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#60 Š 2018 Jennifer R. Kirk

All poems and lyrics written by Dylan James Kirk

Compiled in rememberance of Dylan James Kirk February 8, 1991 - June 27, 2018

Rest easy Li’l Bird... ...you need much more room to fly!

Dirtbag Dylan logo created by Stufy Summers and reproduced with his permission.

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Mother......................................................6 My Frail Wings......................................... 7 Jesus Bring Us Peace...............................8 Proposition...............................................9 Dearest Second Family.......................... 10 The Impact (Track 01)............................11 The Impact (Track 02)........................... 12 The Impact (Track 03)........................... 13 Snow Angels........................................... 14 Idea Test................................................. 16 Caterpillar Crawl................................... 18 John Nash, Jr.........................................20 I Fucking Hate Grey’s Anatomy............ 21 Once Upon A Time................................22 Tonight...................................................23 Shweet Tea!............................................24 The Difference.......................................25 Potato Cake............................................26 Miscommunimassacre........................... 27 Flora’s Kiss..............................................28 I’m Fine...................................................29 Li’l Bird...................................................30

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Mother

Mother, Do you realize what you’ve done? You have changed the world. You have put your love into a child. You have raised me to be who I am. You gave me life. And I owe you mine. Let me grow to be my best, Under your influence. Let me show you who I can be. Let me show you my appreciation. And please, never cry. Mother’s Day 2008

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My Frail Wings

My Frail Wings, They break under pressure. But with your strength and honesty, You build them back to messure. I am an unworthy, Of the love you give. I moaned and groaned At pointless things... And made you cry again, But mom... I am just a man, Who loves you very much And does the best he can. I know sometimes I’m not the best son, But no one has ever loved You more than me. You’ve shaped me from the ground, And gave me all the strength. You’ve showed me all the good in life, You made it out of what we had, And all we have is all we need. “I love you mommy, Dylan”

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Jesus Bring Us Peace

I find it hard to realize Just how much we’ve gained. Got the world in our hands, Got so much to say. You break under pressure, Cry out all your pain. Hands fall together, You look to the next day. Jesus bring us peace today. With you it will be okay. We have it all within our souls. I find it hard to understand What we have in store. He’s got the future in His hands, Got so much to hope for. You break under presure, And cry out all your pain. Hands fall together, we look to the next day. Jesus bring us peace today. With you it will be okay. We have it all within our souls. Jesus bring us peace today. With you it will be okay. We have it all with-in 8

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Proposition

We’ll wake up in the morning Knowing the night is over. We’ll have to do it, Another lesson learned. I’ve got a smart proposition, Let’s bring God in to it. I don’t mean the opposition, But Satan is through with us. I’ve got to destroy contradiction So I don’t live my life in vain. I’ve got a smart proposition, Let’s bring God in to it. Oh oh, you’ll never breathe Oh oh, with the devil up your sleeve. Ohh, oh oh, you won’t know what it’s like, Oh oh, without God in your life. We’ll wake up in the morning And spill our guts in prayer. We’ll ask for forgiveness And he will be right there I’ve got a smart proposition, Let’s bring God in to it.

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Dearest Second Family

If you tried to guess How much you meant to me You’d probably be wrong. I could say a lot of things That wouldn’t even come close. I could say more than the grassy earth. I could say more than the universe. There’s not enough room In the two of them How much you all mean to me. Dearest second family I only wish for you to see Just how much you mean to me. Just how much you mean to me.

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The Impact Track 01

The sky breathes fire. God brings love.

The sky breathes fire. God brings love.

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The Impact Track 02

There was a man Who walked with his head down. He never seen What was staring him in the face. When he looked up, He found you. His Savior, Our Savior, Jesus. It was a sign dear men. Wake up and grab His hand. Follow the road, Take the narrow path. Accept your Savior. Find your home. It was a sign dear men. Wake up and grab his hand. Follow the road. Take the narrow path. Accept the Savior. Find your home.

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The Impact Track 03

Where the sky meets the horizon We will find our home. When we reach the edge, We will know, Exactly where the ocean’s gone. With the strength of the mighty God We will know the truth. Where the sky met the horizon We found home. Where the water flows like a melody That rolls right off the tongue. And the sky is smooth as honey Spilling off the sun. Where the birds will float up like balloons And always come back down. In God’s mighty kingdom We found home.

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Snow Angels

There’s a fire at the end of my fingertips, With each puff of cancer I take, I think. I, I want so much less of this, And so much more of your lips. Down the road from incurable disease, With each fleeting trail of smoke I exhale, Leave a message for you, only stating please, I’m out here in the cold, With no more air to breathe. When the snow comes , I’ll make angels by myself. ‘Cause there’s not a chance in hell, I’d make them with someone else. There’s a word at the tip of my tongue, The harder I try to remember, The more that I think. There’s no reason to assume That we are innocent, Just because we are so young.

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I remembered what I had to say, But I forgot again and thought. We’re still just kids, But I’m not leaving With so much left undone. When the snow comes, I’ll make angels by myself. ‘Cause there’s not a chance in hell, I’d make them with someone else. And if you could, Come out to play. I’ve got what it would take, To keep you warm and Make you feel safe. There’s a fire at the end of my fingertips, With each puff of cancer I take, I think. I, I want so much less of this, And so much more of your lips, So much more of your lips.

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Idea Test Just an idea, kind of on a whim.

It is what it is, when it is. Especially when it’s not what it’s not. The tide will roll in, and our hearts will break like old ancient rocks. Whether we like it or not, Whether we like it or not. One day, the whole world will fall off. One day the whole world will fall off. I don’t have a breath, Do you think you could spare one? I could use a drag, Will you light the fire? I don’t have a breath, Do you think you could spare one? I could use a drag, Will you light the fire? I don’t have a chance, Do you think that you could roll the dice? It is what it is, when it is. Especially when it’s not what it’s not. The tide will roll in, and our hearts will break like old ancient rocks. Whether we like it or not, Whether we like it or not, Whether we like it or not. One day the whole world will fall off. 16


I don’t have a breath, Do you think you could spare one? I could use a drag, Will you light the fire? I don’t have a chance, I don’t have a chance, I don’t have a chance, Do you think you could roll the dice. ‘Cause whether we like it or not, Whether we like it or not, Whether we like it or not . One day, the whole world will fall off. One day the whole world will fall off.

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Caterpillar Crawl

Feeding anger to the wolves, the innocent caterpillar crawls. Come out of your cocoon, try not to leave your room. What is here, what’s happening? So many unfamiliar things. I can’t seem to control myself. These are my longings, but you’re someone else Who are you and where is me? Who are you and what happened to all my friends? Who are you and where did all this blood come from? Who are you and when will you be done?

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It simply must be imagined, in dreams that I have fathomed. I am not the engineer, whenever you are here. Who are you and where did this but your mouth it seems to be leaking. This is when I break, but where are all of my friends? Who are you and where is me? Who are you and what happened to all my friends? Who are you and where did all this blood come from? Who are you and Oh God, when will you be done? The caterpillar crawls. The caterpillar crawls. The caterpillar crawls into the fire.

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John Nash, Jr.

Wait, don’t stay. The air in here, it will steal your soul away. Get out of this house before the creatures in me decide to come back. We are the blood and guts that fall out front. Sinners in a lion’s cage. We are the hand of a whip toting God beating on your grave. I said, wait, don’t stay. The air in here, it will steal your soul away. Get out of this house before the creatures in me decide to come back out. We are the blood and guts that fall out front. Sinners in a lion’s cage. We are the hand of a whip toting God beating on your grave.

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I Fucking Hate Grey’s Anatomy There’s a fly at the bottom of this bottle of vodka, If I went and fished it out man it would probably get me drunk. There’s a shot at the bottom if we make it quick enough, If we make it before midnight we’ll bring another bottle up. There is a girl with America on the bathroom floor, She might be throwin’ up man but she’s still asking for more. This is the closest thing to freedom when you’re on papers and it sucks. And everything’s fucked, you can’t shut up. The a torrent at the levee, the pressure just keeps building up. APATHY! and GREY’S ANATOMY! Cuttin’ bottles down to size, Waiting for the sun to rise. Cats everywhere! Paint everywhere! Cats everywhere! Paint everywhere! At the cathouse! There’s a fly at the bottom of this bottle of vodka. And just like me, it has finally had enough! 21


Once Upon a Time

All alone At the Christmas tree Memories come back to me I remember when family met there Once upon a time I just can’t see why Birds must take flight, and why the old must die, and leave their memories of once upon a time When I colored that child black, I never understood why, that woman said don’t do that, and shook her finger once upon a time When I looked up at that giant man, and he took me in his giant hands, he proved that he was old and strong, but left me anyway, once upon a time.

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Tonight (for tomorrow morning might not come)

I’m alone for the last time tonight. I’m making my lasting mark tonight. I won’t stand for you tonight and I won’t take your looks tonight This is the end of denial. This is the end of my hypocrisy. I know who I am. I know who I will be. It was once dark, but now I can see the stars. It was once dark, but now the moon is casting sparks. I don’t need the sunshine anymore.

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Shweet Tea!

You released at just one dollar and my heart fluttered at the thought of health! Oh you sweet Delight! Oh you drink of Choice! Oh you prodigal product of “Micky Dee’s!” You pleased my tongue more than any drink I had consumed in existence! But no longer do you touch my lips, For I ‘m sad, sad, morose, morose, I grieve, and I’m distraught! For in your two gallon molecular structure lies 5 pounds of glucose, camouflaged by marvelous taste, it’s sole purpose to decompose my molars... No different than soda pop.

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The Difference

It was like a heart attack The final realization that I am healed and I will cry no more That one day I will make a difference In this town this state this country and even this world and when my Saviour’s death was shown to me I finally realized what profound means You may ask me what difference it made You wouldn’t have to believe me. Maybe you should find out for yourself Maybe you should stop forward and find the realization Maybe you should try to make a difference When Smokey told you to prevent the fire he didn’t mean just the woods. Stop the pain you can cause the world and turn your bad into good and finally when the day has come you will understand Why this man sacrificed himself for us Why this man loved us so much

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Potato Cake

If the rubber soles of my shoes hadn’t melted to the pavement of her heart. I would have run away long ago. I would have turned away long ago. I’ve told myself this 100,000 times. Now 100,001, and 99,000 times were lies. There was a time that I wished we would have loved, lived, and died... with coffins nailed side to side. I wouldn’t have minded the smell. But the future, myself, and God don’t always see eye to eye. So promises like Diet Soda go down the throat of time. “Pass down another drink.” “I think you’ve had your fill.” “I’ll tell YOU when I’m done.” Thus another momentarily broken life is lost to the drama of untrustworthy words, with their Nikes melted to the pavement.

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Miscommunimassacre

Look into destiny... look into the infinite vortex... that is love... Misunderstandings come as often as fruit flies live and die, and in the beginning of the universe, was it his or her miscommunication that sent us into our everlasting fight? And when tears fall like pumpernickel crumbs on the beard of father time, the clock of the universe does tick as slowly, my love does die. Now the weather gets much colder, and the tide of war subsides, but in the calm between the bouts... How many of the sane are left sulking in their shame, and how many of the once innocent are left with pure names?

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Flora’s Kiss

Flora kissed me, It was like I’d never been kissed before It was so surreal that I only wanted more. Now I know, now I know That I’d trade my weight in gold not to miss her In and out, in and out. The cobra always comes around. Might as well be a constrictor the way She holds me down. Flora kissed me on a train not far away. Sometimes I still dream of Her deep and piercing gaze. But now I know, now I know That I’d trade my weight in gold not to have kissecd her. Now I know, now I know That I’d trade my weight in gold not to miss you. In and out, in and out The cobra always comes around Might as well be a constrictor With the way she holds me down But now I know, now I know I’d trade my wieght in gold Never to have kissed her; Never to have missed her; Now I know. 28


I’m Fine

It seems these days I find Craving nothing all the time. No real desires in my life More money only brings more strife. No, there will be no lover tonight. But in truth my heart will be fine. All of this will pass with time. But at least for now, I’m fine. Doubting and doubting all the time. Totally ungrateful for my life. Yeah man, there’s nothing on my mind. At least for now I’m fine. At least for now I’m fine. For now I’m just blowing smoke. Not even sure that I’m alive. This place is like a joke, From another place and time. There is no solace to find, But at least for now I’m fine. Doubting and doubting all the time. Totally ungrateful for my life. Yeah man, there’s nothing on my mind. But at least for now I’m fine. At least for now, I’m fine.

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Li’l Bird

Brightest of minds, like the sun’s first light. You rise in your youth, oh li’l bird. Nevermore, will we suffer from viscious unstoppable wars. With li’l birds like you, what have we to fear. Li’l Bird Your wings rise with the horizon, The Ravens call may be awful to some, But to me, it’s beauty is matched by none. Brightest of minds, like the dawn’s first light. You rise in your youth, oh li’l bird. Nevermore, will we suffer from viscious unstoppable wars. With li’l birds like you, what have we to fear. Li’l Bird Your wings rise with the horizon. The Raven’s call may be awful to some, But to me, it’s beauty is matched by none. Don’t waste your time on boys like him. Don’t waste your time on his childlike whims. This li’l bird needs so much more room to fly. This li’l bird needs much more room to fly. This li’l bird... needs much more room... to fly... 30


Dylan James Kirk died unexpectedly on June 27, 2018. He leaves behind an amazing son and loving family. This is only a sampling of his writing. We are still searching for his journals so that we can put together a more complete collection of his work. The Lost Boys are forever family and Peter Pan will always be watching over us. See you in Neverland.

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#60  

Poetry / Lyric Chapbook in rememberance of Dylan James Kirk. All poetry and lyrics written by Dylan James Kirk (1991-2018). Graphics and b...

#60  

Poetry / Lyric Chapbook in rememberance of Dylan James Kirk. All poetry and lyrics written by Dylan James Kirk (1991-2018). Graphics and b...

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