Concept for a mentoring with Louise Chardon I work in the year of a.pass on the unconscious. I divided it into two parts: theory and practise, even when I suffer under this division. In the practical research I want to explore the field of the physical unconscious – through the experience of touch and pain. On one hand I observe my desire: – to go into a situation, where I have to give up control (of being the master of the situation) – to let things happen / being done to me – to experience intense physicality (as a way to deal with my physicality. I'd like to make physical art, to integrate the lost physicality in my life and my art, to question and criticize the completely mind-focussed academic studies [how to introduce physicality in literature studies?]) – to reach my own limits of pain, to find out more about my physical being and its own desires – to experience something unknown and unforeseen, to enter a new room, to touch something out of theoretical knowledge - meeting the Real! (Jaques Lacan!)?! – to deal with the abysses between pain and pleasure, to face an enjoyable torture [as a synonym for life itself] – a fascination for the objects and the aesthetics being used in SM-practises I want to accompany the process with documentation, to find a right way of documenting my research: – photographs of the „signs“? – Filming the sessions? – Using a diary to capture experiences through words afterwards / using a voice-recorder I'd like to think about the sessions as artificial, as a stage, as a ritual, as a performance. Therefore I want to think parallel on a possible transfer of tools, knowledge, movements, gestures into a performative situation. In general I think that my research is in its core about the split between body and mind and the difficulties to deal with that. I have a theoretical background and dive now into a complete different way of researching: my body is the center of the research. Even Lacan designed a concept of the unconscious as being „structured like a language.“ Does he includes there something like a body-language, too? Following Lacans premise to first face the emptiness of the deepest inner world, where nothing belongs to oneself, not our language, not our thoughts, not our desire, I want to invent, to develop an ARTificial self: a character, deeply fragile, at the same time longing for exposure, dealing with social phobia and depressions, but still able to face the pain, to meet the pain, to find pleasure in it.
Published on Mar 20, 2011
Published on Mar 20, 2011
I work in the year of a.pass on the unconscious. I divided it into two parts: theory and practise, even when I suffer under this division. I...