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my guide and gain control of my feelings, tying to not let my excitement overwhelm me. “Is that you? Is it really you?” I say out loud, I haven’t had any contact with my guide since the accident. “Yes, Jamie. You’ve been in a state of severe depression, but not you’re back.” “Can you help me find Seth?” I ask, knowing that my guide can show me how to search Seth out no matter where he is. I yell out loud, “Dad! I’m right here!” But my father doesn’t react. It’s as if we’re in completely different worlds, yet experiencing the same thing! All I can do is watch and listen. “Yes, Jamie. I can help you, but there’s something that you must understand about Seth.” “What must I understand?” “Seth has gone through many changes in the past three years. He’s not only seen the Golden City, he’s been inside it. Do you know what this means?” “Well, I know that he had the power to heal my legs and break my depression. I know that the only place he could get that power is from the Golden City. He was talking about it when I saw him in my last lucid dream.” “That’s only part of it. Seth has contacted the light beings and the winged beings. Soon he’ll meet Amber. He’ll return to the Golden City like before, and it’ll unite him with love so that he can travel and find his great work.” “You say that as if he’s not going to come home to me.” “What really is ‘home’, Jamie?” I’m very confused. I look at my body sleeping in my bed and think that my home is where my body is. But I know that home is where my soul is. “That’s right, Jamie. Home is where your soul is, and eventually we all end up back home.” “Are you saying that Seth won’t be coming home to me? That