Since youʼve left my nights and days are not the same Iʼm up all night into the day break battling the enemy thatʼs in my head Can you please make it go away? The insomnia. Tears. Chest pain. The lump that wonʼt leave my throat. You made everything make sense when you were here. Now nothings s shouldnʼt. I feel numb but sensible. I hate it I knew you had to go, I knew it was coming. I saw and felt it. But I didnʼ me. I almost hate myself because Iʼm being selfish right now and told m as much. I didnʼt think it would hurt this much even when I saw it coming. Hones that was the problem. The love of my life is no longer physical.. I cannot hug you anymore. I w love you with everything inside of me. Why does love hurt this bad? Wi Itʼs like I loss my father. You were there from my beginning and I was th I guess now that Iʼve put it in context it makes it real which hurts even m how do I turn it around? I donʼt wanna feel this, where are you? I thoug it the most!! I canʼt feel you Papa... Please visit me so you can make it b heʼs the only one who can make it go away anyway. I need help. This is funeral because I donʼt wanna see you like that!! Itʼs just a physical she that was apart of who you were too.. I canʼt stop crying now, please do strong but it really hurts. This pain Iʼve never felt this strong before. Iʼm worst way and in the worst place. My heart, half of it feels shattered wh The silver lining is whatʼs keeping it pumping.