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body that I was communicating with . . . not a face, not a hand, but there was a gentleness about it. It wasn't anything abrupt. Whoever it is, it's someone I'm very comfortable with. It's either somebody that I've known, except that I think it j ust reminds me of somebody I've known, like my grandfather . . . somebody who's older and whom I'm very comfortable around, like a very ex plaining type of person . It's as though there are more people than on e but I think I only talked to one. And I'm more curious about where I am and more curious about the room and the immediate environment I 'm in than where they come from and what they mean or what they're about. The room doesn't have an alien feeling; it's j ust different than I 've seen-fancy, modern a nd it see ms pretty big. It seems like the room is either spherical-no, the room is like a round room or half of a round room. I don 't see behind me, but what I'm loo king at is round, I think, and it's like the walls are round, too. Round . It has a quality like the TWA terminal at JFK-round, curved walls. There are lots of things to catch my eyes: things that shine, they're sparkly, like crystals or like instrumenta tion or . . . but they're so pretty that they don't distin guish in my eyes between whether they are things, or art. Just pretty. Like pearls and like crystals and like metal . . . mostly silver. It doesn't seem to be gold colored. It seems to be silver-colored. And it's big-it seems it's big-it seems, it seems-urn-bigger than your ( Dr. Clamar's) living room, it seems maybe bigger than my living room. but not quite as big as my whole apart ment. It's a big space But, of course I was littler. And the light doesn't come from any one place and it isn 't all the same color. It changed a little bit and there are colors in different places, but only soft. How did you get from the chicken coop to here? Hmm . . . you know, it could be that I went to the c hicken coop afterwards . . . the chicken coop . . . I don't know. I don 't know (puzzled hesitation]. Let me see. How did I get there? I'm so overwhelmed by being in the place that I am that I don't even remember getting there. How did I get there? Gently. It wasn't rough. -
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