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I glance at the dessert disks encroaching on the kitchen. “I think you’ve got enough.” “Oh, I, ah, just felt like baking. You know how I get sometimes.” Her eyes betray her. There’s worry there. True, visceral fear. “Right. Mom, put the spatula down.” I say it as jokingly and lighthearted as I can. She forces a smile. “We need to talk.” Her smile disappears. “Kay. S’pose you’re right.” I follow her into the living room and we take a seat on either side of the coffee table. She won’t look at me. She swipes the streak of gray that runs down the center of her hair, and I can’t help but wonder if it’s existence has anything to do with me. My mother has always kept a tidy house and, being an empty nester, she’s now able to have the designer and antique furniture she’s always wanted. The couch I’m sitting on is stiff and uncomfortable with a floral pattern. I’ve always thought furniture should make you struggle with the idea of ever getting up from it. But this damn thing is like a torcher device from the Georgian era. “I met with Dr. Guise.” “I know, he called.” “He showed me the videos of me…and Cash.” “Yeah.” It’s like making eye contact with me is a painful endeavor. She can’t look in my direction for more than a few seconds. “Mom, enough. I need you to look at me. Why keep this from me? Guise kept talking about some fucking trauma. What trauma?” I get her full attention now, but she remains quite, trying to find the words. “I didn’t know what to do, Rob. You were so young, and you were only getting sicker. Dr. Guise assured me that, if we told you about Cash, it could be harmful to your overall Page 42 | The Paragon Journal

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The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

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