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life sucks

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and

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the secret to surviving it

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is

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knowing it

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so I give to you

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THE LITTLE BOOK OF PAIN

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to Sam, who never believed me to Jennice, who never knew me to the Dowdas, who died of sadness

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NO ONE IS HAPPY ALL THE TIME

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Always keep your secret pain LOUD

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Be pissed that you know hot to be happy but just CAN’T‌

at least , not

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Be pissed that your parents

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Be pissed that you’re alone

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ONE DAY YOU’LL WANT TO KILL

SELF

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YOUR-

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i mean REALLY, want to kill yourself you know, getg it over with ..just be done with the whole thing‌ all of them all of the CRAP DONE.

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ok.

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Don’t judge yourself

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Don’t hate yourself

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JUST HEAR YOURSELF WANTING TO DIE

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Cuz you’ll also hear a quiet voice wanting to live, and you should know both to make the fairest choice

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That person, remember that person?

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That killed her or himself?

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DON’T FEEL SORRY FOR HER OR HIM

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And don’t envy them

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They had everything you do

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Pain

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And a choice

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I’M SO SAD

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Just freaking sad

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And I can’t stop

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I miss him

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I misssssssssssssss him

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And I miss her

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With everything I am

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I may never know my life without aner

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I WILL DIE SAD

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But I will live sad too

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And no one knows

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NO ONE KNOWS

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NO ONE KNOWS

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HAPPINESS IS AN ADDICTION

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Feeling stuff ain’t for everybody

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Pain is not a badge, your identity, a reason, or a drive

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Peo

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People are too happy anyway

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‌ must be hiding something

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Terrorism is ‌Any church, school, damily,lover, boss that proclimas that all there is pain in living and that you can only be happy really happy when you’re

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SCREW THAT.

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I’m happier being sad than dead.

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I’m

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I’m okay

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I’m still here.

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‌ and that’s got to count for something.

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The Little Book of Pain