Oh God, please help me
sweet grace -
in my quest towards finding your a handhold to grasp from this jagged edge of a shaky life that cannot really even be called living. If you are everywhere you must also exist in my mind but in these trodden searched halls with many doors you seem so far away and never able to be found.
Please, echo your beating voice in the empty chambers of my heart,
all rushing in the excitement for finding life. Do not let me die without knowing this life as it is when with you. For you are the one I have always known and yet do not know. The one who I see in the mirror but yet have never seen. Please, do not allow me to turn away from your call, make me a prisoner to your every demand. Make all that is left of me weak and submitted in your love-as a mother with child has no choice but to fiercely love.
Sarah Hastings Mullin, Ph.D is a member of the International Association of Sufism and is a clinical psychologist, working specifically with young adults, couples and families. She also holds a second-degree black belt in Aikido.
Sufism: An Inquiry Vol XVI, No. 4