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FMP  Moving  Image  DV3440   Project  Proposal     My   final   major   project   will   be   an   experimental   film   that   explores   my   journey   through   pregnancy,  childbirth  and  beyond.       “My  son  was  born  with  his  airway  blocked  and  was  not  breathing.  The  moment  I  saw  him  I   wondered  why  he  was  not  crying.  A  group  of  Paediatrics  rushed  into  the  room  to  clear  his   airway  and  help  him  to  breathe,  he  was  born  what  is  medically  referred  to  as  a  ‘meconium   baby’.  Within  5  minutes  he  was  crying  and  I  felt  a  huge  sense  of  relief.  The  next  few  hours   were   so   surreal,   here   I   have   this   life   that   I’m   responsible   for   and   I   did   not   have   a   clue.   When   my  mother  held  him,  I  began  to  think  of  all  the  years  between  them.  A  week  old  baby  held   by  a  54  year  old  woman”.  I  intend  to  explore  the  spiritual  themes  of  life  and  creation.     I   will   adopt   the   use   of   abstract   storytelling   to   capture   moments   within   time   and   space,   such   as   the   moment   when   the   doctors   rushed   in   to   intervene   to   the   time   spent   looking   at   my   partners  face.  Sometimes  a  second  can  feel  like  a  minute  and  a  minute  feels  like  an  hour.     By   exploring   the   spiritual   nature   of   film   and   video,   I   can   experiment   with   various   ways   of   expressing   emotions   and   documenting   sensitive   experiences   that   we   face   in   our   lives.   My   work   will   be   very   similar   to   art   therapy,   which   makes  it  easier  to  express  yourself  visually   as   opposed  to  verbally.     The  film  will  comprise  of  spoken  word  poetry,  a  collage  film  style  drawing  inspiration  from   the   ‘Dada   Art   Movement’   and   shot   entirely   in   black   and   white   16mm   film   using   a   Bolex   Camera.   The   film   will   manipulate   time   by   using   various   filming   techniques,   including   stop   motion  animation,  panning,  slow  motion,  montage  and  reverse.      

 

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Mood Board


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Welcome to My Motherhood…    

                     

 

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Treatment

‘Welcome

to

My

Motherhood’

is

an

experimental

film

shot

entirely behind a white screen where people and objects are illuminated to create shadows and silhouettes.

The

screen

acts

as

a

way

of

concealing

the

nudity

and

profanity of the female body, drawing inspiration from Hans Bellmer’s dolls, which are crude and disturbing. On one hand we can identify with this familiar image of the female body, its innocence, beauty and seductiveness but at the same time they are intriguing, troubling and bewildering. I use this as

 

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an attack on society’s view of the role of women as mothers who are mainly responsible for caring for a newborn baby, as well as uncovering the complexity of pregnancy and the female body. The film is a revelation into my experience and journey of becoming a mother, from conception to the beginning of my motherhood. The screen is a symbol of intimacy and privacy as well as a barrier

between

dream

and

reality.

It

challenges

the

stereotypical conceptions and pre-conceptions of the textbook notion

of

postnatal

care,

uncovering

what

really

goes

on

during the first few months after giving birth. The screen displays scenes of constant napping changing and the constant feeding that occurs during the first few months of a newborn life. It is covering the uncomfortable truth; a line between my two deep inner emotions; Love and Fear. It moves from the erotic and sexual feelings of creating a life to the dark and sometimes

sad

reality

of

nurturing

a

life.

From

sleep

deprivation to post natal depression, from feeling lonely to longing for a balance between the body, mind and spirit. These are

all

typical

experiences

during

the

early

periods

of

motherhood. The changes that a woman embarks on are both physically and mentally draining. Motherhood brings a whole new perspective on life, understanding death but realising that it is the fear of getting old, making aging tangible when holding my son and making

the

sacrifice

of

youth

sentimental.

Mothers

must

embrace sagging breasts, backache and stretch marks.

The screen later takes on a new meaning, a mask that enables me to re-invent myself, then returning to work after maternity leave

with

explores

this

my

new

identity.

multiple

roles.

The

film

It

is

itself only

extensively through

the

understanding of the world as a mother, and then understanding my

 

own

mother

and

her

reasons,

her

regrets

and

her 3  


disappointments that I can understand the surreal and complex nature of my own childhood experiences. By forming new relationships and letting go of others I can hold

onto

the

meaning

of

unconditional

love

and

in

turn

wanting to be loved unconditionally by the world despite all my guilt and my mistakes. The screen slowly breaks down as I begin to understand the world around me. Eventually understanding what it means to be content and to plan ahead. This is a true account of my new life, none the wiser but certainly older.

   

 

   

 

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Mother Nature Spoken Word Poetry   Written by Mary Martins   The warmth of my spring makes me smile, laugh, dance and   Yearn for summer.   I am a woman blessed in a world so unforgiving. With his love trapped within my soul, My heart traces the memories that were once unimaginable.   Time's arrow moves swiftly leading us astray A tick tock anxious heart causes us sorrow each day A love like silk turns solid into fruitwood, Wrapped within its creases is a blossom misunderstood.   As the last few days of summers sunshine sweeps away His birth flows deeply into the autumn sleeping beneath the burnt chestnut leaves.

As I anticipate winter's deep roots, Uncertainty leaves me intertwined and hanging; I am waiting for his next move. I am ever changing like the seasons and he is forever gold like the flowers glistening in my sunshine. We could only blossom in the past; longing for his scent my petals are shaken by his breath. If only he knew how he strengthened my stems and silenced the pain from the weeds... I will always love the most beautiful flower in my spring.  

 


‘WELCOME TO MY MOTHERHOOD’ Experimental Film Script/Shot list

FADE IN Black screen FEMALE VOICEOVER READS Black screen fades into mid length shot of a woman sitting on a chair. She takes a sip from a cup of tea   Woman gets up and takes of all her clothes and stands in front on the screen.   FEMALE VOICEOVER  

  (Noise of a baby crying makes it difficult to hear the rest of the poem so she starts again   Time’s arrow moves swiftly leading (the crying begins again)   Us astray a   She stops speaking, the baby stops crying   She speaks louder   Times arrow moves swiftly (baby starts to cry louder)   She stops speaking   Baby squeals and laughs   FADE OUT  

 

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University of East London – Production Location Risk Assessment Form

RISK ASSESSMENT FORM Project / Director: Welcome to My Motherhood/ Mary Martins Production Date: 14-15th March Filming Times: 9am-7pm Location: University of East London- Immersive Studio Location Owner / Manager- David Ring/Dean Todd Assessor Name: Mary Martins Production Role: Director/Actor

DOES THE PRODUCTION INVOLVE

1. Animals 2. Audiences 3. Civil Unrest 4. Confined Spaces 5. Derelict Buildings / Asbestos 6. Electricity or Gas (other than the normal supplies) 7. Fire / Flammable materials

HAZARD PRESENT YES NO X X X X X X X

RISK ASSESSMENT HIGH

MED

LOW


University of East London – Production Location Risk Assessment Form 8. Flying 9. Hazardous Substances 10. Heat / Cold / Extreame Weather 11. Lasers / Stroboscopic Effects 12. Machinery - Industrial / Cranes / Hoists 13. Night Operations 14. Noise – High Sound Levels 15. Non Standard Manual Handling 16. Personal Protective Equipment 17. Public / Crowds 18. Radiation 19. Scaffolds, Rostra 20. Special Effects 21. Special Needs – Inexperienced, Elderly, Disabled 22. Specialised Rescue / First Aid 23. Stunts, Dangerous Activities 24. Vehicles / Speed 25. Water / Proximity to water 26. Weapons 27. Working at Heights 28. Working overseas 29. Smoke / Pyrotechnicss 30. Other Baby

Activity

Potential Hazards

Existing Control Measures

X X X X X X X X X X X X X X

X X X X X X X X X X Degree of Risk

Additional Action

Degree of Risk

With Existing Control Measures

Required/Comment

With Additional Control Measures

Likely hood

Baby behind a

Objects falling

Assistant and additional

unlikely

Severity

Likely hood

Severity


University of East London – Production Location Risk Assessment Form white screen With studio lights and objects

Light shining/getting camera operator too hot


Production Schedule- Welcome to My Motherhood    

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Evaluation This project was a major learning curve for me both in academic and professional practice. It especially enabled me to develop my ideas and improve my film making techniques and learn from the errors made in my mise-en-scene project. Although I enjoyed the first project, I have a personal connection with the final major project and found my idea to be extremely challenging. I feel privileged to be a mother that has been able to make a film about her motherhood and her journey to a new life and beyond. I am looking forward to showing it to my Son in the future. Upon reflection, there are many areas that I would improve in my film. The first would be the quality of the sound. I would not change the type sound used or who I worked with, I would just allow more time for these people to be able to record in a professional studio. The delay in working on the sound was probably due to some lack of organisation by not thinking about sound before or while filming. I just simply did not have any idea what I wanted to use for the audio and struggled from start to finish. I would also re-film some parts that appear to be out of focus; the fabric seems to have a mind of its own, I much preferred the mulberry paper. Using the fabric had its conseach shot has its own unique texture. I would order made to measure paper and have this shipped if I were to do this film again.


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