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Kali’s Writing Anthology 2012-2013 Author: Kali Ferguson Huntsville Publishing Huntsville, Arkansas 5/10/13


Table of Contents General Introductions Acknowledgements

Page Numbers 1 2

Part 1: Inspirational Biographical Sketch Trust Simpler Times Inspirational Bond A Changed Life Forever Security is Bliss Acceptance is Key

3 4 5 6 7 8 9

Part 2: My Own Things Biographical Sketch Intriguing Future The Hole Inside A Fallen Princess Depression

10 11 12 13 14

Part 3: Random Biographical Sketch Along Came The Bright Lights Makeup Pro Provoking Trial Work Hard, Play Hard (Untitled)

15 16 17 18 19 20


Dedication I dedicate this to all my friends for always leaning on me and helping me through my hard times. I also dedicate this to every person who ever broke my heart, you guys just made me stronger.


Inspirational This mostly reveals my helpful side. My side where I give good advice and help people out. It’s also things that I tell myself on a day to day basis to inspire myself and keep my head up. It will provoke questions and give a way to broaden your mind.


Trust It can make us or break us. It can make you fall in love, or fall in hate. I honestly don’t want anything bad to happen to us over a small word with a big meaning. I want you to have my trust… and honestly, you do. You’re all I have left in this big, crazy, world. So stop blaming our fights, our insecurities on yourself because it takes two. You and I, in order for our relationship to last. We have to work out our problems instead of ignoring them. We also need to stop fighting. It hurts me… it breaks me down and makes me feel lonely, insecure, and scared. I don’t want to fight with you anymore. I want to fall madly, deeply, truly in love with you. All we need is trust.


Simpler Times Why is everything so different now? Why do I have such hard times? I watch my friends and family struggle every single day. Things used to be easier. There was more money, more opportunities to have life fly by you so easily. Now, love turns into heartbreak. Happiness turns into depression. A smile turns into tears, laughter transforms into silent weeps. From walking with your head high, to walking with it pointed to the ground. Those are signs of someone who has tried to stay strong for too long.


Inspirational Bond Why does losing people have to be so hard? From friends moving away, to people moving on, to family members dying? It could be because we take it to heart, and think about it too much. Or it could be because we feel we could’ve done something to change it. People are going to walk in and out of your life. Old doors close, just to find a new one opening. It’s the people that stay close to you when your life sucks, that are worth fighting for. If you can do something to make somebody you love, stay, do it. Fight for them. If they are always there for you, you should always be there for them. Don’t turn your back on anybody. You’ll never know, they might need you more than you need them.


A Changed Life Forever You changed me. You taught me happiness. You showed me love. You helped me trust. You made me feel like a princess, who finally found her prince. I found my life because you saved it. There’s not a day that goes by where I’m not reminded of you. Were like stripes. We crossed paths alone, but came together to form something bigger. From playing the game, to winning it. When I found you, I left my past, insecurities, failures and my broken heart behind. Now I can have a new start. Me. You. Together. Forever?


Security is Bliss Love. Love is just a word. Just a word meant to hurt the ones who love the most. I fall too fast. Forgive too easily. Trust so simply, and love unconditionally. I don’t ask questions because my mouth is hushed by the breath you take away. I wonder why I’m tangled between comfort and nervousness. With you, it’s all different. It’s sweaty palms, nervous taps, fast heartbeats, and hard breathing. But at the same time, I feel safe. I know you won’t drop me like everyone else.


Acceptance is Key You hurt me time and time again, and I just sit back and watch. Why do I forgive you so easily when you don’t deserve it? It takes two. I can’t just try and make it work alone. All I want from you is acceptance. I don’t want to disappoint you or anyone else. I know that sometimes I’m hard to love, and I mess up. I’m going to make you mad, I’m going to get jealous. Eventually, you’ll see that there is not one girl in this world who will love you as much as I do. If you let me in your life, I will always be that shoulder for you to cry on. I’ll be there to hold your hand and tell you that everything will be alright. Just let me in your world, and give me your all.


Part Two: My Own Thoughts This shows me. My thoughts that nobody sees on the outside. Its personal, and tells how I feel about relationships, life and basically everything that’s on my mind. My depression really shows throughout this, showing a side that you would never know I had.


Intriguing Future You probably don’t care, but I’m sorry. I’m not going to make excuses for myself or anything. I make mistakes. You make mistakes. That’s just life. What was done must now be forgiven. Everyone screws up. But you know what? You’re perfect in my eyes. In my eyes, I see nothing else but you. You’re the one I wake up to, the one I talk about all day, the one I want to talk to all the time, but I don’t want to annoy you. The one I fall asleep with, the one I dream about. You are my whole life. Without you, I’d be nothing. I’d be just another girl that people like to screw over. But with you, I am someone. With you, we are everything. I just need you. I don’t care what it takes, I would die if it meant protecting you. If you wanted me to do anything, I would if it meant keeping you. You are the sun on my back, the shadow on the ground. I can’t picture my life without you, so I’m sorry. Please forgive me?


All the Little Things All I want is to love you for the rest of my life. I want you to be the one; ill wake up every morning with you by my side. Knowing that no matter what happens, I’ll be able to come to your loving arms. All I want is to share everything with you. To be able to talk about our ideas, our dreams, and little everyday things. Things that make us laugh, and the not so little things that we can’t help but worrying about. All I want to give you, is my love. As a place you can always come to for acceptance. The simple comfort that silence brings, when things are left unspoken, can still be understood. All I want is to grow old with you, to watch our life unfold. All I want is to love you forever. Ever feel like there’s not enough light in your life? Like most of the time your sad, and run down? That was my life before I met you. Nothing to smile about, noting to actually be happy to have.


The Hole Inside I hate missing you. It’s that empty feeling that’s in my heart. It’s like a hole. A hole made for you to fill. You’re my happiness. And when I hear the sincerity in your voice, I know when you said forever, that is was a promise. Ever since you’ve been taken from me, everything reminds me of you. Hearing your voice so seldom makes me appreciate you even more. I don’t want to let go. Everything is just a blur right now. I can’t explain it. It’s pretty sad that every time you look in the mirror, you turn away… or just stand there to point out your insecurities until you cry. Or even when you lay down to go to sleep, you cry until you drift into a light sleep because you don’t have what it takes to be happy anymore. When you’re at such a low point, that you don’t smile anymore. Those times where everything used to be funny, have faded into stained tears to your cheeks. Happiness isn’t an option anymore. You try replacing that hole with new people, or materialistic things, but it’s not the same. You drop your head to the ground, walk with the crowd so you’re hard to pick out. Everyone pretends to care, but I can’t feel their love. It’s not real. I always told you that if you ever need me, I won’t be far away. I swear, I might not be ‘in love’ or have ‘Puppy love’ but I sure know what love is, and I love you. There’s going to be people who walk in and out of my life, but you’ll always be my number one!


A Fallen Princess The girl who used to hold her head high, now walks with her head to the ground. The girl with the big smile and loud laughter, has faded into a straight face with permanent tears painted on her face. Her porcelain skin has turned into broken pieces. Her perfect makeup is a blur now. From being to center of attention, to the outcast. From being strong, to falling to her knees. Broken. Useless. Done.


Depression Depression. It eats me alive. These physical scars are not a fashion statement. They show pain, struggling, and fear. Fear of disappointing. It’s not only the scars I show that tear me apart. This is mental. Mental pain that I can’t shake away. Nobody knows what I go through. Nobody sees what I see. It’s all something for me to take care of myself.


Section 3: Random The ‘random’ side of my personality really shows here. It shows how my mind moves from place to place. This section is basically just about whatever was speeding through my head at the time each piece was written. From funny thoughts to blissful dreams, you will find it all here.


Along Came the Bright Lights.. I didn’t know exactly where the train was going. After paying my fair, I simply stood on the platform waiting for it to whisk me away to somewhere, anywhere but here. And that’s when it happened… the bright lights, my eyes flash open. I’m standing on the tips of my toes. The ground is beneath my feet, so soft, it caressed my whole body. I was on a cloud. This place is exactly the way you imagine. It is perfection. Everything your heart desires is right here in the palm of your hand. You express no pain, you cry no tears. Your body is rushed with bliss.


Make-Up Pro I’m very skilled at doing other peoples’ makeup. You have to have patience, time, balance, and cooperation. You have to be cautious so you don’t get any makeup in your eyes, and to make sure you don’t put too much on to make your face a totally different color that the rest of your body. It takes time and a lot of practice to get your make up suited for you. You can watch YouTube videos that share and provoke ideas for you to experiment. Try using different brands of makeup for different tones and skin types. For putting on foundation, you start from the outside of your face, then bring it into the middle of your face.


Provoking Trial Bailey Henderson is on trial for murder in the 1st degree. Heres the story: Bailey was walking home from school one day with two of her friends, Kali Ferguson and Cheyenne Campbell, when they see one of their favorite teachers, Mr. Rock, lying on the ground‌ dead. The cops show up and see Bailey at the scene because Kali and Cheyenne left her. And of course they assume Bailey was the killer, so here she is on January 11, 2013, in court. The jurors are in the Jury Room deciding whether she is innocent or guilty. The vote right now is guilty: 11, innocent: 1. Bailey has one juror who has a reasonable doubt. This could save her. This juror sees something none of the others do‌ there must be other witnesses! Nobody would walk home by themselves! They get the judge to call in the two other witnesses, Cheyenne and Kali. The trial starts back. With the testimony of the two girls, the jurors go back to the room to discuss the case. The vote: guilty:11, innocent, 1. This juror who stands alone changed the minds one after another of each judge. Showing that Bailey had no reason to kill Mr. Rock. So Bailey was set free. Not guilty.


Work Hard, Play Hard Basketball season is a time of blood, sweat, tears, and laughter. In off-season, we work as hard as we can to push ourselves to get up on our game. Off-season is most definitely the most difficult time of the year. We have from the beginning of March to the end of August to lift as many weights, shoot as many shots, and jump as high as we can until competition starts rolling in. then we put forth all of the time and dedication from off-season into every game to get to the end result of being undefeated, and having a good time with your team while working together. That small period of time with pushing yourself to the max pays off in the long run.


Green, orange, yellow, and red. With little bodies and tiny heads. Once in your mouth, they’re sour, then sweet. They give a tingle from your head, to your feet. They don’t come in boxes, or tubes with the lids, these are the features of… Sour Patch Kids.


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