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From Gathering to Gathering... For the past two months it has been as if we have stepped off the planet – well, in a sense we did but that is what it takes to go on an adventure like this. As I write this editorial we are now departing Turkey after freewheeling for the past five days through northern Turkey. This morning we fly to Singapore for a weekend of workshops and after that to Bali for a week of talks at the College with Karuna Bali and then home. The pilgrimage this year was huge – I cannot think of another way to describe a four week adventure through the Holy Land following in the footsteps of Jeshua and then to Turkey – Ephesus following the path of Mary and John. The event was called After the Ascension and was the dynamic which enfolded the Pilgrims this year. After five years of annual Pilgrimages it was an emotional farewell for me to the Old City of Jerusalem, maybe for the last time unless some other opportunity crops up for the future. What a blessing then to be so at home this of all cities, to know the streets so intimately, to be on regular acquaintance with the shopkeepers, the know the paths to take through the various quarters, Jewish, Christian, Armenian and Muslim, to be on intimate terms with the Holy Sepulcher – the church at the centre of Christendom that drew me deep into its chapels before dawn just to be in the stillness, and to having my favourite eating and coffee places. Jerusalem is for me as much like home and like millions before me, I am addicted to the city for it is truly the centre of the world. We have lived for the last four weeks “in the Kingdom”. Together and individually, we have tasted and felt the Presence of God in everything we do, say and among everyone we meet – with no exceptions. This “Kingdom which lies on the face of the earth and yet man sees it not” has been fully felt and tasted – a reality now known to exist that is providing the perfect playground, or again that question, “did it emanate from within us?” I watched the difference Love makes as it moves. The many people we touched in the hotels, the various sites we visited, the shops – the many hearts I know 6

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that we opened merely by our passing, and curiously enough the hearts that hardened against us, in many instances those in religious orders who also saw who and what we were and felt threatened. And I wonder how each of us will cope as we return to the media dubbed ‘world in crises’? After being with so many beautiful friends of the Heart – nothing hidden, wearing our emotions openly, warts and all with tears and laughter and no one judging, each one of us knowing the true depth of the other and each living in the moment. Relationship of this kind is a wondrous experience and one seldom found in the ‘outside world’. Perhaps the greatest gift in this Pilgrimage for me was seeing that ‘my plan’ was often surpassed, each time I gave away my attachment to the outcome I desired or expected. Yes, we can read about this and nod our heads yet often when we are in the moment seeking to have things our way and not ‘getting it’, frustration takes over. This time around, I was able to keep giving the experience back to God. And it worked in every case far better than I had imagined. It is quite obvious that we are all moving into a new paradigm; it would be easy to take on the fear being felt in the world as our financial security is being challenged. In the Western World, we exist in a false reality whereby we are able to believe that we can ‘buffer’ our experience, literally have our own plan s to how our future will be provided for. This is a reality that probably less than 15% of the people on earth have been deluded by. The remainder, for the most part live day to day with no opportunity to build walls of protection around themselves and I wonder what the cost of this so called security ours has been. How far have we come from God in the need to ensure our own outcome? And... how can I relinquish this world of mine that I have created? I am reminded of the words in the Way of the Servant, that ‘deals’ directly with this challenge and that the journey into Kingdom is only accessed when ‘the world’ is relinquished. This then was almost certainly the issue that the Disciples had to move through after the ‘death’ of Jeshua and very much what this Pilgrimage is about. And there is no doubt that we will ALL re-live this dynamic in the weeks to come for it is the very essence of the PathWay to which we have committed ourselves. To which Jayem would say... ”The ‘world’ that is relinquished is not out there. It is the world of defenses to full participation created within the mind, in an attempt to preserve, or save, the “I”. Finally, to be fully present with everyone in any moment, aware that THIS is the moment that may serve the penetration of Light that is not at all threatened by samsara, and it IS filled with suffering. No self to preserve, no feeling to avoid, depth to dive into, all things Way of the Heart

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to be allowed and embraced, a genuine com-passion for and with Other, who is none other than your very own self. That might hurt! It might be exhausting. It might not feel like fun! -or, it might! But it is the final stage of genuine surrender to Love. The disciples indeed had to face the eye of the needle of surrendering their world... and diving into the world. No safety net, no promises, no hope for comfort, no anything FOR the “I”, having been brought to the final brink of learning that THERE NEVER HAS BEEN AN “I” TO BE SAVED. But the final learning requires a surrender of Jeshua, and any and all safety nets. Which is why Jeshua HAD to leave them. To truly see, witness, and fully feel the great pain and suffering in and as the world, to know it is one’s own very creation, and to enter it to serve it’s Atonement. A choice no one sees, and for which there is no reward... except the final learning lesson that carries one into knowing they have truly awakened IN the Kingdom: “Only when you give all you have received can you know your Redeemer lives, and you with Him.” And why SERVANTSHIP IS the final phase transition in the soul’s journey. It lies in the very risk, the vulnerability, the not knowing, yet is another prayer of surrender. And the beat goes on...” I am blessed by such support and clarity as only a teacher who truly cares would offer, for how else might I ever find FULFILLMENT for myself? Blessings to you all,

Raj P.S. In this Journal I have included the teaching from the Christ Council which formed the theme of the Pilgrimage. This teaching if engaged in depth as we experienced opens into deep emotional healing. You can try it for yourself by following the questions it asks to be answered. You will have to read slowly and breathe deeply to discover the full value that lies between the lines. b 8

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