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I remember when we joined a fraternity at Ivy Pines. Pi Omega Rho. I did all the studying while he did all the partying. They guys were okay with it because they got a brother with the best of both worlds. I’m remembering when he first met Ingrid at the sports bar she waitressed at. He grabbed her ass and she slapped him. She wasn’t having his chauvinist bullshit. That’s what won him over. He came back the next night, a white rose in hand, and said he was sorry. Asked her out and, when she agreed, was a gentleman from then on. I feel the moment when he fell in love with her. It feels drastically different than when Iris and I fell in love. It’s almost like it’s more playful. There’s more laughter. He feels safe with her. I feel safe with her. As I focus on her in the mirror, back in the real world, I can’t help but let a fat tear escape and roll down my cheek. “Cash?” Her voice is hopeful. As if her husband hasn’t really died. I haven’t. In the mirror I watch myself change into Cash. It’s not painful. I don’t cough. It’s like flexing a muscle. I’m both of us now. Both of us, and so, so many more. I turn to her and she rushes up, kissing me on the lips and face. I kiss her back, but quickly pull away. “Hold on. Cash, yes.” A smile crosses her face as she bites her bottom lip. I look to Iris. “But Rob too.” I see a spark of optimism cross Iris’ face. As effortless as before, I flash into Rob, and then back to the face they didn’t recognize. “And yet, I’m neither.” I look to my mom. “I remember everything. Before I came to you, Cash’s life, things I blocked out. Everything. It’s like I’m a mix of both men. No. Many men. Maybe even a woman or two, as well. But this face, here. I think this is who I really am. Who I would have been. Pyotr…Peter. My real name is Peter.” “Precisely.”

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The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

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