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“What about the logistics? I live with Iris and I live with Ingrid. How in the hell does that work?” When I use to go to my happy place, I’d imagine Iris’ face smiling back at me. But now, Ingrid is there too. Both are in focus. They’re equals in a void. “The way Dr. Guise puts it, the consciousness not being used goes into hibernation. Very rarely have I ever seen you get a full night’s rest. Sometimes you’re able to sleep through the night and have the same identity when you wake up. Most of the time though, you go into this sort of transitional state, like you’re on autopilot. Kind of like sleepwalking. You get up, get dressed and find your way back to the other home. It’s been harder since you’ve been married. You live so far apart now. When you were younger you had apartments next to one another. In college you were your own roommate.” In an instant, my entire college experience comes into focus. So that’s why that guy was never around. “But now, you get in a car and drive across town. Robbie, I get so worried thinking about all the things that could happen. What if you were hit by a car or mugged or you simply ran out of gas? Who knows what could happen?” This is all getting to be a bit much. I feel so overwhelmed. It’s like I’m being forced to take the SAT’s and I didn’t study. “And the girls—they just went along with it? They agreed to marry a man they would ultimately be forced to share?” I don’t know if I hate them or love them for that. I can’t even imagine what it must be like, day in and day out. “It hasn’t been easy. I’ll be honest, I’ve had my reservations. But the truth is, they love you both. Maybe more than I’ve ever seen four people love each other. The girls struggled for sure. But I’ve been there all along, helping them through the process. I gotta tell you, Robbie, it’s rare you see two people light up when they see one another. So when I saw that both you and Cash had that with the girls, I knew I couldn’t stand in the way. I’ve done everything in

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The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

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