aS tall aS i can be

by Scout Lynch

tell me that i’m trash and i’ll jump in the disposal, i’ll blend into a sludge when i really should have told you. i said i needed help and jon threw me through a wall, i think that my friend was right about him after all. i got poured into the fire and you called me a liar. i’ve been screaming out to you for years. put your headphones on, i’m ripping out my hair and she threatened me with violence when i said i wished you’d care. you watched my mother birth me, now you’re watching your wife hurt me. she shoved my head under the water so my tears would look unreal. crocodile crocodile, tar me in my shame. boys are boys, her daughter’s young, and i’m the one to blame. seven loves and she accuses mine for you is eros. it’s storge but you can’t see me writhing underneath your house. she screamed “I AM AGAPE,” and covered me in dirt, but god is love and i am god and i should never hurt. i am quartered, scattered, spread out, and planted by the pound. she tried to sew my mouth shut but i made sure that i was sown into the ground.

she killed me but these limbs and trees will block the sun and son and ghost and i, she’s left behind under my shade and blocked out from the sky

Sky Glance by Gabriel Álvarez