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Spring 2018

Cold and All Alone


CREDITS / SOURCES

DESIGNER Yi-Yun HUANG

PHOTOGRAPHERS @enkesaar44

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Agata Serge

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Avery Skees

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Belle Deesse

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Blackanglinlove

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Chicago literati

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Chili

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Djtaylor Gun Justin Goulet

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Kenket

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Kordin Viacheslav

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Levente Gyori Lilly Lor Randall Tallbot

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Samy Mahfar

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Shadow Heartz

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Table

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Vincent Ngo

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Yi-Yun HUANG Resource: FBcoverstress

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AUTHORS Casper DM

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Jude M Salazar

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Makala

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MxPx

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Poetictunes

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Yi-Yun HUANG

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CONTENTS

Far Away Far from Home

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A Cold Heart A Cold City

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Cold and Brokenhearted

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A Cold Heart A Cold City By Casper DM / Jude M Salazar / Poetictunes

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Wisps of cold wrap around me, strangling the warmth Grasping hold of my feet, and is a strange sort Of coldness this is, it’s abnormal It is full of need and listlessness, definitely not normal I am pulled closer to Death He grasps my hand and leads me down the path

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It's around midnight My feet kiss the cold, hard floor I should have worn socks

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My city is cold, The people are cold. The weather is cold too. But, when the seasons change, The city will no longer remain cold, But, the people will.

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Far Away Far from Home By Yi-Yun

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One day, one of these days, I come back to my room in downtown San Fransico, switch on the lights, and look down upon the evening lights on Bush Street far below and I suddenly feel utter loneliness. I know this is what I wished for I wanted leave home. I wanted to be the University. But now that my wishes have come true, living here is nothing like I imagined.� The truth is, at this very moment there are a couple of hundred thousand young men and women like me, sitting in their room, and thinking nearly the same thoughts. Their dreams came true, but they don’t like their new life. They want to go home.

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I am writing to tell you a simple truth, youwill want to go home the rest of your life. I am 31, and I still want to go home. Home is a simpler time, a better place, where you knew everyone and everyone knew you, where you could be yourself and feel safe. Someone else took care of things. Most important, home was that predictable place where there were no mysteries. You always knew what would happen next. Every time, all the time. Never a surprise. But you can never go home again.

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Cold and Brokenhearted By MxPx / Casper DM / Makala

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I know I'm mean but I'm real sorry I didn't mean to make you cry I feel so bad by then it's too late You're hurt, I'm mad, is this goodbye? I've dug down far too deep now I've dug down far I'm losing sleeping You know it's hard you know I'm trying To understand to do what's right I don't like to see you crying I don't like it when we fight I've dug down far too deep now I've dug down deep I'm losing Cold and all alone Out there on your own Cold and all alone Living on your own

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Every day she was by my side In puddles of morning rain, Wet sneakers splashing. Arms wrapped around, Sore shoulders Hanging, dead weight. Eyes squinting at the Sun's Awakening, early morning blooms. In the cold dark of night, The warmth of her to keep me, Safe from the ice storms of my dreams. Every day she was by my side. until now, now the chill of my life Runs unchecked, my now dry feet Colder still.

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Every night I spend alone knows your name. I try to remember your promises; you carried them in your back pockets. And I think that if I were to check your laundry, I'd still find them waiting in your shorts, unfulfilled. I try to remember what you looked like the last time I saw you; how her name was waiting on your lips, hanging in the air between us like a thread waiting to be cut. I remember how you loved my body and pitied my mind, and fell asleep with the door open. I walked home in the snow, but it was warmer than laying next to you.

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