly grabbed the trembling body And peered at the face of the angel sleeping next to me Inside of stillness and silence that I have never before seen I softly grabbed the trembling body And peered at the face of the angel sleeping next to me Inside of stillness and silence that I have never before seen I had a nightmare of light that burned my eyes Tomorrow in the night sky Will I be able to see the stars that seem to be scattered now... I entangled my fingers into your hair which flutters in the wind I embraced you and we exchanged kisses You back then were the same as me right now... You gazed at the cold wind all alone Right now we can understand each other Even the reason why your tears flowed back then Even your scent which I had forgotten I remember it, and count the overflowing tears As I softly sing “your song” to myself Just like that day, I sketch in the night sky with my finger I carry it... to where you are Very soon... see... We can meet Even your scent which I had forgotten I remember it, and count the overflowing tears As I softly sing “your song” to myself
Just like that day, I’m sketching in the night sky with my finger Even the door to the death wish that I see close by I can feel the mild warmth As I softly sing your name to myself Just like that day, I’ll always give you my love I carry it... my everything Surely, once again... see... We can meet Death Wish is a song from the album Moon, released on 19th June 2002. The text is a love song that goes to clash with the harshness of the title and the music itself. A memory of a love gone, with the usual hope to meet again. A recurring theme in the GACKT’s songs, the ardent love, the farewell, and the desire to meet again. The Death Wish that we find in the title, could be perhaps related to something more physical and despair that may just be the figure of a lost love. It’s amazing how GACKT is able to tell so painful, deep, so sweet and romantic sto-
ries, on a so violent musical carpet. Because Death Wish is the song of the violent Love, passionate and almost MORTAL, if you listen only the music. The beginning, as the end, is ominous, very dark and electronic and in the background there is his voice that whispers in fact the title of the song (and probably something else, but we can’t know...) but everything suggests, except to something romantic, we say that we are faced with a duality between pain and sex drive. The entire piece is a seesaw of frenzy and calm, at times fast and rocking, in other suggestive and languid, and the guitars are the masters. His way of interpreting it in the recording of Moon and during concerts, he has always been very violent, whereas the last live, the Best of The Best, for which he also recorded it again, we find the song much more languid, dragged. I must say, in my opinion, the correct interpretation for this song it’s the last one that he made in the Best of The Best, live in 2013, because he gives precisely the
idea of the death wish, but not precisely the death in the true sense of the word, but another. Something more physical and sexual, definitely. In the Live of 2002, The Kagen No Tsuki, we find almost theatrical interpretation, decorated with masks that make it even more fascinating, to make matters worse the same GACKT with almost no expression on stage, wrapped with a black leather coat. A beginning really impressive, with him lying on the ground, he passed out after the first song, obviously fake, and all the masked dancers around him that “awake”him. His awakening is quite disturbing, because he rises from the ground trembling and with pupils facing backwards, in short .. A beautiful interpretation which again doesn’ t bode what the song is about, because if we read the whole text we can expect everything except a start like that. I love very much this song, because I have always loved the songs that were not identical from start to finish and I have to say that fortunately GACKT always gives me
a lot of different songs... then we find in the same track the tranquility and bustle, the pain and sensuality... I do not think that this time I will avoid the usual word that I use every time I speak of his songs and him, then once again, in Death Wish, we find his famous ... DUALISM! Here, the duality that characterizes him, that doesn’t make it boring, which dare you expect something different during the 5 minutes of the track . Death Wish hasn’t one dualism, but different dualisms, in the musical carpet, as I said before, and also in the meaning: death/love. In addition, this song has the CONTRAST, the music that never would think of as a backdrop to a text so poetic and romantic. Even in the text he says to sing “softly” and in fact, at times, his voice is quite soft, when the music calms down and leaves room for sensual bass lines. Again, GACKT gave us a small new world .
Chapter 4
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age leaves a crumpled piece of paper, which he had held in his hand the whole time of our chat, on the grass. I look at him without moving a muscle, my eyes still staring at him “Maybe you should look, Yoshitsune” “Actually I don’t care” “I’ll leave it there, so when you have desire and courage, you will see with your own eyes what I mean” My eyes fall again on the piece of crumpled paper. I wouldn’t want it to remain there, I’d almost throw it in the water, so if the insane idea of looking at it will come to me, I couldn’t do it anymore. But.. but yes! I collect it, I get up and angrily threw it in the river. It had the consistency of a photo... Kage smiles and stands up pushing with his hands on his knees, he is still next to me and doesn’t seem to be absolutely touched by my reactionhe looks ahead of him, ruling calmly “Yes, Yoshitsune, it was a photo. You would have been able to find out the reason of my question and my words. At this point I don’t think you care about anything, seriously. So why pining so much?” I turn toward him with blazing eyes: “You think
that I’m pining away! You think I’m still fixed on that story, right? It’s you who keep telling me that I should go back and think again! I have eliminated all what would bring me back rather than push ahead, you keep telling me that I should think about it! You can’t blame me! You can’t absolutelly blame me!” I feel something inside that I don’t like, I feel the warmth that I’m afraid of climbing up along my legs invading my abdomen and chest. Please don’t get to the head, don’t get to the head... don’t take me... I squeeze my eyes, closing my fists. I have to control myself I can’t .. I can’t... it can’t happen again... it can’t happen... I open my eyes and Kage disappeared. At his place, on the ground, there was the crumpled piece of paper I had thrown in the river. I bend with terror, touching it. It’s no longer crumpled and what I see is just the back yellowed photo. I stared when I see the words of light appear slowly on the paper “Do not run away again.” I swallow. Don’t run away again? I look around suspiciously and I put the photo in the pocket moving from the river. I don’t want to still have the urge to throw it away... I was given a second chance, and second chances should never be wasted. They taught me this. If you had given me a second....... but... Kage hurts me. Whenever he
slows down my path, I should stop meeting with him. If only... if only I could avoid him, it would be nice, but no, I can’t. Damn, he is a spirit! He does what he wants! Does what he wants....... I close my eyes and you appear to me. “What are you doing so close to me? You don’t... you shuldn’t be here... I...” you gently rests a finger on my lips and smile “Ssshh...Yoshitsune don’t speak. If I’m here, there’s a reason, the design of your life is not yet completed and I am still holding the brushes to draw some strokes.” “I have to go...” “You won’t go this time...” You smile to me... I shake the curls in disbelief. “Look in your pocket, Yoshitsune” I... I don’t have anything in my pocket... no ... no. I knew I had to throw it in the river. “You were gone before you knew him, you know?” You rest one hand on your belly and I jump back screaming. “It is not possible!!! Go away, you’re not real, go away!!!” “It’s you who’s no longer real, Yoshitsune ...” DAMN !!! WHAT ARE YOU SAYING ??? WHAT??? I feel your hand tightening around my wrist with blazing eyes
“LEAVE ME!” You block me to look in my pocket and throw in my chest that picture ... “You won’t run away, you won’t escape this time! There’s nothing that can take you away from me again, okay? Look... look at this photo!” Growling, one step away from my lips, with your eyes wide and lips stretched, pushing more and more that picture on my chest and I’d just want to... go away .. let me... let me go... I beg you... I feel the tears running down my face when you tighten the grip on my wrist... Why can’t I react? Why can’t I? I’m... a mononofu, I should ... I should be able to push you away in a second, with ease... what’s happening to me... what’s happening to me??? I squint at the moment when you begin to devour my lips, without leaving me the opportunity to understand what’s going on... your hand on my chest increasingly intrusive, tightening around my wrist, more and more cruel and I squeeze my lips... Let me go... let me... let me go you are just imagination, imagination and you’re just... not... don’t call out my demon DON’T CALL IT!!!!!! DON’T CALL IT!!! I CAN’T... I HAVEN’T LEARNED TO CONTROL IT YET I DON’T WANT TO HURT YOU, I DON’T WANT TO HURT YOU!!! I scream desperately and I open my eyes wide.
Some people are around me, but... I’m... I’m in the middle of the square. I look around and people are staring at me with terrified eyes, pointing weapons against me...don’t... I wasn’t doing anything wrong... it was... a nightmare? Suddenly I forget the weapons pointed at me and I put my hand in my pocket, as if I was driven by superhuman strength, a strength that I wouldn’t want to feel ... empty. My pocket is empty. How am I here? it is possible that I was sleeping here and that... I did never go to the river, I never met Kage, that... that picture never existed? Could it be like that? I close my eyes lowering my face, with a wearily resigned smile and I rise from the ground, avoiding the risk to those who are still threatening me: “Nothing happened... I’m fine... I must have... passed out, yes. I had a nightmare, so I screamed... don’t be afraid of me.” Still smiling, with my eyes overflowing with tears, I step through to the crowd of people who opened the road for me, someone mutters something, but I don’t care. Kage ruined me again. It was not real... neither you, nor the photo... neither my meeting with Kage, it was not real. Just a nightmare...
I open the door and I go in the room to let myself go on the bed. I’m not going to tell what happened between you and me. I sigh and I begin to undress, but I remain with shirt half unbuttoned and I block observing what’s on my pillow, slightly shaken by the wind that comes from the half-open window, faintly illuminated by the sun that leaks timidly into the room .. . that sheet. “Don’t run away again.”
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