We all look to see the source of the voice. Dr. Guise is in the doorway with a look of astonishment. “Remarkable. The third personality wasn’t new at all. It was you. The real you. The XR-21 must have fundamentally affected your genetics in ways we never considered. I’m going to need to go back and look at the data again, but Robert and Cashmere were both false identities. Protective suits of armor to shield you from the trauma you experienced throughout your childhood. My boy, it appears you have evolved.” He says the last bit like an excited schoolboy. My mother hurries over to me and gives me a hug like when I was little. Her perfume has never changed. *** I don’t know about all that. Evolved seems like a pretty big word at this point. But I do feel whole. For the first time in my life I feel like a real person. Not that I could have ever come to that conclusion before. How or why would you suspect you’re only half of an entire personality? What I do know is I have three women staring at me with jaws dropped and hearts open. Each of them loves me in a very different, yet genuine way. One of them raised me. One of them married me. And one of them is having my baby. I never asked for two lives; two wives. Polygamy is the last thing I ever wanted. But it happened, yes. That’s something I’m going to need to deal with. Not exactly a conversation I’m looking forward to. And we’re not alone, either. There’s more of us. Everyday I find a new person inside of me. Everyday I discover new ways to live, to love. We are all so different. Different ages, sexes, desires, needs. On the up side, I never feel alone. On the down side, I never feel alone. All I know is no matter how you experience it, you can’t control love. It is an unstoppable force that is irrational and uncompromising. It is both painful, sour, and absurd as well as soothing, sweet, and maybe the most logical of all emotions. If you are confused,
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Published on Oct 31, 2017