Queerish Jew

But if I don’t answer, is that worse? What if they go looking at sources that are harmful, but they don’t realise it? Do I have a moral obligation to be a teacher when I’m still learning about my identities as political ideologies too? I often feel the need to put up a front that my communities are perfect and homogenous. I act like I agree with everything that everyone at my Shul believes, otherwise I’ll make us look uncoordinated and shallow. I ignore all of the discourse in queer circles when talking to outsiders, otherwise I’ll make it look like it’s fine to attack us since we’re attacking each other.

I’m getting better at trying not to treat every interaction with outsiders like a performance or a game that I have to win for the betterment of my peers. I’m learning to connect with other religious people inside of the queer community. I’m realising there are even more queer people and allies inside my religious community than I thought. Outsiders are still a test of my patience more than anything else, but at least as far as the two groups that define my personal culture go, I am learning to love both despite their flaws.

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