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I breathe in and it’s salt water. It’s dark and the Bay, like all bodies of water at night, is a monster. It’s one big organic thing pulsing and moving with itself, folding its water in curls and applauding the beach. And somehow, unbeknownst to me, my body has released adrenaline; I’m light, evaporated into the show before me. I hold it for a few moments, indulging in simple India, before turning in to retire. The next morning, I have to get out of the hotel room for a bit, in part because I want to explore what seems to be the end of Asia and in part because my roommate is very liberal and feels comfortable talking to me in the nude, with one leg balanced up on the nightstand and all his glory there for the world to see. I excuse myself cordially. I walk out onto that jetty, which curves north in a hook around the harbor. It was built after the Tsunami three years previous, which rampaged India’s east coast, to protect the fishing vessels, should there be a sequel to those impossible waves. What I admire most vividly is a man standing on the rocks of the jetty, staring into the water, as if he was angry with it. I imagine him having lost a wife, a child, in the violence of the undertow (big wave, big pull). It’s not that much of a stretch; in the preceding weeks I had spent incountry, I’d heard many similar stories. One woman asked me (through an interpreter) why the sea took her daughter, when she had wrapped her neighbor’s children in her sari so they wouldn’t be swept away. She cried as she asked. I said nothing. I had no answer. “I don’t know why,” I wanted to say, but the words stayed put in my throat. But now, at the edge of the jetty, next to the man glaring angrily at the water, I stand alongside him, as if obstinate, however reverent, to mother nature herself. I almost dare it to storm.

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