Flashes of Fists, Spit, and Blood
By: Joe Pattavina
Flashes of Fists, Spit, and Blood ABOUT THE AUTHOR. Like most of you, I have many questions about this world. About faith, God, religion, Jesus, the Bible, and the list goes on. Many of these we will never find an answer for. I’ve always had a very distinct perspective on life. Most of the time when I tell people my thoughts they either think I’m joking or it’s so far fetched for them to believe that they just completely disregard what I say. I like to think that my thoughts are original, that they have a sense of truth or at least a sense that they could be the truth. I want to make this very clear in the beginning that I do believe that there is a God. Not only do I believe that there is a God but I believe in God and that He is the only way for us to reach heaven. This may sound weird as you are reading some of the things that are written in this but I full heartedly believe that I worship and praise a higher power. But it’s the honest to God truth. I was raised in a Catholic church but I’m not sure what that means anymore. Most Catholics that I know have never touched a bible, never pray, and base their lives around what they want. They have no clue what it really means to be a follower of Christ. I’m not
saying that every Catholic is like that, I’m saying that every one that I’ve met is like that. It really became apparent to me that what it means to be “Catholic” has drastically changed since even I was a young boy. This happened when I went to a fish fry at a church and the priest was serving beer out of a keg. I also heard a story of a priest taking shots at a different fish fry in front of the church. I’m one that doesn’t believe that it’s wrong to drink alcohol basically because Jesus himself drank wine. But it’s very apparent in the Bible that getting drunk is wrong as it states in Ephesians 5:18 “be not drunk with wine.” Our only true guide to the difference between right and wrong is what’s written in the Holy Bible. Most of us are led by how we witnessed our parents’ actions, our parents’ thoughts, our friends’ thoughts, and our friends’ actions. Also, by what we thought was the “in thing” at the time. Some of us are also led by doing the exact opposite of what’s “normal.” I had a Catholic friend that told me she had done drugs before and although she doesn’t do them anymore, she doesn’t regret ever doing them. You should look at God as a friend and a father. When you do something wrong you are letting your father and friend down. So you should regret things in the past that you have done
wrong. You shouldn’t want to disappoint anybody including God. There are so many different religions in this world showing you so many different views, how could one possibly know the “right” one. In the Christian world, it seems like they are competing with every other religion, from Catholic to Buddhism, to Bokononism (reference to Cat’s Cradle). Religion is not a place to compete. Religion is a place to give people the opportunity to believe and express themselves the way they want to, whether that’s becoming a monk, a pastor, a casual church goer, or an atheist. When I was younger, I had a hard time understanding what it meant when God said, “All men are created equal.” Some people are born challenged, some people are born geniuses, some are born athletic, and some are just born. Where you do you draw the line considering someone to be “born”? If they are born a “stillborn,” were they created equal with someone that wasn’t? Are they going to heaven without even having the option of accepting God into their lives while the rest of us are living with almost unimaginable struggles day in and day out? I’ve never really struggled having faith in God. I’ve felt His presence so many times in my life that it would be crazy for me not to believe. I guess you could say that I was blessed because I haven’t had to go through the struggle of never feeling his presence.
I just know things are going to work out somehow, someway and one day if they don’t, I won’t be alive anymore. The whole idea of gods, let alone ONE God, seems extremely farfetched. Honestly. If you take the time to actually sit and think about it there are so many aspects that would make any normal or sane person think twice about what they are putting their faith into. Take, for example, the very first verse of the bible. Genesis 1:1 states that “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” There are a few very legitimate questions that can be asked about this verse. Number one, how long was “the beginning”? Genesis 1:5 states So the evening and the morning were the second day. So does that mean that “the beginning” was only one day? Not that it really matters but how long was one day when you’re referring to the very beginning of time? The second question is: what does the verse mean when referring to “the heavens” (plural). The majority of the bible refers to one heaven. I’ve heard people talk about the heavens meaning the stars. Which could be true but yet again, something we are completely unsure about. The third question is probably the most obvious question but no one seems to bring it up. I’ll repeat the very first verse of the bible just in case
you forgot, In the beginning GOD created the heavens and the earth. Where did God come from? There must have been something before the beginning for there to be God. Or was God just always there? Always has been? That seems to be what the majority of Christians believe. They believe He just exists, plain and simple. There are absolutely no bible passages supporting the fact that God just exists. I can just see God standing in complete darkness for millions of years and finally just getting bored BY HIMSELF and decided to create earth. This idea may take a little imagination but it’s not any more elaborate than what many are already believing. One of my philosophies I’ve come up with over the years is maybe there really are “higher beings”. Not just one but many. A few passages that support my theory are again from Genesis. Genesis 1: 25 and 26 “And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth after his kind: and God saw that [it was] good. And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and
over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.” Like another world where they have the power to create whatever they want whenever they want. Maybe there is only ONE God in their society and maybe he’s not even the highest power but to us he would be. Perhaps we're just like a giant board game to them, Jumanji style or the game of Life (but real life). Maybe the earth is like a giant stock market to them. Whoever ends with the most points wins the game. Buddhism would be like the stock. When a person claims they are Buddhist it’s like they are investing into that stock. How much they “invest” is determined by how much they follow what they are supposed to do and how strongly they believe in Buddha. I know I’ve already lost about half of you just in the “About the Author” section and this really has little to do with what the story is actually about. Basically, I’m trying to bring up points that most religions and churches refuse to bring up. It could be because they don’t have answers to these kinds of questions or it could be because they are just blind to what the average Joe thinks about. I know my ideas can be a little farfetched but ultimately, the core concepts behind my ideas are very general but legit questions. For those of us that believe in a heaven and hell, doesn’t heaven sound like an amazing place? It just sounds beautiful.
Revelations 22:1 And he shewed me a pure river of water of life, clear as crystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb. It also mentions streets and walls of gold, no unbelievers, no murderers, and no liars. And doesn’t it just sound peaceful? No death or pain, no nighttime, and filled with glory and honor. The Bible leaves much to the imagination. I don’t understand why people on earth make such a big deal about the streets of gold. It sounds like such a worldly idea. If you’re dead, why would streets of gold make any difference? You’re telling me that a God that could create absolutely anything, beyond anyone’s wildest imagination, couldn’t create something more astounding than gold? It doesn’t make sense to me. I don’t care about gold now, what makes God think I’ll change my mind when I get to heaven? What if you make it to heaven and you don’t like it? Once you make it to heaven, you are there FOREVER. Forever is a long time. What if you get bored. Haha, I can just imagine seeing people with shovels trying to dig their way out and every time God walks by they hide the shovels and say, “Hey God, just digging a hole today.” As most people know, once you are in heaven, you can be kicked out. But once you are in hell, you can’t make it to heaven? Sounds a little unfair. But then again, God doesn’t ask much of us
while we are here on this earth. Once again, I want to reinforce then I am a strong believer, and although I do have a lot of questions, I can just feel His presence here on this earth, and if you take the time and put in the effort, you can too.