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health. He always said there would be a right time to let you know, but after you started with the transformations, the prospect of telling you kept getting pushed further and further back. It was hard enough caring for one son as a single parent. Then, overnight, I had two. You have to understand, honey, my hands were full.” “So you kept the charade up into my adulthood? Mom—I’m married to two different women. One of which is pregnant.” I’m so mad I’m having trouble collecting my thoughts. My mother has a way of doing that to me. Secrets suck. But they’re even worse when they’re something you didn’t even know about yourself. I feel so fucking exposed. “Honey, you’re having a hard enough time coming to terms with this now. Imagine how difficult this would have been as a child.” She has a point. “How many people know? Answer me that.” “Everyone.” She says it as a fact. “What do you mean everyone?” “I mean, every time you met new friends, got a job, dated girls—I was right there to explain the situation. Lot’s of people were frightened by it and ended up turning their backs on us. But the few that did stick around I swore to secrecy. Your college buddies, Iris and Ingrid, school faculty—they all respected my wishes. And on the few occasions someone did try and tell you…I don’t know, it was weird. Like you suddenly went deaf. You’d see their lips moving but you couldn’t hear the words. It was like your subconscious was protecting you or something. At least, that’s how Guise explained it.” As before, my entire adolescence is starting to make sense. I didn’t realize people knew about that. I thought it was my little secret, the random deafness. Something I was afraid to tell anyone about. But here I am, discovering I’ve got psychosomatic selective hearing. This is too weird not to be true. Page 43 | The Paragon Journal

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The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

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