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WARM SWEET LIPS Warm sweet lips press against mine My lips return the kiss with the same pressure My heart hops a little But the smile hides it all His strong arms wrap around my body I feel his soft skin against mine He whispers sweet words in my ear But the smile hides it all He says the words, “I love you.” “I love you, too,” escapes from my lips He smiles and I smile back But the smile hides it all His three words are meant to make me fly But wings do not appear And suddenly I start to fall But the smile hides it all Then it starts His body hard and swift against mine I try to respond with the same intensity But the smile hides it all Once it’s over he whispers, “I love you” again And I consciously force, “I love you, too.” He smiles at me and I make myself smile back— That smile that hides it all I feel more alone than I should feel now And tell myself, “You should be so happy” But I feel confused, empty, cold, used, Behind the smile that hides it all I know he doesn’t love me, “You love my parts,” I want to say, But I’m too obsessed Behind the smile that hides it all I know I’m not strong enough, and dream Of a day he’ll love me, not what I can do for him; I grow tired and I’m seized with pain But in the end my smile hides it. —Andrea Toepke-Floyd

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Plainsong 2013  

Art and literary journal of University of Jamestown, Jamestown, N.D.

Plainsong 2013  

Art and literary journal of University of Jamestown, Jamestown, N.D.