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MISSING TIME there . . . [agitated) and they're trying to move me. They're trying to move me, and I can't see it . . . I can't see it, though. That bright light again. It's all around me. I feel like I'm floating. They're like dark black shadows in the light. There's light all around and the shapes are j ust black . . . j ust black . . . the shapes . . . the figures. It's cold, too, It's very cold. {Shivers and crosses arms over
chest. Agitated breathing, and then he arches his back and bends his neck as if in sudden pain.) Oh . . . there's a pain in the back of neck. . . . Oh, God! It hurts . . . it hurts . . . Oh!
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I think I'm back inside now. There's a different program on? A different program . What's o n now? It's the late show . . . it's a movie . . . it's the second, the late, late movie on 2. It's two o'clock? It looks like two o'clock. And I don 't remember . . . coming in . . . . I put the pistol down and clean it . . . it must have been dir足 ty . . . and I clean the pistol and put it away. What kind of dirty was it? I don 't know . . . fingerprints on the barrel or something, and it was wet . . . it was wet. . . . Had it been fired? No. No. I took the ammunition out. It hadn ' t been fired and I put the ammunition away separately. I always do that. It hadn 't been fired . It hadn 't been fired. I lay down to go to sleep . . . turn the lights off. I'm frightened somehow. I'm frightened. Have a . . . took a drink of cognac so I could sleep. I took a Valium. I couldn 't go to sleep. There's blood on the pillow though, a little bit, a spot of red, a couple of spots of blood on the pillow. Some tiny spots of blood on the sheets when I woke up. I feel stiff and achey when I wake up. Ache in my j oints. . . . [Agitated breathing.) My shoulders hurt, my n eck hurts. . . . It still hurts some足 times. . . . [Sighs. } Is there any blood on your body? Where did the bloodstains come from? I don 't know. I looked . . . I thought maybe it was j ust a pimple or something. They were very small . . . they were