thedumbrabbit the record
by dublin varshavski
includes6songs,thelyrics, ablurbandmore!
Didyoueverhearaboutthebunnywho livesindelusion?
Didyoueverhearaboutthe bunnywholivesindelusion?
what’sonthetable?
(from thevault)4.ms,pleaseleavemealone (dublin’sversion)(fromthevault)5.so nice (dublin’sversion)(fromthevault) 6.Idrinkwine(dublin’sversion)(from thevault)inspiredbytaylorswift,adele andoliviarodrigo,allcreditgoestothem.
DearReader,
Whatisthisrecord?Whatarethesesongs?Ifoundmyselfaskingthesequestionsafewmonths intothewritingprocessofthestorybehindthedumbrabbit.AtfirstIdidn’tplanonincludingarecord forthisbooklikeIhadforotherprojects,purelybecausethereweren’tanyoldsongsIhad re-writtenforit.IhadstillwhereIwasthen…anddearbettyreadytogobutthenafewdaysafterthe bookwasdone,Ibeganre-writingsongsinmyhead,whilelisteningtosomeofmyfavorite artists.ListeningtoTaylor,Ifeltlikethejourneyhadbeenbittersweetwithevermore’sreleaseand herpotentanduncertainsongthisismetryingaboutfallingbehindotherpeoplewhoyouusedto beatanequalunderstandingwithandtheconfusionthatitbringsinretrospect.Thedismaland bluesongsbyTaylorhadalwaysreallystrickenmedownandeverytimeIfeelasthoughthereisa songbyherthatisEXACTLYwhatI’mgoingthrough.
ListeningtoAdele’sIDrinkWineisalwaysgoingtobeaneyeopeningyetworldshatteringexperience. Iwaslisteningtoitandfelttheearnestandauthenticexperienceandmessagethatshehadwritten about,whichIwaswellawarewaslightyearsawayfrommyown.Thisdifferencewassodifficultto noticebecauseoftheuniversalexperiencethatAdelehassuchatalentofrepresenting.
AndOliviaRodrigo’sstrangerisjustasongthatsowellencapsulatedthefreedomofmovingon. ShedescribedafeelingthatIrememberdistinctlyfeelinginFebruaryof2021,strangelyjustafter someoftheworstdaysaftertheworstdaysofmylife.Whetherthehealinghadfullybeenpresent ornot,Iwassohappy.AndwithsuchwistfulnessOliviadetailstheinnocentbeginningofafresh start,anewway.Myfreshstartwaslessfilledwiththeinternalworkthanhers,I’msure.Andmy versionofthissongwastheperfectconclusion,restatingthewholepremiseofthebookandthe closureIfeltintheline:“IfeltlikeIwasbeingwatchedbutthethingwiththatisthatitends,I’m justtryingtofindagoodbalanceagain…” Afterrewritingthesesongstofitmyownsituation,andbeingimmersedinthestorytheytold,I knewtheyhadtogoalongwiththebook.SomyvoicebreaksasIsaythistoyou, TheyareALLnowyours.
Sincerely,
Ifoundmyselfinapond. Everylittleripple, everysplash, everythingrevolvedaroundme. Ionlyknewaboutmyself. seas, grass, skies didn’texist.
WhenIhearthemelodiesandtuneswhichIheardinthepond, Irecoil.
Mymindgoestothebrokenpiecesofmypast, thedesires thebroken foundationless wishesandtheignorancethatIheld oncetheydidnotcometrue. Maybethepasthadsomethingtodowithit… maybeIcanletgoofsomeblame. No.
Thiswasme. ValentineohValentine stillbrokenIam. ValentineohValentine, willyouletmein? willyouletmeevolve Valentine,ohValentine…
letmeglanceuponthe seas, grass, andskiesandkissignoranceonthecheek, sayfarewell, partcompanywithit andallowmetocleanuptheremainsofourevening, putonanewapron andturnontheoven tobakeanapplepie forwhenat9o’clock,thecomingday, Istepup tohumility’sdoorstepandask.
‘Iamawareofmyshortcomings, willyougivemeachance?’
NowIknowwhatIdidwrongbutIcan’t erasemymistakes…
Verse1:Peoplegocamping,theyplayrelay.theygohome,andmaybeit’struethat they’reboredandTheychange,newtrendscome,hangingout,But,I'mright whereIwasthen.RoadsgetruinedandrebuiltPeoplemoveintonewhousesand keepthepackingtapeintheclosetmistakesmadeandlessonslearnedBut,theyall don’texist,I’mmostlyflawlessandrightwhereIwaswhen.Pre-chorusIfound anewhappinessMoneyfliesintheairandIbakecakeschanged,maybeforthe betterbutobliviousandlosttheypokefun,Iputupwalls.Nobodyshouldbemade funof.ButIbarelyseemyselfasavictimAboveeveryone,inmyminda champion.NotamedalinsightbutI’mabovethattoo.Dustcollectedonmy fallendreams.Butnotears,they’restillrealtome.Observingeveryone,no jealousy,maybeit’sbettertobeChorus:stillwhereIwasthen.I’mrightwhereI wasthen.Oh,I’mrightwhereIwasthen.Ihaven’tchangedbuteveryonehas. I’mwhereIwas.I’mrightwhereIwasthen.OhI’mrightwhereIwasthen.I haven’tchangedonebitbuttheworldhascompletely.FluteVerse2:didyouever hearaboutthebunnywhocouldneverachieveit?Everythinghedidwrongyet he’llneveradmitithe’sstillinthepandemic,lostandfantasizingBeeninhis ownworld..didyouhearaboutthebunnywholivesindelusion?everything’s abouthowhe’saboveit.Ohhowsaditmustbe,beingmostlypatheticandtaking noresponsibility…Bridge:Ifoundanewhappinessbut,Iwasn’tpreparedfor anythingchanged,maybeforthebetterbutobliviousandlosttheypokefun,Iput upthewalls.IswearIhadallgoodintentionstheworstgoodoldcoping mechanisminmymindachampion.Notamedalinsightbutit’severyoneelse who’sflawed…pre-chorus2IfoundanewhappinessBut,Iwasn’tpreparedfor anythingchanged,maybeforthebetterbutobliviousandlostTheypokefun,I putthewallsup.Nobodyshouldbemadefunof.ButI’mnot.I’mabovethemall inmymindachampion.Notamedalinsightbutthey’reallthepatheticones. however,Icausednoharm.Noonecangothurt,TheytreatedmelikeI’m stupid.MaybeImadethemfeelbetteraboutthemselvesnowit’sbeenfouryears andifthishappenednowIwould’vebeendestroyedbutbackthenIwasChorus4 stillwhereIwasbefore.IwasstillwhereIwasthebeforeOhIwasstillwhereI wasbeforeIwasrightwhereIwaswhenallwehadwastime.Iwasstuckin ignorantbliss.OhIwasrightwhereIwasthen.Ihadn’tchangedonebitbutthe worldhadcompletely.
Walkedhomeinthecold,in denial,it’stheshiniestarmor
Verse1IwasimpossibleatcomprehendingI facetheeffectsevennowthatI’mhalfway whoknowswhattheystillthinkofmeNone ofthisworkdonechangesthat.Walkedhome inthecold,indenialIt’stheshiniestarmor, youcouldbewreckedAndmaybeI’mnot fullythere,IwanttomakesureIdon’tgotoo faroutChorus1Ijustwantedyoutoknow thatI’mnotontheothersidenow.Ijust wantedyoutoknowit’sneverbettertobeon thatside.Verse2theytreatedmelikeIwas stupidSoIputupwalls,neveraddressedit. Noteveninmyownhead…notevenwith mybestfriend.IthoughtIwassoready, perfectpieceswouldfallintoturnfellbehind everyone,andIendedupheretornNoone knewwhattosay,weweredifferentpeople. “Itwasthecircumstance,”Itellmyself. Chorus2Couldn’tbethatquick,noamountof tryingmaybenoneofthisismyfaultmaybeit wasthecircumstance.AndnowIwalk in thecold,unsureofhowIcouldevercope.
I
foundanew happiness
But,Iwasn’t preparedfor anything
thebiggestregret thatIhold isactinglikeafool infrontofyou.
ButthenIremember whenyouaskedmeto helpyouwithyour bags…
Verse1Betty,Iwon’tholdyoutoit.Sayyouwerebeingrude,Iwould’vereacted ThesameBetty,itwasthefirstdayofthenewyearwhenIheardyouwerecoming here,shesaid“betty’sinthisclub?”It'slikeIcouldn'tbreathePre-ChorusI walkedoverandsaidsomethingstupidYouwererepulsedandIthoughtitwas greatcauseIwasn’tthinkingstraight.ThebiggestregretthatIholdisactinglike afoolinfrontofyou.Chorus:ButifsomeoneputusinaroomCouldIbebetter? wouldyoulikeme?Wouldyouseenodifferenceandwantmetogoaway?Orgive measecondchanceIfyougivemeachanceWillyoueventalktomeafterthis imaginaryevent?I’mmakingallthisup,itmakesnosenseButIthinkIcoulddo it.Verse2:Betty,oneoftheworstmoments.Icouldhearyouinmyear.Mypoint ofview,it’stoolateordumbshitlikethatIregretteditinstantlyIknewwhatI’d donewrong.“Throwitdublin!”Idon’tknowwhatIwasthinking.Pre-Chorus: IwalkedoverandsaidsomethingstupidYouwererepulsedandIthoughtitwas greatcauseIwasn’tthinkingstraight.ThebiggestregretthatIhold;isactinglike afoolinfrontofyou.Chorus:ButifsomeoneputusinaroomCouldIbebetter? Wouldyoulikeme?Wouldyouseenodifferenceandwantmetogoaway?Orgive measecondchanceIfyougivemeachanceWillyoueventalktomeafterthis imaginaryevent?I’mmakingallthisup,itmakesnosenseButIreallythinkI coulddoit.Bridge:Iunderstandyou,Iwasmadeforbeinglikedbyyou.NowI knowwhatIdidwrong.ButIcan’terasemymistakes.Yousaid"Ourbest archer"IfightyourdisappointmentwithawkwardlaughterEventhrough back-handedjokesIknowyoucouldbelieveinmeifIhadbeenbetter.Verse3: Betty,thenightbeforewemet.Iresitedthesacredtext.Now,Iwishforabetter outcome&ending.“RightnowisthelasttimeIcandreamaboutwhatitwillbe likewhenIwalkin”TheonlythingIwanttodo…isgetasecondchancewithyou It’snotreallyasituationwhereyouneedanapology1yearlater,yousmiledatme Chorus:1yearlater,yousmiledatmeHaveyouforgotten?Willyoulikeme?Could Italktoyouandcouldwereallybefriends?Ifyoulikeme,canIsayI’vechanged andI’mgoingtobebetter.I’mmakingallthisup,itmakesnosenseandwon’t happen.ButIthinkIcoulddoit.Outro:Throwingyourselfontoatable.Yousaw mebythestables.ThatwasthefirsttimeIfeltawful,IthinkIcoulddoit.
HowcanIlive formyself withoutfalling down?
Verse1Howcanonebecomesocaughtupinotherpeople’slivesandtheir ownmistakesHowcomewecouldaspireandthenbecomeaversionofa personwedon'tevenlike?Verse2I’minlovewithevolvingandbeing betterfortheworldButtheworldchangeseverydaysomehow.Howcan Iliveformyself,withoutfallingdown?1yearbeforeeverysinglething couldattractmymindapartofmethinksit’sforbetter,theevolution butImissCarl'shouse,thequarantinetimes.Verse 3Wepresumeyou havetothinkhardaboutwhoyouwanttobeandthepeopleyoulikeYet IfeelmybestwhenI’mnotoverthinkingit,constantlyinthefight. Pre-ChorusYoubetterbelieveI'mtryingTokeepclimbingButthe higherIclimbIfeellikeIneedmorebalance.Adelesaiditbest!Sing withme!Chorus:SoIhopeIlearntogetovermyself.Stoptryingtobe somebodyelsesoIcanlovemyselfandothersforfreeEverybodywants somethingIjustwanttobefreeandachieve.Verse4:WhyamI obsessingaboutthemistakesImadesolongago?WhyamIseeking approvalFrompeopleIdon'tevenknow?Verse5:InthosecrazytimesI foundasolutionbyinstinctwasIreallyevenanarcissist?Pre-Chorus AndyoubetterbelieveI'mtryingTokeepclimbingIwanttobetterbut it’sthetimetobefreeandrestandenjoyChorus:Oh,soIhopeIlearnto getovermyselfStoptryingtobesomebodyelseOh,Ijustwanttolove WillBearoundhim,writeandbefreeEverybodywantssomethingin lifeIjustwanttobehappyandachieve.Bridge:Listen,Iknowhow lowIcango,Ineverdidhurtanyoneorruinmyownlife.Maybemy quickrecoverywasanindicationthatallthiswasdestinedtoturnout wellOhIhopesoon,Icanfeelatpeacewithmyselfandfindthat sometimestheroadlesstraveledisaroadbestleftbehind!!!!Chorus Well,soIhopeIlearntogetovermyselfStoptryingtobeSOMEBODY
ELSEOh,IjustwanttoloveWillBearoundhim,writeandbefree CauseeverybodywantssomethinginlifeIjustwanttobehappyand achieve.
I’llrememberthosemistakes,they’ll guidemeforalittlewhile
Verse1Ihadarelaxingweekendbeginningoffebruary,gamesendedAn oldfriendtoldmeaboutamovieI’veheardaboutsoIwatcheditIhadn't feltthathopefulsincewaybeforeitallbeganAnditfeltnice,soniceAndI remindedmyselfattheendoflastyear,itwouldturnoutalright.Things wouldgetbetter,I’dbewholeagainAndapartofmehadsuspicionsthat itwouldbejustasbad…Butitfeelsnice,sonice ChorusNowIseeI washalfwaytherebeforeandafter.Now,IfeelsocompleteAndeven thoughIdidn’tfullyunderstand,Iwassohappy.Iworried,screamedin thecarat3AMinLA,butthat'salldonewithnowI’mjusttryingto findagoodbalancenow…I’mjusttryingtofindagoodbalancenow… Verse2EmptiedoutthebagIpackedandTaylor’smusicarrivedIfound suchaloveforthewayshesingsthatline…thenIwonderHowallthat happened,Ican’tfathomthepast4monthsandhowmuchwentwrong. Like,howdiditallgothatwrong??Oh,butthatmakesthehappinessso muchmorepeculiar.Andmonthslater,Iwasatadifferentlevelof improvedYouknowI’llrememberthosemistakes,they’llguidemefora littlewhileItwastheworstthingthathashadsuchanamazingimpacton mylife.ChorusBridge:There’snothingwrongwithbeingflawedand havingthingsyoumessedupat,I’velearnedthatthearmorwasn’tall thatbad…Andyesthisbookisaboutthe‘narcissist’anddecodingthis subjectButIknowIdidn’tfullydothewrongthingAndIwasdelusional inmyworldview,butIcanstopthinkingaboutthisshitnowChorusIseeI washalfwaytherebeforeandafter.NowIfeelsocompleteAndthosewho forgivemymistakes,IthankyoudeeplyIfeltlikeIwasbeingwatchedbut thethingwiththatisthatitendsI’mjusttryingtofindagoodbalance again…Iknowthiswon’tmattersoon.I’mjusttryingtofindagood balancenow.
Iwasdelusionalinmy worldview,butIcan stopthinkingabout thisshitnow
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