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THE CHAPTERS OF JAEISHA RACHEL DUENAS

By: Jaeisha R. Duenas


The Chapter of Jaeisha Rachel Duenas


TABLE OF CONTENTS Prologue

Map Of Life………….…………..17

How To…………………………….36

Letter Of Introduction………….1

A Mysterious Place…………….18

Always Say Never……………..37

What’s In A Name……….……..2

Synectics….………………………..19

Are You Hungry?...................38

Personal Alphabet……….……….3

A Day In The Life……………..20

Where I’m From………………..39

Likes/ Dislikes List……..………4

These Words Belong To Me…………………………………….21

Deck Of 52…………………………40

Sensory Experiences……………5

The Examined Life……………..41 In Other Word………………….22

Metaphorical Definitions……..6 A Quality Personality…….…...7

Annual Report……………………42 Flashback………………………….23 Ekphrasis…………………………..43

Color Your World…….………...8

Remembrance Of The Present……………………………..24

Visually Speaking………………44

Room Sweet Room………………9

As Time Goes Bye-Bye….….25

Personal Metaphors……….…..10

Lessons I Learned After It Was Too Late…………………….45

Cheer Yourself Up…………...27

Extended Metaphors……….….11

Metamorphosis…………………28

Symbolic Recipe…………….…..12

Picture This………………………29

Ultimate All-Purpose Excuse...............................……13

Look Who I Look Up To……30

Telling Tales……….……….…...14 Unfinished Sentences………...15

The Door…………………………..46 Advice To The Young………..47 Who Am I?.............................48

Remembering The Child…….32 One Medium Suitcase………...33

Rewarding Experience………..49 Valuable Lessons………………..50

The Perfect Present…………...34

Futures- Fantasy And Facts………………………………..51

Memorable Event………………35

Epilogue

Personal Symbol………………..16


PROLOGUE- (INTRODUCTION) The title I have chosen for this writing portfolio is "The Chapters of Jaeisha Rachel Duenas". It took me some time to finally figure out an ideal title for this project. I wanted my title to be just right and to mean something. Doing this autobiography assignment has made me focus more on myself as an individual and who I really am inside. The prompt in this assignment really makes me contemplate about life in general- my past, present, and also my future. I find this assignment really distinctive because with every prompt, I find myself along the way. My name is Jaeisha Rachel Duenas and I'm a senior here at GWHS. This writing assignment I'm doing is for my English class and throughout this project reveals the "untold stories" of my life. I'm usually a reserved person because I don't like talking about myself to others and opening up about my life. I'm only doing this because this project requires me to be more open about myself, that’s why I'm doing it. My life is like a book and some people may judge it, but to me I’m fine because it's not them that's living it it's me. Some chapters are depressing, some are crazy, and some are delightful. Each day I write is a new chapter, filled with memories and lessons and some I just want to forget. As I turn the pages into chapters in my book of stories, I answer each question with the best of my ability with my heart and honesty. Not only did this assignment help me find myself along the way, but it also helped me grow as a person because all the prompts concentrated mainly on who I am. It has asked me about my experiences, my lessons, my tribulations past, present, and also my future. Writing this assignment has shown me a way to discover myself and plus I enjoyed this. Some prompts were difficult and some were easy, but that's the whole point of putting your brain to good use. Although it was a lot and time consuming on my part, I knew it will benefit me in the future and what's to come. I'm amazed of how writing can help people express who they truly are inside and find themselves in other ways. Writing can help express who you are as a person and I'm not one of them you can see through. Writing is a skill and like any skill is perfected through a lot of practice, but sooner or later you will get there in time just be patient.


WHAT’S IN A NAME? Hi my name is Jaeisha Rachel Duenas. Duenas is my father's surname so naturally it has become mine. How my name was given to me is kind of funny because it was a surprise on both sides. My parents were not the ones who gave my twin and I our names. It was my dad's sister and her daughter who did at the time. My Auntie Ning and her daughter Nonie. Were the ones who came up with our names and my parents agreed to it. I did some research on my name and the only thing I got was its originally from the Muslim name "Jaisha", but that's not where they got our names. My name was given to me at such short notice and same goes for my twin because my parents did not know they were expecting twins. We were given the names because my cousin and auntie decided to use all the J's in our family for our names. Also because we were the first twins to be born into the family so they wanted ours to be unique but special in a way. It came as a surprise to my parents because they thought that they were only having one child, but they were wrong and shocked. It was three weeks before my mom gave birth to us when they found out that they were having twins instead of just one child. My mom had to give birth to us early and I do not know why, but we were 7 1/2 months premature and I guess you could say tiny. When it was time for our birth certificates to be written my auntie tore it apart because she did not like the names that my dad had given us. In the end my parents agreed because it was names that were meant for twins. In my family from both sides we don't usually go by our real names, we all go by other names. My families usually calls me "Mannge' Nene" which is in Chamorro and my twin Annie-nanni.


PERSONAL ALPHABET A- ADVENTUROUS *I always like to try new experiences, and I'm willing to take risks* B- BASHFUL *I'm always reluctant to show who I really am to people.* C- CAUTIOUS *I'm careful of who is around me and of the dangers.* D- DREAMER *Being in my own zone and always day dreaming.* E- EAGER *I have to do something to keep me busy.* F- FRANK *Being open minded and speaking my mind.* G- GRATEFUL *I am thankful for many things and being alive is one of them.* H- HONEST *Sincere is who I am and who I've always been.* I- INSECURE *One of the things I lack is confidence, but always anxious and hesitant.* J- JUBILANT *Usually I'm overjoyed and happy.* K- KINDNESS *I always care and is kindhearted.* L- LOYAL *I'll remain as a constant support until you do wrong.*

M- MEAN *If you hurt me then expect it back from me.* N- NICE *Show me the same courtesy that you would want in return.* O- OPTIMISTIC *I have hopes and confidence about my future.* P- POLITE *I am respectful and considerate of other people and of their feelings.* Q- QUIET *I like it when there is silence and no noise around.* R- READER *I love to read books and collect them.* S- SIMPLE *I don't like to be all flashy, classy, and lustrous, I like to be just plain.* T- TRADITIONAL *Want to be married before having kids, need to ask parents for my hand in marriage first.* U- UNDERSTANDING *I'm aware of others feelings and always forgiving.* V- VERACIOUS *I have to always speak the truth because it's better than lying.* W- WEIRD *I sometimes talk about things out of the ordinary.* X- XENIAL *I am a hospitable person.* Z- ZEALOUS *My good deeds are never far away. *


LIKES/ DISLIKES LIST LIKES:

DISLIKES:

1.) Family 2.) Being A Twin 3.) Animals 4.) School 5.) Reading Books 6.) Poetry 7.) Country Music 8.) Planting 9.) All Colors 10.) Sports 11.) Food 12.) Water 13.) Good Grades 14.) Having Long Hair 15.) Running

1.) Bullies 2.) Steelers 3.) Cancer 4.) Abuse 5.) Dramatics 6.) Liars 7.) Bruises 8.) Racist 9.) Pretenders 10.) Dairy Products 11.) Users 12.) Clutter 13.) Crowds 14.) Heartache 15.) Showoffs


SENSORY EXPERIENCES A DAY AT THE BEACH SEE ~ Families Having Fun ~ Men At The Grill TOUCH ~ Soft Sand ~ Salty Water TASTE ~ Red Rice ~ BBQ Ribs And Chicken SMELL ~ Salty Ocean Water ~ BBQ Smoke HEAR ~ Laughter ~ Splashing Of The Ocean


METEPHORICAL DEFINITIONS 1.) Family is an Inspiration 2.) Life is a Gift 3.) Hope is a Positive Side 4.) Losing is Painful 5.) Depressed is Grief 6.) Time is Longing 7.) Love is a Journey 8.) Beauty is a Kind Heart 9.) Fear is taking the Wrong Path 10.) Laugh is Happiness


A QUALITY PERSONALITY Contentment Around the age of fifteen or sixteen she knew God had something planned for her. In her, contentment never gave up. Throughout half of her life she was at odds with many things. Contentment did not silence her courage or steal her memories of life. Contentment made her more content about herself. She always wanted to be in the Marine's, but some people said that she could not make it. She thought that not getting the surgery would make her feel free and not have to worry. Contentment got her to lose some weight, but in the end she got depressed and found comfort in food. Contentment is a now eighteen year old lady who stands up for what she believes in and has cancer in her intestines. She is left now with the hopes and dreams of becoming who she wants to be. Contentment got her to see that doing the surgery would give her a longer chance of living. Not doing the surgery she could probably put her life at risk and have colon cancer as well and have a faster chance of not staying alive. She has decided that she does not want to hurt anymore and also the people that are in her life. Contentment won many things and some had to be earned. Contentment was starting High School and finishing and not taking the lazy way out. All it took for her to keep focus of her dreams and goals was to stay positive and motivated.


COLOR YOUR WORLD When my day is going good, things become blue because at times I won't let things get in my way. When I’m sad and confused, everything around me becomes gray. When I’m happy or in my weird zone, my world becomes yellow. My name is Jaeisha and I am 18 years old and for most of my life, I have been seeing green because I love the outdoors. Most of my life I have also been seeing red because at times I am crazy. Every time I get a new animal, I see the color orange. I can’t imagine what it's like to see two colors at once because I have not reach that point yet. When I see grief, the only color that comes to my mind is black. To me it means that person is empty inside for that hole to be filled. When the day of graduation comes, all I'll be seeing is gold, because it's a step closer to my future and who and what I want to become. When I walk onto the stage to receive my diploma, and shake those people’s hands, all I'll be seeing is gray because no more high school for me. I smile for the camera but blink a couple of times because the flash hurts my eyes. I’m seeing purple for my accomplishments because I passed high school and made it. At that moment I'm just going to let those feelings sink in, until I am told to get back to my seat. When the time comes for me to start my own family, the only color that comes to my mind is white. To me it means a start of a new chapter and to cherish who and what comes in my life.


ROOM SWEET ROOM Sadly I share my room with my twin, but nonetheless I love my room. The walls are white which we both like because its looks better when it's plain. Another thing that you will notice is the containers filled with books and shelves with stacks and stacks of books. As you already notice my twin and I love read. You also notice a table with a lot of composition notebooks because we love to write our own versions of poems that come from within our hearts. You will also see many flash lights because in case of emergency we have those lights to fall back on. We love to collect books and I love to see them grow because it gives me this certain satisfaction. There is also my bed which I love so much because I like to have a lot of comforters and pillows on it. If there is not many on my bed then it feels weird because I cannot sleep well. I have some pictures of my family pinned on my wall with us all smiling. I like looking at those pictures and remembering those moments we had together as a family. My room in general is stuffed with so much things that are very valuable to me. I have my collection of books, written poems, and memories hidden in my room that you may never find. Each treasure in my room gives me this blissful, protective feeling of belonging.


PERSONAL METAPHORS 1.) ANIMAL= Giant Panda 2.) CAR= 2014 Dodge Challenger 3.) ARTICLE OF CLOTHING= Jumper 4.) DAY OF THE WEEK= Monday 5.) FOOD= Spaghetti 6.) COLOR= Red 7.) MOVIE= The Parent Trap 8.) FRAGRANCE= The Smell Of Fresh Cut Grass 9.) TYPE OF BUILDING= A Frame 10.) PLANT= Flame Tree 11.) MUSICAL INSTRUMENT= Guitar 12.) GEOMETRIC SHAPE= Pyramid 13.) PIECE OF FURNITURE= Bed 14.) SONG= "Skin (Sarabeth)" By: Rascal Flatts 15.) SEASON OF THE YEAR= Summer 16.) TELEVISION CHARACTER = Mariska Hargitay 17.) CARTOON OR COMIC CHARACTER= Donkey (Eddie Murphy) From "The Shrek" 18.) APPLIANCE OR MACHINERY= Phone 19.) NATURAL PHENOMENON= Typhoon 20.) WORD= Courage


EXTENDED METAPHORS 1. Food- Spaghetti ~The noodles represent my long life span. The sauce represents how daring I can be. The meat balls represent how chubby I am. 2. Color- Red ~The color red represents my dark side when I'm sad. Red also represents the soft side that I have because I'm soft- hearted. At times I can withstand what god throws my way. 3. Movie- The Parent Trap ~When I'm far away from my twin I have this longing of being close to her. My twin and I can be devious when we want to be. We also switch places and trick people when we're bored. 4. Song- Skin (Sarabeth) By: Rascal Flatts ~I can relate to this song because I was also in High School when I found out that I have cancer. Every time I woke up I would always find my hair on my pillow. I was also scared when I went to the doctors to find out my results, it was not the results that I wanted. 5. Word- Courage ~When I found out that I was sick I knew that I had to fight my illness. I had to show people that I'm strong and I can fight and put o a brave face. At times though I get really scared to death.


SYMBOLIC RECIPE INGREDIENTS 5 ½ cups of dorkiness 4 cups of humor 1 cups of stubbornness 6 ½ cups love of animals 6 ½ cups love of nature 5 tbs. of crazy ½ tbs. of impatience 2 ½ cups of curiosity 1 tbs. of adventure 3 cups of friendliness

*DIRECTIONS First off make sure to measure each ingredient perfectly. Don’t stir too fast or too slow because it won’t turn out right. Then you should add and mix together 5 ½ cups of dorkiness, 4 cups of humor, 1 tbs. of adventure, 5 tbs. of crazy, 3 cups of friendliness, ½ tbs. of impatience, 6 ½ cups love of nature, and 6 ½ cups love of animals all in one bowl. Make sure to put lid on top and put to the side. Next you add 1 cup of stubbornness, and 2 ½ cups of curiosity into a small bowl for icing. Get cooking pan and spray it with a none stick cooking spray. Pour mixture onto pan and place it into oven at 350 degrees for about 30 minutes. Then when it’s all done remove it from oven and cool it off. Next you’ll want to add icing on top for that sweet tooth of yours. When you're done take a step back and admire your work. All these steps created the most perfect and ridiculous recipe aka Jaeisha R. Duenas you’ll ever get in your life.


THE ULTIMATE ALL-PURPOSE EXCUSE Dear Mrs. Griffin I'm really sorry that I was late to your class. You see on my way back to School after dropping my parents back home. I saw a woman carrying her child on her way to their appointment. I could not find it in me to just pass by, so I stopped and gave them a ride. I felt really bad because I know if that was me walking with my baby, I would hope that someone would stop and give me a ride. So I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive my tardiness, but if you don't then I understand because in the end it was me who was late not you. You see my parents brought me up to always be respectful and help those in needs because one day, I just might need someone's help in return.


TELLING TALES The story I hear the most is about when I was very little. I would always be at the table eating whatever that was there in front of me. I would also put random things in my mouth that could hurt me and sometimes my parents would panic. They would call me the “Human Round Table.� When I first heard this story I thought they were making it up, but as I got older to understand it was actually true. It turns out that they were true; I would stuff my mouth with all kinds of foods that in the end I would get a stomach ache and cry. In the end my parents were glad that it wasn't toys or other kinds of objects that was put into my mouth. I guess you could say that I was a naughty child from the start, from what I was told by my family on both sides.


UNFINISHED SENTENCES 1.) I usually worry about... my twin sister and I when we are apart from one another. I usually worry about my parents when I'm not next to them because at times they tend to do things that will hurt them in the end. I usually worry about many things because I'm always scared to do something and always nervous. 2.) I feel angry when... I cannot do anything within my reach. I feel angry when people talk about my family in a bad way. I feel angry when girls talk about my twin and I thinking they got it all. 3.) I'm moody when... it's that time of the month. I'm moody when my family hurts my animals and thinks it's funny to them. I'm moody when I am very tired and in pain. 4.) I'm happiest when... I'm with all my family and friends. I'm happiest when I am by myself and it's quiet all around. I'm happiest when I'm cleaning and cooking for my family. 5.) I feel confident when... people are honest with me. I feel confident when I am well prepared for something. I feel confident when people say good comments on the things that I do. 6.) I feel frustrated when... I am told to do something last minute. I feel frustrated when I am rushed and have very little time to do stuff. I feel frustrated when people around me talk to much and think they know everything. 7.) I feel depressed when... things from my past are mentioned to others. I feel depressed when someone tells me that a relative is in the hospital or has passed. I feel depressed when I have nightmares about my past. 8.) I am comfortable when... I am by myself and no one is around. I feel comfortable when my mind is cleared from all the drama and stress. I feel comfortable when I am relaxed and at the beach with my family. 9.) I feel nervous when... I am not well prepared for something. I feel nervous when I am told to do something I have never done before. I feel nervous when I am in front of a crowd or when people have all their attention on me. 10.) I feel sentimental when... it comes to my animals. I feel sentimental when it comes to children that cross my path. I feel sentimental when people around me are feeling down.


PERSONAL SYMBOL I chose life because I can only live once and to me once is enough if I live it right. Life means a lot to me because sometimes through the good and the bad, I’ll still cherish those moments. When I look around me and I see people just wasting theirs. I hope and pray that I don’t become one of them. Life means a lot and I know that my parents wouldn’t want me to waste mine on nonsense. It means so much to me because my parents are the ones who gave me life in the first place, without them I wouldn’t be alive today. Knowing that I’m still breathing and trying my very best in life to make my future turn out right. It just goes to show that I’m stronger than I look. Life is too precious to waist, so we have to make the best of it. For example, what if I take my life all I’ll be leaving behind is grief and sadness for those that loved me. Having a twin in my life and imagining her not there anymore is unbearable to my eyes. I don’t know what my life would be like, but I know that it won’t be the same as now if she’s not in it that’s for sure.


MAP OF LIFE * November 1995~ Jaeisha Rachel Duenas is born in Tamuning, Guam. (GMH) * December 1997~ meets fake Santa and cries. * January 1998~ my first tooth falls out. * February 1999~ fell off the top of my bed. * March 2000~ played swords with wooden sticks and got bruised. * April 2003~ played hide and seek with twin and got smashed in the closest. * April 2003~ I got stuck in my closest by my twin. * May 2004~ got my first bike and fell off. * June 2006~ my brother and I played football and he tackled me hard to the ground. * July 2007~ had a party for my crazy brother. * August 2009~ played dare devil and tried to break my neck on the hill of my back yard. * September 2010~ got suspended for defending my twin. * September 2010~ my twin wrote that I can beat up all the girls and almost got me jumped. * October 2010~ almost got myself run over by accident. * October 2010~ started watching crime shows like Law and Order: S.V.U. * October 2010~ helped my sisters with their math work. * November 2010~ watched my first war show. * November 2010~ had a party for my twin & I. * December 2010~ parents sat me down and said we need to get myself checked at the doctors. * December 2010~ had my procedure to check if I'm okay and clear.

* December 2010~ got my results two or three days before Christmas that I had to go through surgery. * December 2010~ found out that I have intestinal cancer called multiple polyposis in other words. * January 2011~ shut out everybody that I knew in my life. * January 2011~ at the time got depressed and sort of blamed my parents. * February 2011~ started to write my own poems. * March 2011~ got really sick and had to go the hospital. * April 2011~ got sick again and had to go back to the hospital. * May 2012~ my niece Jhonivel Ish'Lanna Duenas is born. * June 2012~ fell off the bed while I was jumping. * July 2012~ played volleyball for gym class and by accident hit my teacher. * November 2013~ started to love U.F.C and wrestling * December 2013~ had to participate in soccer for gym class, in the end I loved it. * January 2014~ afraid that I'm a senior about to graduate. * March 2014~ realized that graduation is near and college is on the way. * April 2014~ got locked in the Xerox room in the main office as a prank. * May 2013~ during a game a ball hit me in the face by twin on purpose. * May 2013~ prepared for the future and what's to come my way, whether it's good or bad.


A MYSTERIOUS PLACE The place I have found exotic and peaceful is the dark. I say this because the people that I know are afraid. Some adults in my family like to tell me that it’s bad and where the spirits are. At times I don’t believe them because sitting in the dark all by myself is where I find peace and quiet. Some nights I avoid the dark because my relatives like to tell me that I’m depressed and sad. My family hates it when I’m alone in the dark. I have to be cautious about things that linger near. Being in the dark I can be myself and I’m alone. All my stress, worries, doubts, and troubles just fade away. What lies within I do not know, the dark can be a mysterious and fearful place to be. Sometimes I wonder what’s in the dark, what’s to fear, and what’s intriguing about it. For me I can somewhat say that I’m not afraid, but there will always be something that I fear. There is a point in everybody’s life when someone gets scared of something, but the things that we are afraid of are the things that make us stronger.


SYNECTICS 1) Which is wiser? A Pen or A Pencil? (1.) *I would say a pencil, because although a pen is more confident and willing to take fault, a pencil has a second to put the wrongs to right. 2) Which is smarter? A Clock or A Calendar? (3.) *I’d say a calendar, because it is written and permanent, whereas the clock can be broken or tinkered with. 3) Which is easier to teach? A Question or An Answer? (4.) *I’d say a question is easier to teach, because you cannot teach an answer without a question. 4) Which is like a contest? A Cloud or A Sunset? (5.) *A cloud would be like a contest, because there is only one sunset, but many clouds that follow. 5) Which is more fearful? New or Old? (6.) *I would say new is more fearful, because you don’t know what to expect or what it’s capable of. 6) Which has more pride? An Entrance or An Exit? (10.) *I would say an entrance has more pride, because it knows what it stands for and is most known. 7) Which is like a legend? A Mirror or Glass? (12.) *I think a mirror is like a legend, because it’s the reflection of the truth, unlike a glass you can see right through it no matter what angle. 8) Which is more useful? A Friend or An Enemy? (16.) *I would say an enemy, because they let you know your weakness and they say what’s on their mind about you. 9) Which is happier? Music or Art? (29.) *Art is happier, because it’s more appreciated than music and sometimes you have to look beyond the picture itself. 10) Which is braver? An Hour or A Year? (9.) An hour, because it takes only an hour for you to do something extraordinary. 11) Which is more difficult? A Dream or A Nightmare? (8.) *A dream is more difficult, because we want it so bad to come to come true at a certain time, that sometimes we thinks it’s never going to come.


A DAY IN THE LIFE Annie was walking in the hallway when her English teacher called her. Mrs. Austin her teacher questioned her about the bruises that are appearing on her body. Annie did not know what to do because even herself, she does not know the answer to that question. Mrs. Austin assumed that she was being abused at home and that made Annie mad. Annie comes from a loving family, her brother Michael is like her own father and her mother is amazing. She left school and ran home because it was only making her sad. The school called her mom at work and told her what was happening. Ms.Grey came home and asked to see her bruises; her mom was shocked to death because she does not know how she gets them. That same day Ms.Grey, Annie, and Michael went to see the doctors and to find out what's going on. The doctors did so many tests and gave her many shots that she lost count. All three of them had to wait three to five weeks for the results to come in. Annie was sitting in the hospital bed when the doctor in charge came in with this ugly look on his face. Right there they knew that the results were not good, Dr. Jason broke the news and at first she did not want to believe it. Annie is chubby and big boned, but healthy as a horse. She went home mad and sad at the same time, thinking to herself that it's her parent’s fault that she has cancer. At first she blamed her parents, but came to an understanding that it's not their fault it's just life. She was scared at first and things from then on have not been easy for her. So she took each day with hope, strength, courage and love from her family and friends. Three and a half years has passed and she's still strong and living life. The sad part about all this is her twin also has it as well.


THESE WORDS BELONG TO ME 1. Mysterious: I can be curious and puzzling at times. 2. Nerd: I like to stay home to cook, clean, and read books. 3. Understanding: Sometimes I know my parents are saying in Chamorro. 4. Unique: My twin and I are the only twins that are close. 5. Simplicity: I like to be plain and myself. 6. Wondrous: I'm wonderful at heart and at times mean. 7. Believe: I have faith in myself when others try to bring me down. 8. Wisdom: I consider the good judgment of my family and friends. 9. Courageous: When the doctor told me that I have cancer, I put on a brave face and faced what God throws my way. 10. Dreamer: When I'm alone I fantasize about my future and who I'll be with.


IN OTHER WORDS 1.) "I find television very educating, every time someone turns on the set, I go into the other room and read a book." - Groucho Marx 2.) "Love the life you live, live the life you love." - Bob Marley 3.) "Some people don't know the promises they're making when they make them." - John Green 4.) "I have great faith in fools, self-confidence my friends will call it." - Edgar Allen Poe 5.) "It is better to be hated for what you are, than to be loved for what you are not." - Andre Gide 6.) "You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough." - Mae West 7.) "I have always imagined that Paradise will be a kind of library." - Jorge Luis Borges 8.) "A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard 9.) "What's meant to be will always find a way." - Trisha Yearwood 10.) "The things you do for yourself are gone when you are gone, but the things you do for others remain as your legacy." - Kalu Ndukwe Kalu


FLASHBACK The day I would like to change is Thursday, December 23, 2010. I want to change that day because it's the scariest and saddest day of my life. I thought that my life was ending when the doctor told me the news. At first I didn't want to believe him, I thought he was just messing with my head. Later on That day I had to come to grips that its really true. That the day I want to change and erase everything even me having it. If I had the chance to go back and change that day I would, but it still wouldn't change the fact that I have it. When the doctor came in the room I knew from the look on his face it not good. He told me it was some form of cancer called multiple polyposis in my small intestine. It would accomplish me not having to be hurt. Being depressed or taking my anger out on my family when they were only trying to be there for me. A few months later I got news in school that my twin also has it.


REMEMBER OF THINGS PRESENT In twenty years from now I would already be thirty-eight years old. I can barely remember my elementary years. I am who I am today because of my family, teachers, and also friends. They helped me through some rough obstacles when I was young. They gave given some great advice, and told me not to give up so quickly on what I what out of life. School because the teachers that I have are ones that are educating me. They are teaching me I don't know and is helping me get prepared for the real world out there. I want to remember my high school years, how I was so crazy beings who I am within. When thirty-eight does come I know for sure that I'm a different person in a good way. I know that if you compare my mind set now to the future it's going to turn out different. I would like to remember the memories that I've made In Okkodo High School and here in George Washington High School. All I can tell you now is that being a senior, I'm having the time of life in school.


AS TIME GOES BYE-BYE There are many things that I want out of life, but for now I just settle with what I have right now. One of the things that I want by the time I am thirty-five is to be successful. I would love to be successful because when I look around me, I see many people just wasting theirs. Education and talent should not be wasted on people who do not appreciate what is given to them and can take them to many places. 1.) Graduate High School In 2014. 2.) Go To College (GCC). 3.) Join The Marine's Or Army. 4.) Have My Own House. 5.) Graduate From College With Bachelor's And Master's Degree. 6.) Travel To Spain, Egypt, Rome, Greece, and Italy. 7.) Design My Own Clothing Line For Plus Size Ladies. 8.) Own A 1969 Dodge Charger. 9.) Get Married. 10.) Have My Own Family To Support And Look After.


MY OWN LIST OF LIST A.) People who have influenced me... 1. My Mom 2. My Dad 3. My Twin 4. Counselor 5. Nicolas Sparks 6. Teachers

F.) Things that worry me... 1. My Family 2. Future 3. College 4. Money 5. Twin 6. Doubts

B.) Places that make me happy... 1. Library 2. The Beach 3. My Room 4. A Tree 5. Lake 6. Being Home

G.) Things I would like to know how to do... 1. Play Piano 2. Not Worry 3. Be Bilingual 4. Write With Left Hand 5. Stop Being Shy 6. Fly A Plane

C.) Places I would like to go... 1. United Kingdom 2. Italy 3. Australia 4. Germany 5. Ireland 6. Scotland D.) Things in people which I like... 1. Humor 2. Caring 3. Honesty 4. Craziness 5. Wise 6. Intelligent E.) Things in people which I dislike... 1. Self-centered 2. Unreasonable 3. Judgmental 4. Rude 5. Too Sarcastic 6. Fake

H.) Things that have moved me... 1. (Good) Being A Twin 2. (Good) Animals 3. (Bad) Cancer 4. (Bad) Breakups 5. (Good) Children 6. (Bad) Abuse I.) Ideas that intrigue me... 1. Traveling The World 2. Where Authors Get Their Ideas 3. Meeting Oprah Winfrey 4. My Future 5. Being A Doctor 6. Being An Attorney J.) My personal favorites... 1. Food 2. Crime Shows 3. Books 4. Graduation 5. College 6. Crime Shows


CHEER YOURSELF UP                         

Go Sky Diving. Fly In An Helicopter. Climb The Eiffel Tower. Go To A Concert. Stand On The Grand Canyon. Go Inside The Pentagon. Adopt Eight Kids From Nowhere. Go To Mexico. Live In Different Places Every Month. Ride In A Hot Air Balloon. Buy A Hotel. Go To Australia, Spain, Egypt, And Greece. Stay In The White House. Learn To Play The Piano. Learn To Play The Guitar. Go To The Moon. Stay In Texas. Meet Oprah Winfrey. Volunteer In Foreign Places. Own A Palace. Learn How To Do Graffiti Art. Own Ten Sports Cars. Take Part In Charities For Kids. Buy My Parents Their Own Dream House And Cars. Have A Family Of My Own.


METAMORPHOSIS I USED TO BE…

NOW I AM…

Younger Mean Sadder Clumsy A freshman A sophomore Lighter Healthier A wise crack Talkative

Older Wiser Happier More cautious Writing my own poems A lover for books A dreamer Shy Soft-hearted Scared Stronger Boring Now I am a senior Now I am ready to graduate


PICTURE THIS Taken By: A Stranger In the photo: Two Important People Location: A Lake Located In Piti Taken on: January 2, 1962 The photo not shown was taken at a lake in Piti by some stranger that my parents didn't know. It was my dad's birthday and my parents just wanted to stroll around the island. So they spent the whole day there just eating and talking. This is a beautiful photo that's special because this was taken before my siblings and I was even thought of. My dad said that when the sun hit, it was shining and made my mom's face glow up like crystals. A group of people came and was in awe of them because they're spending time together and showing their love for one another. For me, this is a photo of happiness and it does not get better than that.


LOOK WHO I LOOK UP TO Here is some of the great and courageous people I look up too and deserve my admiration in life: Annelies "Anne" Marie Frank, (12 June 1929 – early March 1945) is one of the most discussed Jewish victims of the Holocaust. Born in the city of Frankfurt in Wiemar Germany, she lived most of her life in or near Amsterdam, in the Netherlands. Born a German national, Frank lost her citizenship in 1941. Her diary documents her experiences hiding during the German occupation of the Netherlands in World War II. After a year or two year of hiding, the group was betrayed and transported to concentration camps. Anne Frank and her sister, Margot Frank, were eventually transferred to the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp, where they died of typhus in March 1945. The blank diary, which was given to Anne on her thirteenth birthday, chronicles her life from 12 June 1942 until 1 August 1944. Frank frequently wrote, although she shielded her work with her hands and refused to discuss the content of her writing. The Frank sisters had highly distinct personalities, Margot being well-mannered, reserved, and studious, while Anne was outspoken, energetic, and extroverted. Most of Anne's time was spent reading and studying, and she regularly wrote and edited her diary entries. In addition to providing a narrative of events as they occurred, she wrote about her feelings, beliefs, and ambitions, subjects she felt she could not discuss with anyone. As her confidence in her writing grew, and as she began to mature, she wrote of more abstract subjects such as her belief in God, and how she defined human nature. Frank aspired to become a journalist, writing in her diary on Wednesday, 5 April 1944. She continued writing regularly until her last entry of 1 August 1944. In 1999, Time named Anne Frank among the heroes and icons of the 20th century on their list The Most Important People of the Century, stating: "With a diary kept in a secret attic, she braved the Nazis and lent a searing voice to the fight for human dignity". She helped others deal with difficulties, struggles, dangers, and cruelty of the world. Anne Frank is a strong, brave, smart, and also optimistic bright girl, who held her head up high and stayed hopeful through the worst. Rosa Louise McCauley Parks, (February 4, 1913 – October 24, 2005) was an AfricanAmerican civil rights activist, whom the United States Congress called "the first lady of civil rights" and "the mother of the freedom movement". Her birthday, February 4, and the day she was arrested, December 1, have both become Rosa Parks Day, commemorated in the U.S. states of California and Ohio. On December 1, 1955, in Montgomery, Alabama, Parks refused to obey bus driver James F. Blake's order that she give up her seat in the colored section to a white passenger, after the white section was filled. Parks' act of defiance and the Montgomery Bus Boycott became important symbols of the modern Civil Rights Movement. She became an international icon of resistance to racial segregation. She organized and collaborated with civil rights leaders, including Edgar Nixon, president of the local chapter of the NAACP; and Martin Luther King, Jr., a new minister in town who gained national


prominence in the civil rights movement. She had recently attended the Highlander Folk School, a Tennessee center for training activists for workers' rights and racial equality. She acted as a private citizen "tired of giving in". Although widely honored in later years, she also suffered for her act; she was fired from her job as a seamstress in a local department store. In her final years, she suffered from dementia. Parks received national recognition, including the NAACP's 1979 Spingarn Medal, the Presidential Medal of Freedom, the Congressional Gold Medal, and a posthumous statue in the United States Capitol's National Statuary Hall. Upon her death in 2005, she was the first woman and second non-U.S. government official to lie in honor at the Capitol Rotunda. Rosa Parks was both brave and strong who stood up for what she thought was right for the good of others and for her. She stood against segregation at the time and I for one admire that of her. Martin Luther King, Jr. (January 15, 1929 – April 4, 1968) was an American pastor, activist, humanitarian, and leader in the African-American Civil Rights Movement. He is best known for his role in the advancement of civil rights using nonviolent civil disobedience based on his Christian beliefs. He was born Michael King, but his father changed his name in honor of the German reformer Martin Luther. King also helped to organize the 1963 March on Washington, where he delivered his famous "I Have a Dream" speech. There, he established his reputation as one of the greatest orators in American history. J. Edgar Hoover considered him a radical and made him an object of the Federal Bureau of Investigation's cointelpro for the rest of his life. On October 14, 1964, King received the Nobel Peace Prize for combating racial inequality through nonviolence. In 1965, he and the SCLC helped to organize the Selma to Montgomery marches and the following year, he took the movement north to Chicago to work on segregated housing. In the final years of his life, King expanded his focus to include poverty and the Vietnam War, alienating many of his liberal allies with a 1967 speech titled "Beyond Vietnam". In 1968 King was planning a national occupation of Washington, D.C., to be called the Poor People's Campaign, when he was assassinated on April 4 in Memphis, Tennessee. His death was followed by riots in many U.S. cities. Allegations that James Earl Ray, the man convicted of killing King, had been framed or acted in concert with government agents persisted for decades after the shooting. King was posthumously awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom and the Congressional Gold Medal. Martin Luther King, Jr. Day was established as a holiday in numerous cities and states beginning in 1971, and as a U.S. federal holiday in 1986. A memorial statue on the National Mall was opened to the public in 2011. He stood against racism and segregation and knew at the back of his mind that if he kept on, his life would be in danger. To me it means that he didn't care so long as he put a stop to all the violence that's tearing us human beings apart inside and out. But he did care about the safety of his family and love ones.


REMEMBERING THE CHILD Ever since I was little, I have always been curious, weird, and very stubborn. My parents would always call me the jealous baby and still does. I would do crazy things, anything that would come into my mind without a second thought. Even when people would tell me no, I would not listen and still do it. I would lay on the street, hurt myself at the playground because I'm filled with energy. I would be so impatient to play outside, I’d run out of the house with no shoes on. I just wanted to start the adventure of the day. My parents knew that I would be the chubbier twin, but the one that's got the soft heart. When I was young I got into fights, but I had my reasons too. At that time kids would just hit me, but I wouldn't hit them back. My family would get mad at me for not standing up for myself. My mom would be sad and my dad would be angry and tell me, "You know better than to let kids bully you, stick up for yourself." So from then on whoever hurt me I'd push them, sometimes it even gets passed that. I would drive my parents crazy because my twin was always with me. When my parents talk about me being young I can only laugh because I don't know how they handle me as a child. I laugh because I could just imagine the look on my mom and dad's face. I also smile too because it shows that my parents still love me for who I am. It sometimes amazes me how long my parents have been together because of the headaches my siblings and I have given them. At times my mom makes me mad because she can barely take a joke. My dad on the other hand he can. I still drive both my parents crazy with my big personality. I appreciate them very much and proud to call them my parents.


ONE MEDIUM SUITCASE If I was to leave home forever, I would bring with me a family picture. I would bring with me knife to cut things open. Having the knife with me can give me that sense of security, if someone or something crosses my path. In my medium suitcase I would place two to four books inside for me to read. Reading as always been my thing and without books near me I would be sad. I would bring with me foods that are already packaged for me to eat later on. Inside my medium suitcase I would put several pens and papers for me to write my poems and letters. I love to write poems because that's where I can escape to when I'm feeling sad and depressed. It's also where I can put all my thoughts and feelings in and nobody will judge me. I would also take with me several clothes and slippers for me to use while I'm gone. The clothes may not be enough but at least I something on by back and something under my feet. Other than all these that I have mentioned if my whole family can fit into my medium size suitcase I would definitely shove them in and take them. Family to me in the most important part of my life.


THE PERFECT PRESENT The perfect gift for me would be self-confidence. The reason why is because I need it. Sometimes I think I'm too fat or look ugly. I am insecure about a lot of things when I'm around people. I do have some confidence in myself, but I can use more in my life. I hate it when I'm walking and I feel like something's wrong with my clothing, if I have stains of my clothes, or something's wrong with my shoes. I need to have more self-confidence in myself because when I'm in front of a class I get so nervous and I sometimes forget what I'm supposed to say. I dislike the fact that when it’s me up front, I feel like I'm going to do or say something wrong that later the class will laugh at me for it. Sometimes I try not to over think what people might say about me and it gives me some self-confidence in myself. At times to be honest it gets to me, but I don't let it control my life and who I am and who I want to become in the future. I am trying to get out of my comfort zone and it scares me, but at some point I need to conquer me own fears if I want to get past it.


MEMORABLE EVENT

The event that I experienced this senior year that was memorable for me was the senior gift wrap. It was memorable I met people that I did not know, also got to meet little kids as well. It was memorable because I got to wrap stranger’s gift and it was fun because we made it fun. While I was wrapping their gifts their smiles were big and bright and just to see them smile made my day. During this event I got to know people I go to school with that I don't talk to. It made me step out of my comfort zone just a little bit and it was worth every minute. Wrapping their gifts I made the little kids pick out what sticker they liked, the ribbon they wanted and the wrapper to wrap the gift with. The people that attended with me was my twin Anna, Tana and Nene. It was memorable because as we were wrapping the gifts we were singing off tune and in front of a crowd that was funny.


HOW TO... *How To Disturb People In The Movie Theater's... 1.) Chew like a cow. 2.) Sing any song that comes to mind. 3.) Throw popcorn at any direction. 4.) Laugh and scream loudly. 5.) Take phone calls during the show. *How To Be Disobedient... 1.) Be naughty. 2.) Disobey the adults. 3.) Be disruptive. 4.) Answer back. 5.) Ignore what you are being told. *How To Be Funny... 1.) Set the scene for laughter. 2.) Borrow some witty words. 3.) Tell humorous stories. 4.) Tell some fake stories. 5.) Remember the bottom line.

*How To Be Outspoken... 1.) Have confidence in yourself. 2.) Overcome your shyness. 3.) Be well spoken. 4.) Know what matters to you. 5.) Develop your own opinions.

*How To Be Weird... 1.) Act like someone else in a good way. 2.) Don't care what other people think. 3.) Run up to random people and say crazy stuff. 4.) Overreact to anything. 5.) Have a passion for books. *How To Be Happy... 1.) Be optimistic. 2.) Own yourself. 3.) Stay close to family and friends. 4.) Smile a lot. 5.) Forgive the good and the bad. 6.) Be compassionate.


ALWAYS SAY NEVER 1.) I will never stop caring for the ones I love. 2.) I will never stop being who I really am. 3.) I will never read a horror book. 4.) I will never give up on my hopes and dreams. 5.) I will never stop smiling. 6.) I will never stop being crazy and weird. 7.) I will never stop reading books. 8.) I will never stop being afraid of heights. 9.) I will never stop writing poems. 10.) I will never say good-bye to anyone, even if they passed.


ARE YOU HUNGRY? My favorite type of food is anything pasta or spaghetti, but if I were to choose one, it would have to be the spaghetti that my mom cooks. Many people who try my mom's spaghetti, says that in order to taste that good she could have bought it instead. When it comes to pasta's or spaghetti, I guess you could say that I'm somewhat picky because it depends on who makes it. The reason it is my favorite food is because of the fun that comes from eating it. I love it when my whole mouth gets red and grease here and there from the spaghetti sauce. After I’m done eating, I make sure not to drink or eat anything else because by the time I'm done, I'm usually too stuffed to put anything into my system.


WHERE I’M FROM I’m from a very small island called Guam. This island I think is one of the small ones that you can hardly see and find on a map. People tell me when they come to Guam that they can barely spot it. Sometimes I think they’re just lying, but I don’t know until I try it myself. This island is filled with lots of good and bad people, also fun and boring things to do. There are some bad things about this island though. There is also good things about this island. This island has the greatest history in the Marianas behind it. Its culture is one to remember for more than decades to come. This island has a lot of fast foods like McDonald’s, Taco Bell, Jamaican Grill, Subway, Pizza Hut and etc. There’s also an Aquarian called Underwater World. Guam is filled with spectacular athletic people, and great businessmen, and woman. Here on Guam we have things the United States of America has and doesn’t have. Now here is one of the bad things that Guam has, we do not have Wal-Mart. Here we have people that make Guam look really bad gives the wrong impression to others coming and going. Some people here makes the most dumbest decisions at times and ruins their life in the process of it. Like robbery, rape, murder, suicide and etc. All those nonsense comes from within their heads and their heads are the reasons why this island is bad. This island is great although it get boring at times. I enjoy being on this island because this is my home and where I’m from. This island is called GUAHAN.


DECK OF 52 Movies & T.V Shows 1. Bones 2. Castle 3. Law & Order: SVU 4. Glee 5. The Shutter Island 6. Prison Break 7. Scandal 8. Cake Boss 9. Ridiculousness 10. Ghost Whisper 11. Flashpoint 12. Hannah Montana 13. Good Luck Charlie 14. Austin and Ally 15. Wonder Pets 16. Criminal Minds 17. Big Bang Theory 18. Jersey Shore 19. NCIS 20. Sponge Bob 21. Cold Case 22. Revenge 23. Ace of Cakes 24. One Tree Hill 25. Divergent 26. UFC

27. CSI: Miami 28. Victorious 29. Never Back Down 30. Law & Order: Criminal Intent 31. Arrow 32. Glory Road 33. Australia 34. Keeping Up With the Kardashians 35. Ghost Protocol 36. Ghost Hunters 37. Fast & The Furious 38. Totally Spies 39. Blood And Bone 40. Untold Stories In The E.R 41. Mad Man 42. Made Of Honor 43. The Marine 44. Pure Country 45. Dog with a Blog 46. Duck Dynasty 47. Long Island Medium 48. She's The Man 49. X Factor 50. Burn Notice 51. Chicago P.D. 52. Chopped


THE EXAMINED LIFE *The Good Faults:

*The Bad Faults:

1. Respectful 2. Friendly 3. Helpful 4. Honest 5. Goal Oriented 6. Mature 7. Strong 8. Older 9. Nice 10. Still Shy

1. Slightly Stubborn 2. Short Tempered 3. Soft Hearted 4. Taken For Granted 5. Distracted 6. Childish 7. Weak 8. Younger 9. Cocky 10. Shy


ANNUAL REPORT I have realized that change is inevitable and that time can’t alter with life. I know that no matter how old I get, I won’t know for sure who I’ll become tomorrow or the next day. Probably a week after graduation, I plan to go to college and have a part-time job. I’m better off now than I was a year ago because I constantly was in a struggle with personal things. Attending college is still my plan after high school. I’m planning on going to Guam Community College or University Of Guam in the fall and I plan on majoring in Criminal Justice and Social work. I hope to change the world and become an inspiration to others, so I plan on getting my doctorate degree in Educational Leadership. I see education as a knowledge gain and not to be taken for granted in life. Education gives us an opportunity to further our education and knowledge of the world around us and change our bad ways into good. At some point I must do things on my own and stop depending on my parents for everything because I know they won’t always be around. Part of being an dependent individual is making your own money, paying your own bills and what not. I don’t want to be a burden on my parents and make them pay for everything when I’m in college. I plan on getting a part-time job to help them out and take some weight off their shoulders. I’m not really better off now than I was a year or two ago because there was some things in my life I couldn’t handle that has changed me in some ways. I can’t really say that I’m happier now than I was back then. Back then I was lost and confused, but now, I know that I can’t let my past choose for me. I know that I’m better now than before, I’m not perfect and nobody is too. I have made my fair share of mistakes in the past and now I’m trying very hard to fix them before it's too late. I have a loving and wonderful family, roof over my head, clothes on my back, a home, food and water, and an education to further my knowledge. That’s all I need and want so far and I can’t ask for anything better than this. With everything that has happened to me in the past and now present, I learned that my life is an experience. The experiences I go through reflect upon me as individuals. Those experiences define who I am in this world.


EKPHRASIS

This painting that I chose inspired me not give up on anything. Also make life be positive no matter the obstacles God gives us in the present and the future life to come. Poverty is worldwide it's not just in one state or one island it's everywhere on Earth. The painting is called "faceless poverty" by a not so famous artist Sarojit Mazumdar. The picture shown is the pain of faceless and also the pain of poverty. HERE’S A POEM: I would like to talk about poverty which many people ignore sometimes made by us that people don't adore. Many homeless out there that needs a helping hand let's start by lending ours their first step is to stand. At times some do care while others walk away don't pay attention to those they just happen to be that way. Money is made by humans, but it kills and makes us suffer it can cause violence and betrayal, but gives us a chance to be for real.


VISUALLY SPEAKING


LESSONS I LEARNED AFTER IT WAS TOO LATE The lessons I learned after it was too late was one do not lie to those that you meet and to those that are in your life. When I did lie at the time I thought that it was for the best, but it only made me feel bad in the end. At that time I think some lost their trust in me. But the only reason I lied is because I did not want people to know that I have cancer. I knew at that moment when I lied I made some people doubt their trust in me. I also knew that once I lost their trust. It would be hard for me to gain their trust back and forgiveness also. Sometimes I wish that I never had lied because in the end it made me feel really low about myself. Sometimes your family and friends that you lied too will be hard for them to trust you again, you just got to give them time. Sometimes I still lie because I don't want people to find out how I really feel inside on that day. The second lesson l learned after it was too late was to never talk back to your parents. At times my parents get annoyed with me because I say and do things I don't mean, but I feel its the only way to get my point across. Throughout my life I have tried very hard not to talk back to my parents. Once the words are out of my mouth I can never take it back because it's to late for me to apologize. I know that whatever I say to them hurts them because they are my parents. All parents want from their children is for them to be mature and know right from wrong. I love my parents very much they mean the world to me and know that when I get mad I do not mean what I say, I'm just expressing how I feel inside. The third lesson would have to be honesty. Lying is an everyday thing to people weather they admit to it or not. Nowadays everybody lies to themselves and to others. When it comes to trusting people we have to be cautious because we don't know if they are telling the truth or just lying to our face. To be honest the truth is better than lying especially when it comes to your family and friends, but there has to be honest and true. The fourth lesson I learned is be careful of who you trust and open up to. Nowadays it's hard to have people beside you who would stand by you through the good and bad obstacles. Don't open up freely and pure your heart out just express yourself in certain specific words. You don't know who's real or not and sometimes you find it the hard way if they're with you or against you. If you happened to tell your darkest secret to someone you thought was your friend, you may or may not know if they told other people just to make you look ashamed and make you feel low about yourself.


THE DOOR

1.) When I walk out that door, I want… ~ When I walk out that door, I want to go home and read as many books as I can. I want to go home and feed my animals and cook food for my family. When I walk out that door, I want to go home and try to catch up on my school work. When I walk out that door, I want to make sure that I will be able to graduate. I want know that my future is going in the right path for me. 2.) When I walk out that door, I don’t want… ~ When I walk out that door, I don’t want to worry about all the homework that I have to do. I don't want to worry about passing because I should. When I walk out that door, I don't want to feel stressed or feel nervous about something. When I walk out that door, I don't want to think about the past. I don't want to think about the families that were torn apart from losing a love one to cancer, drugs, or death, etc. When I walk out that door, I don't want to be someone who has no future or what so ever.


ADVICE TO THE YOUNG

1.) Have more respect for the adults older than you. 2.) Don't take the people in your life for granted. 3.) You don't have to be a show off for people to like you just be yourself. 4.) Take advantage of the education that is given to you. 5.) Don't waste your life on the things that don't matter, so live it to the fullest. 6.) Separate you free time from you classroom time. 7.) Cherish the little things and the memories that still remain. 8.) School is important and so are friends, if they understand where you draw the line. 9.) Don't give up to quickly when things get to difficult. 10.) Don't trust to easily make sure they earn your trust before you give it away.


WHO AM I?

1.) Daughter: I am the second youngest of six kids. 2.) Twin: I am the first to come out. She was delivered at 1:50 and I was delivered at 1:49. 3.) Friend: I am a shoulder to cry on. I'm someone who can tell their troubles to and I wouldn't say a thing. I am someone who people go to advice for. If you do something bad to me, but in the end you need someone there, count on me. 4.) Book Freak: I love books. If you see me outside you'll always find me with a book in my hands. I always ask my parents to buy me books even when they already did the day before. 5.) Romantic: I am a sucker for romance. Whether it be movies, television shows, or even planning something for a friend to do for their special person. I am a very mushy person, and I know it may not seem like it, but I’m sensitive at heart.


REWARDING EXPERIENCE 1. Having a twin who is always there for me. 2. Having both my parents that are still together that love me. 3. Having all my nine animals and taking care of them. 4. My palms because they can be creative. 5. Having teachers that know how to teach and make us understand. 6. Having an education that I'm not taking advantage of. 7. Seeing the sun rise and set on front of my eyes. 8. Passing my classes for first semester with good grades. 9. Seeing a shooting star because not every time I get to witness one with my eyes. 10. Going out to sea and overcoming my fear of the ocean.


VALUABLE LESSONS

1. Having and giving respect is everything to people. 2. Things happen for a reason. 3. Life rewards actions. 4. Objects don't matter, it's the people that do. 5. Don't ignore your responsibilities. 6. Education is a privilege. 7. Nothing comes free. 8. You can't change what you do not acknowledge. 9. Don't trust to easily to people, you don't feel comfortable around. 10. There is no reality, only perception.


FUTURES- FANTASY AND FACT If I could see myself ten years from now ,my life would go the way I had planned it from the beginning. I plan to have both my bachelors and masters in sorts of subjects. My wish is too be in the military marine's or army and for my both my parents there for me. All I want from a man is to love, cherish and be faithful to me and to except me for who I really am. I plan to have a husband, kids, and animals to look after. I want a man who knows how to treat a woman properly. If all of my wishes and dreams did come true I'll be the happiest person alive, but I still would need my family and their love. If I continue the way that I am now my life would go as planned. I would still be shy, stubborn, and afraid to do things that I have never tried before. If I continue the way I am now I would have most of what I want. I would have to work hard for a living to get the things I want, but without the magic and the miracles to make it happened. If I continue the way that I am now I would be taking advantage of the opportunities that is right in front of me. If I stay this way I would be making a decent amount of money. I would have a house that is fully paid off and the vehicles. My life would turn out alright, but I know I'll go through life the hard way to get to where I want to be. The difference between the first and second paragraphs is simple. To find a sensible compromise between the romantic and the realistic, I would just have to set my goals high enough for myself. Complete a task one by one without giving up, and reach my goals. At least this way, I will become a successful person even if it gets hard at times. I believe that if someone is consistent on whatever he or she is doing, he or she will succeed no matter what. The first paragraph is something that I want to happen and hope to have one day. The second paragraph is about what I see happening if I stay the way I am now. I’m not saying I will never reach my dreams, but at some point we have to look on a different perspective. I have to put all my time and energy into my studying and work to get there. It won’t be easy, but life never is. In the end it will be worth every minute of it.


EPILOGUE Dear Stranger. This person is unique in her own ways. She loves and cares for her family a lot. She's been through the worst, but is still able to stand strong. At times she can be stubborn when she wants to be. She's cautious about most things because of her past and what has happened. God has given her the one thing that she never planned to have, but in some way it has be a gift to her. She is shy at heart and at times she can be out spoken when she is in the mood. She's thankful for having both her wonderful parents that is still alive and together. Many people out there in the world wish that their parents were still together and alive. She will never turn her back on her family and friends no matter what obstacles she may face along the way. When it comes to other people besides herself, she would rather put their needs before hers. She will go out of her ways if she can to make something happen for others. She will lend a hand whether you need help or not because that's how she was raised to be. Sometimes people will take advantage of her because of how caring and friendly she is. When she can't speak about how she truly feels inside. Her way of expressing them is by writhing poems so that when people do read it they'll know how she feels inside and about her thoughts. She's cautious about her heart and who she lets in. She was raised to be helpful, caring and loving, but she guards her heart because she doesn't want men to take advantage of something so valuable and precious to her.


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