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ACROSS THE BORDERLINE If I only knew

Life after Death


ACROSS THE BORDERLINE If I only knew Translated by Karin Breit

Life after Death Jostein Strømmen Institutt for Ledelse og Administrasjon AS Copyright © 2009


First edition - 2009 Title: ACROSS THE BORDERLINE - If I only knew Copyright Š Institutt for Ledelse og Administrasjon AS 2009 - (Institute of Management and Administration Ltd.) www.josteinstrommen.com Printed in Norway Printed by: Bergen Grafisk AS Layout: Institutt for Ledelse og Administrasjon AS Paper: 100 g Soporset Font: Times Cover: Illustration of ectoplasm ISBN 978-82-998027-0-3


If I only knew - the expression If I only knew comes from those who have crossed the borderline of death, and are speaking to us from the other side. If I had only known what to expect, I would have lived my life differently here on earth. Life on earth is only one moment in eternity, but what you create in this moment has decisive consequences for life after death. In this book we will tell you about the sĂŠances, materialization, what the dead people say, which consequences your earthly life will bring about for you after death, and what you can do to improve your circumstances before your time comes - If I only knew.


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One September morning in the year 2004, I was pattering about in my living room with my coffee cup, in order to plan the order of the day. Today’s newspapers were first on the agenda, however, whilst walking past the bookcase, I did something I usually didn’t do. I pulled a book out from the bookshelf. I had actually inherited some books from my recently deceased uncle. Why I pulled out this book I don’t know, but suddenly I stood there with a book called I see a country in my hand. I sat down in a chair with my coffee cup, and started to turn over the pages in the book. A few hours later I had finished reading it. What on earth was this - communication with the dead? Was it just fiction? I had more questions in my head after having read the book, than before. In any case, this marked the beginning of the most far-reaching and important journey of my life.

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I didn’t come from a particularly religious home, but in primary school we had a female teacher who had been a missionary in Madagascar, so we naturally started out by saying all together: - Our Father which art in Heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. When the school day was over, we said: - Bless us Father, bless the Lord Jesus Christ, bless the Holy Spirit. Amen. We cited the last prayer so fast that we were finished long before the teacher said amen, but we weren’t allowed to leave until she had said her prayers. Our teacher was an authoritative lady, and always had her hair put up in a pigtail stuck inside a net. She was in complete control of the class, and probably taught us a great deal about

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morals and good manners, even though we didn’t give much thought to what she told us, or to the prayers we had to say out loud in the classroom every single day at school. However, what we learnt was that when we died, we would stay that way until judgment day, when we would be reactivated again and face judgment. We were told that hell was a place with eternal torment, and that heaven - whatever that was. It was reasonable to ask if I had to go to hell. In other words death was an aweinspiring scenario, since no one knew anything about it. We only had to be good, and then everything would be fine. This is probably the reason why many people repress the thought of death, and do not want to know or have anything to do with it. We probably think that whatever comes our way will come, and we cannot do anything about it anyway. I am quite good at letting my thoughts wander, and at times I have to get a grip of myself in order to fulfill my obligations. The book I had read filled my thoughts more and more. Was it just a fairytale, or do we continue living after we die? I started surfing on the internet, and found a substantial amount of literature about death and life thereafter.

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The other book I read on the subject was written by Olof Lagercrantz. A depiction of Emanuel Swedenborg, a clear-sighted philosopher and scientist, who lived during the seventeenth century. I thought Swedenborg’s books seemed a bit complex, but after having read Allan Kardec’s books, I was surprised to find that what they said about life after death was very much the same. Allan Kardec was a French educator from the eighteenth century, who wrote several books about spiritism. During the year 2005, I came across some sound recordings on the internet, supposedly recorded by dead people via the medium Leslie Flint, who had large amounts of the substance ectoplasm. The dead used this plasma in order to materialize themselves and speak. I asked myself: Hadn’t I heard about the materialization process that took place two thousand years ago? It says in the Scripture that Jesus materialized himself to his disciples, but is it possible that materialization also happens in this day and age? I belong to the sceptics when it comes to unexplainable events, and must admit that this exceeded my fantasies. Still, could it be that the dead could return in a materialized shape?

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In June, 2006 I became aware of a group who held séances in Australia with the medium David Thompson, who also has the gift to exude large amounts of ectoplasm, through which the dead materialize themselves. Every Sunday evening they had séances, and on Monday morning the sound recording was published on the internet. Every Monday morning I waited in excitement, and listened to these recordings that lasted between sixty and ninety minutes. David Thompson, his circle friends, and the communication with the dead seemed convincing, but was it just an act? Another question I had was the following: Would I have been willing to spend every Sunday evening in order to deceive listeners who hadn’t paid anything? Hardly. Besides, the dialogue with the so-called materialized people was interesting, well-informed and friendly, which made it even more interesting. Even so, I was sceptical. It caught my attention that David Thompson was coming to England and Scotland in September 2007, and I contacted the Zerdin Fellowship who was in charge of carrying out the séances. I sent an enquiry by e-mail, and Dennis Pearman, international contact of the fellowship,

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wanted to talk to me on the phone. He asked me what I knew about séances, and if I was ready to sit in total darkness while the dead materialized themselves; perhaps touching me and talking to me. Naturally, I was ready to try anything. This was the opportunity I had been waiting for, and I registered for one of the séances in Scotland. The séance was convincing, but since I was one of forty participants placed in the second row of the circle, I didn’t get as close to the socalled dead as I wanted. I needed more proof. I wanted to touch, see and feel a materialized dead, or should we say “a living, dead person”. I had only paid the modest sum of twenty pounds for partaking at the séance. Obviously, money wasn’t the driving force for David Thompson, who was accompanied by his three circle friends from Australia. A three week trip with travelling and hotel expenses. Normally, and from an economic point of view, I would have been very careful to invest in such a venture, but I was satisfied that the séances were not financially motivated. In the aftermath, I was constantly confronted with memories from the event. How could David Thompson, who was tied hand and

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foot with a gauze mask, say anything, let alone communicate with the dead? At one moment we saw David Thompson sitting in a faint, red light, so-called ectoplasm, surrounded by a veil that looked like saliva from his mouth down to his knees, seemingly tied up like in the beginning of the séance. In the next moment, as the lights went out, we heard people wandering about the room, speaking to the participants, whilst touching their hands and heads in total darkness. Yes, night glasses and accomplices might have caused these phenomena, but when relatives came through and materialized themselves, night glasses were an irrelevant subject. In this situation there were so many things I couldn’t explain, and it was natural to doubt. I kept in contact with the Zerdin Fellowship, who informed me about another séance with the materialization medium Stewart Alexander from England. He had been invited by the Basler Psi-Verein in Basel, Switzerland to carry out some séances for its members. By recommendation from the Zerdin Fellowship I was granted admission, and took part at the last of three séances he performed in March 2008. Like David Thompson, Stewart Alexander is tied up during the séance, but here the materialization is shown in a faint, red light, so that

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you can follow the materialization of a hand. In Basel I was sitting about two or three metres from the medium in the first circle row, and was able to comprehend this unique experiment. In the séance with David Thompson, a child’s hand materialized itself, and was shown on a luminous plaque, but I couldn’t see when it materialized. Towards the end of the séance with Stewart Alexander, Dr Barnett materialized. Whilst hearing footsteps, a weak, cool wind surrounded me. As mentioned earlier, I was sitting in the first row, only a few metres from the medium. I heard that he touched the woman sitting on my left hand side. Then he walked past me and put his hands on the woman sitting on my right hand side, but he didn’t touch me. I must admit that I was slightly disappointed. While Dr Barnett is walking past me, I can feel a pain in my right ear, whilst smelling an extremely sweet fragrance that vanishes as quickly as it appears. At the same time my neck is freezing. I thought this was very strange. I got the same pain in my right ear during the séance with David Thompson. I had never had a pain in my ears before. According to what people have told me later, energy is drawn from participants who have available energy. After the séance, I bought a book and CD with recordings from previous séances. There are

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a couple of books written about Stewart Alexander that explain his experiments. I read the latest book on my flight home. When I came home it was gone, and I thought I might have forgotten it on the plane. The next day I ordered a new book from Stewart Alexander’s circle leader. I was then invited to a private séance in their own home. Since I wanted my wife Lise to take part in these experiences I had told her so much about, I was granted permission to bring her along. On August 21, 2008 we travelled to England together, and participated at the séance. This was the turning point and the proof I had been waiting for. We had been watching the materialization of a hand at a distance of twenty to thirty centimetres. This image remained fixed in our minds forever. It was the confirmation we needed to prove that life goes on after death. The expression If I only knew comes from those who have crossed the borderline of death, and speak to us from the other side. If I only had known what to expect, I would have thought and lived my life differently here on earth. In this book we will tell you about the séances, the materialization, what the dead people say, which consequences your life on earth will have for you after death, and what you can do to improve your

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conditions before your time comes. If I only knew.

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Séance with the medium David Thompson on October 13, 2007 It is late in the evening on October 14, 2007, and I have just arrived at home from the séance with David Thompson in Glasgow, Scotland. I am sitting in the living room next to my bookcase, where I found my first book about life thereafter. Now, almost five years later, it is filled with books with a range of three hundred years about the same subject. No, that is not entirely correct, the bible is also there and is considerably older, but they have one thing in common, which is the golden rule that states: “You shall not do unto others what you don’t want them to do unto you”. If we had lived according to this simple rule, war and poverty would have been eliminated. But this is not the case; materialism and egoism are still dominating factors. We are so preoccupied with the material aspects of life, that we forget the spiritual existence. - Jostein, can you hear me? Lise asks. I get a grip of myself and let my thoughts go: -Yes, I’m sorry Lise, I wasn’t paying attention. Lise sits down and asks me with expectancy: - Can you tell me what happened in Glasgow? Smiling, I answer: - The séance was absolutely incredible, Lise.

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I arrived at this house in Glasgow before the materialization séance started at 8 pm. The house was near the centre of the city, in a secluded area away from the traffic, more like a back-street. It was an old and dignified English house, light yellow, with three floors. In the front there was a huge bay window with white painted windows, but the windows were covered. My first thought was that the séances had to be performed in total darkness, so that was perhaps the reason why the windows were covered. It was a good thing that we weren’t going to meet the dead in a dark back-street, I thought, smiling to myself. I approached the house and knocked on the large, black door. A smiling, sweet woman opened it and exclaimed: - Hello, who is this nice man? - Hello, my name is Jostein Strømmen, I answered. She said: - Come on in, many people have arrived already. You are going to assemble on the third floor. - My word, this was a heartfelt welcome, I thought. Later I learned that the woman was Rosalind Pearman from the Zerdin Fellowship, who organized the séance. I went up the narrow, wooden, creaky staircase to the third floor, and heard laughter. - A typical English house, I thought, and peeped inside the room where the laughter was coming from. Somebody noticed me. I went into the

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kitchen. The woman standing next to the stove asked me if I would like a cup of tea, whilst continuing her conversation with the others. - Yes please, I answered. She poured me a cup of tea, and I thanked her. Then I withdrew into the hall, and went up the stairs to the third floor. I arrived at six pm sharp, which was according to the program, two hours prior to the outset of the sÊance. Almost all the participants had arrived, about forty people altogether. The chairs were placed in a circle alongside the walls in the room. I found a vacant chair and sat down. It was quiet, I only heard some whispering, but there were obviously great expectations as to what was about to happen. We greeted each other by nodding, like you usually do when you don’t know someone, and are waiting for something to happen. A few minutes later, the medium David Thompson enters the room. He loosens up the atmosphere with his smile and his greeting: - Hello everyone! However, his facial expression seems a bit serious and tense. Dennis Pearman from the Zerdin Fellowship informs us about the safety rules that need to be adhered to, since we are going to be sitting for a minimum of two hours in total darkness. Obviously he is concerned: - I have to tell you how it is, he says in a harsh voice. - Those who feel that this is going to be too much of a strain, and are uncertain about

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whether they are ready for this, we do not want them to participate at the séance, no matter how far they have travelled. When David goes into a trance, and has set free large amounts of ectoplasm, the living energy will be in the entire room. Any sudden movements, like getting up and trying to leave the room, might have disastrous consequences for David, he says. At this point I thought it was an exaggeration, but later I read about mediums who had been seriously injured, and some who had actually died during séances, in cases where participants or outsiders switched on the lights, or tried to capture the materialized dead. There was silence in the room, but nobody wanted to leave. Dennis told us that every person who entered the séance room - including the medium - had to undergo a security inspection. The séance was going to take place on the second floor, and several people from the Zerdin Fellowship lined up at the exit. Every person was about to have his or her name called out, be body-searched, and checked with a metal detector, before entering the séance room. We were told to take off our shoes, put away all metallic items, mobile phone, jewels and so on. Since the temperature would rise in a room with forty participants, it was recommended that we put on light clothing.

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In the same way as at the airport, I was body-searched before I went into the séance room. The room was square, and about forty square metres large. The chairs were placed in two circular rows, and David Thompson’s cabinet was placed in the front, between the circular rows. The cabinet where Thompson sits is constructed to contain the build-up and concentration of plasma. I remembered having read that somewhere. All the windows in the room were covered with black plastic with tape on each side. The reason for this is the supposition that ectoplasm deteriorates when exposed to light. Dennis was the last person to enter the séance room. Like me, he was body-searched. Somebody laughed as David’s T-shirt almost got ripped off while a few participants searched his body somewhat extensively. David Thompson was then tied hand and foot to an ordinary wooden chair with arm supports. In order to ensure that the medium couldn’t untie any knots, electro strips were used. In addition to the strips, David was gagged, and the gauze mask was taped to the knot behind his head. As if this wasn’t enough, he put on a sweater which was stripped through each buttonhole. In other words, David couldn’t move around the room and pretend to be a living, dead person. The lights went out, and we were

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told to hold hands with each other. The intention was that everyone should feel confident that it wasn’t the neighbor who was about to perform some actions. The circle leader Chris, who had arrived with David from Australia, asked Dennis from the Zerdin Fellowship to start the sÊance by saying a prayer for receiving protection from the Holy Ghost. After the prayer the circle leader started singing an English hymn, and everybody sang together. Since I was unfamiliar with this hymn, I joined in the best I could. There I was, sitting in complete darkness, holding hands with an unknown woman from Germany on one side of me, and Dennis on the other side. I was thinking about my deceased mother and father. I visualized a painting that my father had painted, depicting a landscape in the country in the evening a picture with beautiful colors - with the clean, green color of the grass, to the deep, red colors in the horizon. The horse was grazing, and smoke was coming out of the chimney of the old, reddish-brown house, with the small, white window bars. A picture of complete calm. I became aware that I was humming to the hymn. I heard a slow, sizzling sound that was similar to a kettle filled with water, before it starts boiling. The sound increases and decreases,

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and is interrupted by a charming, deep, and distinct voice. - Good evening my friends. Let me introduce myself; my name is William Charles Cadwell, and I am David’s spiritual guide. I died in 1897, and while using mental arithmetic, I have been dead for a hundred and eleven years. My friends, I shall prove to you that I am still alive. The sizzling sound increases and decreases. William starts stepping with his shoes on the floor, and is clapping his hands. - So, since I am standing here talking to you, clapping my hands and stepping, while David’s hands and feet are tied up, and you are all holding hands. Who could I be? William asks. The sound of passing footsteps can be heard. - Did you check that David’s hands and feet were tied to the chair, and were you confident that he wasn’t able to break loose on his own? He asks. - Yes we did, the audience answered. I saw that several participants checked the strips on David’s hands, feet and mask. - So, my friends, how can you explain that I am standing here in front of you? William asks. Nobody answers.

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- This is a silent audience, but I shall explain. You have heard, and will continue hearing, a sizzling sound throughout the séance. This is the sound of ectoplasm which is drawn from David, when my soul mates from the other side and I shall materialize ourselves in earthly surroundings. There is nothing to be afraid of, and it might be good to know that only the living can harm you, not the dead, he says in a cheerful voice, and the audience laughs. William says: - You are now going to see the ectoplasm. William dematerializes. A sizzling sound can be heard. William instructs David Thompson’s circle leader Chris to turn on the red light. - Hold the light towards David, William says. A white, transparent veil hangs from David’s mouth and down to his knees. We can see that David is tied up and that the mask is in place. The plasma is leaking out of David’s mouth underneath the mask. - Can everyone see the plasma? William asks. The participants confirm this: - Yes we can.

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- Please turn off the lights again Chris, William says. - I want to materialize myself in full shape again. The lights are turned off, the sizzling sound can be heard, and then footsteps. William turns to a female participant. - My dear. Can I put my hands on your head? He asks. - Yes please do, she answers. - I can feel your hands on my head. They feel large and warm, she says. William takes my hand and holds it in his hands. - Thank you for that, she says. - It’s my pleasure, William says, and moves on to another participant and repeats the action. This person confirms the touch of William’s hands. - Death doesn’t exist my friends, says William. - If it did, I wouldn’t be able to talk to you and be amongst you, touch you and take your hands as I am doing now, in total darkness. To us there is no darkness. - Death is an illusion. Death is only a change in vibrations. - Since I am here now, you can ask me questions if you like, he says. I must admit that I was a bit mystified by the situation, talking to a dead per-

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son face to face, but I seized the opportunity and said: - Hello, my name is Jostein Strømmen. - Hello my friend, William replies. - My question is as follows: A person has performed a criminal act, been convicted and spent time in jail. Will this person have to compensate for his wrongdoings again when death occurs, or has he or she settled the account? I ask. William replies firmly: - It doesn’t matter how much time a person has spent in jail in his or her earthly life. What is important is how far this person has developed spiritually. Spending time in jail is of no consequence, if the person hasn’t developed spiritually, he answers. I ask another question: - The society of spiritual people is rather modest here on earth, but it must be rather considerable on the other side, since you can see that life continues? - You don’t become more spiritual when you join the other side, you are exactly the same person as you were at the time of death, but there is development and progression for those who want to move on, he answers.

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- Thank you for that, and for calling me your friend, I said. - A dead person calling me his friend, I wondered. Lise looks at me and smiles. - But how can you develop spiritually? Lise asks. - I have previously read what William has said about spiritual development. He says the following: - Be truthful to yourself, let go of desire, greed, vanity and the indeterminable need to be better than others. If you cultivate love, honesty and the truth, you will develop spiritually. Now, listen to this… When William had said goodbye, a new sizzling sound is heard, and a boy’s voice introduces itself by the name of Timothy. - Hello? I hear a child’s voice, and can hear childlike laughter. - My name is Timothy. Many years ago I died at the age of nine, and have materialized myself as I once was. My mission is to work with the plasma and help out with the materialization. - Would you like to see my hand? Timothy asks. The audience replies: -Yes, please. Timothy holds up an illuminating plaque that had been placed on the floor in the circle before it started.

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The plaque is high up in the air, and moving around the room, outlining a small hand. Considering the size of the plaque, the size of the hand that was shown was like a child’s hand. One of the participants says jokingly that he cannot see Timothy’s thumb. Then he says with his childish voice: - Here it is, and waves it towards the plaque. Timothy asks if anyone would like to feel his hand. Several participants confirm that they can see and feel a small hand. - Do you feel my hand? Timothy asks. - Yes, it’s very nice, someone answers. - It’s my thumb, Timothy says, and then he laughs heartily. No children were present at the séance. - Would you like me to find someone you know on the other side? Timothy asks. We can hear the answer: -Yes, please. Timothy dematerializes himself. A sizzling sound is heard. Several other relatives of some of the other participants materialize them-

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selves one by one. The quality of the voices is reduced, and it is difficult to hear what they are saying. People from the other side tell us that it is necessary to have a lot of experience while talking with your head under water when entering into the state of plasma; since this is what it feels like. Timothy follows the persons who materialize, and encourages them: - It is quite natural, just go into the plasma. The sizzling sound is heard, we hear footsteps, and a weak voice says: - My darling, it is me. The materialized person physically touches his close relative. Private, emotional conversations take place that only close acquaintances can recognize and understand. None of my relatives came through, but by chance I met one of the participants after the sÊance, whose father had come through. She told me that he didn’t have the exact same voice as when he was alive, but his behavior was the same as before. Timothy signs off, and Quentin Crisp materializes himself, and humors the audience with his jesting and direct attitude. Being one of the first public homosexuals, he says: - Yes, as you can hear, life continues even for us homosexuals, and then he laughs.

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- We are who we are, I can hear him say, and we are very comfortable on the other side. His voice is crystal clear. He jokes with the audience. - Hi, who is the handsome guy sitting over there? He asks. - Do you mean me? - No, not you, the man sitting next to you. Then he laughs: - I am only joking, ladies and gentlemen, then he laughs again and withdraws. There is one sizzling sound after the other. Is this too incredible to be true? Louis Armstrong materializes himself, as often before at David Thompson’s séances, and concludes it by singing What a Wonderful World with his characteristic voice. It’s a bit difficult to hear the words, but as he starts singing his voice becomes more distinct: I see trees of green, red roses too I see them bloom for me and you And I think to myself, what a wonderful world I see skies of blue and clouds of white The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night And I think to myself, what a wonderful world The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky Are also on the faces of people going by I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?" They're really saying "I love you" I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow

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Louis departed, and William materialized himself and thanked everyone. The lights went on. David was sitting tied up to the chair, in the same way as before the séance. He woke up from the trance. He shakes his head, and seems somewhat exhausted. He receives a glass of water. The circle leader’s spouse pulls at the strips. They are stuck. She has a pair of pliers, and cut the electro strips off David. The evening is finished. - What a night! I think. - This is controversial, Lise, but nevertheless, should I not tell about it? I ask. Imagine what solace and joy many people would experience if they knew that life continues after death. Lise agrees, and says: - However, we could think things over for a while. It is a completely new way of thinking. I was thinking about how I felt. This couldn’t be kept a secret. Was this how it really was? I thought.

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A few days passed after the séance. I told my children. That wasn’t a problem, since the question came straight back to me: - We also want to join. When can we leave, dad? Yes, well, they are grown up, but yes… this is how it is. However, I kept feeling that it was difficult to tell this to people outside the family. They didn’t actually say - What is wrong with that man, but I could hear what they were thinking. Death is a difficult subject for many people, since many try and repress it. It is scary. Everything becomes sad when someone dies. The body becomes unrecognizable, and the bones become the only texture. Yes, I must admit that in spite of all the knowledge we have obtained, death is no easy subject to discuss.

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Séance with the medium Stewart Alexander on April 22, 2008 I kept in contact with the Zerdin Fellowship, and was informed about a new séance in Basel, Switzerland, organized by the Basler Psi-Verein. This was a séance with the medium Stewart Alexander from England. There were going to be three séances, and there was an opening at the last séance, on Tuesday, April 22. I got in touch with the leader of the fellowship, Lucius Werthmuller, and with a reference from the Zerdin Fellowship, I reserved a place. I thought this was an excellent opportunity to assess the séance with David Thompson. I had read a few articles about Stewart Alexander, and the experimental phenomena that took place during his séances, among other the materialization of a hand in visual conditions, and materialization in full size in the darkness. The same morning of the séance, I travelled to Basel. Someone had recommended a hotel some hundred metres from the premises of the fellowship, and I arrived on time according to the program, at 18:00 pm. I was thinking about how this house resembled David Thompson’s house in Glasgow. It was the same, light colored house, with white bay windows, except this house was

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situated in a busy area. Anyhow, here I was, standing on the steps and knocking on the door. A nice, young gentleman opened the door. - Good evening, my name is Lucius, he said in German. I recognized his face from the website. He was the chairman of the fellowship. - Good evening, my name is Jostein Strømmen, and I come from Norway, I said in English. His whole face was smiling, as he asked me in. - Come on in, whilst pointing at a woman behind him. - Meet my partner. She was just as cordial. We talked about the trip, and I told them that I had attended the séance with David Thompson in September last year. They hadn’t been able to, but Lucius said then I shall place you in the first row near Stewart, since you have been there before. - This is great, I thought, since the closer to the medium you are, the more details you can uncover. Lucius showed me in. More people had entered the house. The couple moved about and welcomed them, and I walked into the séance room, where I was told to go. The room was square, and about fifty square metres. On one side there was a chair with chair arms placed in a cabinet of one square metres. A small table covered with a red felted fabric was placed in front of the cabinet. On the table there were some electro strips and two trum-

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pets. The latter were two, hollow plastic tubes, that were significantly narrower in one end compared to the other end. Illuminating tape was fastened to each end of the trumpets. I now thought I would take the opportunity, whilst being alone in the room, to check out the chair, the table, the cabinet, and the equipment. The cabinet was simply a cloth that was attached to some poles that formed a square, and the curtain was pulled back from the one side that faced the audience. The chair was placed inside the cabinet, and its legs and arm rests were heavy and solid. The small table that was placed in front of the cabinet, was a regular square fifty centimetre wide table with a glass plate, covered by felted fabric. A lamp was placed under the table. There was a dimmer on the cable. The electro strips on the table were plain strips of about thirty to forty cm that could be bought in a hardware store. I have used such strips myself. When you pull them out, you can hear a clicking sound, and when you have put them in place, they cannot be pulled apart. They have to be cut off. No, there was nothing special about the equipment. The roughly forty chairs were common enough, there was a wooden floor, and the windows were covered with black plastic, like in David Thompson’s sÊance. Nothing seemed strange.

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Now more people attended the séance room, so it just didn’t seem natural to walk about with a magnifying glass any more. The chairs hadn’t been arranged in a circle yet, but were placed in rows facing the podium. I sat down near the cabinet. Clearly, everybody had now entered the room, at any rate there were no vacant chairs available. Lucius welcomed everyone, and Stewart told everyone about how he had started out being a medium. He told us that he had read a book titled The edge of the etheric, about the medium John Campbell Sloan and the businessman Arthur Findlay, who sat together with their own circle group in the nineteen twenties. This book was written by A Findlay, and tells about the séances, and the contacts and information that had been communicated over a long period of time. - I became so engaged in the book, that I wanted to try being in a circle myself, he said. - I started out with my family and friends, sitting in a circle at home for eight years, one hour each week, without anything happening. We were about to give up, when I suggested to my brother and his wife that we could try it out one evening. Just the three of us. That same evening a voice appeared, and told us to turn off the lights and continue the séance. - That was when something started happen-

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ing, he said. In other words, the composition of the circle had a decisive impact when it comes to communicating with the dead. After the introduction, there was a short break, and the chairs were placed in two circular rows, with the cabinet separating the circle. Lucius enters, and I immediately got eye contact with him. I ask him where to sit. - Sit down here, he says, and nods at me. - Here you have a good view. The seat was in the first row, five chairs from Stewart. Everyone was now seated, and the lights went out. There was total darkness, and Lucius started by citing a prayer. As the first person from the other side came Walter Stinson. He asked one of the female participants if she would like to participate in a unique experiment, which would be completely harmless. She said she would like that, and sat up front next to Stewart. Walter Stinson has a charming personality. - A beautiful hand, he says to the woman. - Would you like to feel Stewart’s right hand, and check that it is tied up to the arm rest with electro strips? Is it bound and secure? Walter asks. -Yes, she confirms. - Put your hand on the strips and Stewart’s arm. Press hard. We can hear heavier breathing from Walter, and the woman startles. - Here are the strips, it is yours, he says. - Oh, the

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strip is still in one piece, she exclaims, completely surprised. - We dematerialized the strips from Stewart’s hand, and then we materialized it again. - We mix our energy with ectoplasm. Then everything is possible, says Walter. - Feel Stewart’s hand. Are there any strips on it? - Feel your way up the arm. - No, no strips, she answers. - Hold his wrist, Walter says. We hear a clicking sound when a new strip is put on. Stewart’s other hand is covered with strips. - Oh…the strips are fastened again, she says. - Thanks to you, Walter says. Another woman is invited to sit at the little, red table. Lucius adjusts the light on the red table. It is a dimmer, so that Walter can say what degree of light is necessary in order to perform the phenomena. - Thank you for sitting here with me, Walter says, and then he asks: - Would you like to see my etheric hand materialized in a physical shape? - Yes, please, she answers. A black matter comes out and spreads onto the table. I am sitting about three metres from the little, red table, and can see that the matter is developing in the palm of a hand; it becomes red and a bit transparent. The hand materializes completely, and puts itself on top of the woman’s hand. - It is a warm and normal hand, the woman says. -Yes, indeed it is, as we still are very human even though our

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physical bodies on earth are gone. Walter puts his hand in the middle of the table, and knocks his fingertips on the table, - Yes, it is just a regular hand, he says. We see that the hand dematerializes into the same matter as it started out with, and then it is gone. Walter invites more people to sit around the small table that was placed in front of the medium. - So that you shall not in any way believe that it is the medium that is performing this experiment, I would like more people to sit around the table and put their hands on it, together with the medium’s hands. - One moment, we are going to dematerialize the strips, Walter says. The medium’s hands are on the table, and he is still in a trance. The four people closest to him are invited to the table, and hold each other’s hands. We can see the medium’s hands on the table. The participants’ hands are now forming a circle on the table, whilst touching each other. Walter is breathing heavily, and says that the people in the back row can stand up to get a better look. Once again the black matter appears on the table, and the hand materializes. Once again, the hand knocks on the table with its fingertips, dematerializes, and withdraws. - What do you think, folks? Walter asks. - Unbelievable, some people answer. - Well, it is just nature’s own laws, Walter says.

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After a while, we can hear a long sizzling sound, and a weak voice, - Dr Barnett here. I shall try and materialize myself. We can barely hear him. - We shall draw energy from some of you in order to get enough for a full materialization, Walter says. We hear a weak sizzling sound, and I can feel a cool breeze coming towards me. It is very hot inside the room. Forty people are assembled in an area of fifty square metres; for two hours. Well, it gets hot. I can hear he is patting the hands of the woman on my left hand side. He walks past me. I can feel the air pressure, and at the same time I feel an intense, sweet smell, something icy on my neck, and a severe thrust in my right ear. He has walked past me, and pats the hands of the woman sitting next to me. He returns while the pressure in my ear decreases, and the sweet fragrance disappears as soon as it appeared. - Strange, strange, strange, I think. Walter signs off, and the sĂŠance is over. The lights come back on. I ask the woman to my right what Dr Barnett had done. Then she takes my hands. - This, she says. She holds my hands in hers, and then puts her hands on my head. She is smiling all over.

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On my way out I told Stewart what I had been feeling when Dr Barnett walked past me. - Are you participating in a circle? He asked me. - No, I’m not, I said, and interpreted his facial expression in a way that told me I ought to. - The ectoplasm might have been drawn from you during the materialization, he said. More people wanted to talk to him, so I withdrew. Lucius says that Stewart wanted to answer questions inside in a moment. I was engaged in my own thoughts, and cannot remember all the questions that were raised. I returned to the hotel, and went back home the next day. Now I had even more to think about. Did I have ectoplasm as well? Should I participate in a circle? This is not a priority at the moment, I thought. My aim was to write a book, so I was trying to find out as much as possible about the subject. However, I didn’t know that I was going to meet S Alexander, W Stinson, and Dr Barnett again. When I got home, the book about Alexander and the experimental attempts was gone. I had bought the book with a CD at the fellowship’s bookshop in Basel. I had read it halfway through when I got home. I thought I must have

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put it on the seat in front of me on the plane. I needed this book as a reference for my own book, so I contacted Stewart’s circle leader in Hull, England, Ray Lister. No one from Stewart’s circle in Hull had been to Basel. Ray answered me the next day. He was going to send me a new book, and invited me to their private circle in Hull. Of course I said yes! I had told him about the happening in Basel, so my private e-mail was probably the reason why I was invited. I asked him if I could bring my wife. Of course I could, he said. I told him that August would be a good time for us. He said he would get back to me after he had contacted Stewart.

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Séance with the medium Stewart Alexander on August 21, 2008 The séance took place in Hull, England on August 21, 2008. A total of ten people were present. A séance with fewer participants is obviously more intimate, as you sit closer to the medium and are in close contact with what is going on. Ray Lister met Lise and myself at the train station at Hull, and invited us to his home for a cup of tea. He told us that this was where the séance was going to take place. It was a typical, nice English house with two floors. We talked about the trip, and about the séances I had attended. I told him that this was Lise’s first séance, and that she was very excited. This was probably the reason why he told her a lot about his own experiences. We were driven to the hotel, which was a fifteen minute walk from his house. We met at 18:00 pm. Several people had arrived. Some women had driven from Brighton, and others from Newcastle. It seemed like a good group, and I knew this would be an important factor for tonight’s séance. If there is harmony between the participants, the results would be better. Stewart entered the room, and was introduced to the guests. He gives Lise a hug, and we shake hands. - You remember Jostein, Ray says. -Yes, yes, from Basel, he says and smiles. After

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tea and biscuits and some small talk, it was almost 20:00 pm. One couple had still not arrived. - They must have forgotten, or misunderstood, Ray says. - Let’s begin, Stewart says. We are directed to the room on the second floor. The room was about fifteen square metres, and we sat in a circle around Stewart, who is sitting in one of the corners. There is a curtain surrounding the cabinet where he is sitting, in the same way as at the sÊance with D Thompson. As mentioned earlier, these cabinets have the purpose of making it easier to concentrate the plasma for the materialization. The lights went out, and softened, calm music was switched on by the circle leader, who started by citing a prayer. The circle leader: - Heavenly Father and All mighty Spirit. We are gathered here again in peace, love and harmony. We ask you for protection from mischievous entities, and ask you to take care of each and every one of us, and in particular our medium Stewart. We ask you to protect our dear ones on this side of life, and send our love to our dear ones on the other side. Then we let this circle of friends be under your protection, and remain in your hands. Amen.

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The circle leader: - Stewart is gone. That means he has gone into a trance. After a short while, Stewart’s guide, White Feather, comes through and informs us that the conditions for the evening are excellent. White Feather was a North American Indian while he was living on earth. White Feather: - Good evening, brothers and sisters. I am really glad that we who are here can be of service to the Almighty Spirit. White Feather knows that here, in this place, we shall remove the barrier between our world and theirs, so that we can be as one in infinite love. White Feather knows that each and one of us that are here tonight will understand that everything that happens, everything we try, experience and witness, will be in the almighty Father’s name. You will be happy to hear White Feather say that the conditions at this meeting place for our two worlds are really excellent. Again we shall rejoice in a wonderful meeting between our two worlds. Christopher comes through, a boy who died at the age of six and a half. He communicates with the voice he remembers from when he was living on earth, a young boyish voice. Christopher is a humorous character.

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Christopher: - Hello, we can hear childlike laughter. - I am coming through, more laughter is heard. - I feel I can give out some good, philosophical points today. - But, you never do, Ray, the circle leader says. - No, and I’m always disappointed about myself. Then he laughs. - I can see some new faces here. Jostein, I know you from Basel, Switzerland, and you have brought your wife along, I can see. - Hello, Lise, can I ask you a personal question? - Hm, OK. You aren’t nervous, are you? - A little, I must admit, Lise says. - Shall I tell you a little secret? I am a bit nervous myself. Then he laughs heartily again. - But Lise, you don’t have to be afraid. If there had been anything to be afraid about, I wouldn’t be here myself. Then he laughs again. - Everyone is so quiet; I hope you don’t go to sleep. I am only trying to behave myself, but it isn’t always that easy. Then he laughs again. - Lise, it is my responsibility to establish a relaxed atmosphere, and the best way to do that is to make people laugh. Just a little reminder before I withdraw. Spiritualists who come here expect everything to be so SPIRITUAL, and then they hear me speak. Then I think MY GOODNESS. Then he laughs again. - Goodbye, goodbye everybody, I’ll be back later.

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Walter Stinson comes through. Walter has an extinct American accent. Stinson: - Can you hear my voice, folks? - Yes your voice is loud and clear, we say. - That’s good. On wonderful occasions like this one, I usually begin by saying: - Good evening folks! - Good evening, Walter, we all reply. - There is always such a wonderful response. You might not be surprised to hear that I listened carefully to White Feather when he first talked to you. I am very satisfied that we have such wonderful conditions, folks. When we experience conditions like these, anything is possible. We shall really remove the barrier between your world and our world tonight. Okay, okay. We shall keep the vibrations in the room active. We shall achieve this by using sound. That’s why I shall ask you to speak from time to time. This will lift the vibrations in the room. I will remind you that we who come through are like yourselves; very human. We have progressed further on life’s course, but beyond that we are as human as you are. So you are speaking to us like you would speak to your friends or close ones. Okay, we are gathered here tonight in love. - Lise, my name is Walter Stinson. A hundred years ago I was living on earth, and I have now come back to prove to you that life continues after death on earth. Tonight we shall

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demonstrate conclusive proof that life continues after death. You should also know that what we are going to achieve here tonight does not come as a result of what we who are communicating with you do, but as a result of collective work from uncountable souls, who work with us on our side to create the necessary energy. When we are working with physical energy, we have to work together. - Lise, I would like to show you the living energy called ectoplasm. I want to show you how I can create my own hand from this energy. The sound of very heavy breathing can be heard, and a matter moves to the small table with the glass plate covered by felted fabric. A red light shines from the lamp that is placed underneath the table. The matter starts to form a hand, at first the contours of a hand, then fingers, and then the skin and its indication of the nails. The hand was completely natural. The hand knocks its fingertips onto the table. - Lise, can you hear my words? - Yes, I can. - How would you like to feel the hand of a man who has been dead for one hundred years? - I’d like that very much, Lise says. It stretches out to Lise’s hand, and takes her hand. - It is a perfectly normal hand, somewhat red and transparent, that is caused by the light. - It’s firm and warm, Lise says. Thank you very much. This is

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absolutely fantastic! Lise exclaims. - That is what we think, too, Walter says. The hand dematerializes. - I’ll come back later, Walter says. Dr Barnett: - Forgive me, but it’s so difficult… A weak voice is heard, it gets stronger and completely clear, the communication cites from a live tape recording: Dr Barnett: - Please understand that we are working together, my friends. For unless we find those within your world who are willing to be used, who are willing to meet us half way, who are willing to work with us, it would be completely impossible for us to reach out to your world, to bring forth the comfort that can only be derived for the bereaved from communication such as this. - So I say to you, my friends, in any way you help, whether it is through writing, orally, working as an instrument between our world and your world, making tea at the local church, isn’t important. What matters is that we work together, and do our very best. Then we can hope to achieve so very much. Dr Barnett: - I wonder if I could have your attention for a few more moments; Is it Jostein? Jostein: - Yes, my friend.

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Dr Barnett: - My friend, do you understand that I am speaking through a complex structure, that is built up and created by the living energy of ectoplasm? This is how my thoughts from my eternal world are transferred to you, and you can therefore hear my actual thoughts. Jostein: - I understand that you are speaking through an independent voice box, yes? Dr Barnett: -Yes, that is correct. You are very knowledgeable, my friend. Dr Barnett: - Let me tell you something about yourself that you perhaps do not realize. Let me tell you that we have great hopes in this world, hopes that you will one day offer so much comfort to so many people in your world, through what you are able to do. Can you understand my words? Jostein: - Yes, I can. Dr Barnett: - I therefore urge you to continue on with your work, with your intentions, with your desires, and be assured that if you do so, you will have the might of our world behind you. We shall work with you.

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Jostein: - Thank you very much. Dr Barnett: - And to your dear wife; You my dear, are so very special. We have known you for many years now, and that may surprise you, but it is the truth. Together, you make a formidable team. Lise: - Oh, thank you. Dr Barnett: - A formidable team. Dr Barnett: - I urge you both to go forward in sure knowledge, in certain knowledge, with the conviction that my world is very much with you. My friends, I speak with you all now. Everyone: - Thank you. Dr Barnett: - It’s not my intention to speak very much longer this evening, but I hope that I later on in this meeting can be able to materialize myself into physical form, and come amongst you. Everyone: - Oh, that would be great. Jostein: - May I say so, Dr Barnett?

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Dr Barnett: - Of course, my friend. Jostein: - I very much appreciate your words and concerns. Dr Barnett: - My friend, let me tell you this before I withdraw. If it was not so, if it was not the literal truth, then I would not have spoken to you in that manner. Please understand that we as humans are, let us say a little selfish, that we see in you, as we do in several of you this evening - we see in you such potential for the future. We see in you the possibility to reach out to so many more people in your world, so many more souls with this glorious message of survival, regarding the true nature of life itself. We can reach out to your world, but only if we find channels that are willing to communicate. Those who are prepared to set aside their own wishes and thoughts, and work with us for the benefit of mankind, not just in your world, but also in my world. There are just as many souls in my world who are desperate to reach their loved ones in your world, as there are people in your world who are desperate to reach their loved ones in our world. So we have a joint desire. Jostein: - We shall keep your words close to our hearts. - Thank you, thank you my friend.

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Dr Barnett: - My friend, I am so pleased that I have been able to touch you in this manner, indeed touch you all. You know what is possible. You know NOW what is possible. Dr Barnett: - I know you have travelled far to come here this evening, and we are grateful for your time. God bless you all. Dr Barnett withdraws. Walter’s voice comes through: - I will show you an experiment with ectoplasm where we control the trumpets. Would you put on some music, Ray? - No, it doesn’t work, Ray says. - Okay, it’s all right, Walter says and proceeds we shall see if we can lift up the trumpets and make a light show for you. We can see that the trumpets are lifted up in the middle of the floor, two luminous points. The luminous points are luminous tape, attached to each end of the trumpets. The luminous points are gliding and dancing round the whole room. High up under the ceiling and down to the floor. One of them moves towards me. It lies down gently in my hand for a few seconds, and then it moves on to Lise’s hand. - This is fantastic, Lise says. - Yes, isn’t it, Walter says. The light show continues, and Walter asks us to sing some songs. One of them

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was It’s a long way to Tipperary. The rest of the songs were unknown to Lise and myself, but we hummed along as best we could. While we are singing, a weak sizzling sound is heard, it gets stronger and stronger and turns into a breathing sound, and we stop singing. A weak voice can be heard: - Hello Dr Barnett, someone in the circle says. Dr Barnett: - I am only partly materialized; it takes a little while longer before I can manage to absorb sufficient energy. The sizzling sound continues. - Can you hear me? - Yes, loud and clear, we answer. One of the participants says: - He is touching my head, he is touching my hands. - I am so happy to see you again, Dr Barnett says. - In addition to myself, another person should have materialized, he goes on. - Jostein? - Yes, Dr Barnett. His voice is right in front of me. He puts his hands on my head, and takes my left hand in his hands. His hands are completely normal and warm. A weak, blue light appears in front of me, and dances above my head. In the same way as the Northern lights, it glides across me. One of the participants asks: - Can you see the light? Everyone confirms that they can see it. The sÊances might seem very intimate and emotional. So they are at times, but most of

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all they are regular communication in the same way as at home with friends and family. When Dr Barnett spoke directly to Lise and me, we were taken aback. We don’t get the chance to communicate directly with dead people every day. However, Dr Barnett is the same as we are. A person who lived on earth, who died leaving his physical body, who is still living in his ethereal body, and who wishes to pass on the message that life continues. He is only a few steps in front of us. In the same way I would have inspired those I felt could write a book or pass on this message, if I felt the person I was talking to was capable of doing such a thing. That is why I was encouraged. Dr Barnett was right, since I am now writing this book.

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Life after death for Sarah and Thomas Throughout a period of many hundred years, the phenomenon of life after death has been described.1 The story of the married couple Sarah and Thomas is based on literature and sĂŠances, where the so-called dead have been communicating with the living people on earth. The names are fictitious, but the story and the experiences are how the author of this book understands them. From the other side of life it is said that how you lived your life on earth, determines your reception and conditions on the other side. Thomas is 85 years old, and is married to Sarah. He lives at home, but cannot walk very well. This is why a nurse attends to him every day. Sarah is 87 years old and in hospital, since she needs continuous care. Time is ebb1

The narrative is based on reports from the following sources: 1) 2)

Verbal statements from the other side during sĂŠances, with the mediums Leslie Flint, David Thompson and Stewart Alexander. In the following books: Eugene Crowell: Spirit World: Its Inhabitants, Nature and Philosophy. Geraldine Cummins: The Road to Immortality, Mind in Life and Death. Arthur Findlay: On the Edge of the Etheric, Where Two Worlds Meet. Leslie Flint: Voices in the dark. Allen Kardec: The Spirits book, Heaven and Hell, The Mediums book. Alice Mortley: Christ in you. Pamela Rae Heath and Jon Klimo: Suicide, Channeled conversations with the dead. Spiritual Truth Foundation: Silver Birch Collection.

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ing away for the couple, and Thomas tells his story when the day comes. I see myself lying on the floor in the living room. My body is lifeless. I walk towards it and touch it, but my hand goes straight through. - I must be dreaming, I think, not quite understanding what is happening. I look at myself. I am completely similar to the person lying on the floor. I touch myself, my hands, my chest, and my head. I look at my hands again. What is this? There I am lying down and standing up at the same time. I am anxious, and at the same time I look up and discover my dead mother and father standing in front of me, smiling. They are no longer old and in their youth, quite similar to the pictures in my family album. -You have crossed the border, Thomas, father says. Mother and father come towards me and embrace me. All three of us are weeping. I don’t know what to think. Many thoughts are running through my head. I remember a dream where I saw my father for a short moment, and he told me that it was difficult in the beginning. My father had then been dead a couple of years. In the same way, the same night my mother died, I had seen her jump out of bed in the hospital, fit as a teenage girl, but she disappeared as quickly as she appeared in my dream. So I thought to

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myself that this must also be a dream. But mother and father do not disappear. They are with me. I sit down in the armchair in the livingroom. My body is still lying on the floor. There is something strange about the chair. I am sitting in it, but I am feeling weightless, and when I press my hand on the arm rest, it goes straight through it. More people have entered the room now, but they didn’t come up the stairs from the entrance. They are simply just there. I look at them, and recognize a few from pictures. Is that my grandmother and grandfather? They died when they were in their thirties, and I remember them because their picture is hanging on the wall in the basement. I never met them, but they are smiling at me and wishing me welcome to the life thereafter. I understand what they are saying to me, but they are not talking to me. My father is nodding, as if he could read my thoughts: - I know what you are thinking, Thomas, he says. This is how we communicate here, but I can see he is talking to me at the same time. I still think I am dreaming, and don’t know quite what to believe. I am just waiting to wake up, but I really don’t want to, since mother and father and the people surrounding me are radiating warmth and love that I cannot explain.

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The nurse comes up the stairs, and I thought that was a good thing. It was a nice dream, but now I would like to wake up. - Hello, she says. - Hello, I call out. - Hello, she says again. - Hello, I call out, hello can’t you hear me, and can’t you see me? I am sitting right in front of you in the chair, I say, looking at her in a perplexed manner. She cannot see me! She cannot see me, I repeat to myself. The nurse is just concerned with my dead body on the floor. She runs towards it, calls out to me, I mean to my body, but it is lifeless. She is desperate, and starts giving me a heart massage. I look up to my mother and father, and then to everyone around me. The nurse sees that there apparently is no sign of life. She feels all her pockets, and runs towards her handbag, which is by the stairs. She finds her mobile phone and calls. She is shaking. - We will be there straight away, I can hear them say. I look up again, and in a way I can interpret my father saying: - See? It is not a dream. I shall show you a country you cannot even dream about. Hold your mother’s and my hands, and close your eyes, he says. I get up and take their hands. The hands are real. Mother smiles at me, and I can hear her thoughts saying that there is nothing to be frightened about. Her smiling, comforting face calms me completely. I remember

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the comforting smile from when I was a little boy. Mother was safe and kind. I am feeling like a little boy again. A sweet smell wakes me up. I must have fallen asleep. I am lying on a soft bed of flowers. I smell their sweet fragrance, and get up halfway in a sitting position. At the same time something from behind takes me by surprise. It’s the dog we owned when I was a kid. He licks my face and wags its tail. He recognizes me. I can see my mother with another woman. I turn around and recognize our house in the country. The house, the hill, the trees and the water, but everything is so beautiful and green. It is like the best summer I can remember. I cannot see the sun, but the sky is light blue, and the temperature is nice. Mother has discovered that I am awake. - Hello Thomas, she says. - You needed rest after your stressful experience, so I let you rest, she says smiling. - I am overwhelmed, I say. - Yes, life goes on, and we have a lot to tell you. My thoughts went back to my wife Sarah, my children, grandchildren and greatgrandchildren. I am starting to worry about them, and my mother notices what I am thinking about. - They are quite all right, Thomas. I have been to see them. The hospital has informed everyone,

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and they are planning a funeral. A few days have passed since you died. - Have I been asleep for a few days already? I ask, dazed. - Yes, we only relate to time when we are on earth. Here we don’t think about time, after all we are living in eternity, she says and smiles once more. - You say you have seen them. How can that be? I ask. - Yes, you will learn about this eventually, but I shall accompany you in a short while, so you can see for yourself. They are mourning your demise, like you did when father and I died. - Yes, I know that, and it hurts not being able to tell them that I am fine, I say. - If you like, we can also be present at the funeral. We have another opinion about funerals, now that we are living on in our wonderful world. If only everyone had known about life thereafter, the conditions on earth would be quite different, she says, whilst looking at me, and the woman standing next to her. -You must meet Celine. She is your sister. She died just after she was born, and grew up with her grandmother. You know that grandmother died when she was thirty. So she was here when our baby died. - They named her Celine, mother says. - I am speechless, mother. Has she grown up on the other side? I ask. Celine hugs me. - I have often visited you, Thomas, Celine says. She is so tender and sweet. - We are going

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to get to know each other better, Thomas, she says. - Everyone who met you at the time of your death is inside the house and waiting for you now, mother says. They want to meet you. Shall we go inside? I get up, and notice that the flowers and the grass I had been lying on, even out again, as if I hadn’t been lying there. - Strange, I think … - Yes, let’s do that, I say and look at Celine. - A sister… who has grown up here. I don’t know if I’m thinking straight. We approach the house. The grass is a lovely green color, and the flowers are beautiful. There are flowers I have never seen before, and in a way they seem to be following me and humming to me. It is completely unreal. - We didn’t have these types of flowers at home, I say. It seems as if the flowers are alive. - Yes, if you take care of them, they will sing to you, Celine says, and laughs. - This is another life, Thomas, a lot like life on earth, yet it’s also very different, mother says. - Your father and I have been working a lot in our garden. We are thinking collectively about how we want things to be, and then things develop in that way. It seems like we are planting the flowers, but then it happens through

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our thoughts. Then it stays that way until we want things to change. We are close to the house. I also notice that when I walk on the grass it is soft, much softer than grass, it seems. Mother opens the door and enters, and then I follow. I feel the door. It is hard and real. While I am entering, I look at myself in the mirror inside the hall. The mirror had always been hanging there. I am really surprised, since I have become considerably younger. - Mother, I say. Look at me! I am not old anymore! - No, this happens gradually, she says. Father walks towards me and embraces me. - This is your family, Thomas, he says, as my grandmother, grandfather and several unknown people walk towards me. Everyone seems to be in their thirties or forties. Each person approaches me one by one, and gives me a hug. - Hello, I say politely. We all sit down. Father gets the family album. - Look here, Thomas, he says and shows me the picture of my grandparents and greatgrandparents. - Here you can see, this is grandmother and grandfather, and then he points at them. They look at each other. - We died at such a young age, Thomas, grandmother says. We were only in our thirties. We didn’t have many medicines at the time, and grandfather was tough, working as a construction worker, and he didn’t

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care too much for medical treatment. - As you can see, though, we are alive and well, and then she laughs. I laugh as well. Death isn’t exactly what I thought it would be, I say while smiling at her. Mother had told me that grandfather had been a tough guy. I look at grandmother and grandfather. He shakes his head a little, and grins underneath his moustache. Father turns over the pages, and finds a picture of grandmother and grandfather on my father’s side. I remember the family album, and nod to them. My grandfather on my father’s side died the same year I was born, so I didn’t really know him, but I recognized him in the picture. When she was alive, mother told me that he had been a very kind person. He only wanted what was best for everyone; I remember her saying as we were talking about him. His facial expression fit this description. It was very noticeable. I tell him about my children and grandchildren, and my wife, Sarah, who is in hospital. Amazingly, father has an exact copy of the family album that we had kept at home. Everyone looks like they have seen the pictures before, but still they don’t seem to mind me telling them about it. - We have a copy of everything here as well, grandmother says, and we have been watching you. I can see that I look a lot like her, and smile. We seem to have the same eyes. - Yes we do, she says.

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I think to myself that I suppose I must control what I am thinking, since they can read my thoughts. Even if we speak to one another as usual, it seems as if telepathy is the main channel of communication. I do not have to express everything, as the images and my thoughts supplement language, and is transferred simultaneously. Inside the house, everything seems quite natural and identical to the house on earth, but here everything is new. The walls, floors and ceilings are shining. The furniture - the sofa, chairs and tables are in the exact same condition that mother and father had preferred. I also notice that there was some new furniture. Father introduces the three new people, Camilla, John and David, who still are unknown to me. - They have been your guides through your life, Thomas. - They have followed you, and tried to inspire you to handle your life in the best way possible. - All of us have had guides who follow us through life, he says. - We know you, Thomas, even more than you understand yourself, David says and smiles. What does one say in a situation like that? I am only trying to be polite, and say: - Thank you for following me through life. I have not been conscious about the difference between being inspired and my own

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thoughts, but several times I felt that I must have had a guardian angel. On several occasions, it might have ended as a disaster. I remember especially once I fell asleep at the steering wheel in my car, while heading for the other lane. Something pulled me back. It might have been a terrible accident. I look at them. There were many incidents, Camilla says. - However, you have managed, and have shown charity. - This is why we love you very much, and what matters on this side of life, she says. - I have also made some mistakes, I say. - We all have, Camilla says. - If we hadn’t made any mistakes, we hadn’t been human. All of us have been on earth in order to learn our lessons. - If we haven’t learned the first time, we have to learn once more. I didn’t dwell on what she said at the time, but I noticed it. At the end of the visit, I came to an agreement with my guides that at least one of them would accompany me to the funeral. They wanted to give me some more information. I spent the following days with mother, father, and Celine. Before I died, I had had back-aches, but they wee completely gone now. I went passed the mirror again, and it seems like I was in my thirties. I was completely taken aback by this. It turned out that what I was thinking about became reality. It didn’t happen simultaneously, but

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gradually. I was feeling extremely healthy and good. - What a life! I love this, I thought. - This is my dream. A paradise, I thought. At our country home we had regular meals - breakfast, dinner and supper. Mother always prepared the food, and rang the bell when it was ready to be served. We could have prepared the meals, but mother always insisted that she wanted to cook. I wondered if we should eat soon. I wasn’t hungry, but my thoughts were claiming food. I went out in the garden to mother. - Shall we eat something? I ask. - No, we don’t eat anything on this side of life, she says. It isn’t necessary. We don’t need food. It is only your thoughts that demand food. The energy comes to you automatically. It seems a bit unusual at first, but you get accustomed to it very quickly, she says. It didn’t matter. I wasn’t hungry, and the various scents of flowers, grass and air gave me more than enough nourishment. It felt that way, even if I couldn’t understand why. I kept feeling that someone was thinking about me, and the feeling grew stronger. My guide Camilla is walking past the flowery meadow. - It is your funeral today. Would you like to go? - Yes, I would like that, I said. - Hold my hand and close your eyes. - How do we get

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there? - There is no space and time like on earth. Our vibrations make it possible to move with our thoughts. We think of a place, and then we are there. You will soon learn this. At the same moment, we are standing in the church. We are standing in the middle of the church floor. In the first row I can see my family. Sarah is present. She is sitting in a wheel-chair. - Paul has brought her from the hospital, I am thinking. I watch my siblings, my son and my daughter, grandchildren and great grandchildren. The great grandchildren are so young that they are running about, and their parents have to pick them up and bring them back to their seats. My children are crying. I am standing right in front of them, and put my hands on them. I know that they cannot see them. I am also crying. The coffin, covered with multicolored flowers, is placed on the middle of the floor. The vicar delivers his sermon, and the music is vigorous. - And unto dust you must return, says the vicar whilst sprinkling a spoonful of earth on the coffin. - Rise again, I say, - but I am more alive now than I have ever been. The coffin is carried out, and everybody convenes for a memorial service in the assembly room beneath the chapel. The speeches are pleasant, and I am moved. I am holding Sarah’s hand as I embrace her. I am

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thinking that I love her so much, and look forward to her coming over to me on the other side. - You will meet her there soon, Camilla tells me. She is standing next to me, reading my thoughts. The memorial service ends. - Shall we go back? Camilla asks. You can visit Sarah and your family whenever you like. I shall explain more when we get back. Hold my hand and close your eyes. At the same time, we are back, standing in front of the house in the meadow. How do I go about doing this on my own, Camilla? I ask. - I think you’re ready for it now, she answers. - Can you see the tree over there across the water? She asks. - Try and think about the tree, and imagine you are sitting beneath it. I am thinking about what she says, but I am still sitting motionless. Nothing happens. - You have to focus your thoughts actively towards the tree, and that you are relocating. Focus now. I concentrate, and at the same time I am sitting beneath the tree across the water. Camilla is waving at me from the other side. Before I could think, she is sitting next to me. - Great, she says. We shall try it again. Remember, it is your willpower that decides whether you relocate or not. - I would like to see Sarah again, I say. - I can feel she’s in hospital. - Alright, now you must keep your eyes open and focus, be determined! I focus my thought on being with Sarah.

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Before I know it, I am in the hospital and in Sarah’s room. She is in bed sleeping. I find it difficult to relate to the concept of time. It is already evening, and I sense that it was only a moment ago that we had been in church. I kiss her on the forehead. At the same time she turns around. - Can she notice anything? I think. Camilla appears next. This went well. - How is this possible? I ask her. - It’s a mystery to us as well, but it has to do with your inherent instincts. If you only know where you are going, are focused, and have a strong determination to get somewhere, you will get there! - Where do we come from? I ask. - We come from a sphere on another frequency, which cannot be comprehended in the material world. We have a completely different vibration than the one on earth. You can compare it to electricity. You cannot see it, but you know how to utilize the energy. - I am going back now, Camilla says. When you return, I shall show you your new home which has been prepared for you. I expect you haven’t seen much of the sphere you will be living in now. Would you like me to plan a sightseeing program? - Yes, please. I am very excited. - That would be really nice. - I shall talk to John and David about it, your other two guides, she says. - One of us will get back to you shortly. Then she is gone.

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Sarah is awake. It is suppertime, and a nurse enters the room. I withdraw, and focus on getting back to the flowery meadow. Just as soon as I break out of the frequency from my sphere, I come back and find myself in the meadow. Mother and father are sitting in the garden, and their dog is lying flat out in the grass next to them. At this moment, the light outside is dim. My father asks me: - How is Sarah? - I just visited her. She seems very tired. I hope she will be able to rest soon. We spoke together as we did in the old days, if I might use this expression. Father tells me he has resumed his choir singing and painting hobbies. Mother tells me that she is attending a nearby school. This world is much like the one on earth, but here all the buildings and the surroundings are a magnificent sight. The whole city is blooming, with beautiful gateways decorated with flowers and parks. - It’s a fairytale, she says. Soon you shall see. - Your guides have been here much longer than us, more than a hundred years, I think, and they are very insightful. - We have our own guides who help us. - Everyone has, father says. - Everyone is taken good care of. Everybody helps everyone, and takes great pleasure in helping. - It encourages progression, mother

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says. - What you give, you receive in some form or other, she continues. It feels strange sitting here talking to my mother and father, after so many years, and especially since we didn’t know what would happen to us after death. It feels wonderful. They are so calm and relaxed, so it feels so good to be with them, but it felt the same way on earth. Their personalities haven’t changed, but I have heard that they have become very well-informed. Camilla and John are approaching us, walking next to the meadow. - Hello, they say. They ask my mother and father if they are going to the concert. - A famous soprano and tenor are going to perform. Their names are unknown to me, but here they seem to be famous. - It would be a great experience, they both say. - Yes, why not? Father asks. - Would you like to join, mother? - I shall have to see, but yes, I think so. I have a few assignments to prepare for my next class, she says. John says: - Thomas, your new house is ready if you would like to use it. - New house? How is that possible? … I am speechless. - Yes, of course I shall come with you, I say enthusiastically. - Hold our hands, the two of them say. I get up and take their hands, so that we form a cir-

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cle. At the same time I am standing in the living room of my old house. What I mean is, it’s no longer old, it’s magnificent. The old furniture I had planned to throw away is completely new. As I look at the sea and the mountains in the horizon, the view is overwhelming. - Your life on earth has made you worthy of this, they tell me. - If you had lived a selfish life with no charity, you wouldn’t have been able to take care of the house. It would have dissolved. This is how it is here, unintelligible at first, and then completely comprehensible. What you sowed on earth, you reap in great abundance on this side of life. As I walk about the house, everything seems to be in perfect order; however the toilet and bathroom have vanished. The living room is much larger, and the bedroom is the same as before. There is no dust anywhere. It smells nice and clean, and everything is beautiful. I walk into the garden. I am no gardener, but this is overwhelming. Who has put this beautiful garden in order for me? I look at Camilla, and since it is so beautiful, tears are running down my cheeks. I simply cannot describe the beauty of it all. I can see all the colors of the rainbow, a bed of flowers in colorful fireworks. The fragrance is intense. I am walking from one group of flowers to the next. It seems as if the flowers are looking at me

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and singing. Yes, they are actually singing. I am completely stunned. I tell myself that I cannot possibly deserve all this. - Camilla, who has made this for me? I ask. She answers: - Gardeners who love their work, and who give to those who deserve it. They enjoy helping and working. If you continue helping people on this side of life, and are active and hard-working, you will preserve this work of art, and continue to develop it. I was thinking about Sarah, and as I was convinced that this would become a paradise for her, I looked forward to showing her this new home. If I could only tell her about our new destination! I go into the living-room. Camilla, John and David are sitting in the sofa, talking. I sit down and say: - I am overwhelmed. The garden is a dream. They smile and John says: - Just you wait. There is still a lot to come. - I was going to ask you if you would like to participate in my circle at the university. This circle is my responsibility, and we are working with people who need help on this side. These people are struggling to come to grips with their offenses on earth. You might say it is a therapy group. Your personality and character would be important contributions to the group. It would be like a job, and at the same time you would learn a lot about how people are coping with their lives on this

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side of life. I nod and say that it would be interesting. - How do I know when to meet you? I ask. - There aren’t any watches here. - That’s correct, he says. - We deal with time in another way, and you will be notified by telepathy when times come to meet. This is how all communication takes place here. Gradually a tuner inside you will cumulate, and tune in to all the activities you wish to partake in. This tuner will register what goes on, and what your interests are. In this way you will completely control your activities, and what you are involved in. In the same way that a text message is sent on earth, we send a telepathic message. Camilla has arranged a sightseeing. - Yes, I have, she says. - I thought we might start with the area surrounding your home, and then move on to the city. David has considerable experience with other spheres, both sad and positive. - When we are finished, he will accompany you on such a trip in order to give you an overview, in the same way you would accompany a guest on earth. David nods and looks at me in a friendly manner. - There are uncountable worlds on this side, Thomas. The spheres I shall show you each have their own vibrations. In this sphere we can lower our vibrations and descend to the one below us, but it isn’t possible to ascend to the next sphere until you have worked up the same vibra-

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tion yourself. The vibrations increase next to spiritual development, so in time you shall wish to be there on a permanent basis, until you are ready to advance to the next sphere. I am spending time in this sphere myself, and can take you with me on a shorter trip, but you will prefer to come back here, since you are in harmony with the surroundings, he says. They stand up and walk out the door. Then they stroll through the garden and into the street. Then I lose sight of them. When I look around me, it is different than at home, even though the architecture of the house is quite similar. It looks completely new. I turn round in order to meet Camilla who was left behind, and notice a neighboring house in this area. It seems as if the garden is coordinated with the other houses. It is a magnificent sight. I walk towards Camilla, and shut the door behind me. The door closes without a sound, I notice. At home on earth, the door slams shut, probably because it is old. I am smiling as I think about the new house and the new door. Camilla is standing in the living room and turning over the pages of a book. I glance towards the book case, and notice that several books are the same ones I had on earth. - How is this possible, Camilla? I ask. - Well, whatever you had on earth and what you want here, if you

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deserved it, you will find it here. I am aware that this isn’t easy to understand, but this is the way it is here. - Are you ready for sightseeing? Camilla asks. - Yes, please, I answer. - I suggest we walk towards the city, she says. We follow the road in the same direction John and David went. I am thinking about living by the sea or a large amount of water. - Are we looking at the sea? I ask her. - It is saltwater, but we could rather call it a lake, even if you can’t see the horizon, she says. The grass has a perfect height. Everything looks tidy. The colors in the environment are magnificent. The flowers seem in perfect harmony with the green. We are now heading towards a hill in the green grass, and see, is it a city? In any case I can see large buildings far away. We are getting close. I notice that my legs and back don’t hurt any more. My legs seem to be moving on their own. I am not feeling sweaty, only in good shape. - This is a lovely feeling after having experienced many years of suffering, I think. Now the buildings are getting larger. It seems like a huge park area with large buildings. They seemed to be built in something resembling marble. I remember being in Barcelona a few times. I wondered if Gaudi had taken part in this architecture. The arcs and angles remind me of

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what I saw there. There are flowery meadows all over. You can multiply the experience of being in the most beautiful park on earth by one hundred. That’s how wonderful it is. Words cannot describe the beauty. Camilla looks at me and reads my thoughts. - Yes, you came from the mechanical world. This is the creative world, she says laughing. - There are the library and the university, she says, whilst pointing at several buildings. - Let’s go inside. I think this is difficult to describe. However, the hall is formidable. Larger than the St Peter’s Church in Rome, with magnificent decorations. There are a lot of people here. Some people are reading, and some are sitting comfortably in sofa groups. I can see them talking together and laughing. At the same time it is as quiet as in the library at home. - We have copies of all the books in the world, Camilla says. - If you cannot find them here, you can order them and they will be sent to your home, she says. - If we exit over there, we shall arrive at the university. If you didn’t get any education on earth, you can get it here. There are no limitations, and everybody has the same opportunities and privileges. - This is free will in the correct sense of the word, she says. Afterwards we walk down the corridor, and on to the university area. It is wonderful, everything is

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magnificent. - Learning has a large place in our lives here. Through learning we achieve progression in the same way as on earth, but here you can develop in your own way. There is no time limit for studies, she says and spreads her arms as if anything was possible. - Here in this city there are several million people, and in this part of the sphere there are countless cities like this one. If we can use an analogy to earth, we could say that we have continents. You can visit places where you can find traditions and cultures that belong to cultures you are accustomed to on earth - Egypt, China, Hawaii … yes, you can find everything here. Let us say we go on holiday to a place that fascinates us, for instance Egypt. Here we can enjoy walking through narrow streets with bazaars and street life. I notice her dreamy outlook. - Some people choose to live in the cities, whilst others prefer to live in the outskirts or a long way from the cities. - It’s not that different from life on earth, she says. - Imagine that life here is the same as on earth, and remove all the negative things, i.e. what you didn’t like, then you are close to reality. Since we can relocate by using our thoughts as we wish, we don’t need trains, buses or pollutive means of communication. However, there are means of transportation where people can travel collectively to different places. In a similar way,

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the mechanical elements like factories, power plants and the like are also gone. Having said that, there are spheres where trains and railways are identical to the ones on earth, due to the fact that some people want it to be like that. Then of course, there still are people who never arrive on time for their train departures, and they still do, then she laughs. - Some people never learn. If you were interested in cars, you will find cars on this side as well. If the collective thought in a sphere is preoccupied with something that has to be here, then it will be available in that sphere. We can see children playing on the lawn. Some of them are playing football, and others are in a playground. I think: - Children. What are the circumstances for children here, Camilla? She answers: - The children who died are taken care of by the family, or others who are more than happy to assist with the children. - Are they like adoption parents? I ask. We can hear children screaming, laughing and singing. - Yes, it is much like adoption parents on earth, perhaps also the ones who weren’t able to have children. - The children grow up until they are adults, in much the same way as on earth. They go to school, play, do homework, go for walks, whatever children usually like to do, she says. I am

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thinking about Celine. She grew up at her grandmother’s. As we are wandering about, we can see an idyllic place with water fountains, light yellow benches, and large lawns. White swans are swimming on the water, and small bridges connect the ponds. The buildings, made of white marble, are shining. In any case it looks like marble. The windows have been substituted by large gateways. They look like ancient, Roman architecture with large columns. - That’s the hospital, Camilla says. - Are there hospitals here? I ask. - Yes, but not like the ones on earth. - We don’t break our legs here, and we don’t get infarct of the heart, either. These hospitals are designed for people who struggle with their memories from earth, whilst recovering. These people want to improve their mental condition. They might have been cynics and power-seeking people on earth, or hurt others mentally or physically. Their memories torture them, since everything returns to them in the same way as a boomerang. Here they learn to understand how they developed into the people they are, and how to change. The key is to help others. If you help other people, and there are many ways to contribute, you will build up the good things in yourself. If you make a habit of it, you will find the good things in life. This

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is what it is like on earth, as well. Think about all the people who yearn for the good life, or the well-known state of pleasure, by seeking material wealth. They buy everything their hearts desire, but do they find happiness? - No, after a while they are still just as sad as before. There is only one joy. You will find it by helping or pleasing someone else. That is the only true joy, but only few people understand it. The ones who discovered this fact too late on earth, are crying on this side. - Many of the care workers have been in the same situation themselves. This type of torture might last for a long period of time, perhaps several hundred years, and even longer if we use the same time as on earth. Those who are here have advanced. It is the condition in which memories bombard you with the same feelings and images you inflicted upon others, that we can call hell on this side, she says. If only this has been common knowledge on earth, people would have behaved differently towards each other. Each and every person should have searched their souls whilst existing on earth, and settled their account before they came over here. - What do you mean by settling the account? - I mean letting go of egoism, vanity and the indeterminable need to be better than others, whilst cultivating love and honesty at the same time. A need and a wish to as-

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sist wherever you can will build up inside you. If this message had been illustrated, then the issues of famine, poverty and war would have been erased from the surface of the earth. Materialism and egoism is the root of this evil, she says sadly. The subject of hospitals make my thoughts wander to my family, to Sarah and my children. - I would like to visit them, I say to Camilla. - Yes, I understand, let us talk more later. I shall visit you later on; she says and smiles at me. - Thank you very much for the sight-seeing, Camilla. It was wonderful, I say as I hug her. We are standing alone underneath a tree in the garden outside the hospital. Camilla vanishes, and I sit down with my back against the tree. I touch the flowers with my hand, and hear the music that is coming from them. It gets louder and louder, the more I concentrate. I am daydreaming, and thinking about what Camilla said about building up the good things inside you. She had said it was the only happiness. I thought the feeling was good. I remembered episodes on earth, where I had encouraged and helped other people. I had always felt good about doing whatever I did. I remember the seagull lying in the roadside. One day, as I was doing some errands, I saw a seagull lying in the roadside, and it was

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dragging one of its wings along. It was a large seagull, and easy to spot. The car in front of me didn’t stop. I remember it hurt me to watch it. Because of the speed and the cars behind me, I couldn’t pull over straight away, however I turned round and drove back. I went out of the car and moved towards the seagull. It was terrified, and tried to pull back. I picked it up as carefully as I could, and put it in the car. Then I drove to the vet. It was bleeding, and I didn’t think there was much the vet could do about it, but in any case, it didn’t have to suffer any more. I explored that feeling once more. Whilst sitting underneath the tree, I felt that wonderful feeling once more. I concentrate deeply, and focus on Sarah. At the same time, I find myself in the hospital, sitting by her bedside. My mother-in-law, Andre’s mother, and Ina’s husband are there with our children. Mother is also there. I look at her. - No, she isn’t ready yet, my mother-in-law says. I can tell from her aura, she says. I think that it feels good to see my son and my daughter, Paul and Ina again. I can tell by looking at their eyes that they feel compassion for their mother. Ina is holding mother’s hand. I put my hand on top of hers, but Ina doesn’t notice. A nurse enters the room, and I can hear Paul asking her how mother

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is doing. - I don’t know, but I shall ask the doctor. She isn’t eating much, she says. I give Sarah a hug. I look at mother, and ask her if father is at home. She confirms with a nod, and I say: - I am going over there now. While she is smiling at me, I focus on the flowery meadow, and at the same time I am standing outside mother and father’s house. Father is in the garden painting on a canvas. - I have visited Sarah, and she isn’t well. - No, mother told me. She sent me a text message a while ago. - It doesn’t seem like she is suffering, I say. - She is probably getting the necessary medication, he says. - Mm … I nod. - Lovely picture, father. I can see you have practiced. - Everything is easier her, he says. I can see things clearer and more natural when I paint. I lay down in the grass nearby. The dog approaches and wants to be petted, and it settles down right next to me, and turns around on its back. - Yes, I shall pet you. There is something strange about the dog. It seems like I can hear what it wants. - Father, does this dog talk? I ask. - No, but we can perceive each other much better here than we could on earth. As I am talking to him, I can sense that he understands a lot of what I’m thinking about. It’s nice to lie down like this and let my thoughts

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drift. I haven’t been able to sleep for several months now, but still I am not tired at all. In any case it’s nice to rest my thoughts. Not knowing how long I had been lying there, I can see and hear Camilla, like in a multimedia message. I turn to father and tell him that Camilla is going to visit me, so I go home. In the next moment, I am at home. There is classical music playing in the house, Pachelbel Canon in D. This was my favorite classical melody. Camilla enters the room. - I turned on some music, she said. - How do you switch on music? I ask surprised. - You just think about the melody of your choice, then you will receive the one you like the best. All the music on earth and on this side is available. All you have to do is tune in, she says. As I think about louder music, it gets louder and louder, and when I think about more bass, there is more bass. I laugh and think this is incredible. - Look here, Thomas, she says. I can see a picture on the wall, or it is not on the wall it is hanging a bit away from the wall. It looks like a three dimensional flat screen with no frame. The picture is actually hanging in thin air. - I am projecting my thoughts onto the wall, Camilla says. I can see a film from the pyramids in Egypt. It’s just like being there. I can feel the scent of

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the camels. I laugh and shake my head. - Tell me how it’s done, Camilla. - We do the same thing we did before. We focus our thoughts on a picture on the wall, and then your thoughts are projected, she says - Take my hands in yours, and close your eyes. - Now let us think that we’re at the pyramids, she says. As I do what she tells me, I find that we are next to the pyramids at the same time. We are actually here. It is sunny, and the sky is blue. It must be afternoon, since the sun is setting. I hold her hand. - Shall we walk to the top? I ask. At the same time we are standing at the top of the pyramid. The view is magnificent. - There, you see, she says. It’s that easy, then she laughs. We are equipped with a larger register of abilities on this side of life. Before I know it, we are back in the living room, where Pachelbel is still playing. - It will take some time before you can manage all this, Thomas, but you will learn. - One thing is certain, I tell her. - I shan’t miss my stereo equipment or my flat screen. - This surpasses everything, I say. Camilla leaves, and I am alone in the house. I go out on the terrace and enjoy the view. I had dreamt about this house once. If I remember correctly, the house wasn’t quite finished in

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the dream. I remember the view and the surroundings from the dream, but who could believe it was actually real? I remember having read that if you have sweet dreams on earth, you will have a nice time on the other side. I am not exactly sure about that, since I also had nightmares, which fortunately have not come true. I can see ships at sea, and by the waterfront there are people taking a bath. - A bath would be nice, I think. As I walk into the bedroom, guess what? My clothes are there! I find my bathing shorts and a towel, and stroll down to the beach. The water looks lovely, the beach is completely yellow, and the sand is quite clean. Children are playing and diving into the water. It looks as though their parents are sitting on the beach, watching out for their children. Camilla said I could control everything with my thoughts. I lay down my towel, and change into my bathing shorts. Probably I could have used my thoughts in order to change, but since I am not quite sure, I change the way I usually do. I wade into the water. It is crystal clear, and I can see multicolored fish, as I did once outside a coral reef in Egypt, when I was on holiday. There are small, clear shoals of fish dashing past me. I go for a swim. The water has a perfect temperature, nice and cool. I lie in the water for a while, and sense that it’s time to get back. As I approach land and am

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about to dry myself, I can tell that I’m not wet at all. The swimming shorts are completely dry. I am very surprised, to say the least. - Clearly, I am living on another planet, I think. What is natural on earth, isn’t the same here. I go back to the house, straight up the hill through the garden. The flowers have a lovely scent. What a wonderful life! I think about Sarah again, and that she should have been here now. This would have been like paradise for her. David, my guide, is calling out my name. At the same time he is standing next to me, and says: - Hello, Thomas, you have not yet learned to tune in to the private mode. If you are busy, or don’t want to respond when somebody calls out for you, you just turn of all incoming calls. You block them, if you understand. You achieve this by concentrating on a private mode. You say to yourself that you wish to be private, and then the people who are trying to get in contact with you will receive that thought. In this way only you decide who you want to get in touch with, or open up for. In a sense it is very similar to cell phones, which people on earth bring along everywhere. We can set the same mode telepathically, in the same way you set it mechanically on a cell phone.

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I am ready to take you with me to some spheres, so that you might see what is above us and underneath us. I understand that it takes time to get used to this thought technology. It took time to get used to learning cell phone technology as well, David says and smiles. - Yes, doesn’t it? He asks. We both laugh. - Yes, I am ready to meet new challenges, I say. - OK, he says and continues: - The sphere we shall enter now is beneath us. It is progression, and we advance as we develop spiritually. There are countless worlds on this side, but we can separate the various levels. We like to call them spheres. The earth is the first sphere. When someone dies physically, they had been so focused on materialism that they cling to the earthly sphere. They cannot reach any further than that. These are the people who haunt the population on earth. They usually keep to their homes, and stay in that area for many years before they accept any help to move on. Some sensitive people can feel their presence, and at times this can be tiresome. - Now we shall go to a sphere that doesn’t have the same good conditions as you experience here. We shall enter a city, so that you can experience the circumstances there. This sphere is in another vibration. Hold my arm, we have to

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lower our vibration in order to match the one we are about to enter. Soon we find ourselves in a street. The streets are not covered with grass here. There is gravel and dirt around us. The houses are degenerate, but this varies. Some houses are better than others. I can see people who are surrounded by a grayish shadow or aura, compared to the sphere we come from, where people have a bright radiation. David says that the people who are living here have chosen to do so themselves. Not because they don’t want an improvement, but their characters create their vibration, and makes them stick together. Further down the road I can hear someone arguing loudly. There are some smaller houses or sheds alongside the street on one side. - Who is living here? I ask. - I know who it is, he says. - They are people who have inflicted serious damage to others, either directly or by making other people do it. You can see their characters by looking at their aura, and their way of living. I can see someone entering one of the houses. They notice that we are standing there, but turn away and look down. There are no flowers here; however there are some tufts of grass here and there, but it doesn’t look very nice. I think this looks grey and sad. - Don’t they get any help? I ask. - Yes, the people from the upper spheres try to help them, but there is free will, so it isn’t pos-

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sible to force them to do anything. They have to want to move on, but it isn’t easy. Some continue along the same track, others are ashamed and feel that everything is hopeless. The thoughts and images from there offences torture them. We continue walking into the city. It looks better here. There are large buildings. - That building over there is rather special, I say. - Yes, that’s the theatre. Actors from other spheres put up plays here. These plays are put up in order to help the citizens understand their mistakes, and how they can correct their wrongdoings. As mentioned earlier, people are ready to help anywhere and at any time, if the opposite party wants it and is ready for it. There are a lot of people in the city centre. - These are skyscrapers housing very many people, he explains. Millions of people are living here. They are constantly being replaced. New people enter, and the ones who have developed their characters leave the city in order to enter the next sphere. The transition takes place gradually, and this city has better conditions in the outskirts, and still worse conditions in other places, according to the characters of those who live there. Perhaps this sounds rather far fetched, but no one can enter a sphere if they are not eligible. In case they did enter, someone who is eligible to enter the sphere would have to bring the person with him or her. As you can see, not everything is bad

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here, and it will get better when people develop positively. - Let us leave this city and enter the sphere above the one you live in, he says. I am holding on to David’s arm, and in a blink of the eye we are standing amidst a flamboyant flower garden. Birds in amazing colors are flying above us. I remember having seen some of them on the television channel “Animal Planet” before I died. They are pink, and look like swans; perhaps they indeed belong to the swan family. I don’t know. I can hear the ocean waves hitting the beach behind us. - It is very bright here, I say. - Yes, this sphere has a higher vibration than where you come from, and therefore the strong light might bother you for a while, he says. In the other direction we can see mountains and vast, green areas. It is incredibly beautiful. It seems as though this atmosphere contains varying colors, which seem to dance across heaven and nature. On earth I never saw anything like this. I turn around and notice some white houses down by the beach. A large, white ship is anchored close to the beach. Yes, it actually is a harbor. - Can we go down there? I ask. I notice that David is wearing a white coat, and surprisingly enough; so am I! We stroll through the grass. White flowers are scattered about and swaying in the breeze coming from the ocean.

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We have reached the pier. The ship is magnificent, and is called “Svanen� (The Swan). People dressed in coats that are white as chalk; greet us in a friendly manner. I can feel myself being captivated by them. I can sense an immense sympathy and care, coming from both women and men. They are talking and laughing. One of them tells us that they are going to have a party on the beach with a display from a dance group. She asks us if we would like to join. David looks at me, and I nod. - Yes, please, he answers. Everyone has gathered on the beach. A few of the swans I had seen earlier have settled down next to us, quite close. They are not afraid. I can touch one of them. I pat its back carefully. It looks at me, and it seems as though it understands that I only want to pat it. The dance group consists of several women, who radiate a mixture of white and golden aura. I can hear music accompanying the dance. I cannot tell where the music is coming from, but I think it must be very much the same as at home. I remember having seen a dance group like this when my family was on vacation in Turkey a long time ago. The dance had balance and soft rhythm. They are dancing in the yellow sand right in front of us. I can feel the

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scent of the ocean and the soft breeze, and feel as if I were on vacation. I step out of the rhythm, and when I come to my senses again, I find that the light has become extremely strong. I tell David that I’m ready to go back. We say goodbye to our friends, and in a jiffy we’re back in my living room. It was so good to be back home again. Here I was in perfect harmony with the surroundings. My vibration is here, I thought. I am trying to focus on the melody by Pachelbel, and can hear the music in the background playing softly. I thank David and say goodbye to him. - We shall talk later on, but remember to test the private mode, he says smiling. Then he is gone. I get the feeling that Eva, my granddaughter, is thinking about me. She seems upset. I focus on her, and momentarily I am standing in her apartment. She is crying. She’s had a bad day at work. I can sense a part of what she’s thinking, and try to comfort her. I am holding her in my arms. That seems to help. She gets calmer. Her children are all over the living room, and the Lego blocks are spread around. Her husband, Arne, opens the door. I am happy he is who he is. His knowledge of the human psyche is great, and he notices how weary Eva is. He takes care of the children immediately, and asks her if there is

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anything he can do for her. - No, it’s all right, she says. - There was a lot of work to do in the office today, and not everyone is aware of what they say, she continues. - Okay, I shall prepare dinner, he says and hugs her. I am so happy that they are a couple, I think. I hug my great grandchildren and say goodbye to them, and then I visit Sarah. She is asleep, so I hug her and go home. This was much faster than driving a car back and forth, I think; not to mention walking with my feeble legs. I tune in to the music channel, and enjoy some light piano music. A few months have passed since I left earth time, and I feel as if I’ve learned a lot already. - I love this life, I think. I receive a message from John. I don’t quite know how the private mode functions yet, but I welcome my guide heartily. - We shall start the circle in a little while. Will you come? He asks. - Yes, I’m ready, I answer. We stroll towards town. It’s a lovely feeling, walking through the grass and feeling the scent of the various flowers. I can see that there are a lot of birds in the trees now. They are twittering. - Yes, we have birds in this sphere also, I think. John tells me that a person who has committed suicide is going to visit him. - You shall hear his story, John says. - I am his contact per-

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son. - That will be interesting, I say. We chat as we walk, and arrive at the university, where we go to a room that is equipped with several groups of chairs. I sink down in a soft and comfortable chair. John goes to fetch Peter. He looks at me rather shyly. I get up and greet him. He sits down in the chair right in front of me. John sits down in the chair in between us. John has a very likeable personality. It is easy to see that he only wants what is good for you. He bends over towards Peter, and holds his hand on top of Peter’s for one moment. I notice him smiling to Peter, and sending him a thought that all will be well. He says he is grateful that Peter has consented to telling his story. Thomas has just arrived, and in the same way as me, he will be a contact person for others. For that reason your story is important to him. Peter tells us that he was married and had three children. When he committed suicide he had been married for ten years. - I couldn’t take it any more, he said. I had gambled all my money, and had a large debt that I couldn’t pay off. In the end everything was chaotic. I lost my job and started drinking. My wife had to collect social security in order to pay for food and rent. I just couldn’t cope any more. One evening I got drunk and was almost unconscious. Then I woke up on this side. I had overdosed on sleeping pills. I

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didn’t know that we survived life on earth, or which consequences this would have for me. I am suffering more now than I was before I killed myself, he says. - Now I cannot help my family any more in the way I ought to. Since I couldn’t see the misery I inflicted on them when I was alive, I can at least see it now. Taking ones life is completely wrong. It doesn’t solve anything. On the contrary, it creates more problems for you. I have been helped by many on this side, and I am forever grateful to John for being there for me when I need help. I am constantly suffering, since I know that I have caused all the problems that my family has to deal with. I am completely unable to help them now. I hope my wife finds a man who can look after my family, he says. - I am saddened by the thought that the supporting elements on earth aren’t sufficient, John says. - Those that need help don’t get help quickly enough. Taking one’s life doesn’t solve anything. It is just as important as on earth that the emotional problems are dealt with. In addition there is the issue of guilt, and as Peter says; from this side he cannot help his family in the way he ought to. The possibility of making amends towards his family is gone. He has to live with this great burden, until his family’s situation gets better. At the same time, the fact that he is

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opening up to others now, will ease his pain. He has assisted me by telling his story on several occasions. This has helped others that have been in a similar situation. His contribution is helping him to get on. It’s therapy for him, since he is strengthening his self confidence by being useful and helping others. I accompanied John to several sessions involving similar cases of suicide, where the common consensus was that everyone we talked to regretted having taken their own lives, and wouldn’t have wanted it to happen. They told us it just created even more misery. I can hear my father sending me a message about a family party. I reply that I am busy or in a private mode. I tell him that I will get back to him. I am attending a meeting with John, and we are discussing how I might become a contact person. We agree that he shall look into the matter, and set up an agreement for me. I contact my father again. He is available, so I focus on their house and find myself being there immediately. - We are going to have a family party later on today. Your great grandparents and grandparents will be there. So will uncle Jim

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and aunt Pia, he says. It is still a while till the party starts, so I go back home first. Now I have established a register or intuition that keeps track of appointments. At the same time I am connected to news that might be of interest to me. It could be concerts, theatre, local news, or news from earth. Through John I have joined up as a volunteer to assist when accidents occur. In the event of big accidents, we form groups and help people who are feeling completely lost. Many of the people, who have been in an accident, do not know or understand that their physical bodies have died. They often run around without understanding that others cannot hear them. Some of them try to contact their families, to tell them what happened, and that they are still alive. Naturally, they are in despair. It is often very difficult to bring them with us to our own hospital, where they can rest and restore. There are others who do not experience this trauma, and wake up in peaceful surroundings on the other side. In the garden I meet the neighbors. We say our greetings. I can see that they’re playing cards. I met them the other day. - Thank God they’re friendly neighbors, I think. David told me that the neighbors, or those who live in the same

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area, have the same vibration as you do. So if you’re a nice person, you can be sure that your neighbors are nice also. There isn’t any quarreling between neighbors. I receive a message from an old friend of mine, Andreas. He left before me, but is in the same sphere as I am. I invite him, and in a jiffy he is in the garden with me. We have a warm reencounter. We remind each other of the good old days, and laugh heartily. He has grown much thinner. - You have lost weight, I say. On earth he used to be a great teddy bear. We called him teddy bear. - Yes, well there isn’t much food to eat on this side, he says, and laughs his teddy sort of laugh. He certainly has kept his personality. - How is Eva, your wife? I ask. - Oh, she is fine. We don’t live together any more, but are still good friends. I enjoy living by myself, and don’t have any plans of marrying again, he says laughing. - We don’t get married on this side of life. Those who want to live together do so. - I have to move on to a family party. Can we meet later? I ask. We make an appointment to see each other in town. He would like to go to a classical concert. - Great, then we shall talk later, I say. He leaves, and I go to the family party.

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Mother has prepared a table covered with fruits, like I have never seen before. Father welcomes everybody, and I am thinking that this is just the way it was on earth. - Help yourselves, mother says. I had heard we could cultivate exotic fruits here that taste wonderful. I had to try some, and I picked what looked like a kiwi, and it tasted incredibly good. My uncle approaches. - Hello, Thomas, so nice to see you again. - Likewise, I say. My uncle had been a member of the home mission. I know he had arranged bible groups at home. Him and I often joked about ghosts, to our own and other peoples enjoyment. - How about religion? Are you still arranging bible groups? I ask. - No, my views on religious dogma have changed, he says. - However, our Father in heaven, our God is alive, he says. - Yes, but who is God? I ask. We all have God inside us, he says, and continues; - The way I view it, God is the positive force that runs through all living beings. Charity is what gives us progression on this side, and it also gives us the possibility to advance to new spheres. God is the force that gives us progression. In the higher spheres there are no atheists, since God’s presence there is so visible that all doubt vanishes. - I have to admit that I haven’t given it too much consideration, neither here or on earth, but my mind has always been open to learn and

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seek new paths, I say. I remember that my uncle had warm hands, and helped many people. One day, when I was in my teens, my head hurt so much that I payed him a visit. After ten minutes, my headache was gone. He had something. I was convinced. Grandmother, whom I had never seen whilst living on earth, came over to us. She was a beautiful lady. Her hair was put up in the same way as on the pictures I had seen of her. I seem to remember that she died of brain tumor when she was in her thirties. - Hello, Thomas, she says. I give her a hug. Oh, no. I cannot remember her name. - My name is Birgit, she says. - I have been watching you during your time on earth, and I hope I have inspired you from time to time, she says. She mentions one time in the classroom, when I had been a bit depressed. - I sent you some good thoughts, and you immediately turned around in your chair, and looked behind you. - That was me, she says and laughs. - I cannot remember, but it doesn’t surprise me, I say. Mother approaches. - Thomas, you never saw my mother, she says. Again, I can see that her eyes resemble mine. - No, but it is fantastic that we can meet each other now, I say. Mother and grandmother have much the same personality; they are friendly, calm and conscientious people, and only wanted what was best for others. They

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offered themselves to others completely; at least that was what we would have said on earth. - The fruit was delicious mother. I shall try another one. - Yes, please help yourself, she says. Sarah enters my thoughts. Something is happening. I say goodbye and go to the hospital. The doctor is present; she is drawing her breath from an oxygen tank. - Her lungs are failing her, the doctor says. Mother has entered the room. She says: - There are only a few days left, Thomas. - I can tell by looking at her aura. - I am staying here, I say. I hold her hand. - She isn’t eating any more, the nurse says. They sit there until dawn. My in-laws are also on the same side as we are. They are here now, and tell us that they have been attending to her during the entire stay at hospital. We talk about how we spent our time on earth. The holidays, grand children, great grandchildren, in short everything we had together. Most of the time, my mother in law was sitting and holding Sarah’s hand. The doctor enters the room in the morning. - Her condition is worse, he says. It doesn’t look good. Ina has arrived, and is informed that the end is near. I tell mother that she can go back home. I am staying with her. I shall accompany her, and tell her when something happens. The

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day and night pass. Sarah is pale, and sweating. Ina wipes her forehead with a wet cloth. Mother arrives and tells us that her life will end in a few moments. My in-laws nod their heads. We can see Sarah taking deep breaths. The times in between these breaths are getting longer and longer, and then it stops. Ina looks at her, and turns to the nurse who nods. Tears are running down Ina’s cheeks. She lays a red rose on mother’s chest, then she says: - Dear mother, thank you for everything, we’ll meet again. Then she kisses her forehead. Sarah is now watching Ina and holds her in her arms, and the nurse says she wants to prepare the dead mother. - I am here, Ina, Sarah says, but Ina cannot hear her. I approach Sarah and hug her. - I am here with you, Sarah. Life hasn’t stopped. It’s just started, I say. Sarah had always believed in life thereafter. She was convinced about it. This is helping her now. In a way she always expected me to be there for her. Paul also enters the room. He has been running and is sweaty. - Poor man, Sarah says. He comes close to the bed and kisses her forehead, looks at her and the rose, moves it a bit, turns around, and leaves the room to join Ina. I say to Sarah: - Come with me now. - I shall show you our new house. I am holding her, and in a jiffy we are standing in our garden out-

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side our house. Sarah is crying; with joy, I think. I hold her in my arms, and then she falls asleep. I can tell that her illness has worn her out. I carry her into the bedroom, where the lights are dim, and where she can rest. - What a wonderful feeling to have her back home, I think and feel. Sarah sleeps for a long time, or else she isn’t conscious yet, since we don’t sleep on this side. At the transition to this life it is often necessary to rest, and free oneself from the afflictions that were attached to the old body. I am not leaving our house now, and I am sitting in the garden talking to the neighbors. Suddenly Sarah is standing there smiling. I run towards her, hold her, and lift her up. - Hello there! I say, and then we both laugh. She is radiant, and has become younger already. - Look at that garden, Sarah, I say. - Wonderful, she says. She comes close to the flowers and bends down towards them. They stretch towards her, and she looks at me. - Yes, the flowers are alive on this side, and they sing for you, I say. I can hear the flowers humming to her. She sits down and touches them. - They are absolutely wonderful, and so is all this, she says. A tear is running down her cheek. I come close to her and wipe it away carefully, and then I hold her. - The house is so nice, she says. - Yes, isn’t it? I say. - How did you get this house? She asks. - It was

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arranged for us. I just came here, and there it was, I say. - It’s just like the one we had at home, only much nicer, she says. - Yes, I was just as surprised as you are, I say. I had been struggling to maintain the house we had on earth. Wooden materials rot, and have to be changed. Everything costs money, and since we were retired it was hard to maintain; but luckily, that’s in the past, I think. We enter the house. She enjoys the view across the ocean. - I have been swimming, and you know what? I didn’t get wet! My swimming trunks were just as dry as they had been before I went into the water. This is a completely new world, Sarah! A whole new, different world, I say as I hold her in my arms. She turns around and looks me in the eyes. - You know what, Thomas? This is absolutely unbelievably incredible. She closes her eyes, and takes a deep breath, as though she cannot believe what she’s experiencing. She opens her eyes again. She is so beautiful. I can see a thousand stars in her eye. She is back in her thirties, and radiates a golden white aura. She is looking at herself. She is wearing a white summer dress that I can remember from our youth. - It was lying on the bed, Thomas, she says. I can tell by looking at her that she doesn’t know how.

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- I told your parents I would notify them when you had rested. Do you want to go over there, now? I ask. - Yes, I’d like that, she answers. I hold her, and suddenly we are standing outside my in-law’s house. They run out and embrace Sarah. Mother, father and daughter are crying. They can’t seem to hold her enough. We enter the house. It is very nice inside their home. We sit down in the living room, stories are told, and the atmosphere is happy. When he was on earth, father in law was a carpenter. He built his own house there, and was also engaged in building houses on this side of life. Mother in law had managed a kindergarten on earth, and was still teaching younger children on this side. Their house is situated near a golf course. Both of them were enthusiastic golf players on earth. They continued practicing their sport here. The golf course was divine. I think that golfers would have been green with envy if they had seen this magnificent course. After a while, Camilla sent me a message. She has a surprise for Sarah. I notify Sarah, and ask her if she is ready to go. - Yes, let us leave, she answers. We say goodbye to the in-laws. Then I take her hand, and in a moment we are standing in our own garden.

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- Hello, Thomas, this is Sarah’s guide, says Camilla. - Hello, Sarah. My name is Mary, and I have been watching you for several years. She gives Sarah a hug. - It’s nice to see you in such good shape again, she says. - Now you have Thomas, but I can help you learn whatever you like, and work with whatever you please. All you have to do is think about me, and I shall be with you as fast as I can. - Oh yes, I would like to get to know you, Sarah says. - We could postpone it a bit, so you can sum up all your thoughts and impressions with Thomas. - I am ready whenever you are ready, Mary says. - As I just mentioned, send me a thought when you are ready, then I’ll be there. Camilla and Mary leave us. - Thomas, I would like to visit Eva and Arne, Sarah says. - Eva is our granddaughter, Ina’s daughter. - Yes, hold my hand. All of a sudden we are at Eva’s home. It is evening, and the children have gone to bed and are sleeping. Eva is baking, and her husband Arne, is sitting on the sofa watching television. There is a lovely smell of bread-making in the house. - Yes, as you can see, everything is fine here, I say. We go downstairs to the bedroom where the children are sleeping. - Look Thomas, they are so sweet! Eva has two girls, Therese is four, and Pia is six years old. We give them a hug. Sarah wants to sit with

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them for a while, so we stay there. While Eva looks to them, we rush to visit Ina and her husband Andre. They have gone to bed, so we go on to visit Paul, our son. He is working. I notice the clock on the wall that shows eleven p.m. It’s almost midnight. We give him a hug. Paul and his wife Ruth don’t have any children. Ruth isn’t at home. Perhaps she is out travelling with her workplace. - She travelled a lot, Sarah says. We then go back to our house. Time passes, and I know there is going to be a funeral towards the end of the week. - Would you like to attend your funeral, Sarah? I ask. - No, I don’t, she answers. However, I can attend the memorial service afterwards, if there is going to be one, she says. - I am sure there will, I say. Sarah spent the next few days in the garden. She learnt about the existence of the flowers. We think, and then they grow. If we think collectively, we create more energy to our thoughts, and the bloom takes place faster. I can sense that the family is meeting for the funeral. I watch, and tell Sarah that we have to go now if we are going to attend the memorial service. Then we are there. Ina gives a speech for her mother. I think she knows that mother is listening. Sarah is touched, and a tear rolls down

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her cheek. The children are running around while people are eating. Sarah and I are laughing quietly to ourselves. - Think about it, Sarah tells me. - I am actually standing here laughing in my own funeral. - Yes, that’s the way it is, when life on the other side is unknown to those living on earth, I say. We stay for a while and listen to people talking. Paul thanks everyone for attending, and then he concludes the memorial service. I look at Sarah. - Yes, let us go back, she says. I take her hand, and in an instant we are back in our garden. A few months have passed since Sarah’s funeral. We have visited mother and father. Sarah’s relatives were also present, and we have now met everyone that go back to our great grandparents. Some of them are in the same sphere as we are, and others have advanced. I told Sarah about my visit to the sphere above us, and how wonderful it was there, but that the light or the vibration was a bit tiresome. Sarah had now come to grips with how many things work. She contacted Mary again. She was her guide and went everywhere with her. Sarah had always enjoyed being busy, and she still did. She often told me that she loved her new life. She had been a contact person on earth as well, so she was experienced when it comes to helping others. She

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was outgoing, and her mood was catchy. Everyone seemed to enjoy being in her company. I felt we had established good relations in the local community. We functioned in much the same way as we had done on earth, and we really enjoyed each others company. Sarah regularly went to an office in the city that kept a record of the work tasks for people here, as well as for those who wanted to work with tasks on earth. She had always impressed me with her eagerness to help others who experienced difficulties. This urge seemed to increase on this side, since she now could devote all her time to the things she loved the most. I am still working with John and David. They are very good friends. I believe that guides are attracted to the same type of person, since our personality is very similar. John and I spend most of our time at the hospital in the city, where we welcome newcomers to our sphere. We teach them how to be independent, and then to give support wherever they can. These are mainly people who have advanced, but who still need support. We also go back to earth and assist when accidents occur. David and I work together in the lower spheres. We encounter many tragedies.

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I have learnt how to make myself invisible to them, since we have a higher vibration in our sphere. In this way I can find out what their thoughts are, and watch their development over a certain period. Some of these poor people only snarl and roar at us. Making myself invisible can help them, since I get to know them and can balance what I tell them. Everything is based on serious offences on earth. In the place where we work, the thoughts of cynical people who have committed serious violent acts, come back. These people must face up to what they have done, and experience true hell. The images from their offences do not let go. We cannot work amidst them for any length of time. These people draw our energy from us, so we have to portion it out. There are some we can communicate with. A small step in the right direction could make all the difference to them. When the person in question can see what went wrong, then we have come far. The birds are singing outside, and Sarah is on the terrace reading a book. - What are you reading? I ask. - It’s Shakespeare. A book that Mary gave to me, that was written on this side of life, she answers. She is deeply engaged in the reading process, so I go into the garden. The singing flowers are like therapy for me. I sit

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down and enjoy the melody. This is music for my soul. In a way you become part of the music and it seems like you’re floating around. This feeling is indescribable, and I would never have imagined anything like it whilst living on earth. Believe me when I tell you, that the spiritual experience by far surpasses the sexual satisfaction in our world. A few days ago, while speaking of time on earth, Sarah and I were at a meeting organized by my friend Andreas. We met many different people there. One person, who had been an engineer on earth, told me that several great inventions had been inspired from souls from life thereafter. These engineers still worked with various environments on earth. Engineers that perhaps had not quite finished what they had started. They inspired others who could carry out their work. As an example, Thomas Edison was still working as a scientist, and contributed to various projects. This didn’t surprise me, but it would have if I still was on earth. Then I would probably have told him that we can dream on. Architects and construction workers were still building houses. -Who built our house? I thought. One thing is certain, things are built differently here compared to on earth, since machines don’t exist here. I had the impression that

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many people continued working with the same things they worked with on earth, only in a slightly different manner. In any case, fire fighters and police must find different ways of making a living. Luckily, these occupations don’t exist here. In the city near where we live, there are just as many busy people as in any large city. You can meet all types of personalities. The difference is that people here belong to the same vibration level. The sphere I’m in consists solely of friendly people. What people need to be aware of is the fact that spiritual development is a decisive factor when it comes to being welcomed to this world. How you live your life on earth will be of significance to you here. Abuse of power and status, that has harmed others both mentally and physically, will affect you unless you don’t change your behavior before you come here. Those who were abused would like to forgive you, but this doesn’t excuse the abuse. Nobody judges you. You judge yourself and have to take stock before you can go on. This might be a tough process. Think about how you treat your fellow beings! Don’t do unto others what you don’t want them to do unto you! Be aware of how you go about everyday life. Straighten out your house before

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you reach the other side. We give this piece of advice to everyone. Start your spiritual development today! Let go of egoism, greed, vanity and the nondescript need to be better than others. By vanity I mean being arrogant towards others, not dressing up. If you cultivate love, honesty and truth, you will grow spiritually and be better prepared for life after death on earth. Don’t think this doesn’t apply to you! All your actions are being recorded, and you will clearly remember every detail of your life. At any time you will be able to enter an episode of your life, and remember every detail from one second to another. I am telling you once again, so that you will be reminded of the fact that this law of nature will decide your destiny when you get here. “Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.” It’s not more difficult than that. Help others, then you will grow spiritually; and if you make a habit of it, you will by and by neutralize your offences, and find happiness and joy in life. This is how everyone has to treat themselves here, and it is not different from life on earth. Give yourself time and think about it. You will be happy you started before you come here. It will be advantageous for you. Believe me; in the short time I have been here, I have witnessed many destinies. Some

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people, who have walked the red carpet on earth, are now using the back entrance. Camilla sends me a message, asking me if I want to go to a concert in the city. She is acquainted with Sarah from the employment office, and they have become close friends. On her way in from the terrace, I notice that Sarah has received the same message, since she asks me if we are going. This is a spiritual concert, where the music isn’t from earthly origin. We feel that these concerts, that take place in open space, are absolutely fantastic. The music penetrates into your heart and fills you with love. The colors in the sky above accompany the music, and the closest I can get to explain this is a spectacular display of fireworks with colors unknown to us in an earthly context. Sarah sends a message to Camilla telling her that we will be there. Sarah and I visit mother and father at a regular basis now, but they are often in the sphere above us. They now feel that the light and vibration there are comfortable. When it comes to calm and natural beauty, the sphere above is attractive, but when considering various tasks, the responsibility increases when you live there. This in turn means that you will continue to develop. They still have many friends where they currently live, and are a bit reluctant to move. However I think they are ready to move. Sarah and I have

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visited them several times in their new home. Like everything else in that sphere, it is wonderful. I am starting to get used to the light, but Sarah could have moved at any time. Her aura is golden white, as she glides straight into that vibration. There exist spheres above this level, but we are not capable of entering them. I think it will take some time to get there. I don’t know anyone who exists above the next level. Some of them have existed in our sphere for hundreds of years. It is necessary to work in order to progress. Our aura develops alongside our charity, and cannot easily be explained otherwise. When I accompany Sarah to a party or an art exhibition, her aura gives her certain advantages. Everyone wants to give her something. They want to return favors to those who are most deserving of them. It gives them great joy. That is why our house is so full of works of art. If you have ever been to Louvre, Paris or in the Vatican in Rome, the works of art there are simplified in comparison to what they are here. Art is in a sense alive to us, and we enjoy surrounding ourselves with it. I have been talking to many people here about God, the universe and life. These questions interest me more than ever before, and I feel I’m constantly asking them.

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David, who has been living on this side of life for more than one hundred years, lives in the sphere above us. However, he works in the sphere below us. David says that “God exists.” There are no atheists in the higher spheres, since they can see and make use of the positive force surrounding us and inside of us. - But what is God? I ask myself. I can feel that there is a positive force that generates progression when I help others. When we help others, the energy within ourselves increases. At first it drains us of energy, but then it only increases in intensity and fills us with joy and inspiration to go on. The force inside us increases with charity, and diminishes when egoism dominates. This is a fact, since I experience it every day in my work. I have not seen God on this side of life, just as I haven’t seen him on earth, but the universal force is there. It keeps me alive. I don’t eat. My nourishment is the universal power, that obviously keeps everything alive, also the evil ones, but it doesn’t unfold until we show charity. - Is this positive force God? Thought is matter. We knew this whilst living on earth, since we had seen how telepathy worked. In religion, prayer is an important part of the message. To me, prayer means a thought I send through the positive force that we all belong

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to. I have chosen to call this force God or Father in heaven. If I send my thoughts to an individual in distress, I see that this helps. Asking for more material wealth doesn’t achieve anything. The thoughts that influence us are charitable thoughts. I send a message to David, and ask him if we can get together. I want his opinion about various questions. Soon he arrives, and we sit down in the garden. Sarah is still reading the book she started, but joins us in the garden. - Hello, David! How are you? She asks. David gives her a hug. - For a person who has been dead for a hundred years, I feel fine! He says and laughs. We have been here a few years now. Not that we care about time or count the years, but in an earthly perspective a few years have passed. I look at David and ask: - Have you heard about reincarnation? Have you ever experienced anyone on earth who was reincarnated? - Yes, I have, he answers. - I must say that I don’t want to return to earth, I say. - Me neither, Sarah says smiling. - Reincarnation is a blessing, David says. - These people want to return in a physical shape in order to carry out something they had planned, but never had accomplished. From here their

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plans were clear, but they are often blinded by the material life, and cannot remember what they planned. Some never had children, and sincerely wish to have their own families. Others want to escape from the hell they created for themselves on this side of life, that was caused by their behavior on earth. There are many reasons for people here to want a new life on earth, but the decision is not theirs to make, neither is it their decision when it might happen. In the same way you don’t know when death on earth is going to happen. - You choose your own parents, and thereby you know which environment you are going to grow up in. You bring your intuition along, which is where your plans for the future lie. However, whether or not you use your intuition is up to you. You have free will. - But have you seen any cases of reincarnation yourself? I know there are people here who are more than a hundred years old, some more than a thousand years, but I haven’t seen anything like it, Sarah wonders. - I have been here longer than you, so I know a few who have been given this opportunity, he says.

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- Sarah, you mustn’t do anything like that! Whom should I live with if you do? I say jokingly. - Oh no, you won’t get rid of me that easily, she says and lifts her head as if the idea is completely out of the question. Then she smiles. David receives a message. - I have to go. We’ll talk later, he says. Then he is gone. I lay down in our bed of flowers. The scent and the melody from the flowers make me find complete calm and peace with myself. All this time Sarah has visited our children on earth, and is keeping up to date with what is happening there at all times. In a way she has connected with our daughter Ina, so she can feel straight away if anything is upsetting her. She is always telling me that they are all fine. Sarah told me that little Pia, our granddaughter, fell down and hurt herself the other day, and was walking around with plasters on both her knees. Today she was at a friend’s birthday party. - Yes, indeed, we are keeping posted about every detail that’s happening on earth. I promise you that, I say smiling to myself.

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In many ways I feel that life here is very similar to life on earth. We work, enjoy our various hobbies, go on holidays, and visit our relatives here and on earth. We go to the beach, swim and read. People don’t just change overnight when they get here. When you die on earth, your personality and character is still identical to what you were like when you were alive. - We don’t have wars, hunger and suffering, I think, and why should it be any different on earth? What if the world’s population was conscious of life after death? What if they were conscious of the fact that the desire for power, greed and violence, as well as charity, had a recoil effect on this side? What if they were conscious of the fact that what you do unto others would bounce back? What if this message were a wellknown fact? Then wars, hunger and suffering on earth would be extinct. Imagine how it would be if this message could come across loud and clear! Political leaders have a great responsibility. Imagine that all the leaders of the world assembled at a meeting, and agree that they want to erase poverty and war from the face of the earth. A lot could have been achieved, if only the willpower existed, and one’s own interests were put aside. Even reaching an agreement about a global, envi-

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ronmental strategy in order to prevent a total environmental disaster seems difficult. I first learned about earthly séances and communication between the dead and the living on this side. What would life on earth be like if we had known the truth about life after death? Would we behave differently? Would my parents have brought me up in a different way? I’m not sure it would have made any difference during my childhood. Probably, there would still have been arguments, fighting and bullying during my upbringing. After all, we were brought up to believe that hell existed, which was soon forgotten. - Absolutely, I think. All the different personalities and characters had an impact. You liked some of them and disliked others, which influenced your own behavior. On second thought, I first started thinking about life when I was approaching my teens. But did this change the way I thought about my education or line of work? Probably not. But my desire to help others and show charity would certainly change. The biggest difference would be for the world’s society as a whole. Political leaders would think differently if they had only known. Why? The reason is that they would have felt responsible for everyone, not just the people within each border. Everyone has the same right

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to social welfare, the earth’s resources, protection, and last but not least; everyone has the same, intrinsic value as well as equal rights. Shortly after my arrival here, I confronted myself because I felt the need to do so. At times this was difficult, since I could clearly see my improper statements and actions; down to the last detail. Everything was crystal clear. It hurt to face up to the incidents that I had displaced, which were caused by vanity. Perhaps you would question if this was worth the trouble? Yes it is. If you hurt someone and are conscious of it, you must be confronted with it again on this side, should you not have faced up to it before. “Judge yourself before you judge others”. It is important to remember this doctrine. Whilst living on earth, I heard that life would pass by as a review in front of my eyes on the other side. This was in connection with stories told by people who had experienced near death episodes. Well, this didn’t actually happen, since the incidents with various wrongdoings were the first to appear. I recommend that everybody set their record straight before they arrive here on the other side. It will make the transition easier. In order to make up for your wrongdoings, you could start by showing charity - helping others. In time your

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actions will outweigh your offences. This is how it is. My diary reminds me about the séance. - Sarah, are you ready to leave? I ask. - We need to be there in time, I tell her. I know that Ina is going to participate, so it will be quite exciting. Sarah had inspired her to contact this home circle group that we were working with. Both of them had watched these paranormal television series before Sarah died. One of their favorite programs was the program Life amongst the dead, with the clairvoyant Lisa Williams. Ina had read a lot about life thereafter when Sarah was deceased. That was the reason why Sarah was able to convey information and create interest for séances and materialization. There are different types of medium on earth. Some claim that they are able to see and hear people on the other side. Many of them are reliable, others are certainly unreliable. My sense of what is the most plausible evidence for life thereafter, is the materialization that took place about two thousand years ago. This is something you can touch and feel, and see with your own eyes if the right conditions exist during a séance. Sarah and I are currently engaged in a group that meets every week with the aim of developing

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conditions for séances for a group on earth. We are making progress, but it takes time to find the correct frequency and energy mixture. The fact is that when we draw ectoplasm from a medium in preparation for materialization, we mix our energy with that of the plasma. The plasma acts like a magnet when we approach it, but the vibrations must also be right. If the séance is too emotional, i.e. by materialization of a close relative, the energy changes, and the person in question must let go of the plasma. It’s not easy, but we are doing everything we can on this side to maintain the energy. An untold number of people gather during séances on this side of life, not to mention the relatives of those who are attending séances on earth. Love between the relatives and the participants generate a considerable increase in energy. In these types of séances, there might be people who want to destroy the conditions. They are still the same people they were on earth. They are destructive, however, are unable to penetrate when the dominant features amongst the participants consist of love and harmony. If you are participating at a séance just for the fun of it, and there is no harmony in the group, nothing will probably happen, since there is no interest on our part to contribute in a positive manner. However, this allows for destructive forces to enter the scene. So you must know what

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you want and what you are doing before you establish or participate in a séance circle. -Yes, I’ll be there, Sarah says. She is on her way down the stairs. She takes my hand, and all of a sudden we are standing in the séance room on earth. Several people from our group have arrived. We go down to the ground floor. The circle leader and the medium inform the participants. I can see that Ina is excited. We can all read the aura and know each individual’s character quite well. The circle leader is now holding a briefing. I am looking at Sarah and our other friends. - It looks good, I think. They nod. The participants have a decisive impact on the outcome of the séance, i.e. to communicate and materialize. In our group from the other side we have a so-called doorman. He comes from the sphere above us, and is in control through the participants. In the circle, he draws energy from each and every one of them. With this collective force he can shut out the undesirables at the séance. As mentioned earlier, these are destructive forces. They can readily watch and learn, but they will not be given the opportunity to communicate, unless they get permission from the doorman or us. Also, they are not able to hold on to the energy, and need assistance should we choose to give them permission. In that case,

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there would have to be a special reason for giving such permission. We hear the circle leader on earth tell the new participants that when the lights go out, everyone must sit still and hold each others hands. - In that way we know everyone is in place. The living energy will flow through the room. Sudden movements or sudden light might harm the medium, since the plasma is alive and is directly drawn from the medium. Cell phones, keys or other loose items must be left behind. It gets very hot inside the room, so dress lightly, he says. The participants go to the sĂŠance room on the second floor, and sit down. Ina is sitting next to the medium. - That is good for her, I think. She communicates some very good energy. The lights go out and the sĂŠance starts. The circle leader starts with a prayer about protection, and we sing a hymn. This stimulates and increases the vibrations in the room. Sarah is talking to Ina via a direct voice box made of ectoplasm and energy from this side of life. Several people from our side are doctors, who know the organs of speech in detail, and are shaping them by means of the plasma. The circle leader tells Ina not to get too emotional, but speak in a normal manner. This is not easy. I can tell by looking at her aura that she is much moved. - It is

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mummy, Sarah says. At first it is difficult to hear her voice. She repeats: - It is mummy. Hello mummy, it is nice to hear from you, Ina says. - Dad is here as well, Sarah says. We are fine. I am keeping an eye on you. The dress you wore the other day suits you very well, Sarah says. Now Ina knows it is mummy, how else could she know about the dress? - You have to watch out for little Pia, so she doesn’t fall! She has had enough band-aids on her knees. Ina cannot hold back her tears. She is talking to her dead mother. - I love you and daddy so much, she says. - We love you so much too, Sarah says. The voice disappears. The emotions got out of control, and Sarah could not hold on to the energy. - It was very nice, I tell Sarah. Her eyes were filled with tears. Little by little we managed to build up the energy again. One of the participants was a woman in her thirties, who had lost her partner one year ago, exactly. He was standing there with other people on our side, ready to communicate if he was called upon. The woman’s mother was also there. The mother asked if her daughter, Linn, could communicate with her partner on the other side. - What’s his name? - Anders, she answers. - Let’s see if we can find him, I say. At the sé-

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ance you should ask on behalf of others, not on you own behalf. There is a slight pause, and then a meek answer comes: - Linn, it is me, he says. - I am sitting here, she says. - Yes, I can see you, Anders says. - How are you? She asks with a trembling voice. - I am fine, but I miss you very much, he says. - Oh, I miss you too, she says almost crying. - I died straight away. It didn’t hurt, he says. - That is good to hear, she says. I love you, and will always love you, but I want you to get on with your life and be happy, he says. Feel free to find a new partner. If you are happy, I am happy, I love you no matter what happens, he says. - Oh, how I love you, she says. At this point the emotions overcome her, and what he says becomes indistinct and he vanishes. - Anders died in a car accident, Linn’s mother says. He died momentarily. Linn was still crying, and tried to pull herself together. We could see that there was enough plasma to achieve a partial or perhaps complete materialization. One of our friends, who was experienced, managed to materialize and walk about the room. He put his hand on some of the participants, also on Ina. I saw how she lit up. We could see each individual’s aura and vibration in the dark. The room doesn’t look lit up to us, either, but the living vibration from each par-

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ticipant generates light. Also, we create our own light, which contributes to us being able to see and touch the circle participants. Ina went home and told about the séance and the contact with her mother. Those nearest to her were fascinated, while others were skeptical. Sarah watched her closely the next few days. - Ina is a little upset; Sarah says when people look at her in a strange way when she tells them about the séance. - Yes, it is not easy. We know, but some people start thinking. That’s why telling others is of use. - We have observed this earlier, I say. My sister Celine, who grew up on this side, often visits us. She is well-informed. - The earth is a good place to learn, but there can be many obstacles. However, it is by overcoming difficulties that you develop as a person, she says. I had to learn in other ways, like for instance by keeping track of what was happening on earth. Not to mention how I have been watching you and mother, she says. What human beings have difficulty understanding while living on earth, is the fact that they are souls with an ethereal body covered by a physical body. The physical body deteriorates and dies, but the ethereal body lives on. Your personality, memory and character from your earthly life are kept there.

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The soul and ethereal body that you keep inside yourself that surrounds you, is a seed corn, which starts to grow spiritually when you show charity and help your brothers and sisters on earth. Many people on earth look up to people who have fame and fortune. These things have no value on this side. Here, the beauty you managed to build up inside yourself is what counts and gives you advantages. Celine has become an important person in my life on this side. Her company brings about energy in all of us. If you imagine people you can trust, that you know want only what’s best for you, who support you all the time and cannot do enough good for you; well then you might imagine the type of energy that is represented in Celine. Everyone appreciates her immensely. I have just returned from a walk with my father and his dog. Sarah is at home. - How was your walk? She asks. - Very nice, I reply. - We went up to the mountains that are situated outside the city. We saw farms with cattle and horses. The horses were magnificent, and had a shining appearance you cannot observe on earth. Some were black, brown and white, some had the same color and others had different shades of color. We met a couple who heard us talking, as we

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were standing by the fence on one of the farms. They told us we could easily borrow some horses, and that they were great fun to ride. - I have never been on horseback before, Sarah says. I knew that, so I asked her if that was a problem. Luckily it wasn’t. The horses know how to behave, since they can interpret you in a way. - Can we take the same walk together, Sarah? I ask. - We saw yellow plains covered with sunflowers. It was fantastic. The colors are extremely bright. It does the world of good for your soul, I say. We walked past a lake inside the valley and started climbing from there. It seemed easy to walk. There was no heavy breathing, no frail legs or back trouble. The view on the top is breathtaking. There is scent from moss, cloudberries and birch trees. My sense of smell was really intensified up there. The dog looked happy as it stretched out. - He loves to go for walks, father says. The dog knows where he’s going. So we can bring him with us. Will you come? I ask, and would really like “yes” for an answer. - I guess I will come along, she says. - Wonderful! You will not regret it, I say. The family comes together at regular intervals, and more often than before. Or perhaps it was just that Sarah and I join them more often,

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now. My great-grandparents have lived on this side for more than a hundred years, but they are still common folks. The family gatherings here are not much different from the ones on earth. My great-grandparents live in the sphere above us, and stay in contact with the ones who have advanced. The future always interested me, and it still does. I have visited the sphere above us. In the beginning the light was an obstacle, but now Sarah and I would be able to move there. However, we are still waiting for our children, and want to stay where we are until they have joined us and settled in on this side. We really enjoy ourselves here in our home. We can choose who we want to be with, so nothing diminishes the joy of being in this sphere even though we could have advanced to another.

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Life goes on You have now read that life continues after death, and that you yourself are responsible for your own life. The story about Thomas and Sarah shows that life on the other side involves beauty beyond comprehension, and can be wonderful. Like most of us, Thomas and Sarah had lived decent lives, and then death inevitably becomes your friend. Let us take a closer look at the lives of Thomas and Sarah. I see myself lying on the floor in the living room. My body is lifeless. I walk towards it and touch it, but my hand goes straight through. - I must be dreaming, I think, not quite understanding what is happening. Sarah is now watching Ina and holds her in her arms, and the nurse says she wants to prepare the dead mother. - I am here, Ina, Sarah says, but Ina cannot hear her. When death happens, Thomas doesn’t understand that he is dead. He hadn’t given death much thought. He still believed that he was in a dream world. Sarah on the other hand was convinced that life goes on. She and her daughter Ina had watched paranormal programs on television,

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and knew what had happened to her. For Sarah, the transition was easier, since she had adjusted her thoughts about death before she died. There are many ways to die. The story about Thomas and Sarah is ideal. Accidents and death at an early age are difficult issues. In the event of big accidents, we form groups and help people who are feeling completely lost. Many of the people, who have been in an accident, do not know or understand that their physical bodies have died. They often run around without understanding that others cannot hear them. Some of them try to contact their families, to tell them what happened, and that they are still alive. Naturally, they are in despair. It is often very difficult to bring them with us to our own hospital, where they can rest and restore. There are others who do not experience this trauma, and wake up in peaceful surroundings on the other side. However, they get all the help they need. On the other side of life, some people have been assigned to assist others when accidents occur. In this way, casualties are being taken good care of. Family members on the other side go with them. So do their guides. They are not alone.

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Communication Communication on the other side takes place by means of telepathy, but in the beginning common speech is more usual. This is a slower process, telepathy happens fast, and since the transmission of thoughts is inherent on the other side, it becomes the preferred means of communication after a short while. My father is nodding, as if he could read my thoughts: - I know what you are thinking, Thomas, he says. This is how we communicate here, but I can see he is talking to me at the same time. - You will meet her there soon, Camilla tells me. She is standing next to me, reading my thoughts. Not knowing how long I had been lying there, I can see and hear Camilla, like in a multimedia message. This is how all communication takes place here. Gradually a tuner inside you will cumulate, and tune in to all the activities you wish to partake in. This tuner will register what goes on, and what your interests are. In this way you will completely control your activities, and what you are involved in. In the same way that a text message is sent on earth, we send a telepathic message.

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Thoughts create connection Perhaps you have had the feeling that someone is thinking about you. This probably happens to all of us at some point, and that feeling is very often accurate. Telepathy works on earth as well. I get the feeling that Eva, my granddaughter, is thinking about me. She seems upset. I focus on her, and momentarily I am standing in her apartment. She is crying. Mourning and joy People who love you, and who have crossed the border to the other side, are very close to you. The fact that you are mourning them is natural, but when you are certain that life continues, you don’t have to mourn any more. Rather, you should rejoice that they are close to you, and that when you think of your loved ones, they can hear you. They are mourning your demise, like you did when father and I died. - Yes, I know that, and it hurts not being able to tell them that I am fine, I say. - Yes, indeed, we are keeping posted about every detail that’s happening on earth. I promise you that, I say smiling to myself.

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Everyday life When you have adapted to your new life, you engage in many of the same activities you used to participate in on earth. Gradually, as you change and progress, you see new possibilities. Perhaps your economy prevented you from doing what you liked the most? On the other side of life, you have the possibility to do everything you didn’t have time to do earlier on; for whatever reason. In many ways I feel that life here is very similar to life on earth. We work, enjoy our various hobbies, go on holidays, and visit our relatives here and on earth. We go to the beach, swim and read. People don’t just change overnight when they get here. When you die on earth, your personality and character is still identical to what you were like when you were alive. A new world Some of us encounter an adventure on the other side, a sublime beauty and a new dimension, where e.g. flowers are cultivated by means of your thoughts. Collective thought energy can compose anything; even whole cities. Every single person’s vibration maintains whatever exists already. If, collectively, there is anything one wishes should not be there, it just disappears.

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It seems as if the flowers are alive. - Yes, if you take care of them, they will sing to you, Celine says, and laughs. - This is another life, Thomas, a lot like life on earth, yet it’s also very different, mother says. - Your father and I have been working a lot in our garden. We are thinking collectively about how we want things to be, and then things develop in that way. It seems like we are planting the flowers, but then it happens through our thoughts. Then it stays that way until we want things to change. However, some people encounter a really sad world. A world they have created themselves, by their behavior on earth. The streets are not covered with grass here. There is gravel and dirt around us. The houses are degenerate, but this varies. Some houses are better than others. I can see people who are surrounded by a grayish shadow or aura, compared to the sphere we come from, where people have a bright radiation. - Don’t they get any help? I ask. - Yes, the people from the upper spheres try to help them, but there is free will, so it isn’t possible to force them to do anything. They have to want to move on, but it isn’t easy. Some continue along the same track,

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others are ashamed and feel that everything is hopeless. The thoughts and images from there offences torture them. We continue walking into the city. It looks better here. Religion It is up to each single person what they want to believe in. As long as it motivates you to help others, and as long as it develops the good things inside you, it is right for you. - However, our Father in heaven, our God is alive, he says. - Yes, but who is God? I ask. We all have God inside us, he says, and continues; - The way I view it, God is the positive force that runs through all living beings. Charity is what gives us progression on this side, and it also gives us the possibility to advance to new spheres. God is the force that gives us progression. - And unto dust you must return, says the vicar whilst sprinkling a spoonful of earth on the coffin. - Rise again, I say, - but I am more alive now than I have ever been. The force inside us increases with charity, and diminishes when egoism dominates. This is a fact, since I experience it every day in my work. I

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have not seen God on this side of life, just as I haven’t seen him on earth, but the universal force is there. It keeps me alive. I don’t eat. My nourishment is the universal power, that obviously keeps everything alive, also the evil ones, but it doesn’t unfold until we show charity. - Is this positive force God? Thought is matter. We knew this whilst living on earth, since we had seen how telepathy worked. In religion, prayer is an important part of the message. To me, prayer means a thought I send through the positive force that we all belong to. I have chosen to call this force God or Father in heaven. If I send my thoughts to an individual in distress, I see that this helps. Asking for more material wealth doesn’t achieve anything. The thoughts that influence us are charitable thoughts. Marriage and partners Marriage belongs to the earth. Those who want to live together do it on the other side of life as well. - How is Eva, your wife? I ask. - Oh, she is fine. We don’t live together any more, but are still good friends. I enjoy living by myself, and don’t have any plans of marrying again, he says laugh-

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ing. - We don’t get married on this side of life. Those who want to live together do so. Children It hurts to lose small children. However, children grow up on the other side in much the same way as on earth. They go to day-care centres, attend school, play and go for walks. Of course it is different from earth, but the main activities are the same. If children aren’t taken care of on earth, they will be here. The superior aspects here are care and love. -You must meet Celine. She is your sister. She died just after she was born, and grew up with her grandmother. We can see children playing on the lawn. Some of them are playing football, and others are in a playground. I think: - Children. What are the circumstances for children here, Camilla? She answers: - The children who died are taken care of by the family, or others who are more than happy to assist with the children. - Are they like adoption parents? I ask. Home There is something strange about receiving a house on the other side. People from the other

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side tell us that we get what we deserve. Have you been service minded and helped others in any way you could? In that case, someone on the other side is looking forward to helping you. In any case, you cannot buy a house. There isn’t anything to buy with. However, you can work your way up by contributing, helping and serving. This generates progression. As they say on the other side, tidy up your home before you get here, so that you can build a nice home. At the same time I am standing in the living room of my old house. What I mean is, it’s no longer old, it’s magnificent. The old furniture I had planned to throw away is completely new. As I look at the sea and the mountains in the horizon, the view is overwhelming. - Your life on earth has made you worthy of this, they tell me. - If you had lived a selfish life with no charity, you wouldn’t have been able to take care of the house. It would have dissolved. City life and society Choose a city, take away all the negative elements, and place it in a park surrounded by trees in full bloom, green areas, ponds with birds, and a variety of different flower decorations; then you see the outline of a city as it might exist on the other side. There are no means of transportation

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here. The architecture is such that the entire city and its layout are in harmony. There are open amphitheatres with room for thousands of people. Public authorities do not exist. Everything seems to regulate itself. However, should you have any questions or need assistance; there are people who are more than willing to help you. The whole city is blooming, with beautiful gateways decorated with flowers and parks. - It’s a fairytale, she says. Soon you shall see. - There are the library and the university, she says, whilst pointing at several buildings. - Let’s go inside. I think this is difficult to describe. However, the hall is formidable. Larger than the St Peter’s Church in Rome, with magnificent decorations. There are a lot of people here. - Here in this city there are several million people, and in this part of the sphere there are countless cities like this one. If we can use an analogy to earth, we could say that we have continents. You can visit places where you can find traditions and cultures that belong to cultures you are accustomed to on earth - Egypt, China, Hawaii … yes, you can find everything here.

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- Some people choose to live in the cities, whilst others prefer to live in the outskirts or a long way from the cities. - Imagine that life here is the same as on earth, and remove all the negative things, i.e. what you didn’t like, then you are close to reality. Since we can relocate by using our thoughts as we wish, we don’t need trains, buses or pollutive means of communication. However, there are means of transportation where people can travel collectively to different places. In a similar way, the mechanical elements like factories, power plants and the like are also gone. Sarah regularly went to an office in the city that kept a record of the work tasks for people here, as well as for those who wanted to work with tasks on earth. She had always impressed me with her eagerness to help others who experienced difficulties. This urge seemed to increase on this side, since she now could devote all her time to the things she loved the most. Animal life The animals survive. You can find pets like dogs and cats along with their owners on earth that is if they were treated well by their owners. The

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animals’ abilities are sharpened, and they live in harmony with the humans. A sweet smell wakes me up. I must have fallen asleep. I am lying on a soft bed of flowers. I smell their sweet fragrance, and get up halfway in a sitting position. At the same time something from behind takes me by surprise. It’s the dog we owned when I was a kid. He licks my face and wags its tail. He recognizes me. - We went up to the mountains that are situated outside the city. We saw farms with cattle and horses. The horses were magnificent, and had a shining appearance you cannot observe on earth. Some were black, brown and white, some had the same color and others had different shades of color. We met a couple who heard us talking, as we were standing by the fence on one of the farms. They told us we could easily borrow some horses, and that they were great fun to ride. Nourishment There is no need to eat anything on the other side. Your ethereal body doesn’t have the same consistency as your physical body, but at the same time it is firm and solid. Your thoughts express your body and your looks.

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Mother has prepared a table covered with fruits, like I have never seen before. Father welcomes everybody, and I am thinking that this is just the way it was on earth. - Help yourselves, mother says. I had heard we could cultivate exotic fruits here that taste wonderful. I had to try some, and I picked what looked like a kiwi, and it tasted incredibly good. - No, we don’t eat anything on this side of life, she says. It isn’t necessary. We don’t need food. It is only your thoughts that demand food. The energy comes to you automatically. I went passed the mirror again, and it seems like I was in my thirties. I was completely taken aback by this. Sex On the other side you have a perfect body, and whoever wants to have sexual relations can do so. However, the spiritual experience has its own worth and satisfaction that by far outweighs the sexual one. Believe me when I tell you, that the spiritual experience by far surpasses the sexual satisfaction in our world.

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Music Music is an important quality of life on the other side. They have the same music as us, as well as the music we are not capable of hearing. If music doesn’t reach in to your soul on earth, it will there. We have all types of instruments. Composers still compose. If you ever wanted to learn to play an instrument, it’s possible to do so. Thoughts create music. - You just think about the melody of your choice, then you will receive the one you like the best. All the music on earth and on this side is available. All you have to do is tune in, she says. Clothes You take your wardrobe with you. Clothes are shaped by thought and the ethereal substance. You own the clothes that are foremost in your thoughts. You adapt to you surroundings. The garments are shaped by your thoughts. You can also get assistance from a tailor. I notice that David is wearing a white coat, and surprisingly enough; so am I! We stroll through the grass. White flowers are scattered about and swaying in the breeze coming from the ocean.

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She is wearing a white summer dress that I can remember from our youth. - It was lying on the bed, Thomas, she says. I can tell by looking at her that she doesn’t know how. Transportation By means of your willpower and thoughts, you can move about from place to place, no matter how far you go. There exists no time or space, only vibrations. Think where you want to be, and you will be there. I focus my thought on being with Sarah. Before I know it, I am in the hospital and in Sarah’s room. - Now let us think that we’re at the pyramids, she says. As I do what she tells me, I find that we are next to the pyramids at the same time. We are actually here. It is sunny, and the sky is blue. It must be afternoon, since the sun is setting. I hold her hand. - Shall we walk to the top? I ask. At the same time we are standing at the top of the pyramid. The view is magnificent. - There, you see, she says. It’s that easy, then she laughs. Work There are probably just as many different jobs on the other side as there are here. The jobs might vary somewhat, since the substance differs. The

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material life has ended on earth. Single and collective thought energy will shape the substance that you will be working with. These engineers still worked with various environments on earth. Engineers that perhaps had not quite finished what they had started. They inspired others who could carry out their work. As an example, Thomas Edison was still working as a scientist, and contributed to various projects. This didn’t surprise me, but it would have if I still was on earth. Then I would probably have told him that we can dream on. Architects and construction workers were still building houses. -Who built our house? I thought. One thing is certain, things are built differently here compared to on earth, since machines don’t exist here. - Gardeners who love their work, and who give to those who deserve it. They enjoy helping and working. - I was going to ask you if you would like to participate in my circle at the university. This circle is my responsibility, and we are working with people who need help on this side. These people are struggling to come to grips with their offenses on earth.

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Inspiration All the adults have their own guide or guides. They do their best to inspire you, so you can do your very best. If they succeed, it gives them happiness and progression on the other side. - They have been your guides through your life, Thomas. - They have followed you, and tried to inspire you to handle your life in the best way possible. - All of us have had guides who follow us through life, he says. I am still working with John and David. They are very good friends. I believe that guides are attracted to the same type of person, since our personality is very similar. Spheres - your place on the other side Depending on your spiritual development, or put differently, how you lived your life on earth, you will find your place on the other side. You have a free will, but you cannot reach higher spheres than the ones you are in harmony and balance with; and their required achievements. The vibrations increase next to spiritual development, so in time you shall wish to be there on a permanent basis, until you are ready to advance to the next sphere. I am spending time in this

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sphere myself, and can take you with me on a shorter trip, but you will prefer to come back here, since you are in harmony with the surroundings, he says. To take one’s own life is wrong One thing is certain, there are people standing by ready to assist those who have ended their lives. However, if they could have been conscious of what they had done, and the consequences it caused, they would not have ended their earthly lives. It creates more suffering for themselves on the other side, as well as for the bereaved on earth. Taking ones life is completely wrong. It doesn’t solve anything. On the contrary, it creates more problems for you. I accompanied John to several sessions involving similar cases of suicide, where the common consensus was that everyone we talked to regretted having taken their own lives, and wouldn’t have wanted it to happen. They told us it just created even more misery. Reincarnation Rebirth on earth. Does it sound tempting? Some people find it necessary to progress on the other

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side. Others see it as a vocation, in order to fulfill a task. We are larger than what meets the eye. We are diamonds that need to be polished at all angles before they are perfect. What we see is just the tip of an iceberg. - Reincarnation is a blessing, David says. - These people want to return in a physical shape in order to carry out something they had planned, but never had accomplished. From here their plans were clear, but they are often blinded by the material life, and cannot remember what they planned. Some never had children, and sincerely wish to have their own families. Others want to escape from the hell they created for themselves on this side of life, that was caused by their behavior on earth. There are many reasons for people here to want a new life on earth, but the decision is not theirs to make, neither is it their decision when it might happen. In the same way you don’t know when death on earth is going to happen. - You choose your own parents, and thereby you know which environment you are going to grow up in. You bring your intuition along, which is where your plans for the future lie. However, whether or not you use your intuition is up to you. You have free will.

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- But have you seen any cases of reincarnation yourself? I know there are people here who are more than a hundred years old, some more than a thousand years, but I haven’t seen anything like it, Sarah wonders. - I have been here longer than you, so I know a few who have been given this opportunity, he says. Contact with the living dead Communicating with our loved ones and people on the other side is possible, and also one of nature’s laws. It is a fact that when conditions are based on mutual love, the dead are able to materialize. However, this is rejected by many people, since religious history interprets this phenomenon as being somewhat divine. Ina went home and told about the séance and the contact with her mother. Those nearest to her were fascinated, while others were skeptical. Sarah watched her closely the next few days. - Ina is a little upset; Sarah says when people look at her in a strange way when she tells them about the séance. - Yes, it is not easy. We know, but some people start thinking. That’s why telling

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others is of use. - We have observed this earlier, I say. Finding happiness - the good life Most of us have been capable of experiencing happiness at varying moments; e.g. love at first sight, experiencing summer at its very best, or when your loved ones say they love you. - But does this create a lasting joy? Have you ever experienced what it feels like to do a good deed? You have probably done many good deeds. Try and feel what it’s like. It brings about something good inside you, something enduring. If you try and make a habit of it, it becomes a good place to be. A place no one can deprive you of. No one. Ever. It is your happiness. It becomes a frame that surrounds your good life. On the other side you will se an aura, an ethereal image of yourself. Position, wealth and power on earth mean nothing. Whatever you managed to bring about inside yourself by doing good, showing charity, consideration and justice towards your neighbor, will be decisive when it comes to your self-image on the other side. - Do unto others, what you want them to do unto you. It’s that easy. Think about all the people who yearn for the good life, or the well-known state of pleasure, by

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seeking material wealth. They buy everything their hearts desire, but do they find happiness? - No, after a while they are still just as sad as before. There is only one joy. You will find it by helping or pleasing someone else. That is the only true joy, but only few people understand it. The ones who discovered this fact too late on earth, are crying on this side.

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