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remember a period when I was a boy that my mother seemed really distant to me. I assumed it had something to do with me getting older, going through puberty. Nothing like this. “Eventually, like us all, she came around. Surprisingly well, to be honest. She took on this new boy as though he were a completely different son. She loved him, cared for him, and saw to it that he and you were always protected from one another. Without your mother, Robert, I can’t say you and Cash would have ever made it this far.” I get up from my chair and walk about the room in no discernible direction. I’m trying to process this. What’s getting me, surprisingly, isn’t so much that I transform into a completely different guy half the time (though it’s still fucking weird), it’s that everyone around me seems to know about it, and hasn’t told me—once. Everyone I know knows more about me than I do. I feel violated. It’s like I’ve just been molested in a mob of people and when I look to see who did it, I realize it’s the entire crowd. “There’s more,” he says. “I have one more interview to show you. If you’d please just take a seat.” He motions with his hand toward the leather armchair and I sit down. The screen shows the very same room I’m in now. The camera is pointed directly at my chair. A man with dark buzzed hair is sitting where I am now. He’s wearing a white and blue button up with a gingham pattern—Wait. I look down at my shirt. Fucking white and blue button up with a gingham pattern. I see where this is going. Though the man is bigger than me, more solid, more hansom, he looks sick. He’s got shadows under his eyes. His nose is red and irritated. And his skin, though darker than mine, seems to have a slightly clammy-green hue. Guise can be heard off screen. “Cash, how are we feeling today?”

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The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

The Paragon Journal - Issue Ten  

The Paragon Journal is an online literary journal that specializes in helping younger authors find their way in the literary world.

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