The structure of thought in relation to the structure of power.
Participants in order of chronological contribution: Freke Räihä. (ed.) Joel Arvidsson.
Simon Hedman Jonsson. Gökhan Turhan. Nina Ahlzén.
El Habib Louai. Kim Larsson.
JEOl Adnersson Hej hej! Hans Krøjer.
Cecilia Persson. Lars Palm.
Tomas Klas Ekström. Pål Hedberg.
The structure of thought in relation to the structure of power. Masspoem III
(ed. Freke R채ih채)
A flower can grow through concrete without a single thought
Boiling structures over the torso where a wretched crow takes atria and ventricle to new heights without a thought of farewell The Three golden birds at the bottom of each pupil in an almighty light mirrors casts searchlights on a dirt road the wanderers forgotten long ago to direct the solar panels inside a declining mental tango where Calle Schewen picks of the dirt under his nails and smiles when Miss Hopeless loses pace in the memory of the sound of the once breathing chest in the once forgotten beginning of the story that this celebrity wrote in the once ragtag bookbinderÂ´s wildest dreams became ashes when the village burned down or up and nothing was left for no spectators to see the archetypal truths inscribed in an Aryan people with awkward woven values that excesses four percent of the minds of the children who starved to death for fame and glory and a grandslam Anthem traveling with a crow over the plains so far The Three wants to see with a telescope and on the moonâ€™s trailing edge is not at all Neil Armstrong but Buzz Aldrin sitting waving for King and Country in the amniotic fluid stream gushing down on a naked torso of a man who wanted to be a woman who is a rose is a rose is a rose and the buds are never to blossom the light has descended a tad and the optician is sadly madly unskilled and left by his wife in her high heels in a wobbly staircase leads up to the Godfather himself who is not Marlon Brando now an angel among many with a harp and humanityÂ´s light never escapes from the hole in his pocket with seven big glassballs plucked from a playground strewn with thin papers from the history books so we can see the image of the girl desperately flees the landscape of napalm.
100711 Just before The Lord finally gave up on me, he told me to write a diary. ”I’ll fucking try, Bitch”, I said, and gave him a golden blowjob. I was so fucking bored with timespace. I said: ”I’ll fucking try, midget” Now, let’s start with meat and potatoes, ordinary, painfully ordinary bleak stuff. My parents didn’t love me. I’ve got an addictive personality. Now you know, asshole, fucking reader, smartass. Yes, I’m an addict, but nowdays, I’m just a work-aholic. How cute. What about relatives, friends? I have no friends. Friend is nice word for a boring person. Relatives? I’ve got a few. I have erased their names, though. I’m currently working on their so called faces. Ancestor tree? Some kind of painting inside a bottle, a pain-thing perpetually falling through a rusty crown. Anything else, that can stimulate your imagination, reader? Maybe perversions, clean in the shade of an almond-tree. All eyes, eyes at the bottom of constant deathwhishes. An eternal ring-cycle of blood and extacy. What am I talking about? You tell me, smartassreader, now that this misshapen micro-diary has been made public. Incense just below or just above the surface, burning leaves
Thought process winding road flying the kite a line drawn in the sand warming your skin with my lighter dreaming glass houses along a winding road we are dressed in white glass houses dressed in sand YOU ARE NOT HERE finger
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Power a tattoo of strength gleaming in the moonlight a tin on a hot cat roof cockroaches warming your lighter with my skin terrorized grammar taking in water the process as a weapon YOU ARE NOT HERE numbers (digits) ice
The patient is a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic afflicted with a military-industrial complex. The patient was admitted to the psychiatric ward after implementing neoliberal economic policies in his cell and nearly starving to death. The patient is under 24hour police state surveillance. The patient is being hydrated intravenously and means of production are being withheld. The patient upon waking asked for a pen and a corporate media establishment to issue a formal statement.
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Indivisible man as I am / One dimensional man as I am / I may just sit alon or memories? Nevermind now. Mother dies and dies again. That toxic pig. Are you offended? Well fuck of home then, you sensitive loser. This is diary isn´t written for children. But you must know, that this text has magic, occult (2) RELATIONSHIP possibilities. Be sure to read it all through - otherwise I can’t transDot my sky with stars form, that is: travel into my new Paint the ceiling in deep amber life properly, and I will forever haunt you. I’m dead, or almost dead, you see. What else? Ongoing poetry: sketches of an impossible love story. What love? The one between us, reader. It’s dead. This diary: sketches of a fucked-up love. there´s a woman in her own abyss see her shudder and shy enough, she clasps in time sees the walls come tumbling down across the chest a pecking heart
I got it all wrong, but it didn´t really matter any more. The less we knew about the war the bigger the fruits in the supermarket seemed to be. I really hate it when they do that to innocent tomatoes When I was a kid, I didn’t know that only the powerless have the ability to change the world
ne / In a semi-dark room / Holding my soft hot balls / On such a suffocating Here it is in its entirety:
Iâ€™ll dot your soul fly you to a higher ground Have you talked to the hyacinths lately Are they early or late or just boringly on time Do they look the same as last year Do they collect in your arms hindering the tide The tide of wars, of wondrous, glorious wars Wars where life is at its prime
I planted bulbs in your garden last spring You should take good care of them Throw that red rock away to give them light It is not more than fair
i am not into organizing power distribution is another jamsession
night / Thinking of you / somewhere / As a scene from Medium Cool passes 100712 At last, I’ve learned to think in black and white only. I think noir. I Always remember everything I like, the fuel I’m most ashamed of. I have a rare talent, being able to do that. I’m not shy at all. I’m vio- (3) CLIMAX lent when I want to, subtile when I want to. I take my time. Now I This is not my tongue. These are not fall, and you fall with me, all the tear/with your judgement bolt/bolt ju way down to the very bottom of sion. Crimes of passion. Crimes of des this fucking text. Now, think ro- fice me at the altar of your hate/Love m mance, or horror or thriller, but Hate me/YOU ARE please just don´t think sensible, YOU ARE understandable as in a marriage, YOU ARE a social structure. Join me now on YOU ARE a deep voyage to an impossible YOU ARE love-chaos, the worst scenery of numbers digits letters words nominal all. A meeting between you and nmbrs dgts lttrs wrds nmnl phrss me, and picture this: a psychotic Look at me morning-bird with completely Look at my hands original ideas about pleasure, that Look at me putting my hands in your p bird fondly grabs you by the neck Look at my power putting your hands & we plunge through joy efter joy. My power The bird is me, precious. One hand my hands around your neck & then stars your look begin to grow like mars-plants. putting me A golden time-drop explodes be- in tween our temporary overlit faces. Great! I can feel you reading. That time-drop tastes violently of pure saliva & mint-kisses. We silently rape black roses while Mahler sighs in the background. It’s fun reading, don’t you think? You’re already as demented as me.
s / Children´s talk is heard as it sasses / I sweat inside, so melancholic / My “You always save the uncomfortable truths for last. I grew up in an asbestos-free environment. My nourishment was provided seemingly as if from out of nowhere. Wherever I made a mess, someone else cleaned it up. I remember always waking up to the sound t my words/Tear me apart/apart me of the vacuum cleaner. It made udgement/judgement. Crimes of pasme angry every time. I had been spicable acts. Bring in the kings. Sacrisleeping, and that was important. me at the altar of your hate/Hate me/ Everyone says so. Sleeping is very important. Cleanliness was to me an innate ability, something you were born with.
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own self smells of garlic / Do you ever think of me? / Or am I only rotting in 100713 Another time, even heavier. We kiss. You, the reader, and me, the occult child. A hand holding your neck again. You’re weightless as you fall towards some kind of basin filled with sandy tears, tears that catch fire when wind makes them all shake. Time, carefully When she gave up on thought encapsulated in a smoky studio, I thought for an eternity sheltered behind a non-baptized it is suburban temple, yes, time has four wings while we build coffins of frozen love. I know what I need to not see you count them. Love is good for some, but for some it´s just impossible, subtile, hopeless, temporary. Sublime. These late days squeak like predators from you I it outer space, and owls give us oral re-turning sex and high-tech narcotics. Skies (to) the wheel of fortune empty dogs. Empty buses of authe pointer is still a phallus tumn weightlessly vanish, but the fortune is still clouds are papered with bright a wheel spinning eye-colors, anorexic letter-torn it is you finger-nails or just plain scandinayou are me vian dirt, dirt that’s brown black I am it as night. Yes, I know you love me. iYou The more bizarre & psychotic I iIt get, the more you love me. No, you iI don’t have to tell me that you’re iLife engulfed. I know, you Can’t, just introducing iUs Can’t stop reading. You’re doomed. while iIt is spinning the wheel Want more? the while of fortune twisting bending you from us
nside this can? / Should it ever matter? / Under a desolate sheltering sky / Dirty people, I always figured, were doing dirty things. Maybe they rolled in garbage heaps, walked around on their knees in winter, ate with their fingers and wiped them off on their shirts. It scarcely occurred to me that everything devolves into dirtiness unless you clean it. But that should’ve been obvious. Nature lost is filthy. Forests? Full of dirt. Mud but when power is lost puddles, worms, mushy dead leafs. Other people protected me from these devastating truths, until I was so irrevocably indoctrinated it didn’t matter anymore when they changed their minds. When they wanted me to help out with the house work, I would refuse out of hand, as if I didn’t believe it really needed doing. It was more important that I sleep. That I study.
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100714 Pregnant shadows collide with people. I wonder why the shadows are pregnant. Sunspots lick my ears clean. Faces, faces without bodies explain life´s inerta to my spine. I’m sunken into early snow of thoughts, thoughts of burning dog entrails. Different public pornographic blessings explode just in between spontaneously combusting siliconedildos. I’m not turned on. Only you can reach me these fucking days. African children explode & explode in slow motion without splashing blood that can stain somebody’s new clothes. Where have the children’s shadows been before they got here, to our perfekt western asshole? Probably nobody knows. The thing is that you can hide among them. There are heavy holes in the dog-heaven of autumn. Now it starts to rain. I’m writing in present time, even if this is supposed to be a diary. Gifted, me? To smart? Yes, I know.
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Once upon a time there was a great storm and in that storm I saw a great crime
Whenever I feel like being a grown up I´ll be a grown up I am still working on my doctors degree as an excuse to keep me from causing any serious harm You know what they say: every system has it´s potential breaking point It´s the inner beauty of everything
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All they had previously demanded in return for this bombardment of corrosive kindness, was that I grow up to be an engineer. Or a lawyer. An upstanding citizen. Every act they performed as a service to me would further obscure truths about the world. But food doesn’t magically spring into being.
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I told youwe have sensibilities that complement each other.
100715 Where is that street? I need to know. If only snow would fall now, fall & scratch away the gray film from all those rushing, flying shadows of magenta. Cut right down to neo-critical crater-lakes. All is shadow, purple shadow, but antique paper-saucers tries to seduce me. Please, Maha Kali, open the pathway to Nothingness. Now angels lie still on a concrete ledge.
Begin to finish these pages. Find a word that reoccurs (recurs) in our private lives. Realize that tomorrow may never come.
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(but in the end, I win)
I guess I knew that. It stands to reason. But my knowledge of these things was either very superficial, or set so very deep it was impossible to relate it to anything more immediate. The brainwashing had left me almost beyond repair, and ironically it prevented me from ever serving the functions they had set out for me, such as paying taxes and generating prosperity. Or keeping clean, or cooking food. When they started to demand these services from me, and expect that I serve myself, my insurrection was inevitable.
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100716 Let us pupate like heroin-loaded swans, waiting for the next nervetree, thought-pattern, fucking solar system, or hell, I don’t know. It doesn´t fucking matter what I mean. No one invites me to sexy trash any more. Darkness just happens to like me. I can’t understand how I manage to burn so much time. Time is just sour milk. But when strangers ejaculate blood and acid on my lotusfeet, I feel slightly happy, relieved. Released? No. Catharsis = bullshit. Crap to tell children, shit to stuff them with, so they shut the fuck up. And yes, sometimes people ask: ”Well, are You happy?”, and I answer slowly, careful not to hurt the person asking: ”Happiness is a trash-word for me. People like me can be more or less unhappy, but happy, no. It’s to simple a word to describe the sum of all my defeats and victories, my fears, all my stars, suns and moons. And furthermore, I think that any selfrespecting person should answer like me.” And afterwards, I push myself into everything I hate until I get tired of dark poisons, whips, chains, well tired of talking, tired of fucking, fed up with fucking everything. I puke on everything except love. Love. Love. Love.
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Insurrection is easy. You start with deconstructing the concepts that are the easiest to discard. Repeat with me: I am not a ‘good’ person. My people is not a ‘good’ people. Democracy doesn’t currently exist. The world is controlled by the very wealthy, and managed in a fashion designed to maintain or exacerbate the injustice of their immense privilege. Progress is an illusion. People do not get what they deserve, whether you base it on effort or moral worth.
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Chapter Two - ”When we’ve found the
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Note: Ernst-Hugo died 6th of September 1998. God rest his soul. love is glyphic, ain´t it?