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Also, to the only actor, Doh Kyungsoo, Happy Birthday Prince! This is my second time making a magazine for EXO. I should be hired by now. Truth is, I'm on a rush bc tomorrow's gonna be the bear day party and I haven't done shit so apologies if it's meh.
At first I didn't like Jongin. But I liked Kai. Thought they were two different persons. Watching 7 first kisses was a regrettable decision mainly because for a time I didn't like kpop. Well, I was into kpop in 2012 but I forgot about it after. But Jongin kinda grows on you. So I was a solo stan for about a month because I was still in denial that I don't like kpop. But it turned out like this.
Every time I think I've seen enough, he proves me wrong and shows me another side of him. He's an amazing person. He truly is. I can't fathom of how much of a perfect man he is, but you get it. Everything he do, he do it with perfection.
I'm so proud of what he have become and what he is yet to be. Jongin, my love, thank you for inspiring a lot of people. I'd still eat you. I love you so much my angel.
ANAN NO. 2084
close up "Family is reliable and the important people who can make me feel at ease"
Q. Even in Korea, Kai is known for his love for his family. He says that family is "reliable and the important people who can make me feel at ease when we are together." A. I haven't been able to go see them lately and
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I've also been negligent about keeping in touch, but I became a trainee at a young age so I didn't have many friends and had no time to play. In times like that, it was always my family who was by my side. When things get tough, I gain strength by thinking of my family. Family is the reason I can continue to work hard.
YOU WENT TO ALYSCAMPS IN ARLES BECAUSE OF GUCCI CRUISE COLLECTION, DIDN'T YOU? HOW WAS IT?
I have always wanted to go to a fashion show, this was my first time going, The Alyscamps was a cemetery of ancient Rome, the background and orchestra matched it and became a work [of art]. I thought 'What if I dance here? What if we film the music video here?' and got so many inspirations. These days I'm planning a variety of things and I'd like to attempt new things too.
I THOUGHT YOU WERE A FANCY PERSON WHO DREW ATTENTION TO HIMSELF; THIS IS UNEXPECTED.
A lot of people misunderstand [me] like that, but I am shy of strangers and I don't have a wide circle of relationships
YOU DON'T DRINK ALCOHOL?
It tastes bad and I don't really like that kind of party. Come and drink, let's party, this kind of noisy atmosphere. More than drinking party, I prefer staying at home by myself, and for sports instead of doing it I like watching it more. These days I can't really read but I read a lot.
DURING THE PHOTOSHOOT YOU KEPT ON DANCING, WHEN DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WANT TO DANCE THE MOST? When I'm happy or sad. Since I dance everyday, dance is just my daily life. Ah, we have saying between ourselves. You can find out what people like the most when they shower. Those who like to sing will sing, those who like to dance will dance and those who act will act. I dance. Hahaha. YOU USE THE WORD "HAPPINESS" OFTEN, WHAT IS HAPPINESS TO KAI? Something within our daily lives, I can't come up with an exact definition to it, The certain thing is, if you want to be happy, you have to find that happiness. I know what must I do to make me happy, and to find that, I have to make an effort. When I started being a singer, I thought I had to give happiness to people. But now, I think I have to be happy first.
A LOT OF THINGS HAPPEN IN AN IDOL'S TWENTIES. ALTHOUGH YOU ARE NOW 25 YEARS OLD, YOU DEBUTED 7 YEARS AGO AND HAVE BEEN AT THE TOP, IT MUST FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE ALREADY BECOME AN ADULT. WHAT KIND OF PERSON IS THE 25YEARS-OLD KAI NOW? Although as an adult I am taking all responsibilities, I am not like an adult yet. I still don't know about the world well. Usually at this time, it is the age when one enjoys their school days and starts to prepare for entering the society. I experienced the society early and met lots of people, but compared to others, it's just a little early. As an entertainer, 7 years look a long time, but if we look at it as a whole, it is a short time. It is not everything as well.
TRANSLATIONS BY CHOCONINI
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Q. Are there any immediate mountains (obstacles) you need to jump over/surpass right now? A. I always have to surpass myself. Yesterday's me, no matter what good things happen, I forget them and want to do great things again. Instead of materialistic or physical outcomes, I want to spend time personally accepting/understanding myself. Activities are fun and make me happy, but I'm also happy seeing myself grow day by day. I would like for the me of today to sing better and dance better than the me of yesterday.
Q. Your birthday is on the 14th , do you know what day it is? A. Diary day? I have no idea. White day and what else? Valentine's day. I've never done/celebrated things like that. I never tried.
Q. You watch movies and read books often? A. I mostly read fictional novels, but not selfimprovement books. They are boring. I like the fun of imagining when reading fiction. You watch movies, you see the story and what's visually pre-planned, but you can imagine while reading books. Even if the same characters are portrayed in a novel, I like that each reader sees a different image. I think that's why I read a lot of books, especially mystery, fantasy and image stirring novels. I'll watch any movies often, but don't watch melodramas/romance.
Translations by aiolosh
"I like vagueness. Like things that leave room for doubts"
Q. Are you the type to enjoy things you’re familiar with or things you’re unfamiliar with?
A. Familiar things. I really like the challenging new things but since I am the type that is shy with strangers, I think I prefer meeting familiar people if I am to meet someone. Q. If you were to talk about something that you like because it’s been long with it and something that you like because it’s new, what would it be?
A. Like relationships and items, I like things last for a long time. I like things that have traces of my usage because they are things I use for long, or things I don’t use but contains traces of others. As for something that I like because it’s new, it would be things regarding what I do. There are things I want to achieve, as well as making things that only I can create. And also things like exploring the unknown.
LUCKY ONE Q. Have you felt that your life is perfect?
A. For me personally, I think happiness is important. We were born to live happily. For what we do as well, we do them so we can be happy, not be happy so we can do them. However, if I only think about things like these, there are times I don’t know when I am doing something to be happy or whether I am searching for happiness in doing something. I then start to think a lot and I don’t know which I should put first and I don’t even know which is the right answer. When I am absolutely not thinking about anything, I think that is when I am most happy. When I am doing a performance, I don’t think about anything, and because I am focused on the performance, I think I am very happy then. Personally, I am like that but there will be times like that for other people when they clearly try searching for it. Thinking about whether I am doing something to be happy, it it difficult. So instead, when I do something unconsciously, when I’m doing something, that is when I am happy.
Q. When did you experience the broadening of your outlook on the world? A. My social circle is pretty small. But after doing our activities, after debuting, I met many different kinds of people and that was when I thought that this world really has a lot of people. Because I cannot approach them personally, I am the kind to observe. When I see new things, I think “This kind of people exist too,” I like passing time looking around like this. I also really like walking around. But most of the time I am in the car so my summers are cooling and my winters are warm. So there are also times where I lose touch of the change in seasons. There are some busy streets during those times. While others are moving about busily, I’m the only one walking slowly so there is a kind of feeling that time is going really slow? I think I feel that way even if I was looking at that view.
Q. What is your earliest memory?
A. The oldest memory I have of myself is when I was in kindergarten, there was a stationery shop at the bottom of the hill. I remember that there was a claw machine in front of it where you put in 100won and operate it. The image of the catching of items is very vivid. Apart from that, I also remember the first home that I lived in in the past. Was the first home that I lived in? Or rather, it was the first home that I remember. And it was the image of me living happily with my parents. I didnâ€™t give my dad kisses but only gave my mom, those kind of things? I think that was my very first memory.
Q. Among things that cannot be seen, what do you think is the most valuable?
A. Happiness! (Laughs) Ah, there are many valuable things. When we were young, we thought about these things a lot. Why is it me? Why am I looking at this thing like this, why am I me? In elementary school, things that were seen through these pair of eyes were really fascinating and in middle school, I was really curious as to why I am me. For me, I canâ€™t sleep at night if I have worries. So when Iâ€™m alone, I start off thinking about things and then my imagination takes flight as I start to think about useless things. During those times, I have those thoughts. I think it is most important that I was born as myself.
SPRING HAS COME/HARU GA KITA JANUARY 2018
ANDANTE SEPTEMBER 2017
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