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As The Rest Come To My Heartt

Joannes Rhino


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4/4/2011

ISBN: 978-1-4567-7747-0 (sc) ISBN: 978-1-4567-7748-7 (e)

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Contents The Immortal

1

A Dreadful Note

2

Words of the Beast

3

The Rest of an Angel

4

A Vow

5

Season of Fears

6

Story of a Vampire

7

Ages

8

Hollow

9

Holy Vows of Heaven

10

The Cursed Thoughts

11

The Moment of Eternity

12

Prince of Darkness

13

Voices of the Devil

14

One Moment in Time Tim T

15

Until The Su Sun un Arise A Ar

16

Restless Soul oul

17

The Beasts

18

Deep Hollow

19

The Cause

20

Hideous Thoughts

21

The Emperor

22

I Grief When I Rest

23

The Fear

24

The Second Fall

25

Repentance

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One Horrible Sleep

27

Passionate Love

28

The Lady

29

One Harsh Dream

30

The Kingdom of Thoughts

31

Love Thee

32

Friendship

33

The Brightest Day

34

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The Immortal He came into my sleep, strangled fear Lifted me up as I fell With all the sins felt so weird Then I damned in hell I opened my eyes, hoping would fade out But I was lying in the coffin Feeding in the darkness, living into rots Somehow he wins again As I walk in the shadows of the de death ea I realize this is the fate that I h hate And from this time forth, h, I will never speak word d I please my maker w with my thirst Live in memories mo ories es now n no he I trust It become worthwhile to rise again ort But always feels the same Days, months, years....journey Just a cold dark land in eternity No one can stop this game I‛ve become one of them

1


A Dreadful Note When the lights go down I put a candle up to the crown Teach me stories about the unknown Hoping to die and never born So I lay below my bed It is so dark, sure I‛m glad To feel a warm inside the path I know I may not be dead A voice....hanging in my mind, standing and din here The same voice that I cannot bear not bea Told me a secret in which I‛ll hI ‛ll share s For they who I care Let the time e stand sstill Let they come, come near om me, com Let the joy br breaks chill And let this soul kill tears

2


Words of the Beast If words are made of breath And it mourned to live after death Now I have no life to breathe Shall I wait until the day I rebirth? I must fear, Though no one else near And break my heart like a pitiful song For I must hold my tongue It hurts and gross in calamity show how w Is there not rain enough to wash wa ash it as white as snow? Like a windy imagination as it flow Force to wore the trapping pping suits of woe My words fly up within hopes p wit with My thoughts remain tss rema ema below Words without out thoughts, Will never get to heaven go My fate cries out and roars To die‌to sleep‌no more Our thoughts are ours Their end, none of our own

3


The Rest of an Angel I saw a guilty man is sitting at the play With scorns and pangs he was going his way Puzzles the will, forced him to say: “Please let her stay� His thoughts and fates do contrary run, Still the soul is overthrown Tormenting flames over his broken arm Must he render down to the ground? Was it not the dread of something after death, ing ga Or a weary life beyond outrageous trage eou death? Draw his breath in the p pain ain o of love But never has he doubted her love bted h The rest is silence, and cracks his heart ilence a Good night al all violence, and be apart ll viole For heaven wil will speak to her with grace And greet her in the final rest

4


A Vow Once upon a midnight dreary When I was crawling weak and weary Death came with friendly care And banded blossom there As it could bind a scar to a sorrow fade Confess above, for heaven can wait Arise beautiful moon haunted fate But “have no life to breathe”, they said aid d Day by day within‛ fears Not a day without my dearr tea tears ars And brings the wound from om my m hands both To worship the dread in my thought All great truth uth th begin beg to show For they who o lives ves in woe But I have a p promise to keep, And miles to go before I sleep

5


Season of Fears I took my life of the wound Dragged my hands in a harsh moon Still I stood on top of dune My fears in the last of June Is it a blood unfold in suits of solemn black, Or a windy passion on forced breath? Life is as precious as its feel But had it not be real The night brought this beast into my to m y daylight With all their blackest sins bind me tight ns bin nd m As written in a book of fict ction ion I live in the dream of passion pass Here, I will lay ay y all my m fears Here, where death come oh dear re the e de So my death w written in their list, And all my fears for their please

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Story of a Vampire The beast has grown stronger I could never oppose the anger To suffer like no man before Reborn in very rots, and more All the times He came to despised And my divinity becomes the past It was my last sunset on this earth Covered a sin of mirth I have walked the earth for centuries turrie Veiled my eyes from sun arise Believe in me for I shall live e until un eternity Blood of my flesh and my in insanity This is the damnatio damnation of my fear amnat The curse w which I‛m bound to hear hich h I‛ And tears The Lord cries for my sin he L But this is not mine to end

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Ages Look, and know me in this horrid age When I‛m drunk, asleep, or in my rage Speak to the unknowing world For how this thing came about So I scream for my desire Let this age set me on fire Let the heat tie me on wire For I never be again a liar Then I looked up; my time is pastt All saw books are in the past ast So I keep my mind saved in m mirth mir And remote all pangs of th the world

8


Hollow There are times when I don‛t belong And kill myself by this profaned tongue There‛s no doubt I had waited too long, For the sound of the death song I road a few walks away from my dream And worst, I never realize my scream It won‛t be easy to regret it But what‛s the point of it? I lost the idea of happiness And full of dear guiltinesss In this world of life meaningless, ning gles Will I find mirth in this is quietness? qu Oh....celestial all wind wind, Can you make winter far behind, ake e the he w And change the th sickest moon with a sun? For none of us can

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Holy Vows of Heaven Oh‌gracious God and celestial signs, All the fears will be thine; For I know not how far have I profaned The heavenly gift of pain My deeds may not be enough for You Like what the ghost told me was true Breathe like sanctify and pious raven Just to convince the heaven Must have some proof over the aut authenticity th For what the ghost spoken n to tthe society I will sit in winds against my y fate, fa And follow the wounded of hate ed chance ch I shall kill myself yself o on the spot And proclaim to the plot im m my y reasons re For the spectators to see, tat A chance they will believe me

10


The Cursed Thoughts Come, you spirits that blend on mortal thoughts! Fill me from the crown to the toe full of rots Make thick my blood; stop up the access to remorse Take my soul to shake my fell purpose And pity, like a naked child Striding the blast from heaven‛s sight Release me here in which I might For the thoughts gives way to in tight ht Or have I eaten on the insane root? oott? Though my bark lost in the evil wood e evi il w Away! And mock the time with e wit ith fairest show False face must hide what the false heart do not know Noble prince e must not n be known No less to ha have done so much sound ave e do Impedes me fr from the golden round But if I grow, the harvest in my own

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The Moment of Eternity Drug…. It is where the soul do bark When the ghosts do speak and left a mark Or is it a season of fear; When my fellow eyes full of tears, And my dreadful sin full of dear? But don‛t go my drunk and drunken friend! d! This is not yet to end I will clean all blood from this hand,, And breathe as a man Just lend me all nights to spen spend nd Oh….by Heaven, it must not e end. end

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Prince of Darkness What man of I does praise the night? Even when the sun arises, I see no light The owls never stops singing And so the morn starts killing But stay here my fellow friend And private in this chamber pen Shuts up the daylights out And creates a kingdom of thought Young light‌.is not daylight; The darkness is my light Therefore I must not mourn ou n This is not to be gone

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Voices of the Devil O....he came over my brain, Visit my thoughts and left me pains And my bloods infected by voices he spoke For those voices that have me mocked Whip me, devil, from this heavenly sight Blow me in winds of night Wash me in the flame of liquid fire Roast me in sulfur, and take me higher! er!! O....should I put a Saviour in my thoughts, tho ou To steal and pluck away hiss mo mouth? outh But if I know not my wish, h, Should I transform myself yself into a beast?

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One Moment in Time Strange! This strange virtue of loneliness Brings wound to my sadness; And my restless soul Broken through my goals So I sit between two voices; For those voices makes two faces They are rule, not cruel Thus, instead of being guilty, I force my brain not to be filthy y

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Until The Sun Arise Hollow! This is where my soul shall follow When my only joy is my sorrow And my pleasure won‛t be here tomorrow If the blackest rainbow come, I will please with such calm Let my bark climb high the toppest hill And never fall to the fountain of my will But soul....the sun still far at hands That this chamber will seem never en ends nds

16


Restless Soul O Lord‌ Haven‛t I done enough? Does not her blood in heaven satisfy your thirst? Or is it my Lady is my only curse? But my dagger itself wounded her beauty, And scar the exquisite love of my memory It is not flesh that I ashamed, But the thoughts that I blamed Should I envy of what I cannot have, And cut the tongue that spoke so bra brave? ave Or should I kill my own soul thatt T The Lord has gave? If it is now to die, There is a fear that heave heaven would cry If yet I must die, All bloods would me up high ould carry car ca But Lord, speak spe eak k to me why!

17


The Beasts Sinful beasts! They all stole my east Hiding the sun to a long night kiss Fear my eyes with the darkest mist But not for their own wishes Just for mine, to give me peace And burn me if I did such a wrong For the whole world that have spoke no tongue ong ngue I will fetch my lust from my demerit And yell so proud for all my deeds But O spares my life Beast! t! Give my soul such a bliss That every tempest shall die in peace hall d And for the curse rse whip hip against my wish But his passions owned my death sions ons own ow Nor his cough scars my breath ugh h scar Thus I say to o tthe h whole world: “These thoughts contained all sins In fold with gild of pains And rage in my brain�

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Deep Hollow Be charm deep hollow Cause I hate you more than my own sorrow Show your wisdom of rage To my thoughts that will never grow age But be wise o my tongue For I shall stand and sing along I will speak for my heart And have mercy for all the bloods But o deep hollow I greet your hollow Let my hates become my pleasures y ple easu Let the pleasures whip away my pressures p awa

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The Cause O did the devil catch my soul and hurl it away? Still I do love my soul and shall not follow his way But look there, all my fun is lost Even tears are singing no chorus Arise black evil from my hollow cell Yield up o my crown, and hard it thrown to hell Thus cry o my soul, cry and cry Show no cause without why I die Cause it is not words that shake me thus hu us It is the thoughts that shake my lust ustt

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Hideous Thoughts O hideous, hideous thoughts I shall not proud Their words have fooled my eyes And make my world is such a great vice But my soul will not obey this heart For this heart is full of bloods Who can minister to a mind diseased, And raze out all sins of their own demerit? me erit? ? But look, what kind of sins smile in my thought? t Are night candles burned out? And yet dark night pulls the he trigger trrigg Is it just the night‛s anger? ger? ?

21


The Emperor O I am such an unfortunate creature How poor am I not seeing the future? These eyes must be feed with passion To make fat my imagination Be thus; let my crown build my empire Let it shall not be drawn by liquid fire Let me command my army To battle against the evil enemy But if I must die, Not a tear shall make me cry I will kiss my enemy so sweet eet Then command my army not to weep And if I die still So that is the Lord‛s will or s wil I will honor His words word one way to another wor And love Him ever after im m still till here h

22


I Grief When I Rest There are words I may not speak There are thoughts make this strong heart weak There are things I dare not confess And all….I grief when I rest There is a mist before my eyes There is a fate that cannot be wise There is a knife smiling in my chest And all….I grief when I rest Then I wake up and say, “Bring g on!”” For the pains that smile in early morn n the e ea For the crown made of a bur burning urnin hell For anything of nothing ng that th I shall not tell Yet still there dreams that never die ere re are d Nor fears that wonder why th hat I w But like the su sun lay down in the yonder west All I grief when I rest

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The Fear My mirth has ended Now the sins are tempted Live free or be dead Of a harsh life in the dread Here I will garner up my heart Where either I must live or bear a blood My thoughts speak like pitiful cries But the night hides them from my own eyes wn e ye O where are the daggers in my hand? y han nd Where are those masks to pretend? o pre eten As the fears blooming in my core, y heart‛s he A new chapter begins on a strange shore So I doubt the he sun will w rise tomorrow I doubt this is heart art will never feel other sorrow I doubt these e eyes will never shed tears And never have I doubted I fear

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The Second Fall There, the tree of life is blooming, Where the roses never fades Hoping the sun won‛t stop shining But the whole plan changes shape In the same Lord I do repent Knows heaven pleased until it ends Draw a picture with such large discourse For I never know my course I see the heaven cries by my actt Threaten my own soul, strangle my neck rangle em Therefore, forgive for my second fall seco se By heaven, I shall atone for all ne fo The graceful ul world iis far out join And the curse within the pain ursse resides resi With the ills tthat h deplores to set them burn But what form of prayer can serve me turn?

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Repentance The darkness veiled the death valley Without love, faith, nor felicity Got nowhere to placed my loyalties Breaking me down like a disease So I speak to The Lord, full of grace For I must not hide my face My lips owe Him the door to bestowed To not let me die in this fairy tale of f wo woe But still this scar never left the wound wo ou Shall I be gone far more and m more soon? mor Farewell my everlasting brea breath eath Sealed my heart with the k kiss of death

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One Horrible Sleep Is it so early ere I go to bed? But when I lay, the half world seems dead Come all horrible dreams, visit my thought! Make my sleep such a dreadful note! Wicked dream torn my eyes to weep And one did laugh in my sleep For one cried murder, They did wake each other “Sleep no more!� I was screaming g And not a blink passed without thoutt crying cr Torching me like a thorn in a ro rose Offering me to move as a ghost g What is it about bout th the night? Far worst than tha han the beauty of morning light Will I ever fi nd fin d my gentle peaceful night, Without horrible creature in my sight?

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Passionate Love The Lady never stops amaze me She is my beautiful sunset on the sea She kissed like a bright sunrise With all angels gathered in her eyes Shall I speak more, Or by this I shall mourn? But why fear lay on my hands, That my tears shall not have mercy the then? en? Should I kill this passionate love? But I still praise her far above O....I cannot speak of this thou thought, ugh If I love her not She is my passion my damnation on and nd m She is beyond imagination nd d my im Therefore,, I shall hall keep her in my heart‛s core And let her owned my heart‛s door ow For her flesh still smell so sweet, That my sense will never grow age from it

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The Lady She gave my pains the world of sigh That I shall praise her up high I thanked her by this harmless hand For heaven had made me such a loving man That was pitiful, But joy and joyful The Lady is bright still; Though the brightest kill And all things foul, Gives wound to this soul But soul better still look so, Than lives in woe I love her for the he fears ears I named I love her that did mock them hat at I d When I have ve e other ther beauty like The Lady, I should woo h her to know this story For never was a love so deep Than my love to The Lady

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One Harsh Dream I dreamed of the Lady She shaken my world through my body But my love is neither sweet nor deadly, Yet the soul has punished me dearly. Oh....I have sin against love, For worship the love far above Oh dear Lord, kill the pain Of the deepest love in my brain For heaven will guide my heart to rise, ise e, Or else, she will betray my eyes But the love begun to rule,, Like my dream seemed so cruel o cru rue

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The Kingdom of Thoughts Death, be not proud! This is my will in this thought Shall I bitterly begin my joyful world, Where love has born on earth, In spite life closed within my breath By kisses and the beauty of death? For she has the stir of my knife, And owned my life The Lady is my life and my salvation n That I shall live in this damnation on Cause my love is stronger than n my death, Which reward me to my hea health alth But when the sun arise e tomorrow, tom I‛ll pluck away the memo memory of a rooted sorrow And let The e Lady ssleep sle for a while, Then let the direct my sail he e wind nd d

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Love Thee How do I love thee? The beauty of the smile The smell of the breath The touch of the skin How can I love thee? The kind of the soul The gold of the heart The pure of the love How shall I live without thee? The dark of the street The tears from the eyes The end of the world If the earth with me, h be wit I‛ll vanquish enemy h the t e en If The Lord gr granted, I‛ll take our love to the grave If the heaven allowed I‛d die for our love ……………cause I love thee

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Friendship Life is full lots of down Force you go fall to the ground It‛s hard to know what you feel inside But let me walk with you by your side All the things when everything is wrong You have my arms to wipe the torn All the times when you must hold your tongue ngu gue I will help you to carry on Together....forever until the end d I‛ll be the one to hold yourr han hand nd And nothing can tear us apart apar art From the bond of our heart hear I‛ll be your shoulder houlde to cry on For you must be alone ustt not ot b Even when the he world is gone I‛ll be a friend to rely on

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The Brightest Day Santa Claus is coming, Christmas has waiting His message is a swift blessing For they who‛s willing Holy angels flies above the world With high respect I pray to The Lord Their laughter brings warm to my face, And speak to me full of grace Blessed are those whose blood iss so well That no one could ever telll For one that suffers of pangs pang ngs Have taken with equal than thanks And my soul‛s the crown ‛ss jjoy within w wit With sundry blessings hung on top my throne ry blessi essi For heaven leads ead the way, In this brightest day

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