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Written By: Tasi-Rose Camacho Hr.: 1:05pm Due date: May 23, 2014


Table of Contents Cover page…………………………………………………………………………………………………………..pg. 1 Table of Contents…………………………………………………………………………………………………pg. 2 Likes/Dislikes List……………………………………………………………………………….…………………pg. 3 My Own Lists of Lists…………………………………………………………………………….………………pg. 4 The Door………………………………………………………………………………………………………….…..pg. 6 Unfinished Sentences………………………………………………………………………………….….…….pg. 7 How to………………………………………………………………………………………………………….……...pg. 9 Cheer Yourself Up…………………………………………………………..…….………………………….…..pg.10 Advice to the Young……………………………………………………………………………………………..pg.11 One Medium Suitcase………………………………………………………………………………….……….pg.12 The Ultimate Excuse……………………………………………………………………………………………..pg.13 Valuable Lessons ………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.14 What’s in a name? ………………………………………………………………………………………….…….pg.15 Are you Hungry? …………………………………………………………………………………………..………pg.16 Synetics……………………………………………………………………………………………….………………..pg.17 Room Sweet Room……………………………………………………………………………………….……….pg.20 Symbolic Recipe……………………………………………………….…………………………………………….pg.21 Remembering the Child………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.22 Remembrance of thing Present…………………………….……………………………………………….pg.23 Lessons I Learned After it was too Late………………………….………………………………………pg.24 Always Say Never……………………………………………………………………………..……………………pg.25 Personal Symbol…………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.26 The Examined Life………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.27 In Other Words…………………………………………………………………………………………..………….pg.28 Who Am I……………………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.29 Rewarding Experiences…………………………………………………………….…………………………….pg.30 Personal Alphabet………………………………………………………………………………….……………….pg.31 Deck of 52……………………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.32


Personal Metaphors……………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.33 Sensory Experiences……………………………………………………………………………………….……….pg.35 Metaphorical Experiences……………………………………………………………………………………….pg.36 Map of Life………………………………………………………………………………………………….………….pg.37 Metamorphosis……………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.38 Color Your World…………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.39 Perfect Present…………………………………………………………………………………….………………….pg.40 As Time Goes Bye-Bye………………………………………………………………………….………………….pg.41 Futures-Fantasy and Fact……………………………………………………………………..………………….pg.42 Flashback…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………pg.43 Annual Report…………………………………………………………………………………..…………………….pg.44 Ekphrasis………………………………………………………………………………………………………………...pg.45 Where Im From……………………………………………………………………...……………………………….pg.46 Memorable Event…………………………………………………………………………..……………………….pg.47 These Worlds Belong to Me…………………………………………………………………………………….pg.48 Extended Metaphors……………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.50 Quality Personality………………………………………………………………………….……………………….pg.51 Picture This………………………………………………………………………………………………………..…….pg.52 Telling Tales…………………………………………………………………………….……………………………….pg.53 A Day in the Life……………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.54 Mysterious Place……………………………………………………………………………………………………..pg.55 Introduction…………………………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.56 Visually Speaking…………………………………………………………………………….……………………….pg.57 Look Who I Look Up to…………………………………………………………………………………………….pg.58 Epilogue……………………………………………………………………………………………………….………….pg.59


#1 4

Likes

Dislikes

1. Going to the beach at sunset.

1. People who assume

2. Shopping online and malls.

2. People who tease others.

3. Swimming in fresh waters.

3. People who are stuck up.

4. Taking care of babies.

4. Cute clothes that is expensive.

5. Decorating rooms and events.

5. Disrespectful people.

6. Making people laugh or smile.

6. Rude customers.

7. Making new friends.

7. Immature people.

8. Accomplishing goals.

8. The color orange.

9. Overcoming my fears.

9. Tomatoes.

10. The color green and pink,

10. Halter tops.

11. Trying new things.

11. Coffee.

12. CHICKEN!

12. Creepy old men.

13. Cas Haley.

13. Science.

14. Writing.

14. Mondays.

15. Chilling with my friends.

15. Being nervous/scared.


#2

26 “My Own Lists of Lists”

1. People who have influenced me…

- Paris

- My Nina, Juanita Camacho, for being the

-Brazil

independent and strong woman she is. - My oldest sister, Cami Camacho, for her determination and mentality. - My cousin, Shaun Lujan, to not care what

-Africa -Bahamas -Miami, Florida

others think of me.

- Puerto Rico

- My cousin, Cam Mesanyon, to look at

4. Things in people which I like…

things differently. - My auntie, Rosita Crisostomo, to take care

- Sense of humor. - Consideration.

of yourself when it needed. - Thoughtful. - My loving friend, Raphael Joaquin, to see light even in the darkest days.

- Caring.

2. Places that make me happy…

- Protective.

- The beach during a sunset.

- Adventurous.

- Shopping at the mall.

5. Things in a person which I dislike…

- My bed.

- Assumptions.

- The water park next to Bruner Elementary.

- Disrespectful.

- Baskin ‘n’ Robins

- Selfishness.

- A swing.

- Ignorance.

3. Places I would like to go…

- Negative.


- Isolated.

- Children’s hunger.

6. Things that worry me…

- Elderly people that are lonely.

- My Nina’s life.

- The movie “A Walk to Remember”

- My mom’s health.

- My sister’s failures.

- My sister’s well-being.

9. Ideas that intrigue me…

- My brother’s mentality.

- The thought of life beyond earth.

- Driving.

- An actual zombie apocalypse.

- My own thoughts.

- Flying cars.

7. Things I would like to know how to do…

- Moneys talking.

- Surf.

- Cure for cancer.

- Drift.

- Theory of dinosaurs being back.

- Shoot a gun.

10. My personal favorites…

- Drive standard.

- Shopping

- Fix cars.

- Chocolate Bing cherries. - Range Rovers

- Paint. - Roses 8. Things that have moved me… - The car accident I was in.

- Tattoos - Movies

- Raphael Joaquin’s death. Feedback:@TasiRose C. Tasi, you’re a very caring person. Your submission is concentrated on your loved ones. I liked how you also gave a reason to why these people inspired you. RIP RAFFY<3 @Tasi you got alot on your list of list! i have been to miami florida over the summer and it’s a really chill place with alot of cool people! you should check it out someday! i even wanna travel to brazil one day also! Dont worry one day you will be able to visit those places!


#3 45 “The Door”

1. When I walk out that door, I want to see my two older sisters and my niece and nephew. I haven’t seen them in years. I just want them here with me and to be under one roof. I miss them so much, it actually hurts. They mean the world to me. I’d do anything for them Even though they drive me crazy and make me want to pull my hair out. They laughing, crying, fighting, and talks are all so valuable to me. Because you never know when it’s going end.

2. When I walk out that door, I don’t want to hear bad news. As in losing a loved one again or someone is hurt, finding out the one person I would count on and trust is the biggest liar I know. I don’t want to be let down or feel that pain again. It’s too much. Just maybe if I were that scared, I’d probably stay in the room and not go. Sometimes my fear can overcome me and prevent me from doing things I could and should do.

Feedback: @Tasi: Your "The Door" submission is very good. The way you wrote, and explained how you felt, made me go deep into thought about some things. @TasiRose C. - I loved your submission. It was wonderfully written and in some ways I feel I can relate to it. I also have an older sibling that I haven't seen in a long time. I enjoyed reading and look forward to more! @ Tasi : great writing.


#4 15 “Unfinished Sentences”

1. I usually worry when others don’t answer or respond to my calls. I worry when someone I care about and I don’t talk after arguing. It makes me wonder if we are going to talk again or not. When things get out of hand and get serious. My mind automatically changes to a serious mode. Changed plans and not prepared or expecting it. I like being prepared. 2. I feel angry when she’s gives me her attitude for no reason and takes her anger out on me. I’m not her punching bag and it makes me furious. When people assume and don’t bother asking first. It’s not hard to ask questions. Especially, when people are rude to others for no reason. 3. I’m moody when I get my monthly! My mood goes up and down like crazy. Even the smallest things can make me happy or mad. Or when someone makes me so mad and I don’t know whether to get over it and be happy or still be mad. Sometimes I’m moody for no reason at all. 4. I’m happiest when I’m with my sisters or girls. My sister makes me happy all the time. She is someone I’d drop anything for. Our relationship is so different and unique from the others I have. My girls and I always have a great time. Were always laughing, joking, and talking about something interesting. There is never a dull moment when we are together. 5. I feel confident when others give me compliments. I feel better about myself and it makes my self-esteem rise. I don’t let it get to my head but I do acknowledge it. Even when people greet me as if I’ve been gone for months, I love that feeling. I love feeling loved. It brings me great confidence in how I feel and what I do. 6. I feel frustrated when I’m in a situation I don’t want to be in. I like to surround myself with people and sceneries where I’m myself to enjoy. When I’m not able to understand something or learn something new. If I can’t I start to feel bad about myself. I sometimes even get frustrated with myself. I can give myself a hard time. 7. I feel depressed when I overthink on bad situations. I feel depressed when I think about the accident. It tends to over bare me and take over my mind. Then I remember Raph wouldn’t want


me to feel down. I get sad when I think of all the mistakes and choices I have made. They weren’t the best or smartest. Exactly why I should move on and learn from them. 8. I am comfortable when people laugh at me when I make a joke or do something funny. It makes me feel happy and at home. Or when I’m with my girls, I am so myself! They know me inside and out. They can predict what I would say or do. Of course, my family as well there’s no need to hide from them. 9. I feel nervous when people say “I need to talk to you” or “I need to tell you something.” It makes me automatically worried and sad. I prepare for the worst and begin to hope for nothing serious. As well as progress reports and report cards at school. Those make me nervous and worried like there’s no tomorrow. 10. I feel sentimental when I see kids with special needs. When I see elderly people alone or need help. I get very sincere and helpful because I know I wouldn’t want to be alone in the future. Especially when a friend is in need or sad, I want to be there as much as I can. I don’t want to feel that I wasn’t there for any of my friends when they needed me. Feedback: @TasiRose C Some typos but great writing. @TasiRose C. I like it but be more specific and check some of your grammar.


#5 35 “How to” How to keep going even when you are ready to give up on something or someone… When you begin something or get involved with something or someone, find a motivation to keep you going. First analyze the whole situations. Find your strengths and weaknesses. Figure out what needs more attention and what needs improvement. Also find a way to balance it all at once though. If it feels too much and overwhelming, take a step back and look at what you are in. But make sure you feel confident about your choices. It’s okay to ask others for advice and their opinions but it’s up to you and what makes you happy. For example, after the accident I was in I felt like a total different person. I didn’t even know who I was as a person. I didn’t feel myself; I was totally lost and not content. Nothing seemed to be the same and everything seemed different as if I had awoken up from coma. So I had to analyze the situation. Figure what happened, the five W’s. It was a difficult process but in time I got answers. Of course there were obstacles and difficulties but I got through it. I figured out what and who made me feel happy. I found a motivation. My motivation was “Be happy, because Raph wouldn’t want you to be sad.” I said it to myself and as well as others. Whenever I’d get to thinking about the whole dilemma; I stop and take a breath, look at the sky and tell myself my motivation. It works for me every time. You need to be confident and believe in your motivation of choice. If you aren’t, it’s not going to work. It’s going to a lie you are telling yourself. Not everyone will agree or see it the way you do. But that doesn’t matter, at the end of the day; it is up to you to decide whether to see the positive out of the negative. Feedback: TasiRose C.: She provided good information. It was really helpful to me! She gave good guide and example to follow and understand. It is easy to follow. @Tasi-Rose Tas like you are very strong to still be going. i like that. after what has happened you still managed to be yourself and do what you do best.... breathe. keep it going . @TasiRose C.: I admire you for being so strong after that heavy event that has happened to you. It must have been really hard for you to get over it, but you did. It’s very touching. The only thing you probably need to check is your punctuations. Other than that, I loved it. Keep smiling girl!


#6 27 â&#x20AC;&#x153;Cheer Yourself Up!â&#x20AC;?

1. Visit Raphael at the cemetery. 2. Go to the beach and catch the sunset. 3. Be with my oldest sister. 4. Go shopping. 5. Wander a huge abandoned building. 6. Lay in a field of flowers and watch the clouds. 7. Jumping off cliffs into the ocean. 8. Holding babies. 9. Eating Pochon chicken, preferably medium spicy. 10. Playing beach volleyball at night. 11. Walking or playing games at the park or beach. 12. Having a water fight! 13. Drinking a slushy and eating hot cheetoh fries while watching a movie. 14. Helping people! 15. Experience or try new things.


#7 46 “Advice to the Young”

Dear “Young Person”, As you grow older, you realize all your mistakes and differences. As a young person, it’s good to try new things to “find” yourself. From my experiences, you shouldn’t care what others think or say of you. No matter what it is. They will always and forever judge you. No one is perfect, so don’t try to be. Because at the end of the day, all that actually matters is what YOU think of yourself. Those other people aren’t going to make you happy. It’s up to you whether to be happy or not. Choose your friends wisely. Not every person you meet will make a positive impact on your life. Some people are a blessing and some are a lesson. You just have to decide who is which. Don’t let people peer pressure you into something you don’t want to do. If they make you feel uncomfortable about something, then leave. Do it in a nicely matter so no one takes it offensively. Be careful, thoughtful, and genuine. There are not much people in the world like that and we need as much as we can get. Other people have lives and feelings too. It won’t always be about you or how you feel. Sometimes, you have to sacrifice your feelings or self for others sake. Always be the better person. Being immature and creating more drama will eventually get you in a bad situation. Don’t risk your life or the lives of others doing reckless things. Know your limits. Don’t overdo it; prevent trouble as much as you can. Just be smart and think before you act. Just remember, have fun and make memorable memories.

Sincerely, “Older Person”


#8 32 “One Medium Suitcase”

If I had a medium suitcase, I’d bring clothes, necessities, shoes, my laptop, and my straightener. Clothes are a must! You never know where you will be or who you will see. I’d bring all my high wasted shorts, my white and blue skinny jeans; along with my long sleeves, loose tanks, and of course a hoodie. Not to forget my undergarments! Those are a need at all times. What pulls the outfit all together are the shoes. All my slippers are a must, well the basic but fashionable slippers. My baby pink Nike running shoes and I shall not part; I treat them like they’re my babies. Necessities, well is a need of course. The lotion, deodorant, shampoo, conditioner, soap, toothpaste, toothbrush, tampons, and panty liners! Yes, it’s difficult being a female teenager. The one thing that helps me the most is my laptop. It holds a lot of important documents, photos, and memories. It takes me away from the real world sometimes. This portable computer that can access internet is what makes my life easier to be honest. Last but not least, my weapon of choice, my straightener! Let me tell you, if that was not invented a lot of females would go bald. Even some males use them so they should understand. My hair will get frizzy, wavy, and wild if I don’t straighten it. I do not look cute with that type of hair even if I tried. In reality, all those things would NOT fit in a medium suitcase but a girl can only try, plus we have purses.


#9 13 “The Ultimate All-Purpose Excuse”

Due to my tardiness, I apologize from the bottom of my heart. See what had happened was, last night I took a stroll to Jones Town lookout near GMH. I wanted to be by myself and somewhere peacefully. I sat on my car and star gazed with soothing music and a honey milk tea by my side. After a good ten to twenty minutes, I heard a noise over the cliff, like an injured animal. So I looked over the cliff and saw the legs of a zebra. The first thing I thought was “OMG, a zebra, on Guam!” I was so flabbergasted by the situation I had encountered, so I called my best friend, Erin Joy. She didn’t believe me at all, so she rushed down to me. She was in awe, she loves zebras, and she made me slap her silly! After contemplating on what to do, we finally decided to buy a rope, tape, taser, carrots, and a bat at Kmart. We climbed down the cliff and went to the zebra. When we arrived to the zebra, we picked it up and saw the front of its body was an elephant! It was a zelephant! (That’s what we need named it.) We found a new species Mrs. Griffin! After that we wrapped it in tape and rope, pulled it up, and drove it to GMH. With everyone in shock and confused, they called animal control and the President of the United States! Erin Joy and I were questioned for hours full of fat cops with donuts around their fingers. Then we were released and right when we walked out the building…..I woke up. So yeah, I just woke up late.


#10 49 “Valuable Lessons”

1.”Never Take Things for Granted”: People should appreciate everything in their life, especially the little things. 2. “Life is too Short”: We think we have all the time in the world, when we really don’t. Our time in this world can end anytime. 3. “Little Things Count”: You make not know it but even the little things can make a big difference. 4. “Always be the Better Person”: No matter the situation, being the better person should help you grow as a person. 5. “Love your Mom, Dad, Guardian”: That person puts you first before their own lives. No matter how hard they are, be happy that you have them in your life. 6. “Even the Darkest Places Have Light”: In any bad situation there is always a positive in a negative. You just need to take the initiative to find it. 7. “Take Initiative”: It’s up to YOU to get where or what you want. You just need courage and to take the first step. 8. “Every Little Thing is Gonna be Alright”: In the end, it will be alright! It may not be perfect but it’s better than nothing. 9. “Life Goes On”: Life continues whether you move along with it or not. Find the heart to forgive and look forward. Don’t stay in the past. 10. “Find a Motivation”: Finding a motivation in any situation will help you to keep going. To not give up.


#11 2 “What’s in a Name?” Tasi-Rose Lorenza Sophia Camacho that is my name. Tasi-Rose is my entire first name. Tasi means “ocean” in Chamorro. When my mom was pregnant with me, she’d fly over the sea from Guam to Saipan. Rose is from my auntie Rosita, hence the Rose. My mom and my auntie never got along growing up and she hoped it would make amends with each other by naming me after her. Lorenza is my middle name; it comes from my grandpa’s middle name too. His middle name was Lorenzo. Sophia is my confirmation name. I chose it because the saint really reminded me of my mother. Also I just love the name Sophia. My last name is Camacho but I’m originally Guerrero. My mom was adopted into the Camacho family from Barrigada when she was a baby. Her biological parents are Guerrero. To be honest, I rather have the last name Guerrero. I feel that it fits me more than Camacho. In the end, I’m very content with my name. I’m THE ONLY TASI-ROSE LORENZA CAMACHO. That is what makes me unique. That’s what makes me who I am, me.


#12 37 “Are You Hungry?”

Tacos…are and have been my favorite food of all time! Any type of taco, you name it, I will try it. I just love tacos! Even the name is so lovely! Whether it is served or home-made. I’ll eat. One of my favorite types of tacos is fish tacos. I love fish as well, so fish tacos are the best combination to me. When I hear “tacos”, I immediately get excited to eat! I don’t just eat one taco, I literally eat like five. I prefer a soft shell so it isn’t so messy. But the hard shell has more taste to it. Best way to my heart? Give me tacos.


#13 19 Synectics

1. Which is wiser? A pen or a pencil? - A pen is much wiser because it has no eraser. It’s “permanent.” It shows commitment and is decisive. 2. Which is more fearful? New or old? - Old because the past is something that can follow and taunt you forever. 3. Which is like a promise? Mathematics or science? - Mathematics because every problem in math has an exact answer. Numbers never ends, it goes on and on. Science has too many theories and predictions. Things that COULD happen. 4. Which is brave? An hour or a year? - An hour because it’s all in your head whether that hour is going to be long and painful or fast and wonderful. 5. Which has more pride? An entrance or an exit? - An exit because you are already there, no need for an entrance. Once you are there, you need to have pride to know when to leave. 6. Which is sadder? Seek or find? - To seek because during that time of looking you dread till you find what you want. That period of time can either make you or break you. 7. Which cost more? A home or house? - A house is just a building with rooms, walls, and doors. No love, laughter, people, energy, or memories. A place filled with those things is called a home, which is priceless.


8. Which is more useful? A friend or an enemy? - I’d say an enemy; because they know things you want to know. Your friends won’t know things because they are your friend and people won’t tell them anything. Like they say “Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.” 9. Which is more suspenseful? Rain or snow? -Snow because it becomes either ice or water. It’s the wait to see which one it will become. 10. Which is more difficult? A dream or a nightmare? - A dream because people dream all the time. So it isn’t anything significant. It’s normal and easy to forget. But a nightmare is rare and has its own title besides “bad dream.” It’s difficult to forget.


#14 9 Room Sweet Room

My room is somewhere I can escape to. Its where I’m most comfortable and myself at. It’s my “Zen.” Like every room, I have a bed. Its perfect size for me and has a lot of pillows and stuffed animals. Without my bed, my room is incomplete and lonely. I feel “close” to it, in a physical way because I’m, literally on it. My prized possession, my “have to be there”, is my closet. It’s a part of me that no one will even know how. If you know me well, you know that I love to shop! It’s the place I go to make me feel complete, well mainly because I can’t walk around naked. My closet contains all my clothes and all my shoes! You name it. Obviously, I love my closet. The mirror is like my best friend. It lets me know how I look and what my flaws are. Both physically and mentally. Even though it is just an object, a mirror can show a lot. Sometimes, it’s just good to reflect on yourself. Talk to yourself, whatever helps. I’m not conceited nor do I stare at the mirror all day. It’s like a best friend whenever you need it, whether it’s in your pocket, purse, or room. It is always there for you, unless you break it and have to buy a new one or you just get seven years of bad luck. Personally, everyone should have a mirror in their room. On my wall, near my bed, is a photo of the Eiffel Tower. It is black and white and the tower is a lined with gold sparkles to make it pop out. I know it’s just a picture, but a picture could have a thousand words. It’s my motivation everyday as I walk out my door. I look at it so I can work hard and become successful. I tell myself that as long as I try and do what I do best, I can accomplish this goal of mine. Not only that but to travel the entire world. That’s something I would love to do. Easier said than done, but a girl can wish. Obviously, it’s a personal opinion and feeling towards this item. It’s important to me, just as the other items. My room sweet room is MY place. It’s a place for me and my thoughts. That contains all my secrets and prized possessions, like a diary but only I’m able to understand it.


#15 12 Symbolic Recipe

3 tablespoons of curiosity

1 cup of stubbornness

1 tablespoon of selfishness

2 cups of generosity

3 cups of humor

2 ½ cups of impatience

5 tablespoons of adventure

4 cups of crazy

Make sure to measure each ingredient perfect. Stir every time you pour in a new ingredient. Don’t stir too hard or too slow. Stir gently and calm to make it smooth with no bumps. Then once you see it’s as smooth as a baby bottom, pour it into a pan and cook it at 350 degrees for one hour. Warning: If you stir too rough it will explode in your face. Stir with caution.


#16 31 Remembering the Child

Ever since I was little, I have always been curious and very stubborn. My mom would call me “Wild Child” or “The Human Vacuum.” I would do crazy things, anything that would come into my mind without a second thought. Even when people would tell me no, I wouldn’t listen and do it any way. I would climb trees, playgrounds, even buildings, I was full of energy. I would be so impatient to play outside, I’d run out the house no shoes on. I just wanted to start the adventure of the day. My mom said I would eat anything that I see on the ground. Whether it is edible or not. The very reason why she would call me “The Human Vacuum.” I would stuff pennies, qtips, paper, toys; you name it, down my throat. One time, I ate a piece of Mentos candy paper; it got stuck in my throat. My mom wasn’t able to get it out of my mouth, she said. So she ran to my Nina’s house down the street, with her hand in my mouth, yelling for her. My mom was crying and so worried that something bad would happen. She was so overwhelmed. Yup, I drive my mom crazy. So of course, my Nina got the piece of paper out my throat. My mom was angry and so relieved at the same time. When she speaks of this memory, I laugh because I could just imagine the look on my mom’s face. I also smile too because it shows my mom loves me and will stick with me no matter the situation. Even when I drive her crazy with my crazy personality. I appreciate her more and more.


#17 24

“Remembrance of Things Present”

In twenty years, the main thing I want to remember is my motivation in life. It gets me through my struggles and the obstacles I face. When I want to give up and quit, I analyze the situation and find a motivation. This strategy is a huge help to me. I always face a different situation and I want to be able to get through them, whether they good or bad. I believe there is always a benefit with this strategy. The feeling of accomplishing something and to be glad you finished. The feeling of completing a goal or getting through the bumpy roads, that feeling satisfies me every time. I love that feeling. I want to remember Raphael Joaquin. I’m completely sure I will but just in case. He made a huge impact in my life. He taught me things that he didn’t mean to intentionally. Such as to be happy even though I have every right to be sad or mad, to find the light in the dark places, to see the good in people, and most of all, to smile every day. He was the ONLY person that was able to make me happy when I was completely sad. That is how much he affected me. Sometimes I want to forget it then sometimes I want to remember it, my mom and I’s arguments. I hate fighting with her, well who doesn’t hate arguing with their parent. But it reminds me that she really cares. She only get mad because she cares and wants the best for me. I never realized it before. I am truly grateful for her. Everyone has that one best friend they want and need in their lives, well I have two. I’ve known Kaylani Cruz for practically my whole life. She knows me so well, ask her anything. I’ve known ErinJoy Dela Cruz for three years but our bond has grown so strong. They both have been there for me in my hard times and has seen me at my weakest. I have been through a lot with both of them in the time I’ve had them in my lives. Through the good and the bad, every time I turned, they were right there. I can honestly call them my true friends.


#18 44 “Lessons I Learned After it was Too Late”

One lesson I learned is to appreciate the people and things in our life. We all take advantage of the time we have here. I learned to take some time to reflect to see who and what are needed in my life. People come and go, whether they were important to you or not. I want to figure out who is worth fighting for, who is “fake” and who is “real.” They can either be a lesson or a blessing in your life. There are always lessons in our lives, whether we like it or not. I rather find the blessings than to waste my time of the fakes. I like to learn from others. To figure out which type of people I like and who I don’t want to surround myself with. The right from the wrong. Think before you act. I guarantee that is a lesson we have all learned but tend to break. It’s a natural reflex for us. There are always consequences to our choices, whether they are good or bad. Everyone has jumped the gun and bad things happened after it. Either by fear, happiness or anger, we can jump the gun and regret it afterwards. Some people don’t have the will to stop and think before what they would do. The bad thing about this lesson is that we can learn from it right away and then totally forget about it and make the mistake again. It has its pros and it has its cons. Lastly, every dark place has its peak of light. That is a lesson I learned recently. I take this seriously and to the heart, it has a meaning to me that is difficult to explain. When things get hard people tend to give up and think there is no hope. That is not true though, anything is possible. I do believe that. No matter how bad or wicked the situation is, you just need to find the goodness of it. Sometimes it can be in your face and sometimes in plain sight. It won’t always be easy and it won’t always be hard, but it is up to us to take the first step into seeing the “light.”


#19 36 “Always Say Never”

Majority of us strongly dislike having to go to DMV. That is one place I never want to go to again, unfortunately we all have to go there at certain points in our lives. It is too hot, long lines, and rude people. I feel that they need more employees there. Yes I am impatient but it seriously takes too long for some piece(s) of paper or a card. Exes are meant to be lessons learned. All my exes and I are civil but just not friends. I don’t regret any of them because regrets are bad. I wouldn’t date any of them again, like ever. There is just too much history and memories. I rather leave it alone and not bring them up again. Long story short, there is no need to go back. Cat scans scare the living hell out of me!!! They are too small, dark, and loud. They make me feel out of breath and vulnerable. I don’t like feeling vulnerable to anything. It feels like the walls are closing in on you and you can’t move at all. I never want to go in one ever again! If you have ever been in one before then you should know exactly what I mean. Shopping is something I love to do! Except on Black Friday. It is too crazy and hectic for me. People turn into animals that haven’t eaten for weeks. People are fighting for materialistic things and I’m at home sleeping. I rather take my chances and avoid getting trampled for the last dress on the rack for five dollars. It is completely ridiculous. We all love sleep, I’m sure of that. The only thing I am afraid of is not knowing whether you’re going to have a nightmare or not. I don’t get them often but when I do it has a huge effect on me the next couple of days. Sometimes I get the same nightmare or sometimes I get a random nightmare. I know we all hate nightmares so I’m sure people will agree with me to the fact that we never want to have a nightmare again!


#20 16 “Personal Symbol”

When I was very young, my dad gave me these four little glass angels. Two were pink and two were yellow. They are very symbolic to me only because it’s from my dad and I didn’t grow up with him. So I feel that it’s him in some way. I lost two though, one pink and one yellow. The yellow is holding a book and the pink has its hands together. Both are broken in some type of way. It somehow reminds me that no one is perfect, everyone has their edges. I know they are angels and suppose to “perfect” but I feel that it is okay to not be perfect. Mistakes are something we learn from and make every day. In order to gain more knowledge, I believe mistakes are for our well-being. Having imperfections makes us human and who we are. Shouldn’t we accept the people for who they are? Shouldn’t we forgive but never forget the mistakes some people make? Exactly why I accept and forgive my dad for all the mistakes.


#21 40 “The Examined Life”

Best Traits 1. I’m very considerate. 2. I’m sometimes over protective. 3. I love to have fun. 4. I like to take chances. 5. I’m a good listener. Greatest Faults 1. I’m very impatient. 2. I spend too much money on clothes. 3. I can be a brat. 4. I tend to complain. 5. I get irritated quickly.


#22 22 “In Other Words” 1. “One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain” – Bob Marley 2. “Don’t worry about a thing, every little thing gonna be alright” – Bob Marley 3. “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” – Marilyn Monroe 4. “I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much.” –Mother Teresa 5. “If you judge people, you have no time to love them.” – Mother Teresa 6. “Only in the darkness can you see the stars.” - Martin Luther King Jr. 7. “Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway.” – Eleanor Roosevelt 8. “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” - Oscar Wilde 9. “You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” - Mae West 10. “Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” - Mahatma Gandhi


#23 47 “Who Am I”

1. Friend: I will be there for you whenever you need someone. I will go the extra mile just make you happy when you’re sad. I’m willing to cancel a date with a hot guy to sit down and listen to you vent. I will show you that not everyone is bad. I will be completely honest with you whether it hurts or not. I will make sure that when you need help, I will do whatever I possibly can to help. I’ll be your true friend. 2. Care Taker: If you need help with any situation, I will help you. If you need help financially, I will do what I can. If you need help with tying your shoes or zipping you dress, I will help. If you have car trouble, I will stand on the side of the road with you and ask for help because I have no idea how to fix cars. I will be the extra hand when you need. 3. Sister: I will be overly protective and completely insane towards you. I will make sure you do the right thing. I will scold you if you need it. I have no hesitations to ask to borrow something you have. We will fight and talk the next day. I will hold your hand when we lose a loved one. I will always be there. 4. Pink Lover: I love anything that is pink. I don’t know why I love it so much. It’s just such a nice color and the different shades of it. Mainly because I look really good in pink. 5. Shopaholic: If you know me, you know that I love to shop. I seriously cannot get enough of it. I feel like I have to buy an outfit for every occasion that comes up, well most of the time. Sometimes, I have to restrain myself from going into stores or online shopping. Yes I know, I might have a slight problem.


#24 48 “Rewarding Experiences” 1. Going to Singapore for my cheer competition because it something I have never done before and I felt like I had done something so incredible. 2. Winning 2nd place at my cheer competition out of 22 teams because they were all experienced cheerleaders and my team had been only cheering for two years and it was our first competition. 3. When I off the cliff at Turtle Cove helped me overcome my fears from the ocean and heights. 4. My first time eating pochon chicken, the best chicken I have ever eaten in my entire life. 5. My friend’s boat cruise feels important because that day I established amazing friendships. 6. Taking road trips to different cities and states, it made me realize that there is so much more out there in this world. 7. Getting fitted for my cap and gown, it showed me that I’m almost there to become an adult and start my own life. 8. When the person I looked up to and trusted completely backstabbed me, it showed me that even the closest person to you can cause harm to you. 9. Receiving my driver’s license made me realize that I’m growing up and I felt accomplished. 10. My first party with my friends, I had an amazing time and I realized that I love music and dancing.


#25 3 Personal Alphabet 

Affable

Neat

Bold

One

Crazy

Playful

Determined

Quicker

Energetic

Reverent

Fabulous

Strong

Gullible

Thoughtful

Happy

Unblushing

Intelligent

Veridical

Jocular

Warm-hearted

Klutzy

Xenophile

Loyal

Youthful

Motivated

Zealous


#26 39

Deck of 52 52 Ways to Make a Girl Happy or Smile 1. Hug her tight. 2. Surprise her. 3. Cook for her. 4. Give her flowers. 5. Compliment her. 6. Show her attention. 7. Show effort. 8. Text her “Good morning” 9. Be there when she needs you. 10. Respect her. 11. Kiss her forehead. 12. Joke with her. 13. Show her you’re not ashamed of her. 14. Hold her hand. 15. Open the door for her. 16. Remember as much as you can. 17. Recognize the small things, they count. 18. Walk her to class. 19. Serenate her. 20. Ask her on a date. 21. Make her smile when she’s sad. 22. Hold her when she’s feeling down. 23. Hug her from behind. 24. Tell her you lover her, if you feel it. 25. Express your feelings. 26. Be a good listener.

27. Be a hopeless romantic. 28. Write her cute notes. 29. Take her shopping. 30. Buy her nice things. 31. Give her love. 32. Make her feel like the only girl in the world. 33. Be honest with her. 34. Help her when it’s needed. 35. When she’s mad, kiss her. 36. Text her first. 37. Be the first to apologize. 38. Appreciate her. 39. Kiss her when she doesn’t expect it. 40. Be intimate. 41. Make her laugh. 42. Watch her favorite movies with her. 43. Invite her to events. 44. Take cute pictures with her. 45. Stand up for her. 46. Wipe away her tears. 47. Take walks with her. 48. Remind her that you love her. 49. Don’t put her after video games. 50. Take initiative to talk to her first. 51. Take care of her when she’s sick. 52. Give her your sweater (:


#27 10 Personal Metaphors

1. Food: If I were a food, I’d be a taco. I can either be hard or soft to you. I’m also filled with a lot, so some things just come out. 2. Car: I’d be a wrangler jeep. Incredibly nice looking, but can get rough when it’s needed. 3. Day of the Week: I’m a Sunday. They’re relaxing and peaceful but can also be filled with laughter and fun. 4. Plant: Rose is a perfect description of me. I can be lovely and beautiful, but I can also be deadly. So don’t be fooled by my looks, my thorns might prick you. 5. Season of the Year: SPRING, my favorite season of the year! It’s colorful, cool bright, and very outgoing. It’s perfect to be outside and take adventures. 6. Piece of Furniture: I’d be a reclining chair. I’m someone you can lean on. I’m soft and comforting when it’s needed. 7. Movie: Boo! Horror movies are the best. They are unpredictable, keeps you interested, and at the edge of your seat. 8. Geometric Shape: Just like a 3Dsquare, I have multiple sides to me. I connect to each side personally, but they are what complete me. 9. Color: It’s bold, fierce, deceiving, elegant, and most of all sexy. They call it black… 10. Musical Instrument: I’d be a piano. I can be graceful and soothing, but after one “button” pushed I can become outrageous and outstanding. I can surprise you; show you something you wouldn’t expect. 11. Cartoon or Comic Character: If you know me very well, you can say I’m Stewie from Family Guy. I’m cute and small, someone you think that is completely innocent. Don’t let looks deceive you though, I can be quite harsh and mean when I want or need to be.


12. Television Character: Rose Nyhund. A small but filled with so much joy person. A goofball if you must say. 13. Fragrance: I’d love to smell like chocolate. It’s so sweet and yummy. You can tell its chocolate when you smell it, so you can “smell” me coming. Also, who doesn’t love chocolate!? 14. Song: I’d be the Mash-up of 2012 Songs by Pop Danthology. It’s filled with so many emotions and feelings, but they blend up together. I can go from being upbeat to mellow in a split second. 15. Article of Clothing: I would say I’m a bra. I’ll pick you up when you are feeling low. Haha. 16. Animal: I’m like a Kangaroo. I keep the people I care about real close. I hop around to different things, I like to explore. 17. Word: Unexpected is the word for me. I’m all the things you wouldn’t expect at all. People’s first impression of me is that I’m mean. Then they realize I’m nice and funny. 18. Natural Phenomenon: The Arc of Danxia (Rainbow Mountains) in China. I’m a colorful person, it takes times to see all my color whether they’re ugly or pretty. 19. Appliance or Machinery: A hard drive, to remember and all the things I have done, to keep memories. 20. Type of Building: A home (house) is something I’d be any day. A home is filled with love, laughs, cries, and memories. I cherish those things in life.


#28 5 Sensory Experiences

My First Time at Turtle Cove in Guam Taste: The salt from the body of sea. Smell: The beautiful water washing onto shore. Touch: The sharp rocks from climbing to the jump. Sight: All my friends and I smiling, having an amazing time. Hear: The laughs and screams from my friends and me jumping off cliff.


#29 6 Metaphorical Definitions

1. Generosity is giving people who donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t have. 2. Bravery is standing up for what is right. 3. Honesty is having one face, not two. 4. Beauty is every woman on this planet. 5. Joy is the taste of strawberries covered in chocolate. 6. Horror is seeing the ones you love hurt. 7. Happiness is laughter from friends and family. 8. Success is the paycheck from hard earns work. 9. Irritation is encountering inconsiderate people. 10. Dream is doing what I love for the rest of my life.


#30 17 Map of Life

June 21st, 1996: Tasi-Rose Lorenza Camacho came into this world. 2001: My family and I moved to Las Vegas and started 1st grade. 2006: Finished grade school and became a pre-teen. 2007: I came out of my shell. 2010: I left Las Vegas and came back to Guam. 2012: I was a cheerleader and went to my first competition, we won 2nd place out of 22 teams. 2013: The accident happened and I lost a loved one. 2014: I got my first job. June 12, 2014: I graduate high school.


#31 28 Metamorphosis

1. I used to be a piece of paper but now I’m a book to a series. 2. I used to be a dusty book but now I’m an open book. 3. I used to be a lie but now I’m the truth. 4. I used to be a seed but now I’m a fully bloomed rose. 5. I used to be a picture but now I’m a video. 6. I used to be a one piece but now I’m a two piece. 7. I used to be the sink but now I’m the ocean. 8. I used to be a training bra but now I’m a b-cup bra. 9. I used to be a penguin but now I’m a dove. 10. I used to be a baby blanket but now I’m a comforter.


#32 8 Color Your World

Color of Moodsâ&#x20AC;Ś Feeling happy? Wear Pink. Feeling sad? Wear blue. Feeling crazy? Wear purple. Feeling mellow? Wear gray. Feeling cool? Wear green. Feeling love? Wear red. Feeling scared? Wear white. Feeling bold? Wear black. Feeling excited? Wear yellow. Feeling mad? Wear orange.


#33 33 The Perfect Present There will never be a perfect present, but I would chose trust. Itâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s not just a word to me; it is an emotion, a bond, a commitment. People lack this gift greatly. I trust only a handful of people. Sometimes I donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t even my own family. There were a lot of people I thought I could trust, turns out it was all a lie. I vale the people I trust. If anyone were to break the trust between us id forgive them but never forget. Trust takes years to earn but a second to lose.


#34 25 As Time Go Bye-Bye HELLO 1. I want to sky dive! I’ve always wanted to fly since I was a kid. Like a superhero or super ability, to see the “world” from above and feel free. The wind in my face and feeling as I was weigh nothing. 2. Swim with dolphins. I always found them so fascinating. I want to hold onto them as they swim wherever they please. They are incredibly beautiful in the ocean which makes it even more engaging. 3. Own a fennec fox! I was never allowed to have a pet when I was a kid. Now that I’m older I can have my own. I thought about a dog or a cat, but they are so common. I thought it be nice to be original. Also they are amazingly cute with their big ears!

GOODBYE 1. This year I said goodbye to someone I thought I could call my life-long best friend. She used me, lied to me, and made me embarrassed. I was deceived from all the great memories. Now I finally see it was all bullshit, a dream. 2. Goodbye, to the idea that I could be friends with everyone. There will always people we can’t tolerate. Now vie realized that loyalty goes a long way. Choose wisely on whom you spend your time with. 3. R.I.P. to the girl you used to see…adios to the old me. I’m someone with more wisdom, experience, and judgment. I’m content with who I am now, I’m far from perfect, but I’m better now than I ever was.


#35 50 Futures – Fantasy and Fact I imagine a nice cozy home with various windows to bring in sun light. Also a family that is close and growing. As well as the good job that involves helping people. I want to have the time to also watch my kids grow and be there for them as a parent should be. We can’t forget the Girls Night Out (GNO)!!! Which, of course, will involve drinks, chitchat, and braiding each other’s hair. I won’t have the same metabolism or figure as I do now, so I definitely need time to hit the gym and keep a fit body. Let’s face it, being a size 3 will not last forever. Lastly, having my partner beside me, supporting and believing in me. In reality, I see myself in an apartment with barely any windows. I’d be working a job that I extremely despise. I should be a teacher in ten years. I might even have a few kids if I find “the one.” I will definitely still be paying off my school loans and car payments. I will live paycheck to paycheck. I won’t be married and I will be struggling in every way besides my job, because a teacher is helping people, and I love doing that. The first thought of the word Romantic, we suddenly think roses, chocolates, hugs, and kisses. When I started the first paragraph, I thought of what truly counts in life: family, friends, helping others, and love. It may not be your ideal of romantic, but there’s love in everyone and thing. Reality is something we all eventually will have to face. It’s the “B” slap to our faces once we are out of high school. The wakeup call to reality, “the real world.” We need to start our lives and take things seriously. There won’t always be a second chances or someone to hold your hand. Its reality.


#36 23 Flashback May 21st, 2012. My first “date” with my ex-boyfriend. Some of the people know who, I’m talking about so no need for any names. I want to relive this day because it was too “perfect.” Crazy right? Usually you’d want to cherish something like this. Not me though, I wish it went bad, the worst date in history. If it wasn’t so “perfect”, I would have stayed away. I’m not saying I regret dating him because I learned and gained a lot. But because there was more negativity than there was positivity. I’ve lost a lot of friends, got in trouble, lost track of my future, my grades went down, and I was becoming anti-social. I mean yeah, we had good times but those were only temporary. I became immediately sad if we weren’t on good terms. I’d lose weight quickly, I wouldn’t focus in school, and I’d push away the ones that cared. I “couldn’t” have any friends that were the opposite gender of me. I was “verbally abused,” which made me insecure destroyed, and gaunt. I was lost, waiting to be found. All because that “date” went so “perfect.” I was attached, so fond of this boy that I barely knew. Stupid, I know. If I knew all this then, I would’ve cancelled and ever went. Pssshh! It wasn’t even a date. It was a damn fieldtrip to watch a movie. I should’ve know when we called that a date.


#37 41 Annual Report A year ago I was a naïve and immature girl. I was someone that easily taken advantage of and who would easily forgive others. I was a fool in love with idea of someone. Now I’m more experienced, I have more wisdom, and my judgments on the world aren’t as bad. I see the world and people stepping or talking to me as if they are above me. I like the person I am now. My mind set is better than before. I know who are my true friends and whom to trust. A year from now I see myself in school to become a teacher. I will have a job that I won’t enjoy, but it will pay the bills. I will live in a small apartment that I can call home. I expect to ma a lot of progress. There’s no time to waste. A year ago I wouldn’t have expected any of this. I’m glad how my life is now, I’m content. I’m more focused on my future. I’m not letting anyone or distractions stop me. I have a goal to accomplish. I not careless anymore, I care more about my friends, family, and myself. I can genuinely say I am better off today than I was a year ago. If I kept going where I was then, my life wouldn’t be progressing. It would be falling apart and my mind of state would be trash.


#38 42 Ekphrasis I couldn’t agree more. “Killing Nature” Link: http://marool.com/killing-nature/

My haiku poem: Murderer “They’re the most wild. While nature only gives. People are killers.


#39 38 Where I’m From I’m from educators and officer, from straight As and discipline was priority. I’m from the Mrs. Always Right, nagging for perfection. I am from the look classy not trashy, want to be society. I’m from the chef’s kitchen, whose expectations are too high. I’m from the board that will, never be satisfied. I’m from the judgmental zombies, that eats you alive with their words. I’m from the small room, where no one hears you. I’m from the prison in my mind.


#40 34 Memorable Event The only memorable event that I had this year was my brother’s confirmation. It was at Blessed Diego San Vicente Church in Tumon on a Friday night, may 2nd. You must be wondering how’s this memorable for me. Well let me explain. My brother and I were very close before until I went into middle school. We grew apart since then and acted as strangers. I was a young girl going through changes I couldn’t explain to him. I was becoming a teenager and had no idea what was happening. I was scared. Ever since, we acted as if we never shared any memories together. Therefore, this night was memorable because I saw the beginning of my brothers and I relationship to become close again. We were at church and I saw that my mom didn’t get him a lei. So I took the initiative to buy him one. I was actually very excited to give it to him once they were confirmed. After they were confirmed and able to go to their family, I went up to him and put the lei around his neck. I hugged him and congratulated him. Soon after, we all made our way up to lone star for dinner, where our other family members joined us. When we were done eating, we were all talking and then it was time for pictures. My mom, my brother, and I were hugging and smiling for our photo. Then my brother said, “Wow, we haven’t been this close in years.” There and then I realized how accurate that was. I hugged him tighter and said, “Don’t worry, we have time to makeup.” That’s a memorable event to me.


#41 21 These Words Belong to Me 1. Miracle: A surprisingly and welcome event that is not explicable by nature or scientific law, and is therefore considered the work of divine agency. - This word belongs to me because it’s a miracle that I’m still alive. The doctors said that I should have passed in the accident. I tore my aorta and it should’ve led me to bleed internally from my heart. It didn’t though, my heart kept going. A miracle… 2. Forgiveness: The action of forgiving or being forgiven. - For a lot of people, forgiving is a hard thing to do. Well for me, it is an easy thing to do because I strongly believe in forgiveness. Holding a grudge is not healthy and unnecessary. You can do the most wrong to me, but I will always forgive you. It doesn’t mean well be friends again; it just means I’m willing to be civil. 3. Grateful: Feeling or showing an appreciation of kindness. - I am a very lucky person. I have been through a lot and have received a lot. I don’t always appreciate enough; therefore I’m truly grateful for everything. 4. Mysterious: Difficult or impossible to understand, explain, or identify. - I’ve been called it all: complicated, difficult, stubborn, challenging, etc. I’ve always been that kind of person. Sometimes it’s too much, but it’s what makes me, me. 5. Misjudge: Form a wrong opinion or confusion about. - People always misjudge me. They all think I’m mean and rude at first, but then they get to know me and see how I really am. 6. Blunt: A person uncompromisingly forthright. - I’m a very honest person. I will tell you like it is. I don’t see it as rude; I see it as being blunt. Unless you want me to lie to your face and then I’m a liar. Which do you prefer?


7. Loyal: Giving or showing firm and constant support or allegiance to a person. - Loyalty is something I use to lack. After two years, I realized how important it is. I am now loyal to my family that supports me and my friends that I can trust. 8. Inspiration: The process of being mentally simulated to do or feel something, especially to do something creative. - When I’m inspired, I have absolute motivation to do something about it. My mind will go out of the box and it won’t stop. I think of things I would’ve never thought I could imagine. It’s beautiful. 9. Generous: Showing a readiness to give more of something then is necessary. - I rather give to others than to take. I’m blessed with more than I need. That’s why I have no problem to give to others. I rather have what I’m giving used than to collect dust. 10. Smile: Ones feature’s into a pleased, kind, amused expression. - Smiling is what gets me through the day. It brings positive vibes and makes other people feel better as well. It’s a contagious thing.


#42 11 Extended Metaphors 1. Article of clothing – I choose to be a bra because they are made to protect and support. I see myself with those two traits. I will always be there for my friends that need me. I will try my best to protect them in any way possible. When they are involved in something they believe in, I will be by their side to support them. Just like a bra. 2. Fragrance – I realized that if I were to smell like chocolate, people will think I have chocolate. Anyways, chocolate is my favorite treat or dessert. It honestly makes me happy when I’m feeling sad. I’m sweet like chocolate, when I want to be. Who doesn’t love chocolate!? 3. Type of Building – A home is filled with love, cries, laughs, and memories. I value those things because they are easily to be forgotten or mean no more. It’s what makes a house a home. You can’t call a house a home without filling it up. Whether they are cries of joy or sadness, those really count, not the material things. 4. Geometric Shape – Just like a geometric shape, I have different sides to me. It all depends on the mood I’m in. Only some people know all my sides. I chose who to show them to. They all complete me though, they shape me. 5. Color – Black can represent a lot of things. It can be bold, fierce, elegant, sexy to empty, destroyed, lost. I relate to this because I can become either in a second. Anything can change.


#43 7 A Quality Personality Fear is alone and silent. She screams in a room full of people and no one hears her. Not one word is heard. She’s slowly making her way to suicide without even knowing it. She is a walking time bomb. You can smell the fear from her lips. You see the fire in her eyes. Her tears burn her skin as it falls down her cheek. She is too scared the words don’t come out right. Fear is worried if she stood up people would push her right back down. She’s too delicate and can break anytime. She is ashamed to show herself and speak her mind because she is horrified. In reality, the only fear is her.


#44 29 Picture This

This is a photo that was taken during the ceremony for Raff at my school shortly after he passed. The people in the photo were either friends with him or relatives. We said a few words and released doves for him. It was an emotional time. This photo really makes me think about him and realizes how he is gone. I love it and then I hate it. It came out beautiful with the doves flying away. I think this photo can only mean something to whoever knows about Raff or were there. IT was a â&#x20AC;&#x153;have to be thereâ&#x20AC;? moment.


#45 14 Telling Tales The story I hear the most is about when I was very little. I would always put random things in my mouth and try to swallow them. They would call me the “Human Vacuum.” When the first told this story to me, I automatically thought they were exaggerating. It turns out it was true, I’d put pennies, paper, toys, and q-tips in my mouth. I was naughty child, from what I was told. Once evening my mom left me to play on the ground with my brother. She noticed I kept moving my lips and tongue, so she came to see what I was doing. She discovered I had a piece of mentos paper in my mouth. By the time she tried to get it out of my mouth, it was half way in my throat. So she called my Nina yelling and crying about what happened. She ran down to her house and my Nina had to grab my face and shove her fingers down my throat to pull it out. On the side, my mom is panicking and freaking out like a crazy person. My mom was so mad and relieved at the same time. I thought to share this story because it shows that I’ve always driven my mom crazy, but she loves me unconditionally.


#46 20 A Day in the Life Its 3:01 am. It’s the middle of fall and all the leaves are brown and the trees are empty. She finally wakes up from sleep paralysis. She didn’t know what it was she assumed it was a dream that she couldn’t wake up from. She was frightened and couldn’t move even awaken. She was paralyzed. Not being able to move, she imagined herself walking to the door, but every time she touched the door knob she would blink and be back in her bed. She tried and tried and tried, and no progress. Finally she screamed for help, the house was full of her entire family. No one heard her. Once again, she screamed and finally he rushes in. He realizes what is happening. He gets on top of her and holds her down, then puts the pillow on her face to silence her. He hurts her both physically and mentally. She is ruined. Slowly getting the courage to get up and run to her mom. She wakes up and breathes. It was just a nightmare.


#47 18 A Mysterious Place It’s a big building full of pain. It has plain walls and shallow halls. You can smell the alcohol that diminished all the bacteria. You can fell the sudden weight once you walk in. It can be chaotic but as quiet as a graveyard. The silence kills you. The waiting is eating you alive. The uncomfortable chairs that takes up too much space. There are hundreds of rooms and you feel as if you have nowhere to run. You sleep in a hard bed that feels like rocks that support you otherwise. Beep. Beep. Beep. You hear it every now and then. It’s what keeping you alive. You feel as if they experimented on you with all the wires and tubes connected to you. They walk in and all look down on you. They tell you things you can’t understand, it becomes too much. It overwhelms you and makes you freeze. You hear the news you wished never happened. You don’t believe it. You turn to you left, you see your mom holding you hand. You realize why didn’t I feel her touching my hand? You’re suddenly realizing what is happening and where you’re at. It all becomes clear. You shed a tear. You close your eyes and hope to wake up to your bedroom. You open your eyes, nothing changed. It’s all real…


#48 1 Introduction “Finally Revealed” I am young lady about to graduate high school. Already bored? I know me too. Know my name? Does it really matter right now? Read a few pages and then see if you want to ask my name. I’m just an average girl waiting to get out of school and tired of seeing the same faces five days a week. It is exhausting! I’ve been in school for twelve years and not once have I felt that I was true to myself because of afraid I was to be judged. Now that it’s my last year and it’s just the same things every day, I can careless about what people think. I am so many things people would never expect. People see the girl who is “all that” or the girl that has “been around.” It’s all what they see and guess what? It’s all false information. You can believe what you see and what you think what you saw, but if it’s not coming from my mouth then relax. Think about it. Does that even matter to YOU? It’s not even your life. Damn. Finally revealed. It can mean different things I suppose. My interpretation is that after these twelve years, I am finally my true self. I’m not afraid of others opinion, I laugh at what I think is stupidly funny. I stand up for what I think is right and speak my mind. I dress how I want to and don’t feel insecure or ugly. There’s no one to impress at school, I go there to learn and socialize, not run after boys who don’t see me. I found my true friends and there is no question about it. I stand up for them and do what they can’t do for themselves. Most of all, I enjoy myself. I make the best of every situation. Instead of complaining for the last eleven years, I chose to finally take it all in and smile. I saw my true self, I was finally revealed.


#49 43 Visually Speaking


#50 30 Look Who I Look Up To Rosa Parks is probably an inspiration to a lot of people. I admire her for finally speaking up after so long. It reminds me of myself. She finally stood up for what was right. That takes a lot of courage to do. It is not an easy thing. Sometimes it has a good outcome but sometimes bad outcomes. Just be prepared for both. I find this man truly inspirational and the proof of “nothing is impossible,” Nick Vujicic. He has a rare disease called Phocomelia, which means having no limbs. He is man with no arms or legs and yet he amazed me greatly. He is still able to do things that I thought I couldn’t even do. He makes the impossible, possible. He is motivational speaker and he came to my school once. I will never forget his visit. This woman is genuinely beautiful inside and outside, Ellen Degeneres. She is a talk show host, author, and actress, yet she is still her complete self. She is incredibly funny and true. She is honest and I find her amazing. All the good she does for others and the smiles she gives to people. She deserves everything in her life and all the appreciation towards her. She is an example of a humble person, most of which the population of the world lacks.


Epilogue

After writing this autobiography and actually reading it, Ive realized that I still have a lot in life. This is just the beginning and I have so much memories. It consists almost two decades of my life. I’ve seen that sometimes I don’t live life to the fullest and that I should do it more often. I have changed a lot in the last four years. It shows me that nothing is permanent. Things will change constantly and its life. I speak of myself mentally, emotionally, and all the experiences that I found memorable. A lot has happened, from what I remember, it all makes me who I am today. I am content with who I am. Things happen for a reason, right? The past year is what really made me into who I am. Certain events happened that had a huge impact on my life. It has really changed my perspective on people and the world. I don’t regret one thing at all. I have accepted everything and all my choices. There’s not a choice I wouldn’t change, well besides that one experience I talked about. She isn’t done writing her story, not even close. There is much more that she has to learn and encounter. There will be difficulties she knows she will have to face, but she is willing. She will become a better person in different ways. She will make mistakes but that’s the process of learning. No one will get in her way, she is determined to do what strives to be one day. She thanks everyone who has inspired her and who has been there for her. She includes you all in her story, you will be acknowledged. She is still writing her story as you read.

All About Me  

Mrs.Griffin 6th period