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HEARTBEAT OF P.U.L.S.E. EMBODIED What is P.U.L.S.E.? A sisterhood of beautiful, educated, independent and powerful women embodying each other and giving one another respect and knowledge to further each other’s own education. Educating, Elevating and Empowering women of color through a network of support on a cultural, educational, social and personal level.

Upcoming Events Join us for our weekly general body meetings on Tuesdays at 8pm Leadership Conference February 25, 2012 First Annual P.U.L.S.E. Banquet February 25, 2012 P.U.L.S.E. Week March 5-March 9 2012 WE SPEAK BU AND P.U.L.S.E. WEEK

Our Mission Statement Our mission is to provide self-awareness, communicate about gender and sexual issues, and provide information on various health topics and many other issues that concern women. We strive to educate while providing a safe psychological and physical space for women to speak freely and openly about all issues that concern us.

April 13-April 22 2012 2nd Annual Breast Cancer Walk April 22, 2012 Volunteers Needed!




Dear Readers, This is P.U.L.S.E.'s first publication entitled H.O.P.E. Heartbeat of P.U.L.S.E. Embodied. As publications coordinator my goal is to embody the essence of P.U.L.S.E. and what we stand for in each publication. I will revisit issues that are discussed within our general body meetings and keep everyone up to date on P.U.L.S.E.’s current events. Each publication will include artistic drawings, collages and/or poetic works created by members of our student body and writers outside the university as well. I would like to thank my lovely executive board, artists and writers that contributed to H.O.P.E. Creating this publication was an interesting task and it was amazing to be able to work with students and discover their creativity. I hope you enjoy the Fall 2011 issue of H.O.P.E. and please look out for our monthly newsletters during the spring semester. Arlene Arisme Binghamton University ‘13 Publications Coordinator


A LETTER FROM THE PRESIDENT Dear Readers, It is truly amazing to see how far P.U.L.S.E. has come this semester. My executive board is the true embodiment of what P.U.L.S.E. stands for: they are a network of lovely, empowering, educated and aspiring young women. Our success is a product of this network- a network which, we strive to extend to all women of color on campus and in the Binghamton community. With the dedicated aid of the entire executive board, all of P.U.L.S.E.’s once seemingly intangible plans have now become a reality. This semester, P.U.L.S.E. has fundraised and established connections with other groups/organizations to set the groundwork for our upcoming spring events, all which are sure to continue to empower, educate and uplift women of color. As always, next semester P.U.L.S.E. will conduct it’s week of inspiring and motivating events in March, which will focus on political, social, health and empowering issues. We will officially kickoff our D.I.V.A.S. mentoring program and host our first annual Women’s Leadership Conference. We will sponsor a week dedicated to HIV/AIDS and Breast Cancer awareness with WE SPEAK BU, leading up to our 2nd Annual Breast Cancer Walk in conjunction with Omega Phi Beta Sorority Inc. From the hard work and dedication that P.U.L.S.E. has demonstrated this semester, I can confidently predict the success of all upcoming spring events. My only hope is for more underclassmen to take advantage of the opportunities, which P.U.L.S.E. is providing. Entering BU as a freshman, especially as a regular admit, I was not provided with a personal counselor. Instead I had to seek out my own guidance from a variety of different resources. I joined P.U.L.S.E. to become the resource that I once very desperately needed. P.U.L.S.E. provides mentoring support, betterment skills, professional, health and political awareness as well as educational guidance. We are dedicated to being a network of overall support. Being in a new environment and encountering new situations, I know that many underclassmen can benefit from P.U.L.S.E. All in all, I am extremely proud of the much-deserved success P.U.L.S.E. has accomplished during its short time on BU’s campus. I look forward to executing the exciting events and workshops P.U.L.S.E. has in store! Written by Sharisse Grimes



Table of Contents History of P.U.L.S.E. ……………………………………………………………………………………….5 D.I.V.A.S. Mentoring Program ………………………………………………………………………...6 Breast Cancer Walk Collage by Joni Kay Johnson……………………………………………….7 Anger Management 101 by Arlene Arisme………………………………………………………….8 Dear Old Me By Shanel Boyce………………………………………………………………………….9 Everlasting Scars by Arlene Arisme ………………………………………………………………….10 Broken by Jodie-Ann Geddes………………………………………………………………………….11 Gravity by Eden Connelly ………………………………………………………………………….12-13 E-Board Biographies …………………………………………………………………………………14-16 Woman of Color by Shannon Spearing ……………………………………………………………17 Inspiration by the Ladies of P.U.L.S.E. ……………………………………………………………18


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P.U.L.S.E was created, because Mrs. Joanna Cardona-Lozada acknowledged that there was a lack of mentorship for women of color on campus. It was formed in the summer of 2007 by Joanna Cardona-Lozada and BEP 07 girls through the Educational Opportunity Program Binghamton Enrichment Program ’07. On March 9th, 2010 P.U.L.S.E was SA chartered. A group of educated and sophisticated women of color came together as they realized that there was no group on the Binghamton University campus that catered to women of color. They then took the initiative, coming together and forming what is now known as P.U.L.S.E; an all woman organization that holds workshops, programs and events organized around topics that concern women as well as the general student body. *Men are welcome to attend every other weekly meeting!





OUR NEW MENTORSHIP PROGRAM Mission: Our mission for our mentorship program is to elevate, educate and empower female middle school students through one on one mentorship and interactive workshops. Philosophy: To improve the academic achievement, self esteem and social competence of middle school students by providing a relationship with a mentor who works to help youth achieve their fullest potential with a focus on higher education in the future. Goals: One on one mentoring, interactive workshops and group activities.





Anger Management 101 About 80% of us or more can recall a time in our lives where the feeling of anger dominated our actions and decisions. Anger in most cases is our greatest enemy, even if some of us just cannot or do not want to let it go. Lets face facts, the decisions we make while angry are not conducive to our well being or anyone else’s for that matter. Personally, anger has been a chronic issue that I’ve been trying to get under control for a while. I’ve definitely made improvements, but my friends will probably say different. My excuse is blame genetics; because I really cant help it! Nonetheless anger is an emotion that reflects the feeling of being treated unfairly. It is okay to feel angry, but it is not okay to act upon anger. Anger management is necessary for many individuals, however many people do not realize that anger is an issue for them. Thus it is important to recognize the symptoms of anger in order to learn how to cope with it. The first step to dealing with your anger is to acknowledge that it is present and it is an issue.



You never knew the pride that you would feel watching your daughter grow. Seeing her little personality overwhelm a room full of adults. The pain that was so evident in your smile and the tears that stained your soul. The fire that emblazoned the passion that once ruled your life seemed so far off. The shadows that darkened the very path that you knew would lead you to your destiny. The blood shed, the water sprinkled, the oil rubbed, all rituals gone dreadfully wrong. The shame completely overcast the honor of the most prized possession of womanhood. This bouncing bundle of joy brought you nothing but guilt coupled with reproach. The fear that threw responsibility into your lap and glued her to the soles of your feet making every step along the worn path that much harder to take. The tears that meant neither sorrow nor joy. The silence that ripped through the air and pierced your heart. The not knowing was the hardest. Not knowing if your mistake could ever be forgiven if your sins could ever be washed away. The feelings of worthlessness that slept with you at night and the contempt that found a permanent resting place on your pillow. They told you that anything worth loving was worth fighting for. But how could you love something that did not exist. Something that drained every bit of optimism out of your life and replaced it with betrayals, inadequacy and defeat. The heavy heart is who you have to thank. The heavy heart that dragged you from your place of peace, innocence and safety and made you out to be a woman.

Love, The Current Shanel

P.S. Girl you aren’t nearly as fragile as you thought you were. All them tears only made you a river so that you could row on over to your paradise with your bundle of joy in tow. Trust me that could have been a long hard walk over if you didn’t rid your eyes of that salty well.



Everlasting scars I look back on life back then, and I wish I could have untangled myself from the vines that choked me and kept me silent. We were married for 3 years before he ever raised his hand to me. I never saw it coming, things were perfect, perfect in my eyes at least. It started on a typical Sunday night after dinner, the kids were upstairs in their rooms and I remember being extremely tired. He approached me from behind as I washed the dishes, he moved my hair to my left shoulder and rested his head on my right. He bit my neck gently, but I moved away, he held me tighter, but I expressed no interest. I knew what he wanted, but I wasn’t giving in again. Normally I would, but I just couldn’t tonight, he didn’t care. His gentle bites got harder, his grip got much tighter, and his hands returned to his place of control, I could no longer breathe. Tears ran down my face as he thrust me to the ground! I attempted to stand up, but my efforts were useless, he was too strong. I laid on the ground motionless, in fetal position wishing it was all a dream. This night became a nightmare that I would come to know all too well. Written by Arlene Arisme




Broken Her body laid broken on the wrinkled twin sheets Her tears reflected the empty stained picture frames that laid hallow on her father's vanity He was too selfish to see her cries for help How bad she wanted to fit in Separate from the material items, money, and straight hair she only wanted him to be her friend The hood had been standing silent for years There was still a spirit the Black on their skin shared "I needed you and you weren't there [...]" Where was the dark face she cried for when the sweat from their bodies mixed like a Black sunset with hers When they thrust something ugly and molded inside her sculpted and beautiful vagina Her body stood scattered and dismantled on the twin bed She glanced at her lingering ghost hanging on the sheets He cried alone and spoke apologies in his head They say she had problems before the rape ever occurred She was called a victim before she ever knew it Before the system labeled her She's a woman Black and folded into stories of Black womanhood Four virtues left non-existent We stain easily but seize to break even when every bone has been broken more than once Spine a painted collage illustrating Black women history Our hands still remain beautiful when cradling the blood dripping from our middle passage Holding the Black boys face

Heartbeat of P.U.L.S.E. Embodied

Gravity Some women love hard like mothers do we're not weak it is only us who can live heartless because we gave it to you and even when you rip it all apart We gather our pieces and offer it to you again We're not weak we just love like mothers do and its scary how much pain we are capable of surviving I carry the cross I watched my grandmother carry it for years before she passed it to my mom it weighs like my father my brother and the sun unhinge her rib cage and place the world inside of her chest

and smile because she knew she was God and I've seen her broken under the weight of the responsibility she undertakes and I have felt myself break just the same I was born worn with scars just waiting to be opened oceans ready to break behind my eyes imagine the frustration of the weight of the world only amounting in a cry we are the most silent diers the most explosive on our insides so when I have tears in my eyes Imagine me imploding inside I am so tired of holding you up all the time it’s just that I’m afraid of what you would do with the gravity



I'm afraid of what you've done

and believing

with your inadequacy

in God again

so I quiet the storm

bring you back, reattach

before it forms

you need nine more months

and harbor

bring you back, reattach

what's left of my pride

you need nine more months


cause you've forgotten

at least I know

how a woman

I'll make it

makes you weightless

out of this alive

and how heavy

and you wanna tell me something

everyday would be

about strength?

if I didn't love you

You wanna clench your fists and

so God damned much

beat them into my face

so go ahead

but all I wanna do is cradle you,

look down

make you feel love

I dare you

whether you like it or not

Ill steal the sweetness right back

push my heart

from the breeze

into your face

and only then

until your brain understands

will you believe

chant mantras of motherhood

that oxygen isn't

until your eyes roll back

all that you need

and you start seeing

to breathe

Written by Eden Connelly



INTRODUCING THE WOMEN OF P.U.L.S.E. SHARISSE GRIMES: PRESIDENT MAJOR: HISTORY YEAR: SENIOR I am a feminist who is whole heartedly dedicated to helping enlighten, uplift and support women, especially women of color. I fell in love with PULSE after attending a workshop that demonstrated how to properly use a male and female condom and explained and showed a female’s vaginal anatomy using a model.

SHANEL BOYCE: VICE PRESIDENT MAJOR: PSYCHOLOGY YEAR: SENIOR It is a common misconception that women, especially women of color cannot get together and do positive things. Society has not met us obviously. I joined PULSE because it is different from every other organization on this campus. PULSE is my safe haven and I will continue to work with this group in order to make sure this stays our safe haven in the midst of the drama of academics, social life and personal endeavors.

STEPHANIE SURIEL: TREASURER MAJOR: SOCIOLOGY, LACAS, AND AFRICANA STUDIES I'm interested in going into international affairs for graduate school. I was initially drawn to the Women's meeting (PULSE), because of the strength, comfort, and UNITY I saw amongst the women who attended the meetings. PULSE is my BABY, I treasure and unconditionally love what this organization has accomplished in the past and will be doing in the future.

ANTONIA ALLEYNE: ASSISTANT TREASURER MAJOR: PSYCHOLOGY AND ENGLISH YEAR: SOPHOMORE My goal in life is to become a school psychologist. P.U.L.S.E is a place where I can come and talk about anything and not feel like I am being judged. It is also a place where I feel most comfortable talking. I joined because I wanted to become more involved.



MADELYN TAVAREZ: SECRETARY MAJOR: ECONOMICS YEAR: JUNIOR P.U.L.S.E is the Pleasure one experiences when walking into one of our meetings. It is the Undying Love we as women must have for one another in order to respect and help each other. It is the Strength we exude and embody in order to take on any challenge, learn from it and overcome it. It is Excellence, beyond comparison because we strive to be nothing but the best.

LESLIE VARGAS: PUBLIC RELATIONS MAJOR: BUSINESS MANAGEMENT YEAR: SOPHOMORE One of my hobbies is cooking. I love being in the kitchen and inventing new recipes. I am interested in possibly obtaining a degree from a culinary arts school in the city. I am also interested in owning a bank one day or at least being the manager of a branch.

JONI KAY JOHNSON: HISTORIAN/SA REP MAJOR: PHILOSOPHY, POLITICS AND LAW YEAR: JUNIOR I aspire to be an Entertainment and Intellectual Property Attorney. As a hobby, I do fashion photography and portraits. I am also a general body member of Sigma Alpha Lambda Honors Society, Chi Alpha Epsilon Honors Society, off campus I have contributed my time to MacArthur Elementary School, and I will be interning at HINMAN, HOWARD & KATTELL, LLP.

IDALIA HERRERA: EDUCATIONAL CO. MAJOR: PSYCHOLOGY YEAR: SOPHOMORE I have always known that I wanted to work with younger children therefore I am pursuing my degree to become a Child Psychologist or anything along those lines. I enjoy playing softball, listening to various types of music, being with my family and friends and eating as much delicious food as possible.



ARLENE ARISME: PUBLICATIONS COORDINATOR MAJOR: PSYCHOLOGY YEAR: JUNIOR I wanted to join P.U.L.S.E. after I attended my first self esteem workshop. I had never felt more comfortable speaking openly within a group of females. P.U.L.S.E is my heart and I plan to capture the essence of it through each of my publications.

SHANEIRA DA SILVA: COMMUNITY SERVICE/ EVENTS CO. MAJOR: HUMAN DEVELOPMENT YEAR: JUNIOR My goal is to graduate and become a nursery nurse and open up my own youth community center. I also worked for the Center for Civic Engagement at the American Civic Association helping to bridge the gap on the digital divide teaching Computer Literacy Classes. I enjoy helping others, reading, writing and organizing which are all the qualities I hope to use during my service in this position.

LISBETH PERERYA: SENIOR ADVISOR MAJOR: HUMAN DEVELOPMENT YEAR: SENIOR I enjoy cooking and traveling. I spent three weeks in China over the winter break. I joined P.U.L.S.E in 2009 for its recognition, catering and unification of women of color on campus. I plan to pursue a Masters in Public Administration after graduation.

BRITTANY HUTSON: ALUMNI ADVISOR MAJOR: ENGLISH YEAR: SENIOR I am one of the founders of P.U.L.S.E and I have been a member since it started in 2007.. I am currently following in the footsteps of Joanna Cardona-Lozada, the Faculty Advisor for this Organization and her vision, which called for women of color to come together and speak about issues concerning them. I have seen this organization grow from the ground up and I hope to see it blossom more in the future.


Woman of Color BY Shannon Spearing

Heartbeat of p.u.l.s.e. embodied

Inspiration Pulse embodies the souls of colored women striving for greatness It is the pathway to betterment A window of opportunity for women to learn While uplifting and empowering women of color to reach their potential PULSE is my safe zone The love that makes any place feel like home, Where my passions develop and I am empowered to be a better woman each day It is the very place where being me is more than enough My utopia My escape from all things when they are too tough PULSE has become a place to give a voice to your heart Designed to bring light to issues in the dark The flame that ignites progress among colored women Shines light on issues repressed Where opportunities were given to me, Written by The Ladies of P.U.L.S.E.




Powerful United Ladies Striving To Elevate presents our first publication H.O.P.E. (Heartbeat of P.U.L.S.E. Embodied). This is the Fall 2011...

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