Diana Koehler On August 10th at 7:00 am, my husband Troy and I sat in my nurse practitioner’s office awaiting the results of the biopsy. She had called me the day prior saying she wanted to talk to me about my results. I asked her to give me the results over the phone and she refused, stating that she does not give results over the phone. I knew in my heart that something was wrong and it was not good news. Troy was convinced that she wanted to let me know that they had not gotten an adequate tissue sample again during this biopsy (this had been the second biopsy that they had done because the first one came back benign because of an inadequate tissue sample) and that they were going to have to do it again or have a different procedure done. He held on to hope until the very moment that we received the news that I had indeed been diagnosed with cancer, once again. Even though in my heart I already knew that it was cancer, I remember feeling numb and sitting there in disbelief thinking, “What? Is this really happening right now? Why is this happening to me again?” I was in shock and disbelief, but yet I felt like I was reliving part of the very same dream that I had dreamt the night before. In my dream the nurse practitioner had entered the room and told me that I had cancer. That morning as I was getting ready for my appointment I remember that my mind and heart already knew what the results would be. Looking back I really believe that God was preparing me for the road ahead. After receiving the news that it was breast cancer, I remember crying silently as she continued to speak. I didn’t sob, it was just a few tears and I remember thinking that I really wanted to be proven wrong about what I had suspected. I immediately thought of my sons, Brandon and Ryan, who were not there with us at the time. I thought of my family, friends, my life, school. I had just started going back to school to pursue a career as a registered dietician. I had an immediate desire to let my loved ones know that I had been diagnosed with breast cancer and that I needed prayer. After the news sunk in I just wanted to know what my treatment plan was going to be so I could hit it head on.This was my second battle with cancer and I knew all to well what was I was about to face once again. In May of 2003 I was diagnosed with Stage 1b cervical cancer. My treatment consisted of a radical hysterectomy, chemotherapy, radiation and brachytherapy. I was only 27 years old at the time and it was one of the most challenging times in my life. I struggled with God as to why I had to endure this once again. Shortly after my diagnosis, I was cleaning my bathroom trying to make sense of the whole thing, arguing and pleading with God when I suddenly felt a sense of peace and calmness. I felt as if God was going to use my story to be able to connect with and encourage other woman battling breast cancer. I remember speaking to God out loud saying, “ Ok God, ok. If this is what you want me to do, then ok.” This bible verse has brought me peace and comfort during my journey: “Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged. For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 CONTINUED ON PG 56
Diana sports her creativity in her magnificent Johnny Was Marquardt Patchwork Hoodie with handcrafted details and stunning all over embroidery, $529. A wine Free People soft rounded hem thermal top, $68, and Lysse denim indigo stretch zipper leggings, $98, complete the look. Stunning Uno de 50 boho necklace, $240, and hipster earrings, $89, add the shine. BED | STU driftwood booties, $229, add a trendy touch. Courtesy of Cloz to Home, Loveland.
Published on Aug 31, 2017