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Brooke Graham                                                                                                                                                                                            September-­‐November  2017     Journal  Entries-­‐  Media  Performance         Journal  Entry  1:  September  20:  (524  words)       As  my  first  journal  entry,  I  want  to  focus  on  my  pure  experience  with  the  reading,  and   yoga  class.  Because  I  am  still  adjusting  to  this  odd  book  and  difficult  body  actions,  I  want  to   emphasize  how  it  made  me  feel,  and  how  I  plan  to  use  this  information  to  transform  my  free   voice.  Our  assigned  reading  was  chapter  2  and  3,  with  a  focus  on  breathing  awareness  and   initial  vibrations.  Though  I  do  understand  why  this  book  has  been  so  helpful  for  so  many   readers,  I  do  find  the  exercises  difficult  and  uncomfortable.  When  focusing  on  breathing   awareness  (chapter  2),  I  find  my  breathing  harder  to  control,  having  it  feel  unnatural.  Linklater   is  trying  to  get  the  reader  to  relax  the  body  and  deepen  the  breath,  so  that  our  natural  voice  is   freed.  However,  I  find  myself  focusing  on  my  breath  too  much,  to  the  point  where  it  feels   strange,  and  triggers  my  anxiety.  In  chapter  3  (initial  vibrations),  Linklater  asks  the  reader  to   “use  the  power  of  imagery”,  in  order  to  free  our  voices.  In  the  exercise,  she  had  the  reader   picture  a  “deep,  calm  forest  pool  with  a  surface  roughly  level  with  your  diaphragm  and  its   depths  in  your  pelvis  region.”  Finally,  this  was  an  exercise  I  was  familiar  with,  and  felt   comfortable  doing.  Throughout  my  life,  I  have  been  taught  to  use  imagery  as  a  form  of   relaxation;  what  Linklater  was  trying  to  accomplish.  However,  my  confident  state  of  imagery   was  reciprocated  as  the  exercise  progressed.  Once  again,  I  found  myself  focusing  too  much  on   my  breath  and  body  as  the  exercise  moved  into  more  physical  movement.  After  reading  these   two  chapters,  I  was  hesitant  about  Wednesdays  yoga  class,  as  I  wasn’t  sure  how  doing  more  of  


these exercises  would  feel.  During  yoga  class,  I  was  able  to  do  the  actual  yoga  poses  fine,  with  a   decent  sense  of  confidence,  however,  once  we  moved  into  the  exercises  in  Linklater’s  book,  my   courage  fell  short.  Starting  off,  I  was  already  uncomfortable  about  these  various  exercises   within  the  chapters,  including  the  spine  drop.  I  was  not  sure  how  I  was  going  to  feel.  For  me   personally,  focusing  too  much  on  my  breath  and  body,  triggers  my  anxiety.  I  start  to  become   unfamiliar  with  how  my  body  is  physically  feeling,  causing  me  to  go  into  a  state  of  stress.  During   an  exercise  from  chapter  3,  I  started  to  feel  hot,  shaky,  dizzy  and  sick.  As  having  experienced   many  panic  attacks  in  my  life,  I  knew  what  was  coming.  I  told  Kat  I  was  not  feeling  well  and  left   the  yoga  studio,  where  I  was  able  to  cool  off,  sit  down,  and  stop  my  panic  attack  from  peaking.   Although  I  missed  the  rest  of  the  exercise,  I  was  able  to  reflect  on  my  own  why  this  happened   and  how  I  can  prevent  this  situation  from  happening  in  the  future.  Sometimes,  we  hold  a  lot  of   stress  in  our  bodies,  and  when  trying  to  release  that  stress,  it  can  feel  uncomfortable.  My  goal  is   to  learn  from  this  experience,  and  work  even  harder  to  perform  these  exercises  with  pure   peace.   Journal  Entry  2:  September  27  (579  words)    

For my  second  journal  entry,  I  am  expressing  my  experience  through  the  reading  and  

the “script  performance”  we  did  in  class.  For  this  week,  we  as  a  class  were  assigned  chapter  4.   During  this  chapter,  I  learnt  a  few  new  exercises  and  techniques,  with  a  pure  focus  on  freeing   vibrations.  The  exercises  within  the  chapter  were  aimed  at  three  specific  different  areas;  lips,   head  and  body.  Once  again,  as  I  began  to  read  on,  I  noticed  my  breathing  begin  to  feel   uncomfortable  and  unnatural.  After  doing  these  types  of  exercises  for  a  few  weeks  now,  I  was   not  surprised  I  was  feeling  this  way.  I  took  this  thought  and  experience  and  made  it  a  mental  


note; let  this  be  a  lesson.  The  lesson  I  was  trying  to  teach  myself,  was  that  I  am  to  be  expected   to  feel  awkward  or  uncomfortable,  but  its  okay,  because  I  am  just  beginning  my  journey.  In  a   way,  these  new  and  complex  feelings  could  actually  be  a  positive;  maybe  my  natural  voice  is   starting  to  set  free.  According  to  Linklater,  “vibrations’  nature  is  to  multiply:  to  re-­‐sound  or   resound.”      I  believe  the  purpose  of  Linklater  including  this  in  the  book  is  to  remind  the  reader   that  we  all  need  to  become  comfortable  when  these  vibrations  arrive,  welcome  them,  use  them   and  nurture  them.  After  last  week  in  yoga,  I  was  feeling  anxious  when  heading  into  the  studio.   Because  of  how  my  body  reacted  last  time,  I  was  not  sure  what  to  expect  this  time  around.  We   started  off  the  class  with  some  new  moves  such  as  warrior  one  and  warrior  two.  As  we   performed  these  poses,  I  felt  confident  and  not  very  anxious.  I  could  feel  my  body  shaking  while   asked  to  hold  these  poses,  as  they  are  most  definitely  harder  than  they  look!  After  our  one  hour   of  yoga,  Kevin  came  in  and  it  was  time  to  read  our  scripts.  Our  assignment  was  to  find  a  written   piece  that  meant  something  to  us.  I  was  struggling  very  hard  to  find  something  that  meant  a  lot   to  me.  After  everyone  in  the  class  had  read  off  their  passage,  it  was  clear  to  me  I  did  not  fully   understand  the  assignment.  When  asked  to  find  something,  I  assumed  this  meant  something   that  it  had  to  be  published  by  somebody  else.  I  went  online  and  found  a  poem  that  I  liked,   however  did  not  necessarily  mean  anything  to  me.  After  hearing  the  class,  a  lot  of  students   brought  personal  stories  or  experiences.  I  left  wishing  I  had  done  the  same,  as  I  even  had  a   particular  moment  in  my  life  that  would  have  been  a  perfect  piece  to  share.  Regardless  of  what   I  had  chosen,  getting  up  and  speaking  in  front  of  the  class  was  a  nerve  racking  experience.  My   heart  was  pounding,  as  I  was  getting  prepared  to  read  my  poem.  I  managed  to  read  the  poem   without  any  mistakes,  however  I  did  not  feel  totally  comfortable.  After  everyone  had  a  chance  


to read,  we  discussed  how  it  felt  to  be  up  there  in  front  of  everyone.  I  was  happily  surprised   when  I  heard  that  everyone  was  feeling  the  same  way;  nervous,  shaky,  increased  heart  rate,   etc.  Though  it  was  not  the  most  comfortable  thing  I  have  ever  experienced,  it  was  something   that  I  will  take  and  use  as  a  lesson  and  a  tool  to  further  improve  my  confidence  and  ability  to   free  my  natural  voice  and  my  pure  self  in  front  of  others.     Journal  Entry  3:  October  4  (484  words)    

For this  week,  we  were  assigned  chapter  5  for  reading.  This  chapter  had  a  focus  on  jaw  

awareness, and  learning  how  to  free  the  “channel”.    When  reading  this  chapter,  it  reminded  me   of  the  various  vocal  exercises  we  were  taught  at  the  beginning  of  the  semester,  such  as  sirens,   vowels  and  articulation.  I  have  been  practicing  these  vocal  exercises  and  wanted  to  make  note   of  my  progress.  This  week,  I  really  wanted  to  reflect  upon  the  basics,  or  the  underlying  message   of  Linklater’s  book:  Freeing  the  natural  voice.  In  the  book,  it  is  expressed  that  the  ultimate  goal   is  to  teach  the  reader  (me),  to  free  their  natural  voices  by  learning  the  various  techniques  and   exercises  within  each  chapter.  We  are  learning  new  skills  that  involve  us  using  our  own  body   muscles  (such  as  the  spine  drop  exercise),  then  gearing  up  to  using  our  breath,  then  leading   into  the  actual  voice  area  such  as  the  jaw  or  lips.  The  vocal  exercises  do  indeed  involve  all  these   steps.  However,  before  I  go  into  reflecting  upon  my  progress,  I  wanted  to  make  note  in  my   journal  that  I  was  unfortunately  not  able  to  attend  todays  class  (lab).  I  woke  up  this  morning   feeling  quite  sick  and  decided  to  take  myself  to  the  clinic  located  at  BCIT.  I  knew  I  needed  to  put   my  own  health  before  the  class,  also  to  prevent  others  from  getting  sick.  Therefore,  I  was  not   able  to  practice  all  the  skills  and  techniques  described  within  the  chapter.  This  in  itself,  was   another  reason  I  wanted  to  chime  in  on  my  vocal  exercise  practice/progress.  I  chose  to  really  


focus in  on  sirens,  vowels,  and  the  breath  in  5’s.  With  being  a  tenant,  it  is  sometimes  not   appropriate  to  be  practicing  these  types  of  exercises,  however  I  have  managed  to  find  enough   times  to  do  so,  with  making  note  on  my  progress.  With  each  separate  exercise,  I  have  noticed   myself  being  able  to  use  my  voice  in  a  more  powerful  way.  I  have  always  felt  like  I  did  not  have   the  strongest  voice,  especially  judging  on  how  easily  I  can  lose  it.  However,  with  practice,  I   started  to  see  myself  grow,  and  hear  the  positive  differences  from  when  I  first  began  my   practice.  My  personal  favourite  is  the  sirens.  I  get  to  take  my  voice  to  different  heights  and  hear   the  different  sounds.  It  makes  me  feel  as  though  I  really  do  have  more  power  within  my  voice   that  I  never  realized.  By  practicing  these  various  exercises,  I  am  now  able  to  see  how  these  will   effect  my  personal  growth  and  allow  me  to  free  my  natural  voice.  I  do  prefer  these  types  of   vocal  exercises  over  some  of  Linklater’s  techniques  within  the  book,  as  many  tend  to  make  me   uncomfortable.  However,  by  allowing  myself  to  dive  into  these  exercises,  I  am  on  my  way  to   becoming  an  all  around  better  performer  and  story-­‐teller.     Journal  Entry  3:  October  11  (518  words)    

For my  fourth  journal  entry,  I  am  once  again  focusing  in  on  the  reading,  class  exercises  

and my  own  growth.  This  week  we  were  assigned  chapters  6  (tongue  awareness)  and  7  (freeing   the  channel:  the  soft  palate).  As  I  read  through  the  chapters,  I  felt  more  comfortable  about   being  able  to  perform  these  when  it  came  time  to  do  these  exercises  in  class.  In  chapter  6,   Linklater  says  “…  once  the  speaker  is  emotionally  connected  to  the  truth  the  tongue  is  going  to   behave  as  it  ought  –  articulating  emotional  content  into  words  that  convey  the  specific   intelligence  of  that  emotion”.  This  reminded  me  of  the  Chocolate  Chip  Cookie  Story  we  learned   early  on  in  the  program,  as  the  child  was  emotionally  connected  by  using  his  primary  impulses  


when he  was  asking  for  the  cookie.  In  chapter  7,  Linklater  says  something  that  really  stood  out   to  me  and  I  took  note  of:  “The  work  you  will  be  doing  is  aimed  at  restoring  and  revitalizing  this   involuntary  connection”.  We  have  been  taught  that  we  are  working  towards  stopping  habitual   patterns,  and  learning  to  be  free  and  let  our  mind  and  body  do  the  work.  This  sentence  stood   out  to  me  because  we  are  also  working  towards  a  stronger  involuntary  connection,  which  I   thought  was  necessary  to  note.  With  taking  this  information  from  both  chapters,  I  felt  confident   about  our  yoga/Linklater  class.  As  I  found  out  this  morning,  Kat  was  sick  and  not  able  to  attend   our  class.  Because  of  this,  our  class  was  asked  to  meet  at  9:30,  and  we  would  not  do  any  yoga.   As  Kevin  arrived,  we  went  straight  into  our  practice.  We  did  vocal  exercises  including  moving   the  tongue  to  the  roof  of  our  mouth  while  practicing  using  our  voice  and  noticing  the  different   sounds.  We  were  also  pointed  out  by  Kevin  that  there  are  certain  words  or  letters  that  you  can   feel  within  the  nasal  area  or  the  throat.  We  then  practiced  opening  up  our  jaw  and  learnt  the   difference  between  the  top  and  bottom  jaw,  and  how  to  relax  those  muscles.  I  felt  that  I   grasped  these  concepts  quite  well  and  felt  pretty  confident  doing  so.  It  is  starting  to  become   more  clear  on  how  these  various  physical  exercises  will  be  free  our  natural  voices.  Something  I   wanted  to  make  note  of  was  my  continuous  practices  with  vocal  exercises.  Last  week,  I   reflected  in  my  journal  on  how  my  personal  growth  with  the  various  exercises  were  coming   along.  As  I  continue  to  practice,  and  use  the  other  techniques  within  the  book,  I  begin  to  see   myself  improving.  In  all  honesty,  I  am  not  a  huge  fan  of  doing  these  exercises  as  it  almost  makes   me  feel  silly.  However,  I  do  see  myself  wanting  a  vast  improvement  with  freeing  my  natural   voice,  so  I  know  how  important  it  is.  As  we  begin  to  drift  away  from  the  main  focus  on  breath,  I   begin  to  feel  better,  however  I  know  it  is  still  very  important  to  focus  on  losing  those  habitual  


habits of  improper  breathing.  Overall,  I  see  myself  growing  and  becoming  a  better  performer   every  week.          

Media performance journal  

This is a journal I did in semester one of this year. It discusses my experiences through learning how to get my mind and body comfortable w...

Media performance journal  

This is a journal I did in semester one of this year. It discusses my experiences through learning how to get my mind and body comfortable w...

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