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Who and what is this book for For somebody who is suf fer ing from an eating dissorder and has not yet seeked medical help but want to be cured of the dissorder, this book provides a way out . It contains medical infor mation along with genuine quotes and poems of fellow suf ferer s . Hopfully with these you will be able to relate and realise that you are not the f ir s t and are def inatly not on your own. The jour nal is a method of recover y that is proven to wor k , it is a release for all your feelings and thoughts , by shar ing these with a close fr iend it of f loads half the problem. Let your fr iend in and let her replace your eating dissorder. It is a long process but see it through to the end, and be proud of your self for each s tep you make towards recover y.

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For somebody who feels their friend is in a loosing battle with an eating dissorder. This book will provide an insight into their wor ld and how they see life. Sometimes it is harder for friends or relatives than it is for the sufferer themselves as sufferer s are often oblivious to the fact they are changing as a per son as well as physically. By being strong, suppor tive and per sistant with the journal you can help your friend through some of the toughest months they may ever experience and by doing so you will not only not loose your friend but your friendship will become stronger and a life long bond will form. You know whos best interests you have at hear t, but they often dont see that, so it will be tough, Be strong and never give up, your friend is still your friend underneath it all.

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You and your friend Dedicated to anybody with a close friend who has fallen victim to an eating dissorder and are finding it difficult to break free. Stick with them. And to anybody suffering from an eating dissorder with the ambition of getting better, Never Give up tr ying.

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This side of the diary aims to help girls realise that they are not alone, there is an abundance of medical help out there and just as important there is thousands of people haven gone and are still going through the process of recovering from an eating dissorder. For the friends of ed victims it gives an insight to how these girls really feel and that your friends symptoms and feelings are not out of the ordinary for a sufferer of an ed. It gives them an understanding of what the illness entails and how one becomes addicted to an ed, It also gives an idea of how their friend may be struggling and how to help.This side also helps victims because it can be hard to describe and explain to friends their situation and even though the material here is not personal to you it is a good base and will hopefully help you express and describe your dissorder.

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Have you heard? Most likley both of you have heard most of these songs, but have you really heard them? All of them are about eating dissorders, or have references to eating dissorders or addictions. Listen to Them then really listen to them.

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The dictionar y is the one place where success comes before work...

In opening this book you have started a journey that will not be easy in any way... The aim of this is to help all create a healthier, happier life with peace of mind.

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Size 5 Like a bullet to the brain in slow motion


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ho said that no one’s perfect... They’re wrong. I see others, thin, small... Perfect. Societies emphasis that thin is... Perfect... rends me to the bone. I wish that I was Perfect... Able to uphold every set of Expectations Set upon me.

Sometimes... Most of the time... Nearly always... It’s self control; One thing that I can say I have Totally in my grasp.

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Am I hungry? No; I. am. satisfied. I just control it, Making my way towards Perfection. When I look in the mirror, I see something I loathe to behold. How could one bear to look at me?

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Every question they ask, Every meal I convieniently ‘miss’; They all put me one step closerTo perfection. To what I am expected to be, Trying to uphold expectations Which I now see as a way of life to me.


What causes anorexia? Social pressure, psychology, or serotonin? A single cause for anorexia ner vosa has not been discovered. While some researcher s believe social pressures affect an anorexic’s body image, other s believe psychological disorder s or physical problems (such as serotonin imbalances) may be to blame.

Here are the factors thought to be responsible for the eating disorder: Body Image and Social Pressure: public opinion and social pressure has been considered as a possible cause for some time. Western cultures equate thinness with an ideal body image. Thinness and low body weight is equated with beauty and success. Overweight or obese individuals are equated with ugliness, a lack of success, and an implied lack of self-control.

The conflict between actual and desired body image is thought to trigger anorexia in some people. Teenagers are especially vulnerable to social and peer pressure, which may explain why peak rates of anorexia occur in the teen years. According to statistics from the National E.D Association, by the time they reach college, 92 percent of young women have tried to control weight through dieting, and 22 percent “often” or “always” diet.

The social vision of the “perfect” body is simply not attainable for most. Simple biology prevents the average American woman, who weighs 140 lbs and stands 5’4” tall from conforming to a body image idealized by fashion models who stand 5’11” tall and weigh only 117 lbs. (it’s worth noting that fashion models, under pressure to conform to this ideal body image, are at higher than normal risk of anorexia nervosa and other E.D). 5


While there is no question that social pressure and idealized body image plays a role in anorexia nervosa, alone it does not cause the eating disorder. The majority exposed to the social message of the “ideal body� do not develop anorexia nervosa. Nor does every woman unhappy with her body image become anorexic. Social pressure and idea of perfection may be a trigger for anorexia, but some other underlying problem must be present for this to occur. 6

Psychologically, certain personality traits increase the risk of anorexia. People with anorexia nervosa can often have low self-esteem, and suffer from feelings of insufficiency. They may have rigid thought patterns, and have an almost compulsive need to control their lives. Anorexics may appear as effective people going all-out in all areas of their lives, constantly striving to overachieve in careers, sports, or schoolwork and in particular, weight loss.

People with anorexia nervosa are often perfectionists, who are overly critical of themselves. Anorexics also tend to socially isolate themselves, and to avoid conflict when possible.


Well, its.... Anorexia is undefinable, the definition always changes for each individual and unique case, only the symptoms are the common factors. Thats probably why its so hard for other people to understand, also you cant fix it like you fix a broken leg, theres no medical treatment or exact procedure that will cure any two people the same.

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Anorexia, or any eating disorders are NOT diet plans for the slightly more desparate. They are illnesses, just like cancer or lung disease. Although on the surface, the pain may seem self-inflicted, nobody makes themself anorexic. These things happen through circumstance and life events. It generally doesn’t happen suddenly, often a victim (yes, victim) will just sink deeper and deeper into the obsession with calories, food, and immense fear of gaining weight.

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look in the mirror, And what do I see? Something terrible, Staring back at me. A fat, ugly girl with a bruised knee I wish I could see the perfect girl I want to be Nobody can tell of my disease Only me and my soul that pleas Perfection is my goal Nothing will stop me not even my soul I look in the mirror again and again And I still see fat all over my skin I wish and I pray That maybe some day I might be the pretty girl I saw on TV with beautiful curls 12


The power of ED’s fears gaining weight won’t eat in front of others weighs food and counts calories has dry skin and thinning hair and brittle nails acts moody or depressed doesn’t socialize has absent or irregular periods feels cold frequently has difficulty concentrating takes pills to urinate or have a bowel movement (BM) doesn’t eat or follow a strict diet constantly exercises moves food around the plate; doesn’t eat it talks about weight and food all the time adopts rigid meal or eating rituals feels fatigued or dizzy has a flat mood, or lack of emotion wears baggy clothes to hide appearances

Girls with anorexia can be extremely thin. They often hide themselves in baggy clothes. Girls with anorexia are unreasonably obsessed about losing weight. All they may be talking about are about dieting and shedding off pounds. There is more to that with girls with anorexia. Girls with anorexia have a distorted perception of reality. To them, losing weight is everything. This perception has to do with today’s society’s standard of beauty. Celebrities have set the trend for it. The more skinny a woman is, the more attractive she is. Or so it seems. And so the public is inclined to adhere with this standard of beauty. Beauty has so much to do with social acceptance. Unknowing girls often associate social acceptance and self-esteem with appearance. A healthy weight may become loathsome to unwitting girls. This may lead to developing an eating disorder.

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This eating disorder can be in the form of anorexia. A large number of girls in the United States have fallen prey to anorexia. Girls with anorexia have a distorted image of their bodies. They think they are overweight when in fact they are not. This erroneous psychological belief may have been instilled by the modern society.

They are happy as they think it is a good thing. They don’t realize there can be grave health repercussions for many years with this condition. Girls naively believe they are doing a good thing when they are putting themselves to peril.

So girls with anorexia begin to do everything within their capacity to lose weight as much as they can. This obsession of girls with anorexia begins to cloud their vision. They see themselves as overweight even if they are in fact thin. Girls with anorexia do all to lose more weight.

Girls with this condidtion are in dire need of professional help. Often they would not acknowledge it which is why initiative from friends and family is absolutly necessary.

It is where being thin means being beautiful, that being fat and overweight means being ugly. Girls with anorexia are compelled to adhere with today’s standard of beauty. They become obsessed with the idea that they will become unpopular if they do otherwise.

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not going to a restaurant with a friend because you checked the menu online the night before and the lowest calorie food has over 200 calories. celebrating when you lose three pounds, alone, for fear of anyone stopping your further loss. getting thinner and thinner but feeling fatter fatter. watching your mom cry as you cut up her meals into the smallest pieces. hearing your parents sob as they listen to you purge their specially prepared food through a locked door. always being exhausted, but never being able to sleep. panic when you are invited to go to the movies..or god forbid, a restaurant. being terrified when you feel warmth, if your body is warm, there must be fat on it somewhere.. lying awake every night, too pained to sleep as your brittle bones grind against each other with every move you make. fighting your body for survival...its secret weapon? complete mind torture...

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amount of calories, not just in food, but in drinks, even gum.


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your worst nightmare that you know you can never escape from, no matter what. seeing your closest friends stare at you like they’ve never met you before. watching the hope leave your best friends eyes as you yell at her, shouting and screaming, she doesn’t understand... why won’t you just eat? A lifelong struggle for perfection that can never be achieved being in control when you’ve lost all hope for control never-ending - you reach your goal weight, but ‘why not a little more’ as the number go down, the deluded perception of yourself goes up. starving for attention, yet when you get the attention, suddenly you realise that that’s your worst nightmare. starving your brain... striving for perfection in class, and yet knowing you’ll never reach it.. knowledge is always just out of your grasp - your brain just won’t function. complete seclusion,as you push your best friends away in the fear that they’ll realise what’s happening to you. the opposite of glamour, it’s horrific. death.

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Size 3 Addicted to star vation


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’ll run,run As fast as i can So you can’t add to me Little gingerbread man The nibble on your arm Was a moment of sin Which is why i didn’t hesitate Throw the rest of you in the bin Because of that little bite I won’t eat anything for days I’l do an extra mile of jogging Until i’m happy on the scales But that will never happen All my bones already show But i just can’t stop myself Though i’m a size 0

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tarvation, purging, and over exercising Looking at body types, and over analyzing True beauty equals bones and skin It’s beyond the normal perception of “thin” People may say it’s not sane To cause myself so much pain Just to lose a few pounds It’s more addicting than it sounds Stomach constantly grumbles Thoughts always jumbled Bones aren’t visible yet But purging is no sweat My body has only me to blame Makes me wear the fat as shame It will all change when I’m thin When I fight hunger- and win.

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The addiction Food addiction is a disorder pertaining to preoccupation of food, the anticipation of pleasure of eating and simply the availability of food. It involves a loss of self-control over food or depriving oneself of food and a preoccupation with body weight and image. There are 3 types of food addiction.

Anorexia Nervosa: It is defined by an intense fear of gaining weight. Behaviors include excessive weighing oneself, excessive measuring of body parts, and consistantly using a mirror to check body size. One’s self-esteem is dependent on body shape and weight.

Bulimia Nervosa: Also known as binge eating, bulimia is another type of food addiction that is used to prevent weight gain. Sufferers become ashamed of their eating behavior and try to hide symptoms through rapid consumption of food. They will until they become too full (painfully so) or stop if they are intruded upon. 80-90% of bulimics will make themselves vomit. Other behaviors include using laxatives, fasting and excessive exercise.

Compulsive Overeaters: Those that are compulsive overeaters demonstrate uncontrollable binge eating without weight control and see that as normal behavior. They become addicted to food and lose control over the amount of food they eat. Overeaters are moderately to severely obese and the average is 60% overweight. Unlike bulimics (who “do” something about the food they consumed), compulsive overeaters believe what they are doing is normal. 21


Cultural cues cannot easily explain why the afflicted, who are shockingly skinny, misperceive themselves as fat. Girls say they feel more energetic and alert when starving: starvation boosts their metabolic rate, in contrast to the slowing of metabolism that occurs in people during a fast. Such mysteries cry out for a biological explanation. Researchers are probing the brains of anorexics painting a new picture of anorexia as a multifaceted mental illness whose effects extend beyond appetite. The illness is accompanied by disturbances in the brain’s reward circuitry that may lead to a general inability to feel delight from life’s pleasures, be they food, sex or winning the lottery. The ailment shares characteristics with drug addiction, the drug in this case being deprivation itself. The study of anorexia, therefore, may yield insights into brain mechanisms for producing pleasure and how something as unpalatable as starvation or asceticism might, give rise to a sense of hedonism. individuals may come to associate a lack of food with reward. In this way, the person could become addicted to hunger itself. 22


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The addict You can rarley just ‘grow out of anorexia’. Once the illness takes hold, people with anorexia are often in such a deep state of denial about the amount of weight and the physical and psychological sffects, and are so afraid of gaining even a pound in weight, they are terrified of seeking treaetment. However left untreated, anorexia can continue to dominate lives indefinatly, ive been lucky with the treatment i recieved but iv seen first hand girls who let it consume their lives and suffer for years without treatment 24


Size 2 Mental decay


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on’t let me go, You know that you need me… I’ve caused all your weight loss, Don’t you agree?

That’s only because, You eat things you should not. You last the whole day, But then eat a great lot!

Stop being stupid! You’re not strong enough! You bring it on yourself… When you’re doing it tough.

All that weight lost,

My therapist says,

Mia, I’m just tired,

Just returns when I eat, So forget it Mia, You’re just a big cheat!

It’s the fact I don’t eat, That makes me binge and throw up, And then weep at your feet

Of feeling so down, Of looking in the mirror, With only a frown

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Exactly, that’s why, You won’t let me go. If you lose weight, get thinner, You’ll be happy, you know

Your mum…? I know, She’s a tough nut to break, But stay true to me, And her love she won’t fake

You don’t even need them, To lead a life, long and thin It’s all a small price to pay, To be but bone and skin.

Lighter or not, I still feel depressed. It’s exhausting, Trying so hard to impress…

And what of my school work?

Mia, you’re right,

I already compromise that! Now I’m losing my social life, All because I’m fat!

I let you down, I’m sorry… But with you my loyalty remains, Of that, you need not worry…

My constant debate

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The deadly effects

In its desperation for nutrition, the body begins to cannibalize itself. First the protective fat cushions around the heart and kidneys disappear. Then the protein structure of the muscles and internal organs is immobilized for nutrition (just as the calcium is taken from the bones.) The body eventually deteriorates and wastes and eats itself away.

Edema gives the victim a false impression that he/she is gaining weight. Upon noticing the swelling the victim becomes frightened that she is gaining weight and further restricts her food intake. Thus bloating and again less food is given to the body.The intellect is the last to go. Victims often accomplish extraordinary feats while on the verge of physical collapse.

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Depression is a term often used to describe a short-term mood when one “feels blue” or down. Nearly everyone experiences these temporary feelings of depression at one time or another during their lifetime. Clinical depression, however, is a psychiatric disorder defined as a “pervasive low mood with loss of interest in normal activities and a diminished ability to experience pleasure.” People often describe depression as feeling like walking in mud, being in a constant fog or like a black curtain covering them. Clinical depression varies widely and can happen once in a lifetime, have multiple recurrences, last for a few months or be a life-long disorder. Symptoms of depression vary but always include change in mood and usually a feeling of deep sadness.

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Anxiety is a physiological state that creates feelings of extreme fear, worry or apprehension. It’s a normal emotion and it plays a very important function in relation to personal survival. An anxiety attack is often accompanied by physical symptoms such as heart palpitations, chest pains, shortness of breath, nausea, lightheadedness, feelings of smothering, shaking or trembling. They often feel they are losing control and fear they are “going crazy.” It may cause the person to avoid certain social situations out of fear they will have a panic attack, with this they will feel smoothered, feel they cant breathe and they fear they will pass out and die. Most people who experience anxiety attacks have a “safe place” or “safe person” whom they feel will save them if they panic. Anxiety disorder is a term used to describe several different forms of abnormal fears, anxiety and phobias. Suicide is a mental health concern and is associated with factors such as difficulty coping with depression or a feeling of inescapable suffering due to other mental disorders or life pressures. A person may feel overwhelmed. Nearly half of all suicides are preceded by an attempt that does not end in death and is often a “cry for help” or a wish to escape - rather than a genuine intent to die. Those with a history of suicide attempts are 23 more times likely to eventually end their own lives than those without any attempts. Women attempt suicide more frequently than men, although men are 4 times more likely to die from their first attempt. Relatives of people who comit suicide often blame themselves or become extremely angry because they see the act as selfish. However, when people are suicidal, they often mistakenly believe that they are doing their friends and relatives a favor by removing themselves from the world.


Your worst nightmare would be for all your friends to know, yet sharing this secret creates a special bond, if you can share it with your closest of friends it makes that relationship stronger, until you reject their help that is!You want an outlet to share the load but just dont want them to do anything about it.... then this relationship starts to crumble as your friend gets frustrated at constant rejections and a lack of understanding as to why you do this to yourself.... Eventually your left all alone.

Its the secrecy that gives it all the power...

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Its the lonelyness and isolation from all those you loved and cared for that triggers the depression... and the more you feel this the more you think its because your not thin enough... If you were skinner... they would love you again...

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s she models her clothes her mother states “You’re putting on a little weight” When she looks in the mirror she cant debate So she decides to limit what she puts on her plate She cuts out certain foods and restricts the rest All in her ambition to be the best It doesn’t take long before she’s obsessed And in her mind the disorder infests She curls up in pain on her bed As her body cries out to be fed But she has to obey the voice in her head “All of this fat you must shed” She whispers desperately “Save me, please.” As she falls once again to her bruised knees She’s lost all control to this disease She’s fading fast and no one sees 35


She desperately fights for just a little control She wants a perfect body and a perfect soul The effects of this disease are taking a toll As lower and lower she sets her goal Seven years later she’s struggling still Still no dreams have been fullfilled She’s tired of this disease, of being ill To fight for life, she’s lost all will Her weight drops to a mere sixty-five pounds But still she can’t see the loss so profound In this disorders chains she is bound There’s no way out, she’s hit the ground She grows weaker day by day Her heart is failing, she’s in a state of decay With her last breath she whispers a pray As her body dies and spirit fades awayz

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How to see When singer Karen Carpenter died of anorexia in 1985, it was at a time when many doctors lacked the awareness and education needed to diagnose and treat victims of eating disorders. Today we know much more about these illnesses, what causes them, how to recognize the symptoms earlier, and the steps required for recovery.

You may already know that anorexia and bulimia are complex and confusing illnesses. Now that you are past the initial shock of discovery, you may be experiencing feelings of anxiety, guilt, anger, and frustrationall understandable reactions. Seeing a loved one suffer from an eating disorder is very frightening and trying.

When you realize that someone you love may be struggling with anorexia nervosa or bulimia nervosa, naturally you want to know more about it. And because you care, you also want to understand what they are experiencing and be as supportive as you can throughout their recovery.

First, understand that the illness did not develop overnight, and that recovery will not happen overnight. It will take an initial six months of treatment and a further year for complete recovery. But also know there is hope. Recovery is attainable and it is up to you to wheather you attain it.

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Even though you may find it difficult to understand, your loved one finds security in their eating disorder. To its victims, the illness is a powerful, though misguided, coping mechanism. But with correct treatment, enough time, and lots of love, you can look forward with hope to a day when your loved one

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will be able to break the stranglehold of this illness. You can play a critically important role in the recovery process. Your knowledge-based, appropriate actions can be a tremendous source of strength and comfort to your loved one. Although at times it may seem like they dont want help they really need you.


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I hate being around others because they just don’t understand. My family know but just don’t say anything. I think they just want to avoid a fight. My friends don’t understand and have stopped talking to me. People that don’t have it, don’t understand that it is a disease and it is something that just consumes you and you can’t control it.

Hearing both sides We dont understand exactly but were trying to relate and be as supportive as we can, but we feel she doesnt want us to understand because she is afraid we will try treat the dissorder and make her stop and she doesnt want that.

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Size 0 Just because I’m losing doesn’t mean I’m lost -Coldplay


Bulimia, you are: A thiefYou robbed me of decent relationships with my friends, family, and anyone else who could hope to get close. You stole time that I could have used studying, being happy, or doing anything that WASN’T destroying my body. You wasted countless dollars of my money on binge food that only made me feel worse about myself. I’m still trying to make up for all that you’ve taken from me. A liarYou told me that if I just kept going, kept losing, that if I got to that weight, I would be happy. Well, I’ve been there and back and it wasn’t the dream you made it out to be.You told me that my friends were using me and talking behind my back, when really, you kept me so tied up in your games that I saw them as little as possible.You told me that if I wanted to be anything in life, I just had to listen to you. Well, I’m right back where I started, only now I’m picking up the pieces you left in your wake. A murdererYou killed my spirit, my mind, and my dreams.You’ve left my body battered and scarred and murdered any chance I could have had for a normal five years of high school.You tore the last years of my life to shreds, and now it’s time for you to get out of my life.

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You are not: The answerto anything that goes wrong in my life. The control I so desperately needed. You are NOT my friend. And, most importantly.. you are NOT me.

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Wanting is the fir st step towards

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Most people with an ED will have considered treatment, researched and studyed the treatment process and so will know exactly how to go about recieving treatment. All they require is the state of mind to want it. Treatment for anorexia usually begins with addressing the medical problems that are present. This often requires an inpatient hospital stay due to the seriousness of the problems. 45


After the patient is medically stable, anxiety depression and anorexia symptoms can begin to be addressed. This can require inpatient hospitalization in a psychiatric hospital that specializes in eating disorders. A combination of education and psychotherapy are used to treat the anxiety depression and anorexia symptoms. Treatment is essential, about 20% of people with anorexia die from the disorder. Even with treatment, only about 60% make a full recovery. Treatment is a lengthy process, with the initial phase of treatment taking about three to six months of intensive therapy and follow-up taking a year or longer. 46


I feel so confused and scared. I want it all to go away, but I cant get it off my mind. It’s like I’m in a nightmare and can not wake up. I see all of these people that have died of this and think “Oh this is never going to kill me”, but it easily can. But I WILL NOT let this ED take my life. I am not the same as all the other girls who have lost to this. I won’t be. 47


I know I will get better, I have to. But what scares me is that I can’t picture my life with out this because my ED is all I’ve known for so long. It is overwelming to have to deal with this everyday.I’m tired, and weiry, and my knees are about to give out. All I want to do is give up. BUT I WIIL NOT. I will not be just another name on a memorial website. I will not crumble under the grip of this. I will not die because of an eating disorder. I AM DIFFERENT. I AM BEAUTIFUL. I AM STRONG!!!

These past few years of my life Ed, have not been mine. They have been just yours. You’ve taken everything from me and I want you to know that though you still have me in your grasp, you should watch out. Because my power, courage, and strength are soon going to match to my hopes. I will become separate from you. For real this time. 48

Ed, thank you. You have shown me the light., enabled me to see what I do not want for the rest of my life, taught me more about myself then anyone else, taught me to play the game. And these past five years, you’ve been winning. But the road is ending. Run while you can, because I am comming at you full force. Stronger, more determined than ever.


I would also lke to thank all the girls I interviewed, they helpd me along the way so much with information design, and sharing personal information, a hard thing to do and to these brave girls I thank you endlessly. As aswell as everything else, you were my inspiration.

Acknowledgments

I would like to thank all the sources I researched from and to those who sent on information in abundance and so willingly helped. To all the writers that gave me material for the book you are the real creators and owners of this book.

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I would like to thank Dr John A.Griffin, MB, MR, C Psych, LM, for his help and advice in providing valuable information in order to keep this diary as accurate and functional as possible.

I would especially like to thank my model who volunteered her body to portray such uncomplimentary images associated with such a controversial dissorder. Thank you Alice.

I would like to thank all my friends that had to listen to me for the duration of making this book, for just being such good supportive friends.

To lecturers who played their part I thank you for your guidance without whose help I could not have finished this project


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Consumed By Lack Of Consumption Side two, Write


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Share this diary every day


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Seal each page at the end of every day


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Write about how you resisted the temptation to purge or binge


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Express All Emotions


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Attacth anything that had an impact on you that day.


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Express yourself through Poetry or Song Lyrics


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Be Honest Be Persistant Be Honest


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Never look back


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Write Every Single Day


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Try write at the same time each day


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Include positive and negative interactions with friends or family


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Write about goals & aspirations, always keep them in mind


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Include people that influence you, good or bad


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Note all achievments, big and small


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Discuss the entry at time of sharing and never again


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Write how you feel about this diary


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Log why you want to break from your ED


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Include every thing you eat, drink or chew


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Include photographs of you, friends, role models, magazines etc.


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write about how you think about your ED less and less


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Never miss a day


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